Oh to be skinny..sigh. Its a quest i have been on since having my last baby 4 years ago. WOW 4 years!! Awe. The dream keeps me tracking cals and obsessing over pants sizes. Until...I decided to train for an Ultra marathon! I quickly realized I cannot eat eat 1600 cals and run 35+ miles a week!! So I am gonna stay chunky, not weigh in and run a 50K!
I do seem to have deflated a bit. 1 month "progress"
I still lift just not as heavy
Ill keep running and save skinny for the others who want it
Ever feel like that???? Why aren't people telling you that you look anorexic or that you need to add bacon back in your life?? Yeah thats how I feel everytime i watch the biggest loser finale.
I was stressing the other day that I feel like I dont LOOK like a distance runner. I did 14 miles the other day!! Isnt that a distance runner????And still in my brain I am like I know I look silly and FAT! Yes crazy brain.
I ran w/o my knee socks the other day and in new shoes. I looked at the back of them to see how dirty they got and was surprised how muscular my legs are becoming!!!!
I am eating better again and trying to eat more organic and nonGMO , even my mayo!
Well I am not the biggest loser but but I am also not the biggest fatty. Put your crazy self in check if you ever get like me.
OK so if you have "known" me even 2 months you know that I OBSESS over my stomach!! daily I think of scams to get rid of it!! Really I do. Hey!!!! you say, why not eat less????
I read about these..yes I need 2. I will use them everyday for 1 month to see if they work!
Then I got to thinking(after i got over this might actually work feeling) when will anyone ever see me with out my shirt? If I was in a crisis situation and had to rip mine off right now, would people shriek in horror?
I guess i ll keep working on looking better in my clothes.
I am going back to the first workout/nutrition routine I was on when I met the Hubby!!! So far I have the fitness down(duh) now really working on nutrition!! if I stick with it I lose a TON of weight!!! I am on week 3 now. Annnnnnd lost 1 pound-.- the hubby lost 7-.- BUT he sticks with eating religiously!!! So looking to get 5 down by feb 1st!! I can do it!!
The thing is, I may have only lost ONE pound but I know I am looking better and getting stronger. I am working on getting past negative self bashing.
I wasnt able to fit into my new jeans for our anniversary date(damn me for not buying lycra). They just wouldnt pull up any farther over my thighs!!! I will wear these comfortably Feb 1st!!!
Whats nice is we get one free day a week! And I made steak for the hubs and that cake??? Oh my!! From a great market.