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142 days...

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Been a week. That's all I have to say about that. turned 47. Son had daily meltdowns. his therapist said his progrosis "isn't looking good". Thank you for that sir, you just made everything so much better. Not.

So, back to doing #1 on the list: Take care of me. If I don't care for me, i can't care for him - peroid. Worse, the stress could cause me injury or death in the form of a stroke/heart attack, and then my kid would be in big trouble - no mom to advocate for him!

So...this week I:
Signed up for a 5K walk/run for MS! I'm captaining a team, and started training!

Day 3 of C25K was supposed to be "walk a mile". I didn't make the whole mile, I made 7/10ths. I'm not discouraged. It's a beginning!

I jogged 10 min with the Wii free run, a personal best.

Dance wise, i did at least one 10 minute drill break a day (these are audio training tools to get your stamina up in bellydance. Freakin' hard).

This week:
Appointments for my son and more stress. To combat the stress:
1) Continue C25K program as well as walking the dog.
2) Do a warm up daily - and a suhaila warm up 3x this week. A suhaila warm up is 45 minutes of stretching and ab work. Pretty killer if you aren't used to it, and sad to say, I'm not used to it any more!
3) Nutrition - getting those fruits and veggies in.

I feel a lot of tension in my body, and know full well one of the things that happens when I stress is I will end up pulling my back out. those muscles you can't control get all tight and then I move "wrong" and bingo, down for a week. I can feel I'm that tight...and I must change it...and the best way I can think of is exercise for stress relief.

Here's to a week of taking good care of me.

  
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MINIDRIVER63 3/14/2011 9:45AM

    YAY! You've got a terrific plan. It's both ambitious and achieveable. YAY!



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JULIEIRENE 3/12/2011 3:56PM

    HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

And, so glad to read that you are remembering to care for yourself so that you can be there for your son. You're a good mama!

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MACMOM57 3/12/2011 9:17AM

    Hope you have a restful weekend.

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145 Days....

Wednesday, March 09, 2011

Did a lil counting and realized, I am 145 days out from a pretty tough weeklong dance training event.

Wow, was that motivating! Time to get my booty in gear or I won't make it!

So, plan of action:
1) Joined SP's 5K your way - walking - program.
2) Upon completion, go for the walk/jog program.
3) Really start working my stretching/yoga.
4) Move, move, move.
5) Best nutrition possible for best health possible.

Woo hoo! :) I don't want to be viewed at this workshop as "oh look the poor middle aged fat gal can't keep up!" Heck no! I want to give the young skinny chicks something to aim for when THEY are almost 50, thank you very much!

Suhaila Salimpour Level 2 Workshop, August 1-5, 2011, Albany, California. I'm going to Train my BUTT off and walk out of there the last day with pride that I DID IT!

  
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JULIEIRENE 3/9/2011 2:54PM

    Wooohoo! Love that you have a plan and such a great attitude! emoticon

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Making this week about me!

Monday, March 07, 2011

I fell off the "working on my health" wagon. Stressful home events, jumping through hoops to get my son qualified for school help and medical help..Last week there was more than one day that I didn't drive in till 8 pm, gobble something to eat and fall into bed exhausted.

This week looks tamer - and I'm devoting it to ME!!! exercise, healthful eating, really taking a week to focus on myself. Sat in an all-day workshop Saturday for a 2 year wellness program I'm hoping my son is accepted to...and a list of coping strategies was presented...which included:

Keep living your life.
Ignore what you can't change.
Keep hope alive.

They were powerful words to a pretty overdone mom.

so that said, I'm off to the wii. I haven't made big goals - put numbers beside my "exercise in some way every day" list - just to DO it, for as long as I can and feel good about it. I actually began to jog in place on the Wii free run...used to be I marched in place, convinced I was too heavy to jog, that it was too hard...gotten up to 8 minutes. Pretty miraculous stuff!

  
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JULIEIRENE 3/7/2011 11:00AM

    Man, it is so easy for this to happen! Especially as women, and especially women who are also mothers, it is so difficult for us to make time for ourselves! I am really proud of you for dedicating the coming week to you and I am sending lots of healthy make-it-happen vibes your way! You go girl!

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SOBEYS1 3/7/2011 8:32AM

  That's awesome. This week will be better.

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SOBEYS1 3/7/2011 8:32AM

  That's awesome. This week will be better.

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SOBEYS1 3/7/2011 8:31AM

  That's awesome. This week will be better.

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Changing directions...

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Yesterday, I dropped my college classes. I had clung to an A and a B....so on the outside it looked good. But the stress of the bipolar/schizoaffective 14 yo increased exponetially day by day until when there was another episode of him screaming and angry....I started crying and couldn't stop. The stress is immense, and I feel like I'm not healthy enough to withstand it. At one point over the weekend, I thought "I could have a heart attack...or a stroke". Really. That bad.

So I made the decision to drop school and put the energy and intention I was putting there into ME. Into health, stress reduction, exercise, and supporting my kid as he is getting on new meds, through therapy and just how hard it is for him right now.

He has a screening next week with a special wellness program here through county mental health for youth with disorders that left untended would become schizophrenia. it would provide therapy, family counseling, medication stuff.... they accept about 25% of the kids they screen, so it's sort of a narrow window of opportunity - But if they don't accept him, they will give us other resources.

Dropping school was hard. That whole "I SHOULD be able to deal with massive stress and still get all A's in school! I'm a loser if I quit" thing is pretty tangible to me. I don't honestly believe it, but i feel it, you know? but I know that if I don't get a grip on my health and stress, i won't be alive to get that degree...and my kid who really needs me, will be without a mom. that's really much more unacceptable than dropping school.

So what am I doing instead of algebra this am? I'm hitting the Wii!

  
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MINIDRIVER63 2/28/2011 12:27PM

    Hugs. Sometimes you need to focus on one goal at a time. You've got a lot to juggle, and I think it was sensible to take a break from school.

Take care.

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PRYDEQUEEN 2/23/2011 11:31PM

    You are one terrific mom!

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FANGFACEKITTY 2/23/2011 12:29PM

    You are a winner for recognizing what is most important and taking action to improve it. School will always be there, your son needs you now. Good for you for having the courage to take a step back and concentrate on yourself and your family!
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In search of...

Monday, February 21, 2011

Time. Rest. Patience....

Patience with myself more than anyone else. Today is doc check up...and I haven't lost a zillion pounds so I'm irritated with myself. Realistically? i've lost about 15 pounds, depending on the day and the scale. That's awesome. Why is it not "enough" for me?

Stress load has been through the roof, and yet I have these unreasonable expectations of myself. I wouldn't have them of you, so why do I have them of me?

Good question.

Had a very hurtful experience happen with someone we thought was a friend really lashing out at my partner, pretty inappropriate stuff. Lead me to thinking about who I am...what i stand for ...I'm almost 50 years old. Not real pleased in saying that, LOL, but what i've learned in those years is what is important to me..and real relationship...real bonds are what's important to me. To define myself and not allow others to define me.

So instead of that gut reaction of becoming depressed and sad over this person telling us how awful we are, I took action. Reached out to a couple we don't know very well. Signed up for a coffee meetup with a local GLBT group. Came to the conclusion I won't really miss that dysfunctional drama queen, and maybe this is a blessing in disguise!

One more Monday. One more day to get it right. To be the person I want to be, and gain the health (and healthy relationships) I deserve. Happy Monday. Make it the best.

  


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