Thursday, July 26, 2012
108 days ago, I decided to again try to leave Wheat behind. It's been an interesting journey, and certainly not a perfect one. I can't say "I haven't touched wheat in 108 days!" Nope, not at all. But I have, day and in and day out, changed the way I eat and eliminated it almost entirely.
In those 108 days, I had no weight loss. Zip, zero, zilch. It was disheartening to say the least, but I felt better, so I kept up with it.
Yesterday, I stepped on the scale just for kicks.
I've lost 6 pounds.
That 6 pounds came out of nowhere, I think I weighed last about 10 days ago.
Part of me, the Negative Nelly, says, Really? 108 days to lose six stinking pounds?
But frankly, I'm pretty darn happy. Something shifted, finally. I won't be getting back on the scale any time soon, lol. I want to enjoy the feeling of accomplishment for as long as possible!
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
In my inbox this a.m. was a Spark email about why sometimes we don't lose weight when we're doing all the right things....it talked about the perception you are burning more calories than you really are, or that you are eating within your calorie range when really perhaps you aren't, but it also mentioned various health issues and that sometimes, well, there doesn't seem to be a good reason why you aren't shedding the weight when your workout buddy is losing weight every week.
I haven't been on the scales in a week or so and I'm still not keen on the idea of weighing often - I've said it a hundred times here, I get too obsessed with the numbers and allow them to influence my mood, my feelings of success and unfortunately sometimes what I eat.
The weight is not falling off. It's quite stubbornly staying on. I have to say however, in the face of giving up a daily carb-loaded diet in favor of a wheat-free diet with an emphasis on trying to eat veggies instead of grains and staying the same weight, and doing a reasonable amount of exercise weekly....tells me I'm doing something right.
Wha? you may say, Huh? You aren't losing weight but you're doing something right?
Well, yeah. How do I know this? I know it because....I feel better. I'm smaller, even tho I'm not losing pounds on the scale. People are beginning to tell me I'm looking good. I'm feeling stronger. So, I know I'm doing something right....the scales are just a lousy way for me to measure that success. When I did my "bootcamp" class last night, in the face of about 9 million squats....I was able to do *almost* all of them. I made it through all of the crunches/ab work repetitions/sets. I was able to do 99% of the drill work of the dance portion.
I read a book this week by Bertrice Berry. I don't remember the exact name something like a Year to Wellness. It was provided to my job with some other leadership/motivational materials and I snagged it to read. She talks a lot about taking a year to get WELL...and in the course of that year, she shed an amazing amount of weight. The first and most important part of her process? Loving herself. Just as she was. Loving the fat thighs that have carried her where she wanted to go, etc.....followed by weeks of intentional choices, learning from mistakes, etc. It struck me because it was a very kind and gentle journey of one woman....and it made profound changes.
Right now, I feel good. My arthritis is lessened immensely after leaving wheat behind and I'm making progress, I know it, I feel it. What the scale says is irrelevant to that progress.
My, I'm all introspective today, eh? Lastly, let me leave you with an app suggestion. Now, I'm not an app person, LOL, even tho I have a SmartPhone. Believe me, the phone IS smart and it wins against me all the time, LOL. I have a dance coach client who has created (separate from dance) a wellness/fitness website. I won't tout it here, because frankly I prefer Sparkpeople and Spark is FREE and has community etc. BUT...one of the things they created in conjunction with their site is a FREE Water Coach App. I downloaded it to my phone and the little bugger, um, "tool for success" goes off from 8 a.m. to 8 pm to remind me to drink water. If I log water, it pushes the alarm back. I also have the option to not have the alarm and just track water there on my phone. Water is a huge difficulty for me, so having an annoying, um, helpful, reminder on my phone is helping me build that water habit. Again, it's free. You can search apps for "Woojabooty Water Coach". You can also check out the Woojabooty site, but I'll be frank, spark is better for me personally and free.
Have a great Tuesday...
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Oh good grief.
I had to run to the store on my lunch for a couple of things I'll need for dinner tonight. Who do I run into, but woman associated with the local dance scene.
When she sees me, she grabs my arm and says "I had a dream about you the other night!! I dreamed you lost a lot of weight! You were so happy you had tears in your eyes and I was so happy for you I cried too!" (this from a woman who has been extremely snide to me more times than I can count).
I didn't know what to say to that, so I said "oh, well....hmm, sounds like a good dream!" She then says to me "Did you have that birth control they put in your arm and leave there? My daughter had that and she ballooned up, just HUUUUUGE, just like YOU. She could never lose the weight after that...she just got bigger and bigger, LIKE YOU".
I made my escape. Do I think she was being "ugly" to me? No. I think she was thoughtless and entertained by the sound of her own voice. It was just one of those interactions that obese people have...that make you sad, hurt you, make you angry....and always enforces to me just how helpless I feel at times.
Nope, not gonna jump off a bridge or anything, LOL, nor jump into a Twinkie truck....just had to get it off my chest so it wouldn't fester there and make me feel bad the rest of the day.
Friday, July 13, 2012
Well, let's see - wow time has passed quickly since my last journal post.
Remember when you were a kid and summer lasted FOREVER? Now I'm "old" and I'm having a hard time understanding how we got to July 13 SO FAST!!
All in all, been doing really well! Sort of been going with the concept of "replace carbs/starchs with veggies" and that's gone well. Overall, I'm wheat free with an occassional indulgence (which usually leads to gastric distress of some sort - so it's getting easier and easier to avoid the wheat completely!).
Working on adding veggies to every meal, even breakfast, which for me has been a bit of a challenge. Fruit? You betcha, happy to add fruit always, but veggies? um. Not so easy. So I've been focusing on that.
Adding in more activity on the weekends, and when it's not scorching, walks with my partner (gotta get ready for Disneyland in October!). Slowly working on adding up to 5 hours a week exercise. I can easily hit 3, consistently getting 5 in has been a problem.
Pretty much stationary, lost about 2 pounds in the last few weeks. I haven't measured recently, but I am definitely noticing changes in my body, how it looks and how it feels. Nothing amazing - my pants aren't falling off, LOL, but I can SEE differences and that's pretty darn cool.
Overall, I feel so much better eating this way. Makes it much easier to do it!
Monday, July 02, 2012
I was thinking of Mondays. Of how my mom was on a perpetual diet - that would always begin on Monday. "Oh well, I'll start Monday...." was something I've heard not only from her but so many over the years..often being said on a Friday night...during a holiday etc.
What's one thing I've learned? Don't wait till Monday. Giving myself permission to pig out for 2 or 3 (or more!) days with the expectation that on Monday I would be magically motivated and able to jump right into whatever food plan I'd decided on...never benefited me in any way.
I've spent 3 of the last 4 weekends on the road at dance events. If I'd let those weekends "go" and planned on reigning myself in on Mondays I sort of shudder at the "cost".
Frankly I'm not losing weight right now for a multitude of reasons. But I'm not GAINING weight either. Run wild on the weekend and that might change, LOL!
Was I uber strict on my trips? Nope. I had an "adult beverage" on one of them, had a dessert on one or maybe two. Had drive thru coffee on all of them, LOL. But I didn't run wild. Each weekend, I used less and less wheat - until this weekend, I believe I was pretty much wheat free unless is was lurking someplace I didn't realize it.
And I didn't feel deprived or hungry. I enjoyed myself, I ate good food, and I didn't binge with the attitude "oh well, I'll start on Monday".
Sometimes, it's really tempting. Tempting to just let go and do whatever I want for a day or two...or three...or... yeah. I don't expect perfection out of myself, I've learned the hard way, it's not happening! I've been working on making conscious choices - and living with the consequences.
Today, I just don't like the consequences of waiting till Monday (or after the 4th, or whatever your thought process is). It's really just not worth it to me anymore.
I'd rather feel good....and not have the guilt, the bloat, the misery of waking up Monday hung over from binging or eating "food" that makes me sick.
But once again, I sure notice those mindsets haven't disappeared from my thinking, have they? or I probably wouldn't have written this post.....
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