Wednesday, November 07, 2007
Well, again and again I have heard "throw away the scale" and I can certainly see some value in that today.
While I can see and measure changes, the scale continues to be pretty stubborn about showing weight loss. My clothes are looser...I've consistently measured lower in waist and hip measurements over the last week....but the scale will not budge.
In the past, when I was "dieting" but not losing weight, I'd tell myself this fairy tale: "I must be putting on muscle" "I'm retaining water". While both of those can be sincere issues in plateaus...the reality was my "diet" was being good in front of others and binging in secret, so there was no calorie deficit and little exercise.
The last 10 days, I have been faithful...very very faithful to my eating plan, exercise AND strength training, water, you name it. Still, no budge on the scale since the first day or two.
In the past...working this hard for this long with no loss, I would have immediately thrown in the towel and drowned my sorrow in a hot fudge sundae...or two.
Today, however, I reminded myself of the good things that are happening, despite what the scale says:
1. Two people I hadn't seen in a few weeks said "hey, you look like you've lost weight!"
2. My "tight" work pants are now totally comfortable, no sucking in the gut to zip or button.
3. My stamina is waaaay up. I can dance in rehersals for almost two hours straight, when one hour a month ago about killed me.
4. I'm not having low blood sugar episodes.
5. My mood swings are fewer.
6. I can literally SEE my waist starting to be visible.
All reasons to continue the work, be proud of my accomplishments, and not give up too easily.
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
Work is really cramping my style, lol....lots of things I'd like to be doing today, but I'll be responsible and do my thing, get my hours, and earn my pennies.
Things with son are a bit better...we've gone back to a highly structured routine, which seems to really help him. He'd done well for awhile and we'd slipped out of it...and here we are. Not out of the woods by any means, but on the right track.
Last night at troupe rehearsal, I could really FEEL I have more energy, that was VERY COOL!! When I danced at Taj Palace Friday night, I danced for about 8-9 minutes (that dosen't sound long, but to me it is LONG) and while I did have my asthma flare when I was done, usually I wouldn't have made it much past 5 minutes, so that is also a huge improvement! SP is working it's good juju on me, fer sure! :)
Sunday, November 04, 2007
I'm on my own little mini streak and I love the momentum!! I keep messing with the same pound or so the last week, BUT I lost an inch in my waist and half inch off my hips, so I'm not obsessing....much, lol.
Joining the Lesbian Cafe challenge was the best thing I could have done for myself. The first challenge I joined, back to school, really got me tracking again, and that was a huge step. it's so easy for me to slide off SP without intending to...keeping up with the Challenge really keeps me active on the site!
Challenging myself to stay in the top 20 on the LC leaderboard has also really made a difference. I'm not terribly competitive, so one-one-one challenges haven't done too much for me, but challenging MYSELF seems to work pretty good.
It's a new week....and I'm committed to working my program with SP! hoooo RAH!! GOOOOOO MARINES!!
Saturday, November 03, 2007
So...the performance last night is over and done. I did well enough. I tend to be a perfectionist about my own dancing...I can be much more supportive and forgiving of other's dancing than my own.
Mostly what I remembered was the students and friends who came, came because they love bellydance and they love me. I didn't have to be perfect, that was my own restriction, not theirs.
Perfectionism has dogged me my entire life and I'm sure has a lot to do with where I am with my weight - if I couldn't do it perfectly, I didn't do it, period.
This a.m.'s healthy reflection was about persistance, really struck home. Persistance, not perfection is going to help me attain my goals - weight, dance and otherwise.
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