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Me, the experiment

Monday, January 09, 2012

So last week, I got back on the food program my doctor recommended last fall and began exercising again.

This a.m, I weighed exactly the same as I did last Monday. Now, I could have let myself get down about it, and I'll be frank, I teetered on the brink of self pity for a tiny bit.

But then, I thought, let's make this an experiment! Okay, so you ate as well as you could have this week, all things (no money) considered. You exercised quite a bit and worked up a sweat 4 x this week. What can you add to this equation? Did you drink the water? Um, no. Okay, let's add that! Did you take all your meds and prescribed supplements? Umm, uh, no I didn't. Well then, add those two.

Just those two things on top of planned eating and exercise, and let's see what NEXT Monday's weigh in holds...

Woo hoo. :)

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IAMFRANSGIRL 1/10/2012 2:56AM

    Hang in there! Sometimes it takes your body a while to figure it out :)

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WONDEROONA 1/9/2012 8:14PM

    Could it be that you lost fat and gained muslce? Have you tired measuring yourself and using that as a tool to track your progress? It's a thought.

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TERRYT55 1/9/2012 7:18PM

    I'm looking forward to reading next Monday's blog. It is frustrating to expect a loss and not have it happen. Keep up the good work!

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2012. A year of no regret

Monday, January 02, 2012

In 2009, my dad died. I dedicated 2010 to being a year of no regret. Of not ending the year regretting that I didn't take better care of myself, that I didn't live life to the fullest.

2011 did not succeed in either of those arenas. When I weighed in for the first time in about 6 weeks, I was up 10 pounds, no joke and I believe it, because my clothes are not fitting.

So, I'm carefully planning 2012 to be another year of no regret. Went and stocked up on healthy foods, and so far, so good.

My resolutions are going to be carefully planned to be reasonable and doable...and I don't want to rush them. They may take me all month to decide upon.

Hanging in there. Life continues to be .... life. Difficult and challenging, with some wonderful things in there too. Here's to no regrets when 2013 rolls around.

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HOAGIE22 1/5/2012 8:57AM

  Git Er Dun!!!!

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Six End of Year Thoughts

Monday, December 26, 2011

I guess part of getting older is wonder how the year flew by so fast...

I'm thinking about what I've learned this year. Some of it I didn't appreciate learning...but no knowledge is wasted in my opinion.

In no specific order:
1) When I don't take my antidepressant, vitamin D, or progesterone...I am more tired, crabbier, and less productive. No likey.
2) I make a mean veggie omlet. Likey.
3) It's very expensive to think you are having a heart attack and go to the hospital. Worth it, mind you to go...but very expensive. Also scary. Again, no likey.
4) Ill health can befall anyone...and in the end our health makes everything else we want to do more or less possible. The silver lining in this is that while we can't control all our risk factors for health problems, disease etc, a healthy body fights better against those things and we do have power to change. Mostly likey.
5) When I "rest" too body hurts. When I don't have some kind of cardio/movement going on, preferrably to a sweaty state, at least 3 x a arthritis rages, my back hurts, and my stamina drains right away. This would be where I am right now. Very very much, no likey.
6) Learning to love myself, warts and all, is truly getting easier. This is pretty profound frankly, after a lifetime of rigid self-criticism and poor self esteem. Am I "there" yet? um, no, most definitely not. Am I better at it than I was last year? YES. Likey.

The inactivity = pain, stoved up joints, and increased fatigue has meant I'm trying to get back on the horse and workout every a.m., even if it's only for 20 minutes. Working on health, health, and health.

How about you? What is an end 'o year thought for YOU?

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TERRYT55 1/1/2012 5:34PM

    Hi's amazing all of the lessons we learn as we get older. I agree about inactivity, it makes me stiff and sore too. I always feel better when I have at least three days a week of exercise too.

I am going to do my best to get plenty of sleep this year! It amazes me how much lack of it affects me!

The older I get the less I see my flaws and the more I see someone I like! I might even want to be friends with myself emoticon

Wishing you & your family a happy & healthy 2012

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Among the living

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Whew. Yep, I'm alive and kicking! Special thanks to the spark peeps who sent me goodies or checked on me...during the holiday season you thought of ME? Good grief, I'm a lucky gal, THANK YOU!

So far in December:
Got off the exercise wagon for about three weeks. Got back on it yesterday and boy, I'm back at square one again with strength/stamina. But the cool's never to late to start again. So I did. Two days in a row, cardio and stretching - done.

Food - food has not been terrible at all, the problem tho, is my carb ratio is too high. When we're poor...we eat carbs. cheap and filling. So, more than anything my current goal is to stay away from the sugar, get as many freggies in there as I can...and forgive myself the rest. So far, since thanksgiving I have NOT had eggnog. I have not had fudge, penuche, divinity, or ANY of the candy I associate with the holidays (or any other candy for that matter). I have not over ate really at all. Sort of amazing. Too broke to spend money on the ingredients and too tired if I could, LOL - work has gone crazy.

Stress - Mmmmm. See the part above about work has gone crazy....and the no money, but other than that...hey. I'm alive and kickin'.

Hope to get to all of my lovely SP peeps pages soon..I miss being in touch!

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AMR6665 12/21/2011 5:54AM

    Happy Holidays!!! emoticon Good to see you back! emoticon

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Fat Woman on a Plane

Monday, November 21, 2011

Friday, I flew to Seatttle. I haven't flown in about 8 years and.... 40 pounds or so. Small plane. I didn't think about my weight...and the plane. I weigh around 250 on a 5' body, and it's all in the belly.

As I entered the plane, I saw a woman who was much larger than me...and she needed two seats.

FEAR struck me like I can not express. What if I didn't fit?????

I found my seat...stowed my stuff...and sat. I tried the seatbelt...too tight. I took it to the limits of it's length and managed to buckle it. Not horribly tight, but I could feel it there across my belly.

A woman came to claim the seat next to me...late 50's, very trim, stylish etc. She nodded to me, grabbed the arm rest between us and shoved it down....and it wouldn't go down because my hip was in the way. She gave me a pointed look, and I sucked everthing I could in and pushed myself to the wall....and it snapped down in between us. I gave a cautious "oh thank god" to myself. I pulled myself as far away from her as I could, but it took constant vigilance not to touch her in some way.

The plane was not quite full, and before takeoff, the attendant announced that if you liked, you could change seats. The woman turned to me and said

"would you be more comfortable if I moved?" and looked down at my body and back up to my face.

I smiled and said, "whatever, I really don't mind". And in that time...someone else came up and grabbed the seat she had pointed to. She gave a small huff and turned her head and that was the end of all conversation. Thank GOD it was a very short flight, just an hour. I spent that hour pulling myself in as much as possible, my nose buried in my book.

I wanted to say "Look, yeah, I'm I fat woman. Sorry about that. But you know what? you have so much perfume on I could throw up....but I'm not being ugly to you about it, am I?"

The trip home was made with a 10 year old boy in the seat next to me, and I had room to "be".

It was quite the experience. And that's all I have to say about that....

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DEGENNAN 12/1/2011 3:25PM

    Oh man - that really burns me up when people are needlessly rude and mean like that! She definitely should have just moved without making a big fuss about it if that's the only thing that would have made her happy. I'm a smaller person who flies fairly frequently and I have noticed that most larger people are very self-conscious about taking up room and are very careful and polite about it. I wish everyone were that thoughtful! Men are the worst - they will hog the arm rest and spread their legs out and take up tons of room - the skinnies as much as the bigger guys. Anyway, look at me making this all about me, right? ;) I am so, so, so sorry to hear that your Thanksgiving week involved a stressful flight and that you were exposed to such a witch right before the holidays. I hope the rest of the week was more pleasant!

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TERRYT55 11/21/2011 11:41PM

    What a witch! I'm so sorry you were subjected to such rude behavior. I loved Maggierosebowl's comment from the Johnny Carson show "I'm fat, you're stupid. I can diet." So true!

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AIRPEACH 11/21/2011 7:51PM

    That silly woman should have gotten up and taken herself off if she didn't want to be there. What a windbag.
The last time I flew, I had people like that sitting next to me on all 4 of 4 legs. I am fat, but I keep myself in my space very well, and I don't even steal arm rests by keeping my arm on them the entire time. 2 of the legs were next to reasonable people, 2 were not, but considering one of them took himself off to a different seat leaving me with 2 seats to enjoy, I was more than ok with that.
PS: I love the background photo you are using.

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DOODIE59 11/21/2011 12:19PM

    Ugh. I feel for you. Those moments are so polarizing ...

There are two things I won't miss when I lose weight -- that dreadful fear of not fitting into my seat, and imposing my size on the individual next to me. Still, there is room, morally and emotionally, for all of us on this planet and I'm tired of being treated badly. No one's perfect, and we all deserve kindness.

Here's to a better day in the future, and best wishes for your journey to better health:)

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MAGGIEROSEBOWL 11/21/2011 11:33AM

    What a horrible woman. But I know that happens quite often. People really resent you when you're infringing on their space. And from my class presentation about "Is Obesity a Handicap?" I know that most people have no sympathy for us fatties. They think we caused our condition ourselves and could "fix" it if we tried. Of course my class was comprised of a group of early 20-somethings, most of whom have not yet had to fight the battle of the bulge. Someday, probably close to half of them will develop more empathy for the struggle we fight everyday, as they end up with more weight on their bodies than they'd like.

I always made sure to sit by my hubby and ONLY my hubby when I flew. And he would even ask the flight attendant for the seltbelt extender, so I could avoid that embarrassment. This might be surprising, but I noticed on one flight, when we were flying with our sons and there was three of us, I sat in the middle of three seats, it was the narrower seat, with a shorter seatbelt. So I traded with hubby. Sure enough, the aisle seat and window seat were both just a little larger. Only someone who was big enough to FILL up the seats would have noticed that small difference, but I could tell!

And this is what I have to say about your experience. Someday you will look physically like that late 50-something-year-old slim woman you sat by you on your flight. But you will never act like her. I heard William Conrad say to Robert Blake one night on Johnny Carson after Blake said something insulting to Conrad about him being fat: "I'm fat, you're stupid. I can diet." There is nothing that woman can do to change her mean attitude and snooty personality, but you are changing yourself right now! In the minds of all your Spark friends, you are a far superior human being to that awful woman, even though she thought she was "all that" and you were far beneath her. Personally, I am disgusted by HER behavior!

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TBRANTNER3 11/21/2011 10:45AM

  If the person next to you wanted to move, she should have just done so without comment to you. I haven't experienced the seat belt issue, but several years ago I was on a small hop type of plane, would be a 45 minute flight. there were very few people on the plane, so the stewardess moved everyone around to re-distribute the weight. was humiliating, and really, was it that important.

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KELLYDRESCHER 11/21/2011 10:30AM

    Air travel is one of the most humiliating experiences for people who have any extra weight, and I'm so sorry you've had this experience. If you haven't seen the video by another Spark member about her experience flying, you really should. (It was on the Today show after the gate agents informed her she was too fat to fly. Her response to them and the industry is classy, poignant, and helpful)

If you have to fly again, try asking the gate agent if there are any open seats remaining and if you could sit near one. When I worked for an airline I did this quite frequently for guests. The best time to ask is when you get to your gate because most people have already checked in by then, and they have a better idea of the space available. (This advice is also really good for people traveling with children.)

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