Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Thursday, met with a fitness trainer via my manager at work who was interviewing him. Like what I heard. He was willing to work with me on a limited amount of sessions. Great! Signed up for two session.
Friday, feeling good, work going well, get a call after manager leaves that her wallet has been stolen. She tells me to check mine because hers had been in our break room. Sure enough...its gone...so is all of our money. Insurance cards, other credit cards, even the social security cards of my entire household! (Why did I have all those SS Cards with me? I forgot to take them out of my wallet after Kindergarten Registration. I don't make it a practice to carry them. Awful timing...huh?)
Also, Friday, husband calls to tell me that our gas cans he just filled the day before were stolen. Two gas cans full of gas just walked off from in front of our garage in broad daylight and not one neighbor saw a thing.
So, I've been dealing with multiple phone calls, reports, begging and pleadings the past few days and my stress levels are up there pretty darned high. I decided after not sleeping very well again last night, that I would reschedule my personal training appt. to a time when I was more up to it.
Then, I had a realization! This is exactly why I'm still in the rut I've been in for the past few years. Every time something happens, be it a little bump in the road or a significant event...I put myself off. So, I said, enough is enough! I made myself go to my appt. and worked out like I haven't in a very, very long time. I doubted my abilities and had a good coach to push me beyond my own limitations and I succeeded! I did more than I thought I could do and I felt great for it.
I think after my session next week, I'm going to sign up for more. I won't need a coach forever but I need one now. I'm worth the extra money and time. In the long run its cheaper than some of my medical expenses.
I still have the stress of everything else that's happened. Including having my card declined at the grocery after going to the gym. However, I also have the knowledge that I've done something really good for me today. That feels great! Its something no thief can rob me of, whether a stranger who stole my wallet or my own self-defeating attitude... and I kind of like having that little bit of control back.
Crazy may happen...but I'm still in the game...to win it!
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Ever have one of those weeks where no matter what you do you feel like a giant balloon worthy of being in the Macy's Day Parade? This is one of those weeks for me. Water retention, generally bloated and puffy...yuck! I'm blaming hormones.
Monday, February 11, 2013
After taking care of sick kids and fighting a sinus cold the past two weeks it has all come to a screeching halt for me. My motivation is there, my strength and fortitude are not.
Best thing that happened today: Picked up the SP Kindle recipe book for vegans/vegetarians for only $2.99...Awesome deal. Looking forward to giving it a going through and trying some of the recipes.
Worst thing of the day: You'd think it would be kissing the porcelain throne all evening, but no. It was another argument with my husband. He has been so negative and I, being sick and feeling cruddy, had a hard time holding back this time. However, I didn't attack him...I simply asked him to do me a favor...
"Think back over the past two months and tell me one positive comment that you have made to me." I never got an answer.
1-Either he didn't try or;
2- He did try and realized the answer to that question was ZERO, ZILCH, NADA. Not one positive comment.
3- The part that may bother me most is that if he came to the conclusion of #2, why couldn't he at least apologize? Rather, he doesn't seem affected by this at all.
If you haven't been doing your best to make your partner feel special, secure, appreciated and loved...tell them you realize it...tell them you are sorry and make a change. It would have made a huge difference in my day. I'm sure it would make all the difference to someone else who was feeling neglected.
Saturday, February 09, 2013
So last night I decided I had a lot of wasted time while cooking dinner. It was a process of stir, wait, stir, wait...which lead to BORING! So I formulated a little plan to kick the boredom, keep my food from scorching and work on my fitness minutes...
The Lunge and Stir Method!
I did sets of lunges, wall push ups, modified tricep dips and some stretching in between the monotonous stirring of my veggies and taters. The results?
Nothing scorched and my buns are feeling those lunges today. AWESOME!
Making excuses about being limited on time has been one of my downfalls in the past. This time I'm working toward being more creative with my workouts so I can fit them into my daily life. Those few minutes really made a difference in the way I felt about myself last night and the way my gluts and hams are feeling today.
Its one little victory I'm taking for myself and I plan on using as often as I can. Those little steps lead to big places as long as you keep taking them.
Thursday, February 07, 2013
Okey dokey, I'm watching the recorded episodes of Biggest Loser that I missed. (Yay for the DVR when I'm sick.) I'm at the episode where they surprise the teams with an impromptu 5K run...
(Flashback!) A couple years ago I really wanted to do a 5K and work my way up to a marathon for my 40th year. I didn't get encouragement. I got laughed at. I did lose a little weight, but depression and life circumstances took their toll and I succumbed to them. I gave up. Totally gave up on me.
(Flash forward!) So here the red, white and blue teams are trucking along in this 5K. These people are all heavier than I am. They all have struggles and issues to deal with. Jackson has to puff on an inhaler due to his lungs starting to tighten up on him and he can't breathe. Did he quite? NO! He kept on going.
Each and every person on that show crossed the finish line. And I bawl like a baby as I watch them do it. Remembering a time when I wanted to be doing the same kind of personal challenge. So after calming myself down I asked myself a very important question: "What's stopping me now?"
The answer? I'm the only thing standing in my way.
New question: "Why and what am I going to do about it?"
The answer? I have lost sight of my own strengths. I wanted to be saved. However, I'm the only one who can save me. I have to put some effort into me and if others want to jump on board with their support and approval that would be wonderful. As much as I want it, some days crave it...it isn't necessary for me to keep moving forward.
So what I'm doing is looking into some upcoming 5Ks and I'm going to sign up for a local one early in the season. Even if I have to walk a little I'll still have the accomplishment to encourage me. Then, I plan on doing another and by the end of the season I'd like to kick in at least one 10K.
Did I mention I already did research on several 5K runs that support some great causes that aren't too far from home? I did. Tomorrow, I plan on registering for at least two of them. I just have to do some schedule checking and planning to make sure I don't have a reason to miss either one of them. It also helps that tomorrow is pay day and I'm pretty broke...LOL!
So, the next time I cry over a 5K run...those tears are going to be JOYFUL! I can do this...I WILL DO THIS!
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