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Missing the mark...

Thursday, August 26, 2010

When I got up today, I thought "Wow, do I feel like crap!" I'm exhausted.

Then I finished logging my food and realized why I feel like crap: I was way under calories, under on carbs, under on almost everything including water. It was a crazy, crazy day and I was running from the time I got up till the time I went to bed....and on top of it all, this is the 4th day in a row I've woken up 30-60 minutes too early and been unable to fall back asleep. So I'm exhausted, but I'm not sleeping well either.

No wonder I'm bone tired!

Today: Eat all my calories making sure to hit the protein and fruits/veggies, drink the water, and try to get some sleep!

Yesterday I chatted with an old friend about how hard this is...the losing the weight. How crushing it can be. When I'm living on sugar and poor nutrition it is so much harder to try...I feel like I do right now, every day. When I'm eating the appropriate amounts of fruits/veggies/protein, I have energy and a positive outlook to do the work, make the changes and not give up.

So yesterday (and today's resulting exhaustion) was not in vain, it was a reminder of how bad I felt before I started taking care of myself.

  
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RJANE40 8/27/2010 7:55AM

    Sometimes we need those reminders as motivation that we never want to go back to that again.

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CSYOUNCE 8/26/2010 11:16AM

    Great attitude. We can all take a lesson here for those "off days" - and we all have them.

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TACOTA 8/26/2010 10:42AM

    Nice way to look on the positive side of the experience! Knowledge is power, right? I feel you. This thing is really hard, but it's really important not to give up, which is what I've kept doing over and over again. I just wanted to say thank you for sharing, and don't give up. You can do this!

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Hitting the mark

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

If you knew me...you'd know what I'm about to say is a little amazing...

Go me!

I have a problem being proud of myself (wow is that a long story, just take my word for it - okay?) and this morning after finally finishing tracking for yesterday I feel like running around yelling - I did it! I rocked it! Woo hoo go me!

Yesterday: 70 min cardio, tracked every bite that went into my mouth and stayed within ALL my limits.

Doing both those things on the same day? Um, not normal, LOL. So focusing on this short-term goal thing seems to be a good motivation. Having a great day like that yesterday, makes me excited for today.

Wooo hoo! go me!

  
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A_BELLE 8/25/2010 10:11PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticonThat is awesome. 70 minutes of cardio? You rock!!!!! Here's to more days like this. CHEERS!

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KRO-BAR 8/24/2010 10:42AM

    You had a star day!! I keep a calendar in my house and when I hit both food and exercise targets, I give myself a star for the day!! Nice job!!!

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MINIDRIVER63 8/24/2010 9:46AM

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Did you know you can copy a meal from one day to another? So if you're like me and eat the same breakfast almost every day, you can copy it over. Makes tracking a lot easier.

I also downloaded the sparkpeople app for my Droid, so I can track on the fly.

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MOMSCRZR 8/24/2010 9:16AM

    Congratulations! I know how hard that is to do. You should be very proud of yourself!! Keep up the good work! emoticon

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I have a dream....

Monday, August 23, 2010

MLK's famous speech coined that phrase...and it's now such a part of our culture, we often don't hear the POWER of what he was saying in that phrase...

I saw a "what keeps you going" post on a team I'm on...and I realized a big part of what keeps me going is that I have a dream. I have something I want to attain....something just out of reach...that requires attention, perserverance, and hard work to reach. If I didn't have that dream, it would be a lot easier to lay down and say, "ok, I'm fat...and I don't care anymore". Without a dream, I'm pretty scared of what my attitude would be. Don't get me wrong, I have the usual reasons to gain health - children, a partner, a desire to happy and healthy.

But when you are over 200...and have been over 200 despite a lot of freakin' effort...it is often tempting to just shrug and say...ok...I give. This is too hard. I can't do this anymore.

A short while ago, I decided to work on gaining health and stop focusing on losing weight. I already know that i can go crazy focusing on numbers on a scale...but focusing on health is easier for me - more encouraging, more satisfying by far.

but again, without the dream....I don't know where I'd be. What is my dream? Well, if you've been around my page you know I've been bellydancing for about 25 years...A long time ago (and many pounds ago) I competed and won up to semi-pro level, no mean feat. Now I teach, I direct a multiaward-winning troupe and i'm slowly getting back into solo competing. My dream is to be able to continue to dance long into "old age"...to continue to work with amazing women...and see women gain confidence and happiness through dance. To take my troupe to having won every competition on the West coast.

Dance is my dream.,.....so much so, that I named my troupe "Sahara's Dream", and I collect items with the word "Dream".

What is your dream? What is the thing outside the "ordinary" goals of being happy and healthy for kids and a longer life...that keeps you trying day in and day out. (Again, not that those are not exceptionally worthy goals!). Tell me your Dream, I wanna know.

  
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HAPPY_HANK 8/24/2010 8:52AM

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A_BELLE 8/23/2010 1:55PM

    I dream about being a RUNNER. One of those people that enter 5K races every weekend all summer and fall - maybe even a half marathon. No actual desire to run a full marathon, thank you very much :) I wish I lived out West so I could watch your shows - do you have anything posted anywhere??

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SHAR140 8/23/2010 10:27AM

    Hmm....right now, I have a Dream....of becoming a Personal Trainer and owning my own gym and helping other overweight/obese women achieve their Dreams! Right now I am just under 20% of the way thru the textbook to get my CFT (Certified Fitness Trainer).

I also had a Dream of being on a football team....well, I started playing Rugby football a couple weeks ago (mind you, I knew nothing of the game!), and it is a LOT of fun - besides an excuse to get in shape!

Thanks for writing this blog, and helping remind me of why I am doing what I am doing, to reach my Goals (Dreams) and inspiring me to keep going!

GO US! emoticon

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the weight of the nation...

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Yesterday I was able to creep out to the store...my back is better, I'd say I'm at 70%. Gaining back that last 30% will take time, anti-inflammatories, ice, slow exercise and stretching. But I'm incredibly grateful to be upright (mostly) again!

While at the store I really looked at people and it was sad and sort of shocking. Being obese, I view the majority of people as "not heavy"- not heavy compared to me. Yesterday I just looked at them in terms of what I would think is healthy weight, overweight and obese. The vast majoriy I saw yesterday were overweight, with a smattering of healthy weight and obesity thrown in. And, I'll wager, I was kinder than a scale would be at determining healthy weight through my viewpoint. I wasn't looking through a magazine model viewer, but through the eyes of a 46 yo woman who doesn't believe we (especially women) have to be stick thin to be "healthy".

I don't live in one of the notoriously obese states either...and my town is very well known for it's cyclers, hikers - people who are health concious. Was this a scientific study? LOL of course not! The people I saw in the 45 minutes I was out were certainly not a true guide of the state of the nation...

But it was an eye opener to me. I suggest you try it sometime...next time you are sitting waiting...really look at the people around you...We are a nation going to fat at an alarming rate.

Me? I continue to be exceedingly movitvated by my recent immobilization due to injury to turn that slow descent into permanent obesity into a quest for a healthy body. I hope you are too.

  
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BREWMASTERBILL 8/22/2010 11:07AM

    I've done this sort of informal observing as you have. It is pretty mind boggling. I used to be that way, so far be it for me to pass judgment.



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TERRYT55 8/22/2010 11:02AM

    I've noticed the same thing. Sadly, I see more and more kids who are overweight.

I've also noticed more people out on the trail where I walk.......more families and more obese people. I'm hoping that the resent surge in articles on obesity are helping folks to do the right thing, eat less and move more.

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AMBOMAE82 8/22/2010 10:58AM

    I do the same thing when I'm shopping. I'm not trying to be judgemental, it am just a people watcher. I have found that sometimes I give advice to people, but only inside my head. I'm not crazy, and I don't want a random stranger to punch me in the face for suggesting a healthier alternative to the junk they have in their cart. I actually find it motivating in a way. I feel like I'm able to test myself and I can see how far I've come in the past few months.

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Adversity

Saturday, August 21, 2010

"Adversity and loss make a man wise" was the quote from SP today when I opened my email.

Very appropriate, since I've spent 3 days flat on my back, missing work, accomplishing NOTHING due to pulling my back out, yet again.

Those three days have given me ample time to think about my heatlh and what needs to be done to avoid recurrence of the back issue and keep me moving forward in all the things i want to accomplish.

Here is my plan:
1. Find a personal trainer. I have already asked someone who teaches at a gym if she knows anyone who might be interested in trading bellydance classs for personal training. She had some ideas...but if that doesn't pan out, I will pay for training - because this is not an option any more. I NEED the accountability, I need the expertise because of my multiple injuries to do this safely and effectively.
2. A friend recmmeded a local physician who does a lot of work with women, hormone issues, menopause etc and I put off checking it out. Monday, I'm calling and finding out if she is in my insurance network and if she is, I'm makikng an appointment. if she isn't, I'll find someone who deals with those issues who is covered.
3. Make an appointment for accupuncture, it's covred in my insurnce up to $1500 a year and I haven't used it at all this year...and it's helped in the past. i've been too freaking lazy to do it.
4. Take all my meds, vitamins, and supplements. My creaking knees are a verbal testimony that i have not been taking my supplements...why not? oh, I forget. I'm too busy, i'll do it "later".
5. I'm doing well on my nutrutional goals, 5 fruits/veggies a day etc, more fiber, more whole grains. i need toKEEP IT UP.

My dad spent the last 5 years of his life basically laying in bed due to a bad back and knee and weighing about 500 pounds. You can bet i thought a lot about that while i was on my back this week. That is NOT the life I want for myself...I want activity, life, going, and doing.

And I'm willing to do what it takes to get that.

  
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FYRCOP 8/21/2010 10:19AM

    Great post! Realizing is the first step, making a plan, staying focused and following through are the next several steps. You'll do it!

Thanks for sharing.

Dennis

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