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4th of July

Monday, July 04, 2011

Mmmm. This weekend has been out of routine, and I do much better with routine. All in all tho, I won't complain.

Today is a BBQ at a friend of my partners....A Social Event.

I'm an introvert. I have a few close friends. Crowds make me extremely uncomfortable. Going to new people's houses is more ofa stressor to me than a pleasant diversion. In the past...I either sat in a corner and quietly "ate" my feelings or didn't go at all. This is important to Jodie and I happily agreed to go - She's had a hard time making friends, and it's finally happening. That's awesome and I support it 100%!

But I can feel the anxiety niggling. 14 years of being married to an alcoholic husband where every single party, BBQ, you name it resulted in him being wasted - really wasted - ending up in arguments (ever argue with a drunk? You can't, but they often don't want to stop...), trying to get the keys away from him....

Nope, Jodie is not my exhusband. That won't happen. But wow, am I realizing how much those events shaped me today. Instead of being happy about going, I'm dreading it...even tho these are completely different people! I have post-traumatic stress disorder...but I didn't even realize this was a trigger till this a.m. when I woke up with a knot in my stomach over it from dreaming about the not-so-good-old-days.

I will go. I will not eat my weight in food or hide in the corner. I will work on building relationship with people who are important to my spouse. I will make sure I have a large bottle of water and every time I feel that urge to cram food in my mouth to cover my nerves...I'll take a sip.

I can do this...I can do this without binging and without being afraid of what might happen.

I'll let ya know how that works out...

  
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SINABUNN 7/4/2011 11:06AM

    Oh honey. I have faith in you! You're going in with a plan, and that's an excellent first step. The ex-husband, all those years, all that pain... it'll always be with you but it's NOT you. I know you'll do great today!!

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TERRYT55 7/4/2011 10:42AM

    Good Morning, Lisa.......I hope you have a great time today. I so understand your anxiety. I dread new situations too.

My hubby & I are going to a block party today and neither of us know a soul. Hy husband is a bass player and today will be his audition for this band. Good thing he is much more comfortable with new people than I am.

My mom was an alcoholic.........growing up was tough. My dad traveled a lot. I still can't deal with people who've been drinking. Never thought of it as PTSD. Maybe my mom's behavior explains why I don't deal well with crowds or new situations.

I wish we lived closer......I think we could be great "real" friends as well as virtual friends.

I'm looking forward to reading about your day. Good luck.......I'll be sending good thoughts your way.

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Sunday check in

Sunday, July 03, 2011

Finally having nice weather has added another hurdle to exercise: Heat. I like to walk outdoors, but I'm affected quickly by the heat. That means I'm going to have to walk earlier or later...and my life is so scheduled I'm going to have to make some adjustments to make it happen.

Another goal I was thinking of for July is earning 1000 spark points. I've done it once or twice, and for me it means really being devoted to sparking and tracking...but it's doable!

Caking went okay yesterday, tried a new icing recipe and a new fondant recipe...but I have to bake tomorrow for a BBQ we are attending so I'm not baking today..I'll have to play with them tomorrow. :) I threw a batch of cupcakes in because I had a house full of people and knew they'd be gone quickly, lol. But no real "practice" as I'd hoped. Time and committment, just like exercise, is what's needed to improve my skills, lol.

Happy Sunday folks!

  
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1HELPLESSMOM 7/3/2011 6:14PM

    Good luck to you with your July goals. I know that you can do it.

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Saturday Check in...

Saturday, July 02, 2011

Pleased to say I didn't just "make" my 1390 calorie burn for the week goal, I busted it at almost 1700 - woo!

A disclaimer: The following info will help you avoid putting icing on the lips and on the hips...but only if you are BAKING the cake, LOL. No help whatsoever if you are just being served cake...
1. Run sinkfull of hot, soapy water before you do anything. Every spoon, utensil, beater, bowl - goes straight into the soapy water BEFORE you lick it! This takes some self training, but it's doable.
2. Tuck a slightly damp cloth into your apron or keep it close...got icing on your fingers? wipe it off on the cloth - NOT YOUR TONGUE!
3. Chew gum or keep sugar free mints or something around to pop in your mouth if you are struggling.

Do I taste as I go? Yeah, I do. But the above strategy has kept a LOT of frosting out of my mouth!

My daughter casually mentioned she and the boyfriend have been "talking about" getting married...I don't know if she'd ask me to do the cake, but I'm definitely upping my practice! emoticon

Off to try a new, supposedly fabulous decorator icing recipe....and enjoy a happy weekend!

  
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TERRYT55 7/2/2011 11:09AM

    Thanks for the tips! Yippee for you and your 1700 calorie burn this week. I loved the pictures of your cakes & cupcakes.

Have a terrific three day weekend!

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DEVIPUCKETT 7/2/2011 10:42AM

    Way to go on your calorie burn goal!

Great tips for baking - thanks.

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MABTE52 7/2/2011 9:07AM

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July Goals

Friday, July 01, 2011

Happy to say, Down 2 pounds! Woot!

July goals:
1) Track my food.
2) Burn 1400 or more calories per week.
3) Add minimum of 10 minutes exercise in the morning, 5x a week.
4) 5 Freggies most days
5) Drink water.

I'm on a pretty good roll the last 3-4 days...water, tracking, moving, etc. I'm 105 days out from my big dance event and feeling pretty focused.

This weekend - three days off and not traveling for once, woo hoo! I'll be "caking" as I have two birthday cakes, a baby shower cake and cupcakes, AND my fair cake all due in July. However, I've found a couple tricks to keep the frosting off my lips (and hips) and I'll be utilizing them. As well, when I practice, I'll be using a dummy cake, so no temptation to eat it! I plan on breaking out the bike and trying to reaquaint my seat to the bike....taking some walks, and doing some self care - things for me!

Hope your holiday weekend (if you're in the states) is rockin'!

  
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SINABUNN 7/2/2011 1:05AM

    Look at you go! emoticon
Glad you get a weekend off... maybe you can get some relaxing done. At least some YOU time!!! Would love to see pics of the finished cakes.

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TERRYT55 7/2/2011 12:37AM

    Congrats on being down two pounds! Your July goals sound great.

I need to know your tricks for keeping frosting off your lips & hips. I have five birthdays this month plus this weekend! Cake is my FAVORITE

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AMBERZADE 7/1/2011 6:03PM

    emoticon You're doing great.

I hope you enjoy your weekend and your cake making.

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Wednesday check in

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

What went right yesterday:
Tracked all my food
Drank 8 glasses of water
Accomplished my base minimum for fitness
Took the stairs more often than not

What didn't go right:
Stress = binged on cookies = over calories for the day
I wanted to do a lot more than the base minimum for fitness, and it didn't happen

Today is a new day. Every day does not have to be perfect. I can see the good and the needs work things in my life, and I don't need to obsess about the "needs work" category.

Just keep sayin' it....

  
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SINABUNN 6/29/2011 12:10PM

    I have a new mantra that I stole from JENNSWIMS: Screw perfection, give me perseverance. You're right, every day doesn't have to be perfect. Some days will downright suck. But even in the suckiest of suckfest days, there's a little something to hold onto if we look hard enough, some tiny little victory. You had a lot of victories yesterday, and today will be even better!!!

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