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On being snuffleuffagus

Thursday, September 16, 2010

I saw my doc on tuesday. i'm still digesting what he said. he wants to explore the possibility that while I do have arthritis, what is causing all this pain/stiffness is actually fibromyalgia. I'm thinking about that. I'm a pretty concrete person. i want a test, a yes or no, and i want a plan of action. Fibro really doesn't fall into those parameters. So I'm thinking about that. he also convinced me I must pull out the CPAP and actually, um, you know...use it. I have definite sleep apnea and I have a cpap. why don't I use it?

Well, why don't we do a myriad of things we should do? Sigh.

So I've pulled it out and I'm using it. I'm giving it 90 days to feel better and then i'll re-evaluate. He's right tho, about not getting restorative sleep and the damage it is doing me (and likely a big factor in why i'm not losing weight well either).

On top of all the stuff that is my life...My partner must go to Louisiana indefinitely. she lost her dad about 6 weeks ago...and this week they found out her mom has terminal cancer - pretty fast moving and she may not even be a candidate for treatment. Tomorrow there will be an appointment and hopefully some options laid out...nevertheless, Jodie will not go to fall term of college and fly down for at least several weeks. It's been terribly hard to lose her dad, and so quickly her mom? Well, I'm sure anyone can figure out how bad it is. Needless to say, the stress level here is pretty profound.

One of the reasons I didn't argue much about the cpap...I'll need sleep to do all that i do without her here. So I'll wear my trusty mask and be....snuffleuffagus.

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RJANE40 9/17/2010 7:35AM

    Poor one should have to deal with so much stress all at the same time. Plus the stress of not having you to lean on due to the distance. Make sure you have a plan of action for your stress too. Take good care of yourselves and each other.

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JULIEIRENE 9/16/2010 11:46AM

    Sounds like a lot of tough things going on at once! Definintely all the more reason to take care of yourself and protect your sleep! I am proud of you for putting your CPAP to work, and hoping it helps your body get the rest it needs and deserves!

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MINIDRIVER63 9/16/2010 10:27AM

    The CPAP is a lifesaver! I know several people who use them, and they get much better sleep. I'm sure it take some getting used to, but you'll do just fine.

So sorry to hear about Jodie's mom. This must be a very emotional time for her right now, and for you holding down the fort at home.


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PRYDEQUEEN 9/16/2010 10:02AM

    Hang in there! Sending hugs and positive energy to both of you!

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Holy Water Retention Batgirl!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

I just spent 4 days in the woods at a women's dance retreat. It's a bit spread out so just to go to the kitchen area back to your cabin is the equivalent of oh say 3 city blocks...and you go back and forth all day long late into the night...take dance workshops etc. I pretty much ate what I wanted and didn't think about it much. I didn't gorge or load up on sweets....but you know, out in the woods, fresh air blah blah, I ate well to say the least.

Back home this a.m, I jumped on the wii to weigh in. Before I ever stepped on, I can see that my fingers are swollen up like lil sausages and even my ankles are swollen and I knew it wouldn't be pretty....but good grief...

6.4 pounds.

if i had not just spent 3.5 days walking a good 12,000 steps a day I'd be stressed. But I knew before I stepped on that I'm ballooned up and thankfully, I'm not freaked out terribly. I'm not happy mind you...but I am quite positive a good percentage of that is fluid.

I really really struggled with my arthritis. The camp is near the coast and it was very damp there...I ached pretty much full time. Most mornings at home, it takes me about 20 minutes of moving around before all my joints stop crackling and popping and get "lubed up" it took well over an hour and if I sat for more than 10 minutes or so, i was right back to where i started.

it convinced me it's time to insist on some more aggressive work on my arthritis than taking a couple of NSAIDS a day. I had already set an appointment with my doc for this afternoon...and I'm going to make him understand...I'm in pain every single day. I have constant, nagging low level pain at the very least...and at worst every joint is aching. I'm 46 years old, I'm not going to settle for having daily pain, period. What do i need to do to control this? is my main question and if I don't get answers this time (last time he sort of blew me off with "oh take ibuprofen if it hurts") I'll go elsewhere.

So, back from my lil foray in the woods...I'm focused on heallth and the water weight isn't going to put me off.

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TERRYT55 9/15/2010 5:24PM

    Six pounds is quite a shock but I'll bet MOST of it is water weight! I'm impressed that you didn't let a small gain come between you and your commitment to a healthier lifestyle! Good luck with your doctor's appt. I hope it goes well.


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AMBERZADE 9/14/2010 11:39AM

    It sounds like you got plenty of exercise. Maybe it's muscle.

You're right to insist on a better answer from your doctor. Too often medical doctors, men at least, put us women off.

I think you're doing great despite the 6 pounds.

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JENNROY1 9/14/2010 10:39AM

    good for you for not getting discouraged! I broke a cardinal rule today - stepped on the scale at 'that time' of the month - and went - "WOAH!" And I've been well within my range all week - same issue - water retention. If I didn't know it, I'd be freaking out (5 pounds up)!!! Feel better!

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OTTAWABOUND 9/14/2010 10:37AM

    Last weekend, when the weather changed from super hot humid to fall cool--I literally dropped over 6 pounds of water weight in 36 hours. I was running to the bathroom every 40 minutes. And my husband had the same experience.

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LEYETTE 9/14/2010 10:14AM

    You're on the right track...just keep at it. Drink plenty of water and you will see positive results. emoticon

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*So* close!

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

My 2 pound goal was set for next Wednesday...and I passed it today! Very happy about it too, LOL.

Now I am less than half a pound from being under 240....July 14, I hit 239.8...and immediately started bouncing around again - up 2, down .5, up 1, down 2...then came that 5 pound gain and I was pretty demoralized.

I want under 240....and I want to be able to STAY there. Back to walking on my breaks again now that the weather has turned. Went from 100 degree days to rain and cool overnight. It's good tho, because I'm not good at walking in the now I can walk on both my breaks.

240 has been very tough for me to break and stay under....I'm not entirely sure what it's all about, but my body does not want to go under 240 - huge resistance. I just need to stay motivated and determined to hang in there till it gives!

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RJANE40 9/9/2010 8:18AM

    You go girl on meeting your goal early!

Once I go under 250, I completely stall. I think thats when I usually start getting major compliments and I think it makes me uncomfortable. Trying to beat that mindset this time around!

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A_BELLE 9/8/2010 2:55PM

    I'm so happy for you! Awesome job. I know you can get under 240, I know you can! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MINIDRIVER63 9/8/2010 12:05PM

    There are key numbers that somehow seem impossible to get across. 238 was one of them for me - I wanted to weigh less than my husband. I know 200 will be tough because I will want 199 so badly I will bust a gut trying to get there.

As hard as it is, now is the time to remember it's about healthy habits - eating well, exercising, drinking lots of water. Changes on the scale are a nice side effect to the major goal of establishing healthy habits FOR LIFE.


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I had to go look out the window...

Saturday, September 04, 2010

While running erroands traffic was crazy and the people behind the wheels crazier! Folks in the grocery store were uptight and rushing...I had my nails done for the first time in months and had to think, "gee these folks put up with a LOT from people!" when a woman LOUDLY berated the nail tech doing her pedi for not making the line on her french manicure thick enough. Came home and had some interesting interactions online and finally....went to the window to see if I could see the moon...

is it full or what? Cause here in my lil corner...people are ...something.

Baking a cake for my nephew's 2nd birthday tomorrow...the first one fell. Not just a lil fall...a big fall. So a second cake went in the oven and came out far, far better. The filling and the icing are done and waiting to go's a Mickey Mouse themed cake.

yeah, on top of everything else i am...I'm a "cake lady" LOL.

someone pointed out (not so gently) that people trying to lose weight shouldn't bake. I just smiled and moved on. I bake for other people's events, not to sit down with a spoon and eat it for petes sake! I often don't attend whatever event the cake is for and never have any of it. Through trial and error, i've found ways to avoid putting sugary fingers in my mouth too...cause don't you know a few bites of buttercream here and there will land on my arse for sure! The best two tips I have is to put hot soapy water in the sink before you ever start and to religiously drop every spoon, spatula, beater and bowl in the water IMMEDIATELY. Second is to have a very slightly damp kitchen towel at hand at all times so you can wipe your fingers on it rather than sticking them in your mouth! Those tips save me a lot of calories/sugar I don't want at all. if I do a "practice" cake, I immediately post a pic on facebook and offereither the whole thing or half of it to whoever wants to pick it up first, and I'm happy to throw it away rather than eat it!

Do i sometimes get to have a piece of cake? yep, sure I do. and I track it and try to add cardio to counter it.

do I sound defensive, LOL? It's been one of those days.

Practicing the routine i am dancing a week from's going well and I'm happy to say I'm not huffing and puffing at the end of that 5 minutes. that is a big accomplishment for me in terms of building stamina.

that's it. buzzer's about to go off for the top layer of the cake. have a fabulous Labor Day weekend for those in the US. Do something besides eat! LOL

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A_BELLE 9/8/2010 2:59PM

    Ha! It would be crazy to think you couldn't bake cakes just because you are trying to loose weight. Come on now! It is just another one of those things that are around us - like everything else - that we need to avoid/eat with care. Jeesh. People need to RELAX! The cake sounds really cute. Every year I try to make a cake for my little one's birthday and every year it looks like crap. Ugh. Any advice for decorating?

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AMBERZADE 9/4/2010 9:33PM

    wow! Birthday Cake is one of my favorite foods. You sure have it handled though.

There are just some days when people are 'like' that. Was there a full moon?

Congratulations on the dance routine. You should post a video. That would be fun. emoticon

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KE11YJAE 9/4/2010 8:03PM

    Sounds like I need to be your friend.... Too bad I'm not that big on cake. I like your ideas on keeping yourself from eating all that sugar. Keep up the good work!

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ALYFITN 9/4/2010 7:48PM

    Offering your cake on facebook to friends is a cool idea. You sound like a great cake lady!

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September Goals

Thursday, September 02, 2010

I'm about 10 days out from my short-term goal of feeling better for the 4-day dance retreat I'm going to...and more important than anything at this point, I'm having FUN with the piece I choreo'd for it and it's not a huge chore where I doubt myself which has been the story for the last three years in a row!

Now, on to september...

~ 239 or less. I keep getting to the 240 mark then I bounce around. i want PAST 240!
~ 1000 spark points. This would take some dedication, my best is 900+ for a month.
~ 5+ Fruits/veggies a day, at least 5x a week.
~ 8 glasses of water a day.
~ Meds/vitamins/supplements
~ Keep my momentum when my college classes start on top of the 2 jobs, the dance troupe, the kids....

I can tell I'm doing better on the water this week, as I've had to get up more than once every night this week - A sure indicator I'm getting there. Hopefully that will end soon.

Still hopeful. One of my usual phrases is "hope springs eternal". I guess I can apply it to myself...I feel knocked down, and sometimes discouraged...but I continue to have hope that I can have a healthy body and so I get up and brush off and start again. If i didn't keep on, I am quite sure I'd be over 300 pounds today. So, I'm working on feeling gratitude that i'm where i'm at and optimism for the future.

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KATCHAGIRL 9/3/2010 12:11PM

    GREAT GOALS for September! YOU CAN DO IT! emoticon

CONGRATS on doing better with the H20 and for being hopeful and positive. Keep on keepin' on! emoticon

Have a WONDERFUL Holiday weekend!

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AMBERZADE 9/2/2010 10:52AM

    You're doing great! I'm amazed by your belly dancing!

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PRYDEQUEEN 9/2/2010 9:33AM

    You go, girl!

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SATURDAY63 9/2/2010 8:45AM

    Those are great goals - I love the Spark pt. goal, I had never thought of that!

You are absolutely right about where you'd be if you didn't just keep going forward. The fact that you are still coming to the sight and blogging is a move in the right direction! We need to remember that if this is a Lifestyle change, it means doing it every day and that means we won't always be perfect! There's a great Spark article about the difference between a Lifestyle and a diet that I find really encouraging.

Good luck with everything you have going on!!

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