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Working it....

Sunday, November 04, 2007

I'm on my own little mini streak and I love the momentum!! I keep messing with the same pound or so the last week, BUT I lost an inch in my waist and half inch off my hips, so I'm not obsessing....much, lol.

Joining the Lesbian Cafe challenge was the best thing I could have done for myself. The first challenge I joined, back to school, really got me tracking again, and that was a huge step. it's so easy for me to slide off SP without intending to...keeping up with the Challenge really keeps me active on the site!

Challenging myself to stay in the top 20 on the LC leaderboard has also really made a difference. I'm not terribly competitive, so one-one-one challenges haven't done too much for me, but challenging MYSELF seems to work pretty good.

It's a new week....and I'm committed to working my program with SP! hoooo RAH!! GOOOOOO MARINES!!

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HUSKY_HANK 11/5/2007 8:21AM

    Yeah for losing inches!

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READYCANADIAN 11/4/2007 2:57PM

    I look forward to your your blogs, SARHARA64. Keep working it sista!

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Made it through

Saturday, November 03, 2007

So...the performance last night is over and done. I did well enough. I tend to be a perfectionist about my own dancing...I can be much more supportive and forgiving of other's dancing than my own.

Mostly what I remembered was the students and friends who came, came because they love bellydance and they love me. I didn't have to be perfect, that was my own restriction, not theirs.

Perfectionism has dogged me my entire life and I'm sure has a lot to do with where I am with my weight - if I couldn't do it perfectly, I didn't do it, period.

This a.m.'s healthy reflection was about persistance, really struck home. Persistance, not perfection is going to help me attain my goals - weight, dance and otherwise.

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NANDINI/PATTI 11/3/2007 3:53PM

    Well, I'm glad it went well - and yes, the people there loved YOU, not the perfection of what you did. Chill!!!!

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READYCANADIAN 11/3/2007 2:10PM

    I understand what you mean about being tough on yourself....I have beaten myself up one too many times. We'll get it done, SAHARA64! One day at a time. Congrats on facing your fear...and coming out the other side with a smile on your face.

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HUSKY_HANK 11/3/2007 11:21AM

    Glad things went well.

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Dancing tonight....

Friday, November 02, 2007

So....I bellydance. More specifically, I teach two classes, run a beginner student troupe and a "professional" troupe (meaning we compete, etc), and have private students.

In the last year, I've been so down on myself because of my weight..I haven't been doing solo performances much at all. It's become this huge THING in my mind....feeling inadequate.

Tonight, I'm soloing at a local restaurant that has bellydancers on Fridays. I thought a few people would show up...but it sounds like all my students are showing and bringing friends - meaning a packed audience.

I'm nervous. Really nervous.

My partner went home to Louisiana a week ago. They do not understand her being gay, and most of them do not understand her wife being a bellydancer! She showed our wedding pics...and one aunt said "oh my god Jodie...Lisa is HUGE!! She must weigh at least 250 pounds...and you say she belly dances?? That's awful!!"

While I've largely put her nastiness behind me...I have to admit it has really affected my confidence for this evening. Yep, I'm fat. I'm 5 feet tall and weigh 244 pounds. That makes me about as round as I am tall!

I tell my students that size has nothing to do with talent, and I believe that, except apparently when it comes to myself. Working hard on letting go...enjoying my time tonight...but I'm feeling the anxiety.

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G.I.JANE 11/2/2007 6:38PM

    I am sure all will go great and you will forget about those nasty statements as you are gonna have a great time! Have fun!

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READYCANADIAN 11/2/2007 3:51PM

    You'll be awesome....just focus on a few friendly faces / smiles and feel the music. Your anxiety will melt away. Have fun!

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SAFEHAVEN 11/2/2007 10:55AM

    Everyone has an opinion however the fact remains those opinions that should matter to you are the ones who love you for who you are and want the best for you. So, does Jodie believe in you? Do your students believe in you and anyone else that matters to your heart believe in you? Then you should believe in yourself! :-) Apparently, those that are showing up to see you are because they believe in you and accept you for you! HAVE FUN! ENJOY THE TALENT YOU ARE GIVEN!

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HUSKY_HANK 11/2/2007 10:08AM

    I am sure you will rock tonight. Definately let us know how it goes. Good Luck

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November 1

Thursday, November 01, 2007

I love that today is the first day of the month! I like fresh starts and how much fresher can you get??

I am going to set an ambitious (for me!) goal: To stay in the top 20 on the points leaderboard for Lesbian Cafe. This group is really active and believe me, that's a challenge for me! But, I'm going to do my best! Some days I get lazy, and all I do is maybe track my food. Being more involved can only help my progress, my consistency and my attitude!

So here's to November...where I plan to rack up some points!

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HUSKY_HANK 11/1/2007 3:10PM

    I know you can do it!

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HMMMYEAH 11/1/2007 1:44PM

    You can do it, Just stay positive and i am sure you will rack the points up. Just think of the reward of that great feeling of acomplishment, and knowing what you achieve. And that positive saying of yeah i can do this. That always always seems to help me say that phrase it just brings on the power.

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I'm a marine!

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

The Lesbian Cafe Spark Team does the BEST challenges ever!! Their Back to School Challenge really got me in the swing of Spark again.

Now, the Veteran's Day Chalenge begins tomorrow and Hot D*mn, I'm exactly the branch I would have wanted to be in....the MARINES!

Stay posted as I start my challenge to go from Private to Senior Master Sargent!

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HUSKY_HANK 11/1/2007 9:33AM

    So glad you are excited about the challenge. Hopefully it will help you on your journey.

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