Saturday, December 22, 2012
I just posted my status that I have no specific plans for the next four days. That's not entirely true... I have no specific social commitments over the next four days, which include a couple of the most emotion- and memory-filled dates on the calendar: Christmas eve and Christmas day.
So many memories. So much tradition. So much feeling. And none of the structure of the past applies to this year.
I blogged some early plans, but I find I need to reinforce my pep talk as I enter the days. You see, I had planned to work on Monday. The snow storm messed with my internal calendar. Then yesterday afternoon, I got the word I have Monday off, too. Not that I don't appreciate it, but it wasn't my primary plan. And now, here it is, apparently of a sudden, staring me in the face: the dreaded Holiday Weekend. Yes, I said it. Christmas. Dreaded.
Add a touch of insomnia: I found myself awake at 2 a.m., kept the eyes closed... still awake at 3... finally gave up and got up by 4. Sigh. Read a chapter or two in a book. Took a shower. Made the bed. Came downstairs. Brewed the coffee. Will have breakfast between 6 and 7. Have my consultation with my JC center this morning. Will grocery shop. Maybe squeeze in a haircut.
I am plotting my Christmas dinner for one. I'm thinking beef... and I started thinking crock it with cabbage, carrots and onions... a warm, hearty, healthy Christmas dinner. Not too big a piece of meat, since I'm the only one eating it and that means leftovers.
I know I have a couple of runs in the schedule. That should help. But I'm going to let myself feel nostalgic, sad, all those things, too. That's plan B. And I think I might just clean house and start getting my New Year's organization going. OMG, I said that out loud?
Anyway, I shall think of all my extended Spark family, and hope that they are doing well... hugging your loved ones, worshipping in your own ways, and staying SAFE, especially, if you're traveling.
I shall survive! And even thrive! Because I Spark.