Wednesday, September 09, 2009
I'm looking at my motivation which seems to be flagging a bit.
Yesterday was a fine day on program... I got up early and walked for 30 minutes on the treadmill before work. I left work on time. I did my resistance training in the evening. I stayed within my calorie range.
OK, I did stay up just a little later than I would prefer, but still got some solid z's in. So, physically, I was doing things good for me.
Emotions? That's one of my weak points... some folks will probably point at the letter from my ex that arrived yesterday and my response to it: knee-jerk reaction was to provide the assistance he requested. But that's not all I did! I went on to beat myself up over his situation. What's up with that?
What's up with that is that it tends to put me in the "unworthy of self-care" mind frame. Bingo! A real motivational buzz-kill.
So, today: remind myself that I am worth caring for, independent of the rest of this "stuff". I am a human being, and my body deserves my own respect. I deserve to go for walks, to eat healthy foods, and to savor the day and my own life. I am not responsible for the attitudes of others. Not my job to beat myself down to play "can you top this" with tales of woe.
Old habits die hard. Bet there are a few out there who can identify.