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Friday - Day 7

Friday, October 07, 2011

Can I just say, TGIF?? Whew. I didn't think Friday was ever going to get here.

My partner got fall term's financial aid this week...and it was able to boost us enough to get almost all the bills caught up. I can't express what a relief that is after two months of being extremely tight and worried. The job market here continues to be sucky, just like it is everywhere else I think. 300+ applicants per job makes it hard. So school is her "job" right now. Unfortunately, that job only pays about minimum wage, 4x a year, LOL. But we continue to hang on and hope for the best. She's hearing more and more that if she wants a job in criminal justice in our area, she'd better take the leap to a bachelors degree....More school. We'll see. Meanwhile, the bills are all paid up and we can breathe again for a little bit.

Typically, this would be when the car broke down, LOL! I'm trying to keep my sense of humor, but some times it's hard.

Weight/ I've had one major success this week and that would be taking all my meds/supplements. I'm chronically low on vit much so I'm so tired I want to sleep the day away. So forgetting it for days at a time is not helpful. I've gotten them in all this week and that is definitely a lil streak! So something to be proud of. Exercise has been okay, sort of all or nothing days. Food has and carbohydrate driven. Plan on breaking THAT streak this weekend by stocking up on some food that is more health based than cost based.

First week of October gone. Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas and finally New Years will sneak up before I know it...Just keep saying "i love the holidays...I love the holidays..." :)

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TERRYT55 10/8/2011 11:32PM

    Happy you are caught up where bills are concerned. It's nice to have a bit of breathing room. I'm keeping m fingers crossed that a job is in your partners future. made me realize that the holidays are right around the corner. I need to learn to do a little bit everyday so I can actually enjoy Christmas.

Take care and have a wonderful Sunday

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Tuesday - Day 4

Tuesday, October 04, 2011

Well, cardio's been accumulating! Lots of dance practice for our big event....Blood Moon. Blood Moon is a dance show put on by UNMATA...a very out of the box fusion bellydance group in Sacramento. They are wildly popular, literally the world over. Blood Moon has guest dancers from the top of bellydance on down ....and this troupe is in it. Each year, they take a theme...and then the dancers are given a "role" or a "challenge" to create their dance peice to fit the theme. They've done Gotham City, Wizard of Oz, Disease, etc. This year...the theme is "Superstition". We're also dancing in the afterparty - doing regular bellydance. Here's the link. If you scroll down the performers you'll see "Sahara's Dream" - that's us! Farther to the bottom are video clips of past's pretty amazing.

This is a Very. Big. Deal. to us. Being included in Blood Moon is a huge opportunity to be seen and make connections and if we do well...who knows? So...we're working our butts off!

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IAMFRANSGIRL 10/5/2011 9:22AM

    Wow !! Congratulations! This is so cool!

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TERRYT55 10/4/2011 1:38PM

    So cool, Lisa. I can't wait to hear all about it!

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PATTIE253 10/4/2011 11:07AM

    Congrats!!! I've also heard that this is a great and fun way to get a workout!

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KELLYDRESCHER 10/4/2011 9:32AM

    Congrats on the invitation! I wish you all the best in your butt work! emoticon


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Sunday - Day 2

Sunday, October 02, 2011

Adding one more goal for October:
Reaching for a minimum of 50 points per day on Spark People.

Having a goal for points keeps me on the site, reading, tracking, interacting..and that definitely increases my success.

Weighed in yesterday. Not particularly wanting to share, but I will, 249. At least it was under 250. I didn't want to weigh...but the reality is if I didn't I wouldn't have an honest picture of where I was starting the month from. I don't really plan on weighing again till November 1!! Seriously. I have too much on my plate to deal with the bouncing scale results.

Yesterday was a rare thing for me, a real day off. I work M-F, teach dance on Sundays (and 3-4 nights a week as well) and my weekends are often so full they don't feel much like "rest".

I took the leap and learned how to say "no" a little better, and refused a couple cake orders, and refused a new private student as well. I might actually learn how to stop piling stuff up on myself, LOL!

So, yesterday I quilted, I read, I made a real dinner, and I took a lovely nap in the middle of the day. Felt like Christmas I'm tellin' ya!

Today, I'll quilt a little...but the reality is chores, dance "work", and prep for the week ahead.

So far...October, you are lookin' fine to me!

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MEAG29 10/3/2011 5:58PM

    sounds like you deserved it!

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DEGENNAN 10/3/2011 12:58PM

    I had a reality check on the scale this morning myself. Ugh. But like you said, hopefully that just means we'll be very happy on Nov 1st when we see a much different number there, one that will make us feel a lot more satisfied. You deserve major kudos for saying "no" and taking a day to recharge yourself yesterday. Hope you are feeling refreshed today and ready to tackle your challenges.

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SHAR140 10/3/2011 12:23PM


I'm glad that you got a day off!

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TERRYT55 10/2/2011 12:04PM

    It sounds like you had a wonderful day........the kind of day that renews your spirit! I hope you can find balance today between chores and some time to do what you enjoy.

October is looking fine to me's my favorite month.

Take care and have a wonderful day!

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IAMFRANSGIRL 10/2/2011 11:57AM

    Learning to say "no" was one of the hardest things I've had to do. I'm so glad you had your time for quilting...and even a nap? WOW!

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October 1 - Day 1

Saturday, October 01, 2011

Not day one of a whole new plan...or day 1 of a new program....only day 1 of picking myself back up and moving on ....again.

My theme for this month is "keep it reasonable...keep it steady". Can't go wrong with that, now can you?

Things are ...calming down. I say that with the greatest hesitancy because that's been about the time things would go crazy again.

My son seems to be settling down into his new school (therapeutic day school for kids with mental health issues) and I am cautiously optimistic this is going to be a good fit for him! He has an appointment with his psychiatrist Monday and after the last three weeks of torture, his therapist will also be there to strongly advocate for more medication. The psych has been reluctant to medicate him based on what "mom" says...and Mike is very good at "appearing appropriate". That's part of why he's been relatively successful in school thus far...he can appear appropriate, even when he's complete chaos internally. Now however, the therapist has witnessed some of Mike's behavior/breakdowns and it won't be just me saying "this kid needs HELP!!" So, again with the cautious optimism. I do understand why the psychiatrist is being conservative, I really really do. ......... But we live with Mike's "stuff"....and we are all needing something to change.

I'm still struggling with anxiety/stress and occassional chest tightness/pain, but with a clear stress test result I'm able to say to myself, "Okay, so your chest is tight and hurts a little. You are not having a heart attack. You've had tests to prove that your heart is great! Stop freaking out now". I went back into therapy to deal with my anxiety/stress and I'm working on keeping sane throughout the craziness of my life.

I'm 14 days out from (what is to me) a Very Big Deal in the bellydance world. I will share the stage with some big time people...and I'm pretty aware, I'm going to likely be the largest woman on that stage. That is intimidating in so many ways I can't express it. But I'm going, I'm presenting something pretty darn cool....and it will be what it will be. I'll write more about it this coming week.

Today - may have to go to work if coworker calls in sick for 3rd day in a row and I'm so sick of work I feel totally depressed when I think of going in! So I'm crossing my fingers she can make it today. I'm going to quilt. I'm going to dance. I'm going to take a walk maybe a walk/jog with my sweetie....and I'm going to have a Very Good Day.

Period. No exceptions! How about YOU? What are you doing this lovely first day of October?

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SINABUNN 10/2/2011 2:22PM

    Hello, love! Long time no see! :) I'm back on Day One myself... and it's frustrating to be "starting over" so late in the game, but any other option is unthinkable. Moving forward!!!

Hoping the day school will work wonders for your son. I've taught in the behavioral health setting for 15 years now and have seen some miraculous transformations. God's honest truth, it's a road filled with ups and downs and nothing worthwhile is ever easy BUT the key is having (being) a supportive family. That alone works wonders and will often make or break a kid's therapeutic progress. Your son is so lucky to have that in his pocket. Can I also recommend, and I hope I'm not overstepping here, that you and your honey consider a few therapy sessions? There's soooooo much that you have to endure while wearing your brave face for his sake. I'd hate to think of you silently suffering while the emotional stress eats you inside out. I'm not a doctor and I don't play one on tv. :) Just wanting the best for you. Blessings to all of you!!

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KIMMYSOUP6785 10/1/2011 9:10AM

    Good luck with everything! I am on day 1 of an umpteenth time of trying to lose weight and get healthier also. Stay strong and don't give up. We can do this!

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MIMIDOT 10/1/2011 9:10AM

    Sorry you've been having such a rough time. Glad things are working out for you and your son. Good luck!

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IAMFRANSGIRL 10/1/2011 9:10AM

    I hope you DO have a very good day! I can't think of anything nicer than cutting up large pieces of fabric into little bits and sewing them back into...well, large pieces.
Best of luck with your presentation, what a lot of courage you have!

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October Goals

Thursday, September 29, 2011

September included a foot injury (still struggling with that), a friend's diagnosis of invasive breast cancer and double mastectomy, a coworker's life-threatening illness and subsequent extreme short staffing at work, my son started a new therapeutic day school...and promptly melted down, and believe it or not there's more....

I'm extremely glad to turn my eyes toward October...fall...and yet another new beginning on working on my health.

Once my foot injury got to the point I thought I might be able to start to run again soon...I realized it's now pitch dark during my normal running time and I've had a stinkin' hard time being motivated to go out in the dark (basically no streetlights here). So I need to change that routine around to a daylight time that I'll actually DO it. Still working on that one. I'm still struggling some with the foot, good days and bad it's not an immediate thing. Meanwhile, I've been using that 25-30 minute spot in the morning to do some dance...

so back to goals:
In October I am going to....
1) Track my food!
2) Get 30 minutes of movement a day
3) Take my meds, vitamins and supplements DAILY, as they were intended....
4) Work on relaxation - doing something just for me every single day, even if it's just reading a book for a few minutes....
5) Drink more water!!!
6) Stop to think before I add things to my calender or to-do list!

Compared to my usual goals..these are pretty mild. I like to make big splashy goals then wonder why I burn out after a short time....trying to avoid that!

Good riddance September...welcome October!

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DEGENNAN 9/29/2011 4:46PM

    I am going to use your goals as inspiration to make my own list. I will try to blog about it tomorrow if they are going to be October goals. Thank you for being an inspiration to me! And good riddance to the trials and tribulations of September, indeed.

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