Friday, October 07, 2011
Can I just say, TGIF?? Whew. I didn't think Friday was ever going to get here.
My partner got fall term's financial aid this week...and it was able to boost us enough to get almost all the bills caught up. I can't express what a relief that is after two months of being extremely tight and worried. The job market here continues to be sucky, just like it is everywhere else I think. 300+ applicants per job makes it hard. So school is her "job" right now. Unfortunately, that job only pays about minimum wage, 4x a year, LOL. But we continue to hang on and hope for the best. She's hearing more and more that if she wants a job in criminal justice in our area, she'd better take the leap to a bachelors degree....More school. We'll see. Meanwhile, the bills are all paid up and we can breathe again for a little bit.
Typically, this would be when the car broke down, LOL! I'm trying to keep my sense of humor, but some times it's hard.
Weight/health...eh. I've had one major success this week and that would be taking all my meds/supplements. I'm chronically low on vit D...so much so I'm so tired I want to sleep the day away. So forgetting it for days at a time is not helpful. I've gotten them in all this week and that is definitely a lil streak! So something to be proud of. Exercise has been okay, sort of all or nothing days. Food has been...cheap and carbohydrate driven. Plan on breaking THAT streak this weekend by stocking up on some food that is more health based than cost based.
First week of October gone. Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas and finally New Years will sneak up before I know it...Just keep saying "i love the holidays...I love the holidays..." :)
Sunday, October 02, 2011
Adding one more goal for October:
Reaching for a minimum of 50 points per day on Spark People.
Having a goal for points keeps me on the site, reading, tracking, interacting..and that definitely increases my success.
Weighed in yesterday. Not particularly wanting to share, but I will, 249. At least it was under 250. I didn't want to weigh...but the reality is if I didn't I wouldn't have an honest picture of where I was starting the month from. I don't really plan on weighing again till November 1!! Seriously. I have too much on my plate to deal with the bouncing scale results.
Yesterday was a rare thing for me, a real day off. I work M-F, teach dance on Sundays (and 3-4 nights a week as well) and my weekends are often so full they don't feel much like "rest".
I took the leap and learned how to say "no" a little better, and refused a couple cake orders, and refused a new private student as well. I might actually learn how to stop piling stuff up on myself, LOL!
So, yesterday I quilted, I read, I made a real dinner, and I took a lovely nap in the middle of the day. Felt like Christmas I'm tellin' ya!
Today, I'll quilt a little...but the reality is chores, dance "work", and prep for the week ahead.
So far...October, you are lookin' fine to me!
Saturday, October 01, 2011
Not day one of a whole new plan...or day 1 of a new program....only day 1 of picking myself back up and moving on ....again.
My theme for this month is "keep it reasonable...keep it steady". Can't go wrong with that, now can you?
Things are ...calming down. I say that with the greatest hesitancy because that's been about the time things would go crazy again.
My son seems to be settling down into his new school (therapeutic day school for kids with mental health issues) and I am cautiously optimistic this is going to be a good fit for him! He has an appointment with his psychiatrist Monday and after the last three weeks of torture, his therapist will also be there to strongly advocate for more medication. The psych has been reluctant to medicate him based on what "mom" says...and Mike is very good at "appearing appropriate". That's part of why he's been relatively successful in school thus far...he can appear appropriate, even when he's complete chaos internally. Now however, the therapist has witnessed some of Mike's behavior/breakdowns and it won't be just me saying "this kid needs HELP!!" So, again with the cautious optimism. I do understand why the psychiatrist is being conservative, I really really do. ......... But we live with Mike's "stuff"....and we are all needing something to change.
I'm still struggling with anxiety/stress and occassional chest tightness/pain, but with a clear stress test result I'm able to say to myself, "Okay, so your chest is tight and hurts a little. You are not having a heart attack. You've had tests to prove that your heart is great! Stop freaking out now". I went back into therapy to deal with my anxiety/stress and I'm working on keeping sane throughout the craziness of my life.
I'm 14 days out from (what is to me) a Very Big Deal in the bellydance world. I will share the stage with some big time people...and I'm pretty aware, I'm going to likely be the largest woman on that stage. That is intimidating in so many ways I can't express it. But I'm going, I'm presenting something pretty darn cool....and it will be what it will be. I'll write more about it this coming week.
Today - may have to go to work if coworker calls in sick for 3rd day in a row and I'm so sick of work I feel totally depressed when I think of going in! So I'm crossing my fingers she can make it today. I'm going to quilt. I'm going to dance. I'm going to take a walk maybe a walk/jog with my sweetie....and I'm going to have a Very Good Day.
Period. No exceptions! How about YOU? What are you doing this lovely first day of October?
Thursday, September 29, 2011
September included a foot injury (still struggling with that), a friend's diagnosis of invasive breast cancer and double mastectomy, a coworker's life-threatening illness and subsequent extreme short staffing at work, my son started a new therapeutic day school...and promptly melted down, and believe it or not there's more....
I'm extremely glad to turn my eyes toward October...fall...and yet another new beginning on working on my health.
Once my foot injury got to the point I thought I might be able to start to run again soon...I realized it's now pitch dark during my normal running time and I've had a stinkin' hard time being motivated to go out in the dark (basically no streetlights here). So I need to change that routine around to a daylight time that I'll actually DO it. Still working on that one. I'm still struggling some with the foot, good days and bad days...so it's not an immediate thing. Meanwhile, I've been using that 25-30 minute spot in the morning to do some dance...
so back to goals:
In October I am going to....
1) Track my food!
2) Get 30 minutes of movement a day
3) Take my meds, vitamins and supplements DAILY, as they were intended....
4) Work on relaxation - doing something just for me every single day, even if it's just reading a book for a few minutes....
5) Drink more water!!!
6) Stop to think before I add things to my calender or to-do list!
Compared to my usual goals..these are pretty mild. I like to make big splashy goals then wonder why I burn out after a short time....trying to avoid that!
Good riddance September...welcome October!
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