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The Prisoner, identity and the lost weekend

Tuesday, September 02, 2014



My cat hasn't been himself for nearly a week. I started noticing that he wasn't his usual suck-up, pushy self. Then there was that he self-selected NOT to go outside for a few days. I could see he still drank his water and ate a little, used the litter box. But he just wasn't his usual self.

Finally on Sunday morning, he decided to go outside, and I let him, even though he wasn't looking his most robust. He didn't come back until this morning. And he's a little more himself.

Why tell this tale? I suppose because I've had "one of those weekends" when I kind of implode on myself. Three days in a row without 10,000 steps. No workouts. Binge TV watching with Netflix (finished my last book). Eating what was in the house, at one point to feeling bloated and not tracking (did a little after the fact tracking of one day, then just gave up on it). Sleeping quite a bit, both late in the morning, and taking naps. In short, being a slug. Did just the minimum household things. Didn't even leave the house.

This morning? Trash is out, cat is back, and I am rousing back to what I now know is my natural self. It was indeed reactionary behavior, and I think a LOT of it has to do with identity.

The "who am I?" question always comes back whenever I step into the spotlight. Because being in the spotlight, only the part played shows up. And the actor is NOT the role. I had some pretty heady experiences with the governor in the audience. And I have three events in September. I think the "down" weekend was both reactionary and anticipatory.

Time to get back. It's taper/race this month. Treat yourself gently was only the beginning... recognizing that even this kind of lapse is part of the process? A form of growth.

LIFE is good. It's better when I'm fit. Being well rested is a HUGE part of being fit. Life is at its best when supported by and supportive of kindred spirits on their own journeys to a healthier lifestyle. Creatively, consistently, and consciously making choices that support that journey, I remain GRATEFUL for each and every day.

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SLENDERELLA61 9/2/2014 8:11PM

    Glad the cat -- and you -- are back! Part of me wanted to caution you to quit taking on those spotlight events. Maybe they are toxic for you. But then I wonder if each time you don't grow a little and maybe you are just becoming stronger. I guess only you can figure out what you need. I know that in the long run you've got this and you'll make it work. Hope you can figure out how to benefit from your opportunities (governor, wow!) and bask in the limelight!! -Marsha

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LINDAKAY228 9/2/2014 6:44PM

    Maybe the cat found a girlfriend LOL! Anyway, glad you can see the weekend as a learning experience and not get down on yourself over it the way I would. You pick up and move on. I will remember that.

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OVERWORKEDJANET 9/2/2014 5:04PM

    S&^T happens.
Maybe the cat had a date.
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BUGGYS 9/2/2014 4:08PM

    Life is good but it can always be better. I am done beating myself up because every time I do, I seem to throw in the towel and everything I have done to get to healthy is lost. I need to get back to my routines and that includes checking in on all my spark buddies! emoticon

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MSLZZY 9/2/2014 2:00PM

    I gave up trying to track the nutrition angle after the State Fair. Just too many times when I didn't write it down. Not to worry. Those days are past. Get back to your happy self. Glad the cat and you are back to normal, whatever that may be.

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TRAVELGRRL 9/2/2014 1:03PM

    When you get a bit overwhelmed with activity, or being out of your comfort zone, a little pullback is important. The fact that you are back in full action today tells me that you were right to take the weekend "off" from your normal frenetic pace! Have a wonderful and productive week!

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TRUE-NESS 9/2/2014 1:02PM

    It's great that you're feeling more "yourself"... I'm still caught wondering what was going on with the kitty cat, though. I guess he didn't tell you, huh? LOL Anyway, glad he, and you, are "back."

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DLDMIL 9/2/2014 11:27AM

    Everyone needs a stacation, and yours was a well deserved one. Have a great day.

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FEEDTHEHUNGER 9/2/2014 10:39AM

    Personally, I think it is essential to let yourself off the hook every now and again. Not so that you can abuse your body but so that you can have a short respite from do this, now do that. You got it, it restored you, you're off. Prisoner seems to have been mirroring your mood. I'm so glad he's back.

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1CRAZYDOG 9/2/2014 9:41AM

    Great analysis. Now it's onward. And life IS good!

Glad Prisoner is back.

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GABY1948 9/2/2014 8:12AM

    Totally understand! But you have 1000% more spotlight than I EVER have....so my heart feels for you! Yes, glad the cat is feeling better and I know that you will too...

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WATERMELLEN 9/2/2014 8:12AM

    Absolutely: part of the process. Like you I was processing some stuff over the weekend . . . and that's OK. Necessary even.

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KANOE10 9/2/2014 7:52AM

    Treat yourself gently. You are a vibrant warm person who has reacted to life and is ready to get back to your health routines. You are doing well.

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NELLJONES 9/2/2014 7:47AM

    I'm glad your cat is feeling better. You will, too.

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Let's talk about reactionary behavior!

Saturday, August 30, 2014

I have commented back to a couple of blogs this morning that I actually read last night while in the midst of a reactionary binge. Yes, people. I have reactionary binges. I can almost predict them any more.

What is a reactionary binge in my world? It's a binge brought on from being out of balance in some way. The old HALT acronym? Never let yourself get too Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired? (I could add over-peopled in my lexicon, but that is a specialized form of Tired for an introvert like me.) Those are the times when I am vulnerable.

I've had four of these "corrections" in the past thirty days. I think there are elements of each of the HALT things in them. If I have been under-eating for my training range, that would trigger the H. If I have been pressured to do things that I really don't feel in harmony with (either at work or because someone asked me and in a moment of flattery-induced weakness or people-pleasing I said yes...) that could be fueling the A, even if I'm in denial about being angry (I'm not real good at identifying anger in myself). If I am feeling "misunderstood", or "out of place" in a crowd, that can be the L, even (and sometimes especially) if I'm surrounded by people. And finally, sleep deprivation and over-peopling can feed that T. So can trying to make too big changes in my lifestyle at once, because it requires effort.

It's very important for me to stop some things "at the grocery store" so that when one of these vulnerable times comes up... I have to stop and think about what I'm doing. Sometimes the great justifier steps in and says... emoticon "It's H... it's really H... you haven't been eating enough." And when the scale says so, too... and it has since about the end of June... a moderate amount of excess eating is probably justified.

I can sometimes see myself setting me up for such a thing, even as I walk through the aisles of the grocery store. Which I did on Thursday after work. I purchased several things on the premise that they would be used as recovery fuel after my long workouts. Only... I'm about to enter taper weeks for my next Olympic triathlon... hello! I bought chocolate milk. And some chocolate bars. And 85% cocoa dark chocolate... do you see a pattern here? I do!

In my defense, I also bought Brussels sprouts, tomatoes, bananas, pineapple, and a gorgeous fresh peach! But in my vulnerable state, which do you think will be consumed?

OK, so now let's talk about the A. Has anything been bugging me? Have I felt put upon? Well, I don't know if it's Angry, but I've been a bit anxious about work... the old deadline pressure.

And the L? Misunderstood? Eh... not sure... sometimes there is this reaction after I've spoken in public, which I've done twice in the past two weeks, telling my tale first at the Governor's wellness award luncheon, and again to a smaller group including a doctor from the CDC who was here looking at the State's workplace wellness program. Yeah, condensing your tale down into 10 minutes can make one feel that you've left important things out... and of course having the attention, and people come up to me later in the week to thank me? Distinctly uncomfortable... I'm not crazy about the pedestal thing, you know? Because I'm NOT perfect, I'm so very human with flaws... too much praise tends to make me feel like a bit of a fraud. I KNOW some of you out there totally "get" that!

Which leaves the T. Tired was definitely in play. I've inserted extra rest days this week, but I have NOT been getting the sleep I need. And over-peopled to the max (work had lots of meetings, in addition to those speaking things). I had promised myself a cave weekend this weekend and then I had knee-jerked response said "yes" to an open water swim event for this morning... and I hadn't been feeling terrific all week (ragweed season is in high gear, and we've had weather fronts).

So... perfect storm? Mayyyybe?

And yes, I went through most of those treats between work and bedtime. It was compact, but it was nearly 4000 calories. This morning the scale was back up into my maintenance range, and I felt cruddy. I bowed out of the open water swim, and have given myself permission to have a cave weekend. It is what I need. The binging? Stopped. Analyzed. Ready to move on. Because we all have reactions. Sometimes we handle them better. Sometimes not so much.

LIFE is good. It's better when I'm fit. It's at its best when I am NOT too Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired... when I parent myself, often with the help of those kindred spirits who hang out in real life and online, walking their own journeys! Creatively, consciously (even when conscious of the reactions in progress), and consistently (not perfectly) making choices that support the long term healthy lifestyle... I remain GRATEFUL, for each and every day!

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WOMANWITHGRIT 9/1/2014 9:08PM

    Hope you are in a new relaxed place by the time I am posting this. You laid a great foundation for it in this blog. Honesty and recognition for something different.

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PHEBESS 9/1/2014 12:38PM

    I understand the over-peopled part - that probably stresses me out more than just about anything!

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BROOKLYN_BORN 9/1/2014 11:38AM

    HALT - I'm going to remember that, especially the T. That's when I eat to "keep myself going" and all I really need is a nap. See, I'm retired so I can nap if I want to.

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LEANJEAN6 9/1/2014 10:02AM

    I have those times too Barb!------best not to have the trigger foods in the house here!--Hugs to you-Lynda

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KPETSCHE 8/31/2014 9:45PM

    Have a great holiday weekend and enjoy your relaxation. Great lesson!!
Thanks Barb
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MJREIMERS 8/31/2014 9:17PM

    I like the HALT. It really hit home with me.

Hang in there and work to not HALT. Good luck with all your activities. I can take care of the L, for at least one afternoon. If you are so interested in lunch a car ride, you can assist me in finding the beginnings of my 2 routes for the Double 1/2 Mary. emoticon

Keep moving!

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BOOKAPHILE 8/31/2014 4:20PM

    Thanks for the acronym. I'll have to remember it!

You did well in short-circuiting the binge. I, sadly, did not, and now I have pounds to lose.

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LINDAKAY228 8/31/2014 11:51AM

    I''ve had those binges too, usually because I let myself get too tired. I ate at the Chinese buffet which was not a good idea. Lots of vegetables but they were deep fried with batter! And fruit but it had a sauce on it. Today back on track and some rest because I've been pushing myself too much. So I know how you feel!

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KANOE10 8/31/2014 8:46AM

    I can understand that too much praise can make you feel like you are on a pedestal. I had that experience after my speech at the Y. We are simply humans finding our own way to health. I had not heard of the HALT term, but think it is s useful tool for self analysis. You have excellent insights into yourself. I hope you have a good cave weekend and feel better. You sound ready for a back on track week.

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FEEDTHEHUNGER 8/31/2014 7:44AM

    I'm glad you're giving yourself what you need, Barb! Your job and training schedule put a lot of pressure on a solitary soul. The kindness you are showing to yourself by gently figuring it out and taking soothing remedial action will pay off Big Time in the week ahead.

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SHRINKBUG 8/31/2014 6:17AM

    Oh, I definitely relate to the 'L' that comes from being put on a pedestal for admiration! It's a special kind of pressure. If I want to put pressure on myself to eat a certain way, or to do certain exercise, or to do my job particularly well, that's one thing. And a good thing.

If I am being praised/singled out for any of those, it is PRESSURE. Feels like being on display -better live up to everyone's expectations! Daunting, especially when the other factors of HALT are playing their sneaky roles!

Thank you for sharing your insights. Wishing you some quiet time for the rest of the weekend. . .

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SPEDED2 8/30/2014 9:35PM

    R & R is called for!

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DLDMIL 8/30/2014 8:31PM

    emoticon emoticon a cave weekend is definetly needed.

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WATERMELLEN 8/30/2014 6:52PM

    Well done. Your HALT analysis is expert -- nobody knows more about you than you, and you've "halted" it by figuring it out. (That peopled out thing is a biggy for me . . . and also if I've been up on a pedestal and feeling like a fraud, gotta PROVE I'm a fraud, right???)

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LKWQUILTER 8/30/2014 5:28PM

    Thanks so much. I had not thought about why I had a binge but it makes so much sense. The only difference is I have not reached my goal weight.

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SLENDERELLA61 8/30/2014 4:19PM

    Brilliant analysis plus self-awareness. You will use this info to keep on improving. So smart. You don't have to be perfect to be absolutely, positively a success. That you are willing to share such details of your struggles means that more people will come to understand that it can be done; that they can do it; that you (and I ) are doing it, never mind the setbacks. You are far, far from a fraud. You never said you were perfect. You can admit weaknesses and still claim the truth - you are strong, you are determined, you are achieving, athletic, independent, logical, hard-working, and much more.

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MOBYCARP 8/30/2014 3:27PM

    Hmm. I may not have reactionary binges, but I recognize that HALT thing. I really haven't been too hungry in a long time, and haven't been too angry in even longer; but lonely still happens now and then, and tired requires near-constant watchfulness.

My reaction is more likely to be non-productive activity, with the twist of staying up too late and making the T worse. But your analysis of what causes this reaction sounds very, very familiar. Thank you for the analysis.

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OVERWORKEDJANET 8/30/2014 3:11PM

    I like the acronym and it applies to my ife this wee. Meals well-thought out then BAMMM! Chips or cheese.
I can skip the chocolate.
Ice cream? Found that too.
At the end of the week I had a zero balance so the harm done was to my ego(and maybe a bit of cholesterol).


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DALID414 8/30/2014 1:49PM

    Thanks for the HALT lesson.
Last week I was over-peopled (T).
This week I was getting used to no people again (L).
My nephews' first week of Kindergarden was tough, since it's now being recommended he be pulled back into pre-K (A). (Not his fault, I know, but still...)
With the wacky schedules the past two weeks it's taking some getting used to feeling H until a good time to eat without shoving things in my pie hole!
My nephew might take up some of my 3-day weekend time, but it's ok, he's great company!

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COASTAL6 8/30/2014 1:19PM

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GLORIAMAJDI 8/30/2014 12:53PM

    I like that acronym, HALT, first I have heard of it and I need to write it down because I can totally relate. I know that I eat sometimes when I am not hungry. And I know that there are some foods that are dangerous triggers for me. I try to avoid having them in the house and treat myself to them outside of the house rarely. And one of the things that I am seriously working on right now...the T. Tired. I am never getting enough sleep. I actually did much better last night. But one night? Not going to cut it, it needs to be MOST nights!

Hope that you have a restful weekend Barb, enjoy and relax!

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LIVINGLOVINLIFE 8/30/2014 12:47PM

    So sounds like you are tired stressed and binged. Hope this weekend gives you time to distress and eat healthier. Now the big part. Say NO. That is my big problem. I am also an introvert but with my people pleaser mania I often say yes when I know NO is what I need to say. I have to have alone down time to function properly. Try to get past this last week. Rest and you will be ready to get out and take on the world again.

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NEW-CAZ 8/30/2014 11:42AM

    rest and regroup Barb!

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1CRAZYDOG 8/30/2014 11:30AM

    That's really it in the nutshell for me -- not bringing the "junk" into the house in the first place. HALT is what I have in place too.

HUGS and have a good weekend.

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ALICIA363 8/30/2014 10:11AM

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May this weekend give you time to regroup and recharge.

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GABY1948 8/30/2014 10:10AM

    You have definitely been busy all summer....it is a well deserved (and I always use that word sparingly because it is the catch word for seemingly all commercials for anything) cave weekend. I am the same type cave dweller! Have a wonderful long and quiet weekend!

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HOLLYM48 8/30/2014 9:32AM

    You do need a relaxing weekend all to yourself to rest and recoup. Today is another day and I hope it is a better one for you! You are amazing and I don't know how you find the time or energy to do all that you do. So give yourself a break this weekend and let yourself have a spa day and read a good book or watch a good movie and just be kind to just you!


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MORE

Friday, August 29, 2014

As I was cogitating over what I wanted to share today, several topics went through my mind. Then I read a couple of blogs by my Spark friends, and came across this one: www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal.asp?id=MIRAGE727


Yes, Monty, I'm pointing you out, I'm "liking" and setting you up! Because what you said so resonates with me.

Another that contributed to my Spark this morning was Gaye's Inspirational quote for the Day, so THANK YOU for spurring my motivational juices, too:

www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769154


I scanned back over the things I've written and focused on the past few weeks, and came up with the subject: MORE.

A healthy lifestyle is about MORE. That's the thought. It's not all about food. It's not a diet. It's not all about exercise. It's not a race. It's not ALL about addressing your feelings and issues. This isn't therapy. But ALL of these things, and MORE... lead to a healthy life.

It's surrounding yourself with support. It's making sure you get things checked out medically when appropriate. It's trying new things and keeping what works. It's balancing your life to include things that feed your soul and spirit. It's taking care of yourself so you HAVE something to give back to the world, so you CAN fulfill whatever your personal mission is on this plane.

A Spark program is so much MORE than any one element. And people, SparkPeople.com is a powerful weapon in the war against all kind of woes. It gives one belonging. It gives one the knowledge that one is NOT alone. It gives one the tools to take action. By sharing, we inspire one another. By asking, we bond. Sparking for me, is the difference between the roller coaster of long relapses and a journey interrupted only by smaller bumps in the road.

LIFE is good. It's better when I'm fit. It is at its best when balanced and shared at touch points along the journey, with kindred spirits who are working on their own journeys. Creatively, consciously, and consistently making choices that support those journeys that make up our LIVES, I remain GRATEFUL for each and every day!

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LINDAKAY228 8/31/2014 11:52AM

    Great blog!

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JOYINKY 8/30/2014 9:14AM

    Thought I'd stop by and say HI! We show up in a lot of the same places. :)
I love your blog and totally agree! I have MORE in my life than EVER! No desire here to "take the weekend off"! Thanks for the links. Have a great weekend.

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LEANJEAN6 8/30/2014 8:14AM

    Everyone has their own journey Barb-----

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SUSANNAH31 8/29/2014 7:36PM

    Thanks for a very inspirational blog -- with both your SP friends' words as well.

"SparkPeople.com is a powerful weapon in the war against all kind of woes. It gives one belonging. It gives one the knowledge that one is NOT alone. It gives one the tools to take action. By sharing, we inspire one another. By asking, we bond."

I could not agree more. This is one very special community!

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BROOKLYN_BORN 8/29/2014 6:14PM

    Hanging out here on SP helps me stay in control. Regardless of the problem or temptation, there are people and support and resources to deal with it.

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SLENDERELLA61 8/29/2014 3:31PM

    Read Monty and Gaye's blog. Glad you pointed me to them. You are absolutely right. Healthy living is not about deprivation and giving up. It's about having more, and more of the important things in your life like energy, health, feeling in control, being in control, liking and respecting yourself -- yeah, more of the important stuff!! -Marsha

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GABY1948 8/29/2014 11:26AM

    Thanks for the mention here, Barb. I loved the other one you mention too. But then, since following you and branching out to blogs that were referred to by you or your friends, my whole outlook about Spark has been different. I thank you for all your great blogs and friends that have blogs that I have learned from too. I agree with them all...this is not a diet nor a temporary life by any means!

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1CRAZYDOG 8/29/2014 11:04AM

    Touche! The nutrition and weight management are small potatoes (forgive the pun) compared to the emotional/mental/even spiritual work to be done! And for sure, surrounding yourself with a good support system is crucial.

Great blog. Food for thought!

HUGS

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MSLZZY 8/29/2014 11:00AM

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Have a super weekend! HUGS!

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FEEDTHEHUNGER 8/29/2014 10:02AM

    By all means, one has to resist the idea that weight loss/maintenance is simple or easy. It can look that way from the outside, but from the inside we know that we have to employ a variety of continuing resolutions, remain open to correction and take a lot of action steps to get there and stay there.

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GLORIAMAJDI 8/29/2014 8:59AM

    Thanks for sharing these two blogs, both very good. I especially enjoyed Gaye's!

I think you are right about the support and weight management being THE WHOLE PACKAGE - there is more to it than just "dieting." I think that is why so many of us fail at this - we don't consider this as a complete wellness program. I sure do hope that I have it right this time...!

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KANOE10 8/29/2014 8:35AM

    I liked both of the articles. Spark people is a powerful weapon against all kinds of woes.
And we do get inspired by sharing with each other. Looking for more and more ways to stay healthy and be happy is a continual daily goal. I liked your more!

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WATERMELLEN 8/29/2014 8:04AM

    Read both of your linked blogs -- and together with your own great blog, you've got me set up for the day thanks Barb!!

More is more -- yes it is (although less food might be more also . . . !!!)

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KALIGIRL 8/29/2014 8:02AM

    Like the idea (sort of) but the 'word' doesn't resonate, particularly in the 'more is better culture' I grew up in.

A 'better' word (for me) is Living - (sadly the number 2 definition behind income) "the pursuit of a lifestyle of the specified type" or perhaps even 'more', Alive - "alert and active; animated"... (not to mention "AWAKE, AWARE AND APPRECIATIVE OF ALL that IS".)

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So what's with this cooking for myself thing?

Thursday, August 28, 2014

To continue the story of the book:


Those of you who read regularly will remember this was a book recommended for my sister by her daughter. Some Spark members have gone the whole nine yards (pun intended) to try the Whole 30 program, i.e. eliminating all the things they tell you to eliminate for 30 days, and moving on to reintroduce food groups one at a time. This is a fine experiment to determine just what food sensitivities, among the most common, one might personally be affected by.

Considering this to be a bit on the extreme side for me, I am nonetheless taking some of their information and trying it out. I mentioned trying out their recommended fats (they are kind of "down" on walnuts, which was one of my go-to's), so I'm trying switching it up, with cashews, hazelnuts and macadamia nuts. I have enjoyed the difference. They are REALLY "down" on sugars and artificial sweeteners. I have reduced the number of times I put artificial sweetener in my coffee, but I haven't given up the sugar free gum.

Some of you are aware that I had continued to use the Jenny Craig brand foods as the bulk of my "training table", simply due to convenience, and because as processed foods go, they seem to have better published nutritional counts than what I see in my grocery store for similar products. BUT... at the level I've been training at... I have to supplement, and that means real, fresh, cook for myself food.

So I'm reducing the amount of JC foods, and introducing the healthiest options I can. I am NOT giving up my steel cut oats or my organic skim milk (no matter what the book says). But I AM adding in organic, range-fed chicken eggs, and organic meats, beef, chicken, wild caught fish... which is every bit as pricey as the JC stuff, but with high quality nutrition and the calories I need.

Thus... cooking for myself. Which takes some more planning and organization than I'd had to do. It's work. But it's also creative endeavor. And... so far the results are? I'm more satisfied with my dinners... I feel full, I sleep better, and several nights I have not felt the need of the evening snack. But it's still work.

This is an experiment. We shall see how it goes... will I get to the point of giving up dairy and grains completely? I very much doubt it... the experiment is in some ways tempting... but as I said in an earlier blog while I was still reading and not fully convinced... what I was doing seems to work. This blend seems to be working, too. So, why try to fix it? Other than to satisfy curiosity, that is.

LIFE is good. It's better when I'm fit. It is at its best when I find I have touch points with kindred spirits as I travel on this journey. Creatively, consistently, and consciously making choices to support a life of health and activity, I remain GRATEFUL for every single day.

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LEWILL1982 8/29/2014 8:54AM

    You know, when I was cooking more, I was eating so much better and felt much more satisfied. Lately, I've been busy and haven't had as much time, relying on what's in my freezer or picking something up, even if it is healthy. I made a goal earlier in the week to recommit next week to more cooking and getting more produce back into my diet. Whole foods, learning to eat mindfully, eating to live, not living to eat. It's hard, but an important concept to make habit of.

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SUSANNAH31 8/29/2014 5:28AM

    Cooking is a creative act - and I'm hoping you will find the pleasure in doing it, in spite of the work involved.
Congratulations on giving this a try.

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SPEDED2 8/28/2014 11:07PM

    Feeling fit is the goal, no matter what road you travel. Good luck!

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MJREIMERS 8/28/2014 9:49PM

    I'm interested to hear how the 30 days go. I try to eat really "clean" with very little processed foods and I've tried eating more free range meat. I do like farm eggs, but no one else in the family will try them. (They are afraid of what they may find in them.) emoticon

Keep us informed on what you learn and how you are doing!

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DALID414 8/28/2014 9:40PM

    I'm not THAT curious to see if I can do it for 30 days emoticon
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KALIGIRL 8/28/2014 3:16PM

    Love the new creative experiment.
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TRAVELGRRL 8/28/2014 1:45PM

    Going the "whole 9" didn't work for me, but I gained a lot of insight and definitely am eating more grass-fed, organic, free range "humanely raised" meats. I feel better for the animals and for me!

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1CRAZYDOG 8/28/2014 12:28PM

    IMHO, that's the problem w/most structured eating plans . . . one size fits all, but we're NOT all one size. IN other words, good for you for modifying as you see makes you feel the BEST . . . that's what it's all about.

HUGS

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DLDMIL 8/28/2014 11:25AM

    Happy cooking. It is very difficult to cook for one, (I personally hate it), but have been doing more myself. Thanks for another great inspiring blog.

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SANDICANE 8/28/2014 11:18AM

    I hope you LOVE cooking for yourself! It's one of the best gifts we can give to us!

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FEEDTHEHUNGER 8/28/2014 11:01AM

    I have found the satiety factor increases exponentially when I'm eating whole foods; however, like you, I am not willing to give up what is working to go after something so jarring as eliminating the foods that have kept me on plan for just over 2 months now. And also like you, I am making incremental adjustments, one small one at a time, to my eating and exercise behaviors to gradually increase my health.

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GLORIAMAJDI 8/28/2014 10:15AM

    It would be rough for me to give up my yogurt (and steel cut oats), but I would love to try this. Last year I put this on my list of things to try....just not sure yet how it will fit in my lifestyle, but it definitely seems like a good way to eat more healthy!

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MSLZZY 8/28/2014 9:23AM

    I would have a hard time giving up dairy and grains but I do try to eat enough to be satisfied without resorting to extra carbs. Wheat bread is my treat.

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FORZACHANDMATT 8/28/2014 9:06AM

    Good for you for trying something new. I am waiting for this book from the library - not sure I'm going to do the whole program but want to read it

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LJCANNON 8/28/2014 8:51AM

    emoticon The only thing I really "Like" to 'Cook' are my Smoothies for exactly the reasons you and others have mentioned -- Fresh, Known Ingredients, with limited additives.

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GABY1948 8/28/2014 8:35AM

    Interesting blog for sure. Some of the things I already do (the no sugar or sweeteners) but as for most of it...I have to revert back to the old OA (I believe) Acronym KISS....Keep It Simple Stupid...me being the STUPID in the acronym. I even those who like you, have gotten so far ahead of me but I still tend to "freak" at too much difference....but after awhile your blogs have convinced me to do other things successfully...so will keep trying to have an open mind...but so far one thing has NOT changed...I still hate cooking but I do do more of it.

Have a blessed Thursday for sure! Thanks for sharing more of your knowledge! That is your blessing to those of us hooked on your blogs...

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NEW-CAZ 8/28/2014 8:34AM

    I prefer cooking from scratch! You're using everything fresh and additive free (hopefully)- so much better for you!

Good luck with the experiment Barb! emoticon

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Early to bed, early to rise

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Makes a Barb healthy, rested and... well, time passing and experience takes care of the wisdom side of things.

I woke early (before the alarm) to the sounds of rain on the roof, and when I took the garbage can to the curb it was cool and wonderful out there! Yes, I'm feeling much better than I did yesterday at wake up time! It's a good thing, because I get to repeat my "testimonial" for the wellness program for a site visitor this noon. I might tell it somewhat differently this time (every time I tell my tale it's different), and I'm taking my envelope full of before and event photos. You've seen many of them here as I've rotated them on and off the Spark page and through the blogs.

I had a little extra time since I woke early, and noticed that the avocado I bought last weekend was ready to use... thus the status. I removed the skin and seeds, added lime juice and fat free Greek yogurt to come up with a "kinda-sorta" guacamole combination. Thanks to WATERMELLEN for the suggestion about the cilantro... maybe next time I'll add that, too. Last week I had tried a ripe banana & avocado blend with added cinnamon and vanilla to make a pudding like thing... very good, too. It's kind of fun, learning new things, trying new flavor combinations, and marveling about how my tastes have changed over time.

I am still working on regaining those "couple of pounds" (which was why the full milk latte yesterday... I had thought about ice cream but it wasn't quite hot enough for me to feel it was really needed... and the latte sounded good). Despite this "splurge", the scale is still below where I want it to be this morning, and I'll keep an eye on the calories to get more in there!

The consultant at the weight loss center told me yesterday that she would have me on 2300 calories a day in maintenance with my training schedule, but I'm having a hard time keeping it averaging in the 1800-1900 range. Been trying to push it to 2000. Thus the experiments with healthy fats. I'd be willing to bet if I ate the way I did LAST year, I would not be having this problem... but then I would not be feeling this good, either. Crap food makes one feel like crap. Bottom line. So I'm going high quality while looking for those calories, latte notwithstanding.

Enough of that! Yesterday was a rest day. Today's plan calls for an easy run. Hoping for cool and dry after work for it.

LIFE is good. It's better when I'm fit. And it is of course at its best with Spark friends who are kindred spirits touching our journeys at common points (and parallel ones). Creatively, consistently, and consciously making choices to maintain a healthy lifestyle, I remain GRATEFUL for each and every day!

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LEANJEAN6 8/27/2014 8:37AM

    rest days are wonderful Barb!!!!---Lynda

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OVERWORKEDJANET 8/27/2014 5:28AM

    I thought about you and rain when viewing the weather map. The avocado mash sounds good. I use it in different ways but I'm happy to match it in a bowl with tomato slices, onion and cilantro and maybe a bit of chili powder. Mine, all mine.

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MOBYCARP 8/26/2014 9:48PM

    As my calorie intake has had to change by 600 or 700 calories per day between full training and unable to run at all, what was added/subtracted to make the difference?

Eggs. I ate more eggs while in training. Two for breakfast instead of one now, two hard boiled eggs in the lunch bag instead of one.

Portion size. When I was doing a BBQ chicken wrap in training, I'd have maybe 72 grams of chicken breast and 21 grams of shredded cheese on the tortilla. Now it's more like 64 grams of chicken and 14 grams of cheese.

Servings of fruit. I ate more apples, oranges, and bananas when I had to fill in more calories than when I have fewer calories to fill in.

Almonds. My go-to source to round out required fat grams, but servings had to be pared back from 28 grams to 14 grams when my calorie range was at its nadir. Fortunately, that coincided with a lower requirement for fat grams.

Of course, I expect the answers that work best for you won't be precisely the answers that worked best for me; but you made me think about what I did. That's good, because there may come a time in the future when I need to remember how to eat at a calorie level several notches up or down from where I am now.

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SPEDED2 8/26/2014 7:54PM

    Gave up the "crap" food in May and now I'm almost pain free. emoticon

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BEAUTY_WITHIN 8/26/2014 7:01PM

    I love how you're ending your blogs with "Life is good. It's better when I'm fit" That's a great reminder!

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WATERMELLEN 8/26/2014 6:09PM

    So true, we are what we eat -- and we're worth optimum food!!

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FEEDTHEHUNGER 8/26/2014 4:37PM

    I think WATERMELLEN had a good blog about healthy fats yesterday with a link to a useful list of which healthy fats have what vitamins and minerals. Sprinkle ground flax on your oatmeal, add some coconut oil to your smoothie, use nut butters on toast instead of margarine, etc. You can get there, Barb and your satiety factor will rock out!

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LINDAKAY228 8/26/2014 4:34PM

    You are so right about the crap food making you feel like crap. Most days I eat healthy since I'm finally living alone and don't have other people bringing junk into my house. But once in a while I give in for some reason to unhealthy foods. I had a physical yesterday and had to go the appointment fasting. By the time I got out it was after 11 am. Course I missed my coffee most LOL. But anyway I ate at a pizza buffet and ate too much. Felt like crap the rest of the day. I have to remember how bad I feel when I eat bad. Glad you are doing so well!

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SLENDERELLA61 8/26/2014 4:21PM

    So glad you are rested, Barb! You make me grateful not only for my fit life, but for each one of your blogs. Enjoy your avocados. Yes, quality calories. You need. You deserve. Enjoy!!!

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DLDMIL 8/26/2014 2:06PM

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Have a great day and hope you get in your run.


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DALID414 8/26/2014 10:57AM

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MSLZZY 8/26/2014 8:57AM

    Nice and cool again this morning and looking for a little rain. Enjoy your day, early start and all. HUGS!

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GABY1948 8/26/2014 8:53AM

    It is so humid and muggy here I can't even imagine running even if I COULD run! UGH I have come to rely on your and some other's blogs that I have subscribed to recently and for me now THAT is what spark is about. I have learned so much more than just being on the teams that "play". Thanks for introducing me to good blogs!

Have a emoticon day whichever way it goes! And whatever you do....and I also have come to learn that "bad" food makes me feel "bad" too....NEVER thought I would hear myself say that!

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NEW-CAZ 8/26/2014 8:45AM

    emoticon have a good one Barb, I hate crappy food, avoid it like the plague!

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LIZABET13 8/26/2014 8:41AM

    I emoticon chocolate avocado pudding. Its just ripe avocado, almond butter, cocoa powder & honey. I'll usually puree it and then put it in the refrigerator, or freezer if I'm feeling impatient.

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KALIGIRL 8/26/2014 8:15AM

    Glad to hear you are adding those healthy fats!
I had a facial this weekend and the esthetician commented on how soft and hydrated my skin was. Definitely due to the Mediterranean eating!

My breakfast smoothie: recipes.sparkpeople.com/recip
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1CRAZYDOG 8/26/2014 8:12AM

    Good for you for experimenting with avocado. That's one of my favorite sources of healthy fat as well!

Have a great Tuesday.

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KANOE10 8/26/2014 8:04AM

    Your experiments sound interesting. Avocado and yogurt could be good. If you put almond butter in yogurt it is quite good and would add good fat calories.
I also wake up early and go to sleep early. Good luck with your training.

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SANDICANE 8/26/2014 8:01AM

    Oh girlfriend! You almost make me want to take up running to be able to eat that many calories!!

Crap food makes me feel like crap too...onward we go with our healthy choices and your healthy lifestyle!

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