Monday, July 04, 2011
Mmmm. This weekend has been out of routine, and I do much better with routine. All in all tho, I won't complain.
Today is a BBQ at a friend of my partners....A Social Event.
I'm an introvert. I have a few close friends. Crowds make me extremely uncomfortable. Going to new people's houses is more ofa stressor to me than a pleasant diversion. In the past...I either sat in a corner and quietly "ate" my feelings or didn't go at all. This is important to Jodie and I happily agreed to go - She's had a hard time making friends, and it's finally happening. That's awesome and I support it 100%!
But I can feel the anxiety niggling. 14 years of being married to an alcoholic husband where every single party, BBQ, you name it resulted in him being wasted - really wasted - ending up in arguments (ever argue with a drunk? You can't, but they often don't want to stop...), trying to get the keys away from him....
Nope, Jodie is not my exhusband. That won't happen. But wow, am I realizing how much those events shaped me today. Instead of being happy about going, I'm dreading it...even tho these are completely different people! I have post-traumatic stress disorder...but I didn't even realize this was a trigger till this a.m. when I woke up with a knot in my stomach over it from dreaming about the not-so-good-old-days.
I will go. I will not eat my weight in food or hide in the corner. I will work on building relationship with people who are important to my spouse. I will make sure I have a large bottle of water and every time I feel that urge to cram food in my mouth to cover my nerves...I'll take a sip.
I can do this...I can do this without binging and without being afraid of what might happen.
I'll let ya know how that works out...
Sunday, July 03, 2011
Finally having nice weather has added another hurdle to exercise: Heat. I like to walk outdoors, but I'm affected quickly by the heat. That means I'm going to have to walk earlier or later...and my life is so scheduled I'm going to have to make some adjustments to make it happen.
Another goal I was thinking of for July is earning 1000 spark points. I've done it once or twice, and for me it means really being devoted to sparking and tracking...but it's doable!
Caking went okay yesterday, tried a new icing recipe and a new fondant recipe...but I have to bake tomorrow for a BBQ we are attending so I'm not baking today..I'll have to play with them tomorrow. :) I threw a batch of cupcakes in because I had a house full of people and knew they'd be gone quickly, lol. But no real "practice" as I'd hoped. Time and committment, just like exercise, is what's needed to improve my skills, lol.
Happy Sunday folks!
Saturday, July 02, 2011
Pleased to say I didn't just "make" my 1390 calorie burn for the week goal, I busted it at almost 1700 - woo!
A disclaimer: The following info will help you avoid putting icing on the lips and on the hips...but only if you are BAKING the cake, LOL. No help whatsoever if you are just being served cake...
1. Run sinkfull of hot, soapy water before you do anything. Every spoon, utensil, beater, bowl - goes straight into the soapy water BEFORE you lick it! This takes some self training, but it's doable.
2. Tuck a slightly damp cloth into your apron or keep it close...got icing on your fingers? wipe it off on the cloth - NOT YOUR TONGUE!
3. Chew gum or keep sugar free mints or something around to pop in your mouth if you are struggling.
Do I taste as I go? Yeah, I do. But the above strategy has kept a LOT of frosting out of my mouth!
My daughter casually mentioned she and the boyfriend have been "talking about" getting married...I don't know if she'd ask me to do the cake, but I'm definitely upping my practice!
Off to try a new, supposedly fabulous decorator icing recipe....and enjoy a happy weekend!
Friday, July 01, 2011
Happy to say, Down 2 pounds! Woot!
1) Track my food.
2) Burn 1400 or more calories per week.
3) Add minimum of 10 minutes exercise in the morning, 5x a week.
4) 5 Freggies most days
5) Drink water.
I'm on a pretty good roll the last 3-4 days...water, tracking, moving, etc. I'm 105 days out from my big dance event and feeling pretty focused.
This weekend - three days off and not traveling for once, woo hoo! I'll be "caking" as I have two birthday cakes, a baby shower cake and cupcakes, AND my fair cake all due in July. However, I've found a couple tricks to keep the frosting off my lips (and hips) and I'll be utilizing them. As well, when I practice, I'll be using a dummy cake, so no temptation to eat it! I plan on breaking out the bike and trying to reaquaint my seat to the bike....taking some walks, and doing some self care - things for me!
Hope your holiday weekend (if you're in the states) is rockin'!
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
What went right yesterday:
Tracked all my food
Drank 8 glasses of water
Accomplished my base minimum for fitness
Took the stairs more often than not
What didn't go right:
Stress = binged on cookies = over calories for the day
I wanted to do a lot more than the base minimum for fitness, and it didn't happen
Today is a new day. Every day does not have to be perfect. I can see the good and the needs work things in my life, and I don't need to obsess about the "needs work" category.
Just keep sayin' it....
Get An Email Alert Each Time NOREGRET2010 Posts