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Back to Reality....

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

I made my pilgrimage to the dance instructor I wrote about previously over the was amazing. She taught a great workshop and then we played groupies and followed her to the three clubs she dances at on Saturday nights...She is a powerhouse - maintaining her body IS her day job and it was very inspiring for me.

Since I came home, I've had an ear infection, one of my troupers quit my dance troupe with pretty much no notice, I got a 24 hour notice to have my house inspected by the property management company (and after being sick all week and then gone all weekend, the house looks like H*ll) and I got chewed out at work for something I didn't do.

I find it rather karmic that I've been assigned to the LC Thanksgiving challenge "the appreciative" team. Making myself list 3 things I'm thankful for in the face of feeling like the last 24 hours have been sort of surreally effed up...well, it's a good thing.

While I was gone, I ate food I would not normally eat, drank alcohol...and my body is feeling like crud. Sluggish and yuck. So, I'm working very hard on getting back onto my 6 small meals of healthy proteins and good carbs...

It's a new day....another chance to work on getting it right.

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OBLIVIA 11/13/2007 5:28PM

    *hugs and squeezes from your buddy*

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HUSKY_HANK 11/13/2007 4:10PM

    One day at a time.

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KRO-BAR 11/13/2007 12:11PM

    "Fall six times, get up seven". That's my favorite spark quote so far. Good for you for picking yourself up and realizing every day is a chance to do it right!

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READYCANADIAN 11/13/2007 10:10AM

    One day at a time. You will do this!

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Going to Yoda....

Friday, November 09, 2007

THIS is my Yoda....Rachel George - an amazing, AMAZING bellydancer in Portland Oregon.

Rachel's dance IS her day job..when she is not teaching, she is working out in the gym and rehersals. She is one of the most talented dancers in the country, in my humble opinion.

She is drop-dead NICE ~ and she is my bellydance hero. Someone said about her "I am Luke Skywalker and you are my Yoda!"...and that really nails it for me...I want to dance like Rachel when I grow up. :)

Traveling with 8 other women three hours tomorrow to take a semi-private workshop from her and then go to the three clubs/restraurant where she will be performing.

If I could just shake this head cold, I'd be really excited! Time for more Airborne!!!

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DEBANDRS 11/9/2007 2:57PM

    Oh my that is hot. Look at the muscles in her belly and thighs. I like thights.

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GEEKYPOET 11/9/2007 2:12PM

    It's great that you are taking time to do something that brings you so much happiness!

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DANNAMOM 11/9/2007 12:22PM

    What an awesome hero! You're a hero, too, for following what you love. Have a great workshop!

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BUGSEY 11/9/2007 12:18PM

    I don't understand the Star Wars metaphor but it's cool that you have a dream and you know what that looks like. I live in Portland and hope you a great time while you are here. It is suppose to start raining today so do bring the mint tea!

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HUSKY_HANK 11/9/2007 11:43AM

    That is awesome. Make sur eyou tell u show it goes.

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MRSCOYOTE 11/9/2007 11:23AM

    I can see why she is inspiring to you. It sounds like you are going to have a great time. Get yourself a thermos full of hot herbal tea that has some mint in it. That might help a little with the cold. Feel better!

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LISY_SOTO 11/9/2007 11:06AM

  OH! That seems like so much fun! I hope you have an awesome time!

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SUSIEQ911 11/9/2007 10:53AM

    Have a great weekend!

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SHAWNER1123 11/9/2007 10:52AM

    I think one word sums this up.......WOW!

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READYCANADIAN 11/9/2007 10:36AM

    Sounds like a fun weekend - hope you realy enjoy it. (And you're right she's HOT.)

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JOANNAISATOMIC 11/9/2007 10:35AM

    i REALLY want to learn how to belly dance... i used to take classical ballet and flamenco many years ago... did it for about 13 years... i just can't afford the classes. :(

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Non-Scale Victories

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Well, again and again I have heard "throw away the scale" and I can certainly see some value in that today.

While I can see and measure changes, the scale continues to be pretty stubborn about showing weight loss. My clothes are looser...I've consistently measured lower in waist and hip measurements over the last week....but the scale will not budge.

In the past, when I was "dieting" but not losing weight, I'd tell myself this fairy tale: "I must be putting on muscle" "I'm retaining water". While both of those can be sincere issues in plateaus...the reality was my "diet" was being good in front of others and binging in secret, so there was no calorie deficit and little exercise.

The last 10 days, I have been faithful...very very faithful to my eating plan, exercise AND strength training, water, you name it. Still, no budge on the scale since the first day or two.

In the past...working this hard for this long with no loss, I would have immediately thrown in the towel and drowned my sorrow in a hot fudge sundae...or two.

Today, however, I reminded myself of the good things that are happening, despite what the scale says:
1. Two people I hadn't seen in a few weeks said "hey, you look like you've lost weight!"
2. My "tight" work pants are now totally comfortable, no sucking in the gut to zip or button.
3. My stamina is waaaay up. I can dance in rehersals for almost two hours straight, when one hour a month ago about killed me.
4. I'm not having low blood sugar episodes.
5. My mood swings are fewer.
6. I can literally SEE my waist starting to be visible.

All reasons to continue the work, be proud of my accomplishments, and not give up too easily.

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ASHANGELXOX 11/9/2007 9:41AM

    Just remember that with the strength training comes muscle... muscle weighs more then fat. I understand what you are saying though... I see a lot of things changing aside from the scale. Especially the mood swings. At our highest weights, Joanna and I were at each others throats for no reason. Things are much more calm now!

Keep up the good work!

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READYCANADIAN 11/7/2007 8:03PM

    It's like you wrote this blog about ME. I totally understand. Hang in there!

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HUSKY_HANK 11/7/2007 2:47PM

    I went thru a whole month of this. It was frustrating. But i did stay on track and then all of a sudden I lost 5 lbs in 2 weeks. I kept saying at least I am not gaining. Hang in there.

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Another day...another 10 cents

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Work is really cramping my style, lol....lots of things I'd like to be doing today, but I'll be responsible and do my thing, get my hours, and earn my pennies.

Things with son are a bit better...we've gone back to a highly structured routine, which seems to really help him. He'd done well for awhile and we'd slipped out of it...and here we are. Not out of the woods by any means, but on the right track.

Last night at troupe rehearsal, I could really FEEL I have more energy, that was VERY COOL!! When I danced at Taj Palace Friday night, I danced for about 8-9 minutes (that dosen't sound long, but to me it is LONG) and while I did have my asthma flare when I was done, usually I wouldn't have made it much past 5 minutes, so that is also a huge improvement! SP is working it's good juju on me, fer sure! :)



Monday, November 05, 2007

Having problems with my 11-year-old son....feeling overwhelmed and worried.

His disrespectful mouth is taking him over...he's lying....some manipulative behavior going on.

I feel like he is right on the edge - where I could lose him.

He is a sweet kid with an anger management problem dating back to first he is as tall as I am, not that that is saying much, but it also means I can't physically MAKE him do something....

Calling around to see about therapy for him- again. Also going to call Big Brother/Big Sister andsee if I can get a man in his life. His dad is an alcoholic on the other side of the country....and there are just no men in his life outside of school, and obviously, that is not enough. I've tried getting him into sports, scouting other things where he could build relationships with men, but he didn't like it.

I just see so much resentment in him....and this weekend was BAD.

i don't know what to do. Turned to food over it too, which really just brings me lower than I can explain. I had such a great week...felt strong....then this stuff with him just pushed me right back to the food.

It's monday. Time to get to work and earn my pennies. Feel more like hiding in the bed.

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MARTY611 11/5/2007 9:10PM

    My heart breaks for you. I am so sorry for this chaos in your life.

I had a student in my class for 3 years (2xs as a 5th grader and 1x as a 6th) who was the most angry student I had ever met. He had a mom and a dad that both taught at a local university and they tried everything to "help" him. No one could seem to find what is was that he needed. I cannot tell you how many times his mom would pick up her son from school in tears because she was afraid to bring him home. I longer work at the school but he is no longer there either since finally the best decsion has been to send him to a VERY structured theraputic school.

My point is not that you send your son away, or that would even be an option for you (I don't know) but that you are not alone. This was not my son, I have no children, but that did not stop me from sharing in the pain of wanting to help this young boy who scared the pants off me at times.

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2BSKINNY4ME 11/5/2007 9:05PM

    It looks like you are in need of a hug today as well!!!
{{{ HUGS}}}}}

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NOREGRET2010 11/5/2007 10:19AM

    Oh, believe me....many loss of priviledges have occurred.

By physically making him do something...I'm referring to stopping him whaling blows on his sister....breaking things...when he physically lashes out...I do not have the advantage any more of stopping him.

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AMLDIXON 11/5/2007 8:37AM

    I hope positive changes come your way with your son! It has got to be hard being a single parent with a tween. BB/BS is a great idea. Some of my friends are active with that and they love every minute because they get to help others that remind them of that age/stage.

Maybe some solid one on one time with you throwing the football or training for a fun 5k together would help? Anger issues are definitely sad to see, especially in our kids whom we love so deeply. It is nice to see a parent taking the necessary steps to help their child before it is too late.

Remember that we shouldn't physically have to make our kids do something and tough love of taking away video games or any other prized possession would work better as at that age aren't they testing their parents every day and then feel guilty if they make one of them cry which makes them even more angry and take it out on the one consistent person in their life....a parent.

I say this from experience as I was out of control at 14...three years later than your child but I was angry all the time. Fought with my mom all the time and was pretty much all around nasty.

I wish you the best of luck!

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HUSKY_HANK 11/5/2007 8:35AM

    Hang in there. *hugs*

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