Thursday, April 07, 2011
Wow, almost a month since I've posted.
Feelin' anxious. One of the best ways I've found to deal with anxiety is gratitude. Some days on the way to work I just say out loud the whole trip what I'm grateful for...here's a bit of that
* My son has been accepted into a two-year wellness program for kids dealing with mental illness
* I have a secure job
* I have a loving partner
* I have great kids
* I have a car that runs with no payments
* I was able to pay my rent and have a place to live for another month
* I have good people in my life
* I have a little dog that makes me smile every single day
* While imperfect, I have better health than a lot of folks
* Simple pleasures like a cup of coffee, a walk in the sun on my break and seeing the trees finally beginning to bud with leaves....
Life is not perfect. Life is sometimes stinkin' hard. But life is good.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Been a week. That's all I have to say about that. turned 47. Son had daily meltdowns. his therapist said his progrosis "isn't looking good". Thank you for that sir, you just made everything so much better. Not.
So, back to doing #1 on the list: Take care of me. If I don't care for me, i can't care for him - peroid. Worse, the stress could cause me injury or death in the form of a stroke/heart attack, and then my kid would be in big trouble - no mom to advocate for him!
So...this week I:
Signed up for a 5K walk/run for MS! I'm captaining a team, and started training!
Day 3 of C25K was supposed to be "walk a mile". I didn't make the whole mile, I made 7/10ths. I'm not discouraged. It's a beginning!
I jogged 10 min with the Wii free run, a personal best.
Dance wise, i did at least one 10 minute drill break a day (these are audio training tools to get your stamina up in bellydance. Freakin' hard).
Appointments for my son and more stress. To combat the stress:
1) Continue C25K program as well as walking the dog.
2) Do a warm up daily - and a suhaila warm up 3x this week. A suhaila warm up is 45 minutes of stretching and ab work. Pretty killer if you aren't used to it, and sad to say, I'm not used to it any more!
3) Nutrition - getting those fruits and veggies in.
I feel a lot of tension in my body, and know full well one of the things that happens when I stress is I will end up pulling my back out. those muscles you can't control get all tight and then I move "wrong" and bingo, down for a week. I can feel I'm that tight...and I must change it...and the best way I can think of is exercise for stress relief.
Here's to a week of taking good care of me.
Wednesday, March 09, 2011
Did a lil counting and realized, I am 145 days out from a pretty tough weeklong dance training event.
Wow, was that motivating! Time to get my booty in gear or I won't make it!
So, plan of action:
1) Joined SP's 5K your way - walking - program.
2) Upon completion, go for the walk/jog program.
3) Really start working my stretching/yoga.
4) Move, move, move.
5) Best nutrition possible for best health possible.
Woo hoo! :) I don't want to be viewed at this workshop as "oh look the poor middle aged fat gal can't keep up!" Heck no! I want to give the young skinny chicks something to aim for when THEY are almost 50, thank you very much!
Suhaila Salimpour Level 2 Workshop, August 1-5, 2011, Albany, California. I'm going to Train my BUTT off and walk out of there the last day with pride that I DID IT!
Monday, March 07, 2011
I fell off the "working on my health" wagon. Stressful home events, jumping through hoops to get my son qualified for school help and medical help..Last week there was more than one day that I didn't drive in till 8 pm, gobble something to eat and fall into bed exhausted.
This week looks tamer - and I'm devoting it to ME!!! exercise, healthful eating, really taking a week to focus on myself. Sat in an all-day workshop Saturday for a 2 year wellness program I'm hoping my son is accepted to...and a list of coping strategies was presented...which included:
Keep living your life.
Ignore what you can't change.
Keep hope alive.
They were powerful words to a pretty overdone mom.
so that said, I'm off to the wii. I haven't made big goals - put numbers beside my "exercise in some way every day" list - just to DO it, for as long as I can and feel good about it. I actually began to jog in place on the Wii free run...used to be I marched in place, convinced I was too heavy to jog, that it was too hard...gotten up to 8 minutes. Pretty miraculous stuff!
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Yesterday, I dropped my college classes. I had clung to an A and a B....so on the outside it looked good. But the stress of the bipolar/schizoaffective 14 yo increased exponetially day by day until when there was another episode of him screaming and angry....I started crying and couldn't stop. The stress is immense, and I feel like I'm not healthy enough to withstand it. At one point over the weekend, I thought "I could have a heart attack...or a stroke". Really. That bad.
So I made the decision to drop school and put the energy and intention I was putting there into ME. Into health, stress reduction, exercise, and supporting my kid as he is getting on new meds, through therapy and just how hard it is for him right now.
He has a screening next week with a special wellness program here through county mental health for youth with disorders that left untended would become schizophrenia. it would provide therapy, family counseling, medication stuff.... they accept about 25% of the kids they screen, so it's sort of a narrow window of opportunity - But if they don't accept him, they will give us other resources.
Dropping school was hard. That whole "I SHOULD be able to deal with massive stress and still get all A's in school! I'm a loser if I quit" thing is pretty tangible to me. I don't honestly believe it, but i feel it, you know? but I know that if I don't get a grip on my health and stress, i won't be alive to get that degree...and my kid who really needs me, will be without a mom. that's really much more unacceptable than dropping school.
So what am I doing instead of algebra this am? I'm hitting the Wii!
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