Thursday, December 09, 2010
Today's gratitude: No college classes for three weeks! Woo hoo!
After yesterdays post, let me say - no I don't normally weigh daily. It's a team goal for one of my teams and I'm simply trying to be supportive. It's been educational tho...I've had as much as 6 pounds different from day to day. When I check my rings I can see it's pretty close on the mark if my rings are too tight to get off or loose. Which means that 6 pounds is water not fat. However, since I'm hanging around that red line, I'm happy enough.
Yesterday was a very hard day. Stress was about the highest it's been and I did not eat to plan. i didn't binge and I didn't eat ice cream for dinner, LOL, but I didn't eat according to plan. But..that was one day and it's over and today's a new day.
STILL hacking from that lousy cold last week, it's getting better bit by bit, but boy am I tired of coughing!
Having money disagreements with my partner....I'm holding firm. Usually I give in and then she's happy...but i'm anxious. This time, I'm standing firm on what I believe. It's going to be a long week till payday, LOL.
Wednesday, December 08, 2010
If the picture works...you'll see that I am up and down and up and down and up and down.
What does it all mean? Does it mean anything? Really, the conclusion I came to is those ups and downs are surrounding the red "goal" line and that's good enough for me.
The eating plan isn't the easiest thing, but it's sure not the hardest thing either, and I feel good, which is a nice change. I'm also figuring out that my body takes about a week to show change...and a week ago I was doing no exercise cuz I was sick as a dog. So the real truth will be next weeks numbers, I think.
Maybe. Cuz it's all up and down.
Today is my last final, finished the other one early...and three blessed weeks off of school. I can't express how much I need it...I'm getting really cranky. Just ask my family, sigh.
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
Tuesday's Gratitude: I'm able to build my health. it may not be where I want it to, but that's changeable.
I was disappointed to find I'd lost almost all the stamina I'd worked for from being sick. By the end of the class I taught, then the "bootcamp" dance workout I was sore, exhausted and I hadn't made it nearly as far as the last time I'd done the class. Hard to build up...easy to lose apparently. But, I did it once - I'll do it again.
Food was good yesterday, right on track. I felt vaguely dissatisfied after dinner, I was full - but I wanted more, you know? I made it through and didn't over eat. Made me realize yet again how I have comforted myself with food.
Math final tomorrow, Lit final due thursday. Better use the rest of my a.m. time for study!
Monday, December 06, 2010
Um, no truthfully I'm not that excited it's monday, but fake it till you make it, eh?
Today's Gratitude: that I have a good job to go to that provides well for my family and is usually pretty tolerable.
Yesterday I had a big "ah ha" moment. Jodie and I were out shopping and needed to get a bite to eat. I thought, you know, i've been doing great on this diet for two weeks, there's no reason i can't have one meal off plan every once in awhile...so we stopped at Jack in the Box. I ate most of a burger and fries. it was good, not fantastic as one might think when you'd not had bread or potatoes for two weeks, LOL, but pretty good.
We then went to WalMart. After walking around for 20 minutes, i began to not feel so well..I started to sweat and my stomach started feeling a lil queasy and soon I had to run to find the ladies room... Can I just say, Jack wasn't worth it? It really, really wasn't worth it. I tallked to Jodie later that night about it, and she said what I described is exactly what happens to her (a diabetic) when she over does it...and I thought....
If you know you are going to feel THAT bad, what food on earth is worth that?I'm telling you, not to me. No no no.
Lesson learned. I've no desire to repeat feeling that gross again.
Still fighting my cold, coughing but when I take mucinex it's bearable...
The LC starts a new challenge today, so i'll be doing two! Woo hoo, how's that for motivation!
Sunday, December 05, 2010
Today's gratitude: There are other people, other women, just like me. The same age group, the same amount of weight to lose, the same struggles and the same victories. I'm grateful there are others to share the journey!
My 5% challenge is off to a slightly less than auspicious start. I'm still trying to get well...still coughing my head off and getting no exercise....saving it for tomorrow when hopefully I'll be able to get through 3 hours of dance classes without coughing up a lung, lol. Other than that, 7 glasses of 8 of water - not bad for a non-water drinker! Food was very clean yesterday and that's something to be proud of, considering it's the weekend ...and Jodie is home.
Jodie is from The South - The Land Of Fried Everything. In the 10 weeks she was in louisiana, she gained 20 pounds on fried meat pies, fried boudan (?sp), fried shrimp, fried green beans. Jodie LOVES to eat out and since we partnered in 2005, I packed on about 45 pounds. No, she didn't hold the fork to my mouth, LOL, but we ate out a lot more than I ever had in my life, and wow is she a good cook...
So following my diet plan with Jodie in tow? Um.....yeah. Could she use a food plan, yes, but you can't force someone to be healthy. All i can do is hope she will be inspired by my progress. She felt so bad last night that everyone else was having homemade mac n cheese and fresh bread..and I was having broccoli and chicken. I said "I don't feel bad jodie! I'm fine with it! It's what I have to do and really, I'm fine". but SHE wasn't fine. She hates, absolutely hates, anything to do with "eating healthy" - and in her eyes, I was suffering, even if I didn't think i was.
Will this be a journey for both of us? yes I imagine it will be...
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