Tuesday, October 30, 2007
244....Finally, under 245! AND 0.5 loss around waist - Color me happy. :)
Mini streak: Two days within calorie, fat and carb ranges Woo hoo! Now I just need to get my protein up into range and I think I'll really be feeling better.
I perform at a local restaurant Friday night...The local bellydance guild has a monthly spot and I signed up for it long ago. While I'm certainly not all in shape...I feel better and I think my stamina is better, so I'm actually sort of looking forward to it instead of dreading it terribly as I usually would.
My troupe is on a roll too...We're extra motivated and stepping up practices while we're in "the zone"...now twice a week, two hours each. We spend the first hour doing drills to assorted videos, and learning new moves. Second hour is spent on learning new moves with zill patterns, which is new to us...and working on choreographies. Last night, the sweat just ROLLED off me...and it felt fabulous!!
Trying to figure out a reward for getting under 240....I can't remember the last time I was under 240, so it's a BIG deal to me....
Monday, October 29, 2007
It's called being motivated again.
I've refocused and rededicated myself to my goals:
Went to bodybuilding.com, where I've read a ton of articles about nutrition and bodybuilding. Spark is awesome, but I was in a rut and this helped me get out of it.
I'm eating six small meals a day - I've tried this before, but it ended up being grazing for the whole day or eating too much each time. This time, I'm planning it, weighing it, measuring it, and it's going much better.
Biggest current goal is to up my protein, I've really realized I am not eating nearly enough.
Next is MOVING. Getting 20 minutes cardio in a day, whether all at once or bit by bit.
I'm throwing myself into SparkPeople - reading, reading, reading, and searching articles on bodybuilding sites, women's health sites, etc.
I WILL DO THIS!
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
That old song was playing on the radio this a.m. on the way to work, and it seemed fitting.
Been writing with my weight loss buddy about being my own enemy....THINKING about weight loss efforts and dance goals more than DOING something about them....
My thinking patterns are making me fat!
My partner will be going to visit her family out of state for a week, leaving tomorrow. She is an awesome woman who loves me -fat or thin - BUT....there are issues there too. She requires a lot of attention and energy and sometimes seems to compete for both in my weight loss efforts. I want to use this week to really work on grounding myself, making habits and giving myself a little kick start!
I watched "I want to look like a high school cheerleader again" the other day, first time I'd seen it....I really dislike reality tv...but one gal - wow, she made me think. She was almost sent home because she didn't lose any weight. The next week, she could not work out with everyone else, she had to do it all on her own. My first honest thought was..."that would be the end of me." But she worked HARD, really changed her perspective, and got back in stride.
That's what I need - and I'm setting myself up this week to DO IT.
Monday, July 30, 2007
The first day of school was always such a mixed bag for me....excitement and dread. Looking back, I can see the dread was probably tied into my perfectionism.
I had no intention of signing up for the Lesbian Cafe Back to School Challenge. Absolutely no way. Too much pressure. Too hard. Too much work. What if I failed? It would be so PUBLIC...no, that's not for me.
Then a thought crossed my mind.... "yeah, like what you've got going on is working SO well for you." And I signed up, just like that.
Of course, my secret thought was...anything but "math" class....I just don't want to be in math class right away. I'll do anything to stay out of math class...and what did I get assigned to? Well math class of course!
Have I been tracking? Hell no. Be accountable for every bite I put in my mouth? Ugh. Work! Self disappointment leading to self loathing...forget THAT!
Sooooo, along comes math class. Whaddya do in math class? Well track of course and then TELL everyone how many calories?
I started getting nervous yesterday...and this morning...very nervous. But ya know what? it also made me DO it. Which is why it's called a challenge in the first place, eh?
I thought, God, I can't start a day without my coffee (and sugar and creamer!!). I had the "just don't track that" line run through my head and I BANISHED IT! Who am I hurting if I lie to myself and my tracker?? ME.
so i made my coffee...and I substituted Splenda for half the sugar I would usually use..and ya know what? It's pretty good. In fact, I think I could easily sub 2/3 splenda to 1/3 sugar and be pretty good with it for awhile and then eventually switch to all Splenda.
A small success, on the first day of school. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can DO this!!
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