Monday, August 23, 2010
MLK's famous speech coined that phrase...and it's now such a part of our culture, we often don't hear the POWER of what he was saying in that phrase...
I saw a "what keeps you going" post on a team I'm on...and I realized a big part of what keeps me going is that I have a dream. I have something I want to attain....something just out of reach...that requires attention, perserverance, and hard work to reach. If I didn't have that dream, it would be a lot easier to lay down and say, "ok, I'm fat...and I don't care anymore". Without a dream, I'm pretty scared of what my attitude would be. Don't get me wrong, I have the usual reasons to gain health - children, a partner, a desire to happy and healthy.
But when you are over 200...and have been over 200 despite a lot of freakin' effort...it is often tempting to just shrug and say...ok...I give. This is too hard. I can't do this anymore.
A short while ago, I decided to work on gaining health and stop focusing on losing weight. I already know that i can go crazy focusing on numbers on a scale...but focusing on health is easier for me - more encouraging, more satisfying by far.
but again, without the dream....I don't know where I'd be. What is my dream? Well, if you've been around my page you know I've been bellydancing for about 25 years...A long time ago (and many pounds ago) I competed and won up to semi-pro level, no mean feat. Now I teach, I direct a multiaward-winning troupe and i'm slowly getting back into solo competing. My dream is to be able to continue to dance long into "old age"...to continue to work with amazing women...and see women gain confidence and happiness through dance. To take my troupe to having won every competition on the West coast.
Dance is my dream.,.....so much so, that I named my troupe "Sahara's Dream", and I collect items with the word "Dream".
What is your dream? What is the thing outside the "ordinary" goals of being happy and healthy for kids and a longer life...that keeps you trying day in and day out. (Again, not that those are not exceptionally worthy goals!). Tell me your Dream, I wanna know.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Yesterday I was able to creep out to the store...my back is better, I'd say I'm at 70%. Gaining back that last 30% will take time, anti-inflammatories, ice, slow exercise and stretching. But I'm incredibly grateful to be upright (mostly) again!
While at the store I really looked at people and it was sad and sort of shocking. Being obese, I view the majority of people as "not heavy"- not heavy compared to me. Yesterday I just looked at them in terms of what I would think is healthy weight, overweight and obese. The vast majoriy I saw yesterday were overweight, with a smattering of healthy weight and obesity thrown in. And, I'll wager, I was kinder than a scale would be at determining healthy weight through my viewpoint. I wasn't looking through a magazine model viewer, but through the eyes of a 46 yo woman who doesn't believe we (especially women) have to be stick thin to be "healthy".
I don't live in one of the notoriously obese states either...and my town is very well known for it's cyclers, hikers - people who are health concious. Was this a scientific study? LOL of course not! The people I saw in the 45 minutes I was out were certainly not a true guide of the state of the nation...
But it was an eye opener to me. I suggest you try it sometime...next time you are sitting waiting...really look at the people around you...We are a nation going to fat at an alarming rate.
Me? I continue to be exceedingly movitvated by my recent immobilization due to injury to turn that slow descent into permanent obesity into a quest for a healthy body. I hope you are too.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
"Adversity and loss make a man wise" was the quote from SP today when I opened my email.
Very appropriate, since I've spent 3 days flat on my back, missing work, accomplishing NOTHING due to pulling my back out, yet again.
Those three days have given me ample time to think about my heatlh and what needs to be done to avoid recurrence of the back issue and keep me moving forward in all the things i want to accomplish.
Here is my plan:
1. Find a personal trainer. I have already asked someone who teaches at a gym if she knows anyone who might be interested in trading bellydance classs for personal training. She had some ideas...but if that doesn't pan out, I will pay for training - because this is not an option any more. I NEED the accountability, I need the expertise because of my multiple injuries to do this safely and effectively.
2. A friend recmmeded a local physician who does a lot of work with women, hormone issues, menopause etc and I put off checking it out. Monday, I'm calling and finding out if she is in my insurance network and if she is, I'm makikng an appointment. if she isn't, I'll find someone who deals with those issues who is covered.
3. Make an appointment for accupuncture, it's covred in my insurnce up to $1500 a year and I haven't used it at all this year...and it's helped in the past. i've been too freaking lazy to do it.
4. Take all my meds, vitamins, and supplements. My creaking knees are a verbal testimony that i have not been taking my supplements...why not? oh, I forget. I'm too busy, i'll do it "later".
5. I'm doing well on my nutrutional goals, 5 fruits/veggies a day etc, more fiber, more whole grains. i need toKEEP IT UP.
My dad spent the last 5 years of his life basically laying in bed due to a bad back and knee and weighing about 500 pounds. You can bet i thought a lot about that while i was on my back this week. That is NOT the life I want for myself...I want activity, life, going, and doing.
And I'm willing to do what it takes to get that.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
So...i set a short term goal, I'm just about 3 weeks from a big event and I was ready to rock and roll it...and ....
yesterday I leaned over at work to pull some files...and pulled my back out. Missed half a dy yesterday, will miss today. Can barely walk, can't sit, can't work out...
I'm really tired of my body breaking down. while I am extraordinarily discouragd right this minute, I've decided I'm going to work really hard...as soon as I can anyway....to get my body in line with my health goals.
so my sparkie friends, while I have to go back to bed to lay flat on my back with a muscle relaxant...I ask you a favor. Be my personal trainer today and cmment with ideas, tips, etc, for my goals...tell me what a personal trainer would tell me, or point me to articles or something. Please!
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
I have a really hard time looking at an event six months in advance and making that a goal event, you know...like "lose 10 pounds by my sister's wedding" kinda thing. For me, a month or so is about as far ahead as I can focus on...and I'm about a month out from a 4-day event that I'd like to attend feeling really good about myself.
I'm not going to set a weight loss goal other than my regular 2-3 pounds a month. I seem to be cycling the same 5 pounds around (STILL) and focusing on the numbers on the scale only seems to bring me down...not motivate me. However, I can focus on what does make me literally feel better:
5+ fruits and veggies a day, at least 5x a week.
250 minutes of cardio/exercise a week - this may sound like a lot, but my dance classes are back in full swing and I teach 3x a week so it's built right into my schedule, I just have to exercise 40 minutes outside of dance class to make that goal. It will take perserverance, but I think I can do it short term.
Water. I am so far off the mark on water, it's not even funny. If I coud improve this to even half the recommended 8 glasses...I know I would feel better.
So those are the three goals I'm focusing on till the weekend after Labor Day, when we travel to Myrtle Point, Oregon, for a women-only 4-day bellydance retreat where I'm teaching a workshop, my troupe will perform, some of my students will perform, and I will perform. Built in to that goal is getting my choreo finished and learned so that i'm happy when I walk off that stage rather than just improvising and wishing I'd prepped more.
Haven't been on spark much, hoping to catch up with my sparkly peeps and get back to earning those points, LOL, the real reason I'm here!
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