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Monday Monday...

Monday, July 25, 2011

Ah Monday..back to routine.

This is week 2 of C25K...however, I will be repeating week 1. I can't yet run a full minute all five cycles of the workout, so I'll be repeating it until I CAN. Saturday's run I was able to do it 3x...so it's improving. I knew going into it that I would take longer than 5 weeks and I'm good with repeating until I am really THERE.

My cross training needs to get stepped up. Last night I did one of the "boot camp" workouts ...and had my butt handed to me on a platter. I hadn't done one for weeks and boy, could I tell! So I'm trying to set a reasonable goal there...reasonable being the key word. I basically work two jobs and have a family...setting myself up for an unreasonable goal is not good for me. I'm going to give myself a few days to think about what reasonable looks like and form the goal.

You know, rather than saying "I'm going to do the bootcamp EVERY DAY!" which is what I tend to do...set a very unreasonable goal and then burn out. See, old dogs can learn new tricks!

In that same vein....I'm thinking about the 100 pounds I want to shed. I weigh 250ish on any given day...I've gotten down to 239 but popped right back up. The weight is not falling off me, depsite significantly increasing my exercise and making some pretty significant dietary changes as well. My main goal has been to lose X amount in a few months time. Perhaps I need to overhaul my entire goal structure. I'm thinking about the Slowest Loser team...and considering resetting my goal to losing 100 pounds by my 50th birthday, March 11, 2014. Now...that is SLOW. Like 3 pounds a month. I'm thinking about it. I want results RIGHT NOW. But....I've wanted results RIGHT NOW for a very long time. Perhaps I need to approach weight loss as I'm learing to approach running: Go slower than you think you can.

This is looking pretty good at 11 weeks of cycling the same 2 pounds.

At any rate, again, I'm THINKING about it. What is reasonable? What is doable? What will make me feel good about myself instead of feeling guilty and a failure?

Here's to a new week...to get life right.

  
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HAPPY_HANK 7/25/2011 1:30PM

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MINIDRIVER63 7/25/2011 10:06AM

    You are doing awesome! Repeat week 1 of C25K as many times as you need to. And then do the same for week 2.

You are so inspiring!

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Weekend check in..

Saturday, July 23, 2011

I am sooo happy to see the weekend! I've had little down time in the last month and today I'm taking a day off! I'll do a couple chores, do day 3 of C25K, and that is IT... I may spend the rest of the day on my butt with a book!

My walk/jog schedule is Tues, Thur and Sat...even tho some blog posts make it look like I'm training on consecutive days - I promise, I'm not! I NEED that day in between for my joints, believe me!

Weigh in reflects the same 2 pounds down. It is discouraging, but I'm not letting it be the focus of what I'm doing. I noticed last night at dance rehersal, my cardio fitness is definitely improving! I was able to run through the routines repeatedly with MUCH less huffing and puffing at the end, and didn't need a break in between every run through. I'm noticing my clothes are fitting differently and two people at work this week said "You're losing weight aren't you?" I just replied "oh I don't know, I try not to weigh too often" LOL. The reality is I've lost and regained the same 2 pounds about 10 weeks in a row! But they don't need to know that! I suspect, one week I will step on the scales and there will finally be a difference and I'll start loosing then. My body apparently really enjoys being fat and wants to keep it!

Emotionally, things have been hard. Money is extremely tight..which makes my partner stress like crazy and she doesn't keep that stress to herself! My son has been up and down with the mood swings...I've been working too much....and sleep has been a problem as well. I can say this week I didn't eat over things, which is a HUGE success for me. So the scales? Eh, I'm not going to sweat that!

Anyone on Pinterest? I'm sort of addicted, LOL! you can save webpages you like in different categories..and I'm really enjoying it - probably too much, "Step away from the computer..."

Have a GREAT weekend!

  
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WONDEROONA 7/23/2011 10:27AM

    Don't stress about losing the same 2 lbs. You may be losing inches, not pounds. You are probably adding muscle.
As far as the stress goes, take it one day at a time. You can't deal with everything at once. Money is an issue for a lot of couples. Including me and my wife. I'm learning not to buy as much and ask for as much. If I ask for something, I usually get it and then that leaves us short for bills.
Try not sweating the small stuff, including the scale, you'll drive yourself crazy!! Hope you enjoy your down time!!!

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Thursday check in, C25K Day 2

Thursday, July 21, 2011

I will be so freakin' glad to see the end of this week! WHEW. Work crazy-ness...family dysfunction....fatigue.

As seems to be the way for me, the alarm went off and my first thought was: It's run day. I don't want to....

But I did it anyway.

On my way out the door, my partner said "have fun on your walk" and I stopped and said "mmmm, I don't really find it fun. Yet. I don't know that I ever will. But I have to do it...it's good for me....and it makes me feel good about myself".

That's it in a nutshell. It doesn't matter that it isn't fun...it doesn't matter that the scale continues to play with the same 2 pounds....it matters that running 3x a week makes me feel good about myself. That's something I've struggled to find my whole life...and this works.

I learned a lesson today. Because of a huge event (the Cascade Cycling Classic), my usual walk/jog route was out of the question - around 1,000 extra people (literally) right in the middle of my route. I used the map thingy here on Spark to map a route in my neighborhood and the most resonable route was 1.18 miles. My usual is 1.27. 11/10ths of a mile less, no biggie.

Well, I got smarty pants on myself. I thought, this is a little shorter route, I'll work HARDER!! I ran sooner and longer than usual....and burned myself out. Instead of the usual 5 reps of walk/jog, I could only do 4 reps of jogging...and I was badly winded the last half of the route...which slowed me down. I did the exact opposite of what I thought. As I was panting and kicking myself I recalled a running article I read here by Coach Nancy Howard that said "Go slower than you think you can".

lesson learned.

  
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SHAR140 7/21/2011 8:52PM

    I'm glad you are still sticking with it!!

But...aren't you supposed to skip at least 1 day between workouts on the program? Your body needs that rest!! I just don't want you over-working yourself and getting burnt out too fast.

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HAPPY_HANK 7/21/2011 10:25AM

    I am glad to see that you are still motivated even if the scale is playing around with 2 lbs. You are doing AWESOME. And your attitude makes me want to do more.



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Walk/Jog C25K Day 1

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Yesterday, the weather finally broke and it stopped raining. I'm hearing from some of you that you'd appreciate it coming your way....here's hoping it does! I truly don't mind a little rain - I go out for walks if it's sprinkling -it's not like I'm going to melt, LOL...but that full bore rain thing? Nope. Can't see through my glasses (which I can't see without!) and I feel blind - er, more blind than usual.

It had been four days since my last walk/jog and true to form I was dreading it. I was afraid I would have dropped the bit of stamina I had gained and it would be really hard again....But, in fact, I did the 1.25 mile loop in 24 minutes, just like last week's best time. I will admit, it FELT hard again...but if it was easy, none of us would need this site - we'd all be healthy and fit and run everywhere.

Likely the hardest thing? I usually go in the early a.m., like 5:30 a.m., and there are few people out. Last night, there were a LOT more people out and it was not pleasant to try to jog in front of people. I huff and I puff and I can't go very far...and I imagined the ugly things ugly-minded people could say. But I did it anyway. Part of this loop along the river ends up by a "destination outdoor mall" kinda thing...with a lot of tourists and teenagers....I think you can get the feeling.

As for the C25K walk/jog program, I will likely be taking longer than the prescribed time to complete it - but that's fine, I hear from many others it often takes longer. Yesterday should have been walk 4 min, run 1 x 5 for a 25 minute walk/jog. I think maybe one of my run times might have been a minute...but the others? Nope, couldn't go that long. However, I really booked the walking segments and ended up finishing in 24 minutes so that was pleasing.

My schedule is to train thusly on Tu, Th, and Friday...and cross train in between, likely with dance because I have a LOT of dance rehersal to get through. I'd like to pull out my bike too...but time has been an issue. Remember when you were a kid and the summer seemed to last forever? Not so much anymore, the weeks FLASH by and I can't fit everything i want to do in there!

Here's to one more day...to get it right. Not just diet/exercise...but LIFE.

  
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DEGENNAN 7/20/2011 12:23PM

    HOORAY! Congrats on getting out there last night. And you know what? It will get easier. It is so hard at first, especially when you're carrying extra weight. I was probably 30-40 pounds heavier when I first started jogging and it was a lot harder then it is now. And every time in the last 6 years that I've stopped and had to start again, it felt hard again for the first few weeks. But I've found that if you plug away at it and go consistently, it does get easier. You may not even realize it at first, but one day you are going to do that 1.25 mile loop and come to the realization that you are not breathing hard and you feel GREAT. Who cares how long that takes? I am confident that you'll be able to push yourself to complete your program three times a week and that a month from now, you will be amazed at how far you've come and how much easier it has all become emoticon emoticon

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HAPPY_HANK 7/20/2011 10:25AM

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TERRYT55 7/20/2011 10:00AM

    It took me longer to get through the C25K program too!

I'll tell you what I think when I see someone running who is huffing & puffing......I think, Good for you then I smile and give them a thumbs up! Everyone out there exercising had to start someplace......most of them huffing and puffing. I was too embarrassed to leave the house when I started this journey......I so wish I had gone out among others. When I'm at the gym or on the trail I'm so encouraged watching the people around me.

Yay for you for getting out of the house and running! I love your attitude. Here's to life!

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KBEHUNE 7/20/2011 9:05AM

    Good luck to you! I haven't totally finished the C25K yet, but I can run longer than I used to! I get bored running for so long and I like the interval training of running and walking to burn fat way too much to try to do an entire 5K run!

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Tuesday Check In

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Well, I'll get the sad news out of the way: My daughter's pregnancy wasn't viable. The second blood test was right on - her hormone levels were doubling appropriately...but then she began spotting. She ended up in ER, where they told her she had made it to about 6 weeks, but for whatever reason, it wasn't a viable pregnancy and she miscarried. We're all pretty bummed, but recognize this is extremely common and there is plenty of hope for the future for them to conceive and someday, I will be a grandma!

Very uncharacterstically, it is pouring rain and blowing winds AGAIN this a.m. I live in Central Oregon, where we usually have 300+ days of sunshine, are considered a "high desert" terrain with no humidity and not much rain....but this year it has rained 10x more than I've ever seen it! That means no run for me, but I have 4 dance routines to practice so that will get the heart rate up this a.m.!

I joined the 5k spark team for walk/joggers, and I'm excited about doing the program! Today was my start....but perhaps this evening will work out. I don't imagine it will all blow off and be hot, which is what I can't take more than anything...so tonight if it isn't pouring...I'll be starting!

I'm 89 days from my big dance event...and I dont' seem to be going anywhere weight wise. The same 2 pounds keep going up, and down, and up and down. I'm quite sure I need more cardio...and time/weather and other constraints keep that from happening.

Keeping momentum when I'm not losing weight is a hard one for me. I remind myself, it's so not all about the weight. But the weight is there, in my face, and I get so frustrated! Why is it my coworker can give up lattes and add a 10 minute walk to her day, and literally drop 10 pounds in two weeks..when I work on my food, exercise, all that...and the same 2 pounds keep cycling?

I'm just complaining. Whining. This is my place to let out those feelings as well as talk myself back up into keepin' on keepin' on. "They" always say "small changes add up"....I'm not so sure that is true for everyone and I'm becoming really sure it might not apply to me. For whatever reason, I think I need to make more effort than small changes. I say this after months of "small changes" that are not adding up to weight loss. I gave up my daily coffee and muffin habit and added a lot more than 10 minutes to my days and nothing! Just a true reminder, we are not all the same.

I've had lab work...I know I'm in the mysterious "syndrome X" where i'm insulin resistant, I know I'm in perimenopause, I know that losing weight has never been easy for me and it's not going to magically start getting easy. I MUST keep a positive mindset...and hone in on my goals and strive to reach them daily.

I'm sorta rambly this a.m., aye? LOL. Happy Tuesday Folks....I'm off to get a dance sweat going!

  
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HAPPY_HANK 7/20/2011 10:18AM

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SINABUNN 7/19/2011 5:24PM

    I'm so sorry to hear about your daughter! I know it's got to be hard for all of you. I'll be praying. (I'll throw in a little addendum for happier weather as well.)

Now that you're a pro at the small changes, it'll be that much easier to aim a little higher. Maybe 20 minutes a day instead of 10... shoot, go for 30, even if it's broken up. Look how far you've come already! If 10 minutes was a small change from where you were, just think of another 10 as a small change from where you *are now*. It's slow going, but you're so on the right track! I know you'll get there!!!!!

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DEGENNAN 7/19/2011 11:03AM

    Hang in there! It sounds like you are doing everything right. It sounds like you know that just a leeetle more cardio will help you jump start that weight loss that you want and need to be healthier. So if it's not lightning and thundering tonight, I really think you should try to get out there for the first day of your walk/jog plan.

The thing with bad weather and early mornings and workouts after long days of work is, once you're actually OUT THERE and finally DOING IT, it's not so bad. It's just the forcing yourself to GO that is hard. So tell yourself that you will not melt. Tell yourself that you want to do a 5k sometime. Tell yourself that your big dance event is only 89 days away.

You CAN run in the rain. You can do it! It will give you time to think about your daughter and about you. I promise you that you will feel better afterward. Take the time out for you. You will feel so hardcore out there walking and jogging when less hardy souls are stuck inside. And you will feel like a million bucks when you are done. You'll go to bed knowing you took this important step with your new 5k team.

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MINIDRIVER63 7/19/2011 10:58AM

    Hugs to your daughter. I have several friends in similar situations, and it's so painful, emotionally and physically.

As to your frustration, I hear ya! My lack of weight loss can be squarely blamed on my lousy eating habits, but perimenopause is definitely playing a part.

Living well is a goal in and of itself, and brings its own satisfactions, apart from weight loss.

You are doing terrific!


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