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Project Week 2 - Work Week Pep Talk #2

Monday, February 11, 2013

OK, since last week's seemed to work well, we'll try it again.

Best line from last week, so I'm repeating it:

* The donut on the food table will not make it go away.

Some things I felt went well last week:

* The anxiety dissipates when you deal rationally with what's scaring you. Go logic! Channel your inner Spock!

Things I want to do better this week:

* Don't try to do it all yourself. There is a reason it is a team. Share the wealth and delegate.

* Folks want direction, not someone to do it for them. Use your organization skills, that's what they are for.

*Avoid the shiny obects of looking at the code yourself.

* Getting the break walks in will not be easy with the meeting schedule. Do it anyway.

There, that should do it.

Today: planned rest day on the workout schedule. Blood bank appointment at noon. And coaching call tonight (treat).

Hope all my Spark friends have a great week... and we'll just take it one day at a time! Spark on! emoticon

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EBEAMS 2/12/2013 6:19PM

    You can do it! Consider your walk breaks a "gift" to yourself. Would anyone else you know turn down a graciously offered gift??? Nope ... neither should YOU!

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_LINDA 2/12/2013 1:36PM

    LOVE that one -channel your inner Spock! Glad you are going to make the effort to let it be a team project. No sense heaping everything on yourself when you can give it to someone else to do!!
Curse those treats -they seem to multiply like rabbits and never go away!!! May the force be strong within you!!
Make your week great!!

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MSLZZY 2/11/2013 11:41PM

    Good one! Channel my inner Spock!

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KARIDIAN1 2/11/2013 10:00PM

    Good thoughts to help you get through this project.

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ANOTHERMOMOF2 2/11/2013 8:09PM

    Have a great week!

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LESLIELENORE 2/11/2013 5:50PM

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LINDAKAY228 2/11/2013 5:37PM

    Very good pep talk! A lot of points I can take and adapt to myself becaus I need a pep talk too this week!

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SLENDERELLA61 2/11/2013 4:19PM

    You know precisely what you are doing! You know how to be very productive AND take care of yourself, too. You can do it. You are doing it!! And, believe it or not, this retiree benefits from your logic and commitment. I can obsess over little things that don't matter. Seeing you looking at the big picture helps me, too. Thanks!! I'll SparkOn and I know you will, too!!

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GABY1948 2/11/2013 1:02PM

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DLDMIL 2/11/2013 12:06PM

    delegate tasks and breath. Walk Breaks are very important, keep up the great work. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MEXGAL1 2/11/2013 10:09AM

    sounds good to me
Have a terrific week!

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DEBRITA01 2/11/2013 8:52AM

    As they say, there is no I in Team...good to "delegate and share the wealth". You have a solid plan of action for this week and you inspire me to do the same. emoticon

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HEALTHY4ME 2/11/2013 8:48AM

    Right on ! I will take it one day at a time and as for food choices, one minute at a time it seems.
HUGS and you will have a great week cos you planned to!

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1CRAZYDOG 2/11/2013 8:33AM

    Here's to a great week, Barb. Hang in there! HUGS

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Sunday thoughts and such

Sunday, February 10, 2013

First off, I understand those who say 8 miles is not wimping out. However, when you planned to do 15, and you only do 8, it is a little bit. As long as 15 was not an unrealistic plan to begin with.

Because I knew son was not up to 15, I was thinking run over to his place, have him join me for 3-4 miles (his current distance), then run home. It would have added up to about the right thing for me. The fact that we went over 7? Was due to talking smack to a young fit guy. Beware, fellow mothers of sons. emoticon

He started it. Honest. He was nattering on about weapons, a topic on which I am about as ignorant as they come, but he's an expert. I pointed out that I was not the right audience for his rhetorical questions. And he responded that I was a captive audience: he could run faster than I.

I taunted back that I can run farther / longer than he. And then out it comes, the competitor gene: "Challenge accepted" says he!

I was ready to keep going when we slowed to a walk for his foot, so I believe both our points were made. Hopefully today I'll do another intermediate to "make up" for yesterday's intermediate distance.


It is nasty windy outside today. I went out to the grocery store this morning and as I drove in, saw a cart get loosened from the queue and blown across the lot... I cringed as it neared a parked vehicle. Ouch! Tried to pick a "wise" spot for Dexter to stay while I shopped.

On the way out, I noticed the wind was turning my cart directions I was not pushing it toward, too. When I used to weigh a good deal more, I at least felt anchored. At 120 something, not so much. Methinks this afternoon's run might just be done on the treadmill.

That said, reminders for today include hydration and caffeine level management. I woke this morning with a headache and swollen sinuses. It might be the weather front, but it also could be the hydration / caffeine stuff leftover from yesterday. That was part of my slow start this morning.

So, laundry, groceries, and when I get to the point of "ready to play"... treadmill. Because after yesterday's run? I've still got legs.

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Oh, and in case I hadn't said it lately: I LOVE my Spark friends! We are SOOOO in this together! Spark on... LIFE is good. Continue making it more so with your healthy choices today. emoticon

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SLENDERELLA61 2/11/2013 4:27PM

    WOW! Great blog and you still got legs! I know you'll use them.

I'm a little envious that you can run with your son. Wish I could get my daughter interested in running. or walking. or Zumba. or something active. I do have a niece who could push me if she trained, and I have a nephew who motives me to move, but not necessarily fast.

Happy runnning! Happy training for that marathon!! I'm proud of you, even while I'm still thinking it's probably not for me, but time will tell. Take care, Barb!! -Marsha

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LEANJEAN6 2/11/2013 6:40AM

    Sounds like you are enjoying son #1 b emoticon eing home--Lynda

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_LINDA 2/11/2013 12:54AM

    That was a neat competition with you and your son, but I sure hope his poor feet aren't paying the piper today!! Rather different topic for conversation, weapons :P
Your winds sounds like the ones we get around here. The old joke if it ever stopped here, a lot of people would fall over :P Its fun to have it at your back, but not so much so on the return journey when it drives the snow and grit in your face!!
I am with you on the sinuses -mine have been plugged for a week and nothing is getting rid of it :( I have nasal spray, Allegra D and a sinus rinse (which didn't even go anywhere to tell you how bad they are)
I hope your work week goes sanely!
Spark on!

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PATRICIAAK 2/11/2013 12:12AM

    Sounds like you and your son have a lot in common.

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MOBYCARP 2/10/2013 9:02PM

    He may or may not tell you, but I'm sure he's proud to have a mother who can run that far.

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KARIDIAN1 2/10/2013 8:57PM

    Hubby and I would probably love to talk with him.

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ROXYZMOM 2/10/2013 8:48PM

    Funny how much more we push ourselves when we have a running partner! I am glad you had a great weekend!

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1CRAZYDOG 2/10/2013 8:32PM

    Good job!!! Awesome.

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LINDAKAY228 2/10/2013 6:32PM

    Glad you got to go running with your son, even if he did pick on you some! Fun! We had the high winds yesterday. I drove to a town 2 hours away to do a 5k race, and coming home had 45 - 50 degree winds I found all the way. It wore me out more than the race. At least during the race it wasn't bad. But I know why you decided on the treadmill LOL!

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WATERMELLEN 2/10/2013 6:22PM

    Pushing my loaded grocery cart through deep snow/ruts took all the strength I could muster . . . and then I went over to help another woman (at least 2 decades younger than me). Gotta say, it felt good!!

So I guess I've got a little of that competitive gene in me too . . . .

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MSLZZY 2/10/2013 5:30PM

    Methinks you and DS had a great time and competition
going. I hear you on the wind. It is brisk and cold
and blowing around the light snow that started
about the same time as the wind did. The only
comforting thought is that the 3-5 inches of
heavy, wet snow will NOT be blowing around.

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GABY1948 2/10/2013 4:25PM

    I love your blogs, Barb...don't care if they are happy or have a way with words! Have a great week! And HUGS

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LESLIELENORE 2/10/2013 2:29PM

    I wish I had someone to run with! Be careful with that wind.

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MNTWINSGAL 2/10/2013 2:09PM

    A treadmill run for you today for's too treacherous out there for you. We need you to stay fit so you can make your upcoming marathon. After all....did you know that many of us are running vicariously through you?

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DALID414 2/10/2013 1:27PM

    So technically your son wimped your run yesterday emoticon Don't tell him I said that emoticon

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DEBRITA01 2/10/2013 1:26PM

    I loved your mother-son challenge...I'm sure he knew beforehand but, son must really know now that you're a force to be reckoned with. He may have the speed, but you have the distance and you both seem to have a lively competitive spirit.Sounds like you had a lot of fun running together. If you didn't wear him out, I'm sure there will be more smack talk challenges in the weeks to come:) emoticon

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DLDMIL 2/10/2013 1:03PM

    Competition, isn't it great. I challenged myself yesterday to get my steps up and I finally stopped at 11:00 pm with over 56,000 steps. I know how you feel about our small frames and getting caught in those windy situations and trying to stay upright, it is so difficult at times. Have a great Sunday. emoticon emoticon

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KLMEIRING 2/10/2013 12:41PM

    Grateful for your Blog! I'm smiling at the competitor's challenge. I think that is one of the reasons it is good to exercise with someone. emoticon

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HEALTHY4ME 2/10/2013 12:28PM

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I love you too! you are a super spark friend!!! Your blogs are so great. Take care...

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HPSANDDOLLAR 2/10/2013 12:28PM

  An interesting Day so far. You sound busy.

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Saturday and Son run

Saturday, February 09, 2013

I was looking forward to today, as my son had offered to run with me. It's been since before he deployed, about a year, that we last ran together. Then, I was coming off the hives and all that January / February yuck stuff and barely keeping it together for the 3-4 miles we ran.

Today I kind of "wimped out" in my mind, deciding I didn't have enough lead time to run over to his place and have him join me for the center of the run. Instead, I drove over and we started together. Turns out we did not quite 8 miles which is long for him, intermediate for me now. Yet there is something about running with a companion that just makes the miles go easier.

We ended up walking after about mile 7, as his foot was starting to hurt (he wears those barefoot runners and he's still building distance). And I didn't scare him off enough that he's not willing to go again next weekend.

He's still waiting to hear back about success of a job interview he went for on Thursday. Got my mom-fingers firmly crossed as getting this job makes the whole house/mortgage thing work for them.

Meanwhile, back at the ranch, the laptop has died again, so I'm typing this on the tablet. Sigh. I schlepped the old slow desktop downstairs so I'll have something to use while I send the laptop off for repairs again, so expect shorter blogs for a while. And fewer comments. Because living life is what will take the focus over writing about it, as it should for all of us.

Still... my Spark friends keep me going and know that my thoughts, vibes and cheers are with you all as we walk the journey to healthier lives through small, consistent changes in habit!

Oh, and three years ago, before I started the couch to 5K program? I would NEVER have considered an 8 mile run "wimping out". emoticon

Life's good. Spark on! emoticon

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KARIDIAN1 2/10/2013 9:02PM

    I would be lost without my laptop now.

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CONCHA77 2/10/2013 1:28PM

    Wow, Perfect way to spend time with your son!!! emoticon

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MEXGAL1 2/10/2013 10:52AM

    nice that you got a run in with your son. awesome! yep and 8 miles is surely not wimping out!
Have a terrific day today.

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LEANJEAN6 2/10/2013 10:20AM

    Nice to run /walk with most honourable son #1------love it!!! Lynda emoticon

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OPTIMIST1948 2/10/2013 10:09AM

    8 miles = not wimpy. Besides, its the time together, not the distance traveled.

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KANOE10 2/10/2013 9:37AM

    You are in great running shape if an 8 mile run is an easy one for you. I am very glad your son is safe back at home with you.


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DEBRITA01 2/10/2013 8:36AM

    Coming from someone who doesn't run...8 miles is definitely not "wimping out". Funny how our perspective changes and evolves...3 yrs ago, I'm sure you thought 8 miles was an amazing run. And, how nice that you have your son to run with...I'm sure he makes the miles more fun.

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KASEYCOFF 2/10/2013 4:24AM

    M'self, now, I wouldn't consider a one-mile run "wimping out."

Come to think of it, the verb "run" has a definite non-wimpiness to it, lol!

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MRS.DOYLE 2/10/2013 3:05AM

    You are so lucky to have a running companion. I can't get anyone interested in running with me. I agree it would be more fun.

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MNTWINSGAL 2/9/2013 11:29PM

    I was just thinking the same thing....that 8 miles can hardly be considered "wimping out." It's all relative to where you are in the journey, I guess. Congrats on a nice fun-with-son-run....and on being at that spot in your journey where 8 miles is "meh."

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MIRAGE727 2/9/2013 10:34PM

    I'm so happy you two had a great run today, Barb!
I'm patiently waiting for Gianna to run in a race with us one day! The joy is already there as she walked a 5K in December. Today, I walked with G about a mile to train for her Gasparilla Kids Run next Saturday! It's a wonderful time in our lives!

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WATERMELLEN 2/9/2013 8:37PM

    Here's hoping your son gets that job!

Nice work on that "wimp" run, gotta say!! My work out was on skis . . . gorgeous day!

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1CRAZYDOG 2/9/2013 8:25PM

    Keeping my fingers crossed for your son's success as well! And that's great you both got to run! That is so nice to share that time together.

HUGS Barb.

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DALID414 2/9/2013 7:56PM

    Runs in the family (definition of a short/'wimping out' run)

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ANDI571 2/9/2013 7:45PM

    So great you got to run with your son. Wow three years now, congratulations on such an accomplishment.

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PATRICIAAK 2/9/2013 7:44PM

    Great to have healthy 'family time'.

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_LINDA 2/9/2013 7:16PM

    That is awesome you had a run with your son :)) Interesting he is choosing those barefoot runners, especially if all you will run on is cement in the city. I hope he gets the job!!
Sorry to hear about your laptop -on the second time, many would think its time for a new one.
Hard to believe it was only 3 years ago you did the couch to 5K, what an incredibly FAST advancement in fitness! You rock!!!

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MSLZZY 2/9/2013 6:39PM

    So glad you had time to run together. Isn't it funny
how time changes our perspective.
Hope you get your laptop fixed shortly. HUGS!

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SLENDERELLA61 2/9/2013 6:24PM

    So good for you and your son to run together!! That is just great, Barb. Wise not to push him too far as he builds distance. I definitely don't consider 8 miles wimping out. Was he impressed by your fitness gains? He had to be!! Hope he said so. Please don't be modest; blogs are great places to toot your own horn! Take good care of yourself and Spark On! -Marsha

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HEALTHY4ME 2/9/2013 6:12PM

    LOVE it imagine I consider any run bad, but on a good day I can walk a fair bit. HUGS and glad you have a SON run!!! Awesome!

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A few little lesson reminder notes for myself

Friday, February 08, 2013

1. There is a link between fear and anger, and fear and tears. I learned this in my years married to my son's father. He was an exploder. Seemed calm most of the time, but would suddenly (and I never seemed to be able to predict when) "blow up" with shouting, that eventually led to throwing things, and in the final episode of our marriage... well, we won't go there. I spent years "walking on eggshells" trying to prevent those explosions. Because they scared me.

However, he was smart and articulate guy, despite his problems... and when we were both rational we talked about his response to fear (anger), and mine (tears). Didn't solve the long term problem, which is one of the reasons we are ex-es... but it did offer some insight.

I was keeping a part of me as the "compassionate observer" this week, I began to realize that my anger was indeed linked to inner fears. As I took steps to handle the things I was afraid of, the anger level lessened. As I accepted the things I had no control over, was honest about the mistakes on my part but did not leave out that others made mistakes as well (assertive, not taking it all on myself)... the anger level lessened. As I communicated about the issues involved, and people stepped up... the anger level lessened.

In the end... things that need to get done are being done. So anger was a spur to action, and as uncomfortable as it was (STILL don't like feeling that way)... it is an emotion, and emotions are not permanent states if you don't feed them. Logic is a fine tool. Its regular use is recommended.

2. I know from experience that I can eat to soothe myself. Eating may numb the feelings for a while, but in the end, whether I eat or not, if I do the things I need to do to handle the root cause of the uncomfy emotion... it will dissipate, and things will get better.

I feel much better about myself if I have managed to NOT cave. Although I have also learned to cut myself a break if I do slip-slide... just remember to learn from it.

3. Writing about what I'm going through is an alternative to eating the emotions. I thank those who hung in with reading about it and offering supportive words! Kinda feels like I'm a bit narcissistic, but y'all know I write these as my personal pep talks, right?

If it turns out they are useful for someone else? That's an incredible bonus.


That said, it's FRIDAY! I'm feeling good about surviving this particular week. And I'm looking forward to the weekend, and saying "it was tough, but it was WORTH it!"

Because life is GOOD. Spark on! emoticon emoticon

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KANOE10 2/9/2013 6:14AM

    Good blog. Great comment on not eating your emotions. Writing is a good way to express your emotions. Hope you have a good weekend.


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KASEYCOFF 2/9/2013 2:21AM

    "...emotions are not permanent states if you don't feed them."

I don't remember what your profession is, hon (something to do with computers?), but if you don't do some kind of counseling, you missed your calling.

You really are a gem, Barb. So much of what you say (write) works as pep talks for us too...

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KARIDIAN1 2/8/2013 11:26PM

    You husband reminds me of an uncle (married my dads sister) who would go off for no reason. As little kids my sisters and I had no idea why occasionally we would never see them for a while. He would get upset with relatives and not speak or visit for months. Then show up as if nothing had happened. And no one would know what had happened to upset him. Didn't find this out until years later from my parents how much they walked on eggshells around him.
I think they put up with a lot from him because to us girls, he was our favorite uncle. What I feel bad about looking back and knowing what I do now, is what things were like for my aunt when he was in one of those moods.

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PATRICIAAK 2/8/2013 11:13PM

    You're right! You ARE worth it. Glad our paths have crossed.

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ANDI571 2/8/2013 7:48PM

    I'm so glad you share your story. Even though we have totally different stories with different circumstances, there are times when I see myself. You let us know it's all right to have a past and that one can move forward. That's the thing about Spark that I like. We are different, but alike in so many ways. Keep up the good work Barb!

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DLDMIL 2/8/2013 4:56PM

    Another great and insightful blog. A blog that makes everyone stop and think about what their stressors are and how maybe to resolve them. Thank you so much for being able to blog your feelings and how you worked through the issues, so that we may learn from you.
I hope you have a wonderful weekend. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DALID414 2/8/2013 3:21PM

    Not eating your emotions is definitely easier said than done. Which is what makes us tough emoticon s!

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GABY1948 2/8/2013 1:38PM

    Good blog, Barb. I like that you can be honest with us but more with yourself. Have a great weekend!

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BROOKLYN_BORN 2/8/2013 1:07PM

    "Eating the emotions" That's a phrase I'm going to remember.
Take care of yourself.

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MEXGAL1 2/8/2013 11:37AM

    very interesting. I am so glad that for the most part I have finally stopped th emotional eating. My new way of living is to "diet" everyday so that went we do go out I can splurge. It is working for me.
Have a terrific week end.

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ALOHAEV1 2/8/2013 10:27AM

    Great (and helpful) insights...will keep this in mind as I wander through the eggshells life drops along the way. Hugs {{{ }}}

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DEBRITA01 2/8/2013 9:42AM

    Good insights...Enjoy your weekend!

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1CRAZYDOG 2/8/2013 9:05AM

    Dealing with the root causes of any emotion like fear and anger requires such vulnerability, and that's not easy! BUT you've learned how to do that. It is a constant process throughout life it seems.

HUGS and proud of you that you put yourself first to take care of YOUR needs. It's not easy walking on eggshells. Emotionally and physically exhausting!!

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KALIGIRL 2/8/2013 8:46AM

    Here's to the bonus! Glad you've worked through this one and are better prepared for the next.
You continue to rock my friend.

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CELIAMINER 2/8/2013 8:46AM

    What great insight...thank you!

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LEANJEAN6 2/8/2013 8:32AM

    Oh Barb--I can't imagine living with a guy like that--You are a true survivor!---Lynda emoticon

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ROXYZMOM 2/8/2013 8:15AM

    I can imagine it would be a hard feeling for you to have given your past history. Does your ex have bi polar disorder? That is a tough one to manage.

Writing is a great tool to use and you do it well. I am happy for you digging in and figuring it out.

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_LINDA 2/8/2013 8:15AM

    I can't imagine having to live a life with someone 'walking on eggshells' :(( So very sorry you experienced it :(( That is every bit like being abused even if you were not actually physically harmed (unless the thrown objects were at you :(() :( So I can understand why you would turn to emotional eating. When bad things happen to you at work, in life, you internalize the injustices and drown your sorrow in food. Becoming a meek mouse that everyone could take advantage of, knowing there would be no reprecussions. Being angry and standing up for your rights is not wrong. Talking it out to the involved parties is a normal response and necessary. They need to know you are not a doormat. You are a valuable asset to your company or you wouldn't be employed. You deserve to be treated with respect and dignity. I was sorry to hear this incident happened to you, but so very glad you stood up and responded.
You are a valuable person, sharing life lessons with us and your innermost thoughts as you try to work through life's problems.
Thank you for sharing them with us and giving us a chance to learn from them.

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ANOTHERMOMOF2 2/8/2013 8:01AM

    Good insights.

Happy Friday!

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MJRVIC2000 2/8/2013 7:44AM

    The Bible teaches us to practice "self-control". It's one of the keys to a peaceful and loving life. Be A Power Of One With Jesus! God Bless YOU! Vic.

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MSLZZY 2/8/2013 7:39AM

    You always put a positive spin on the negative
and make it work to your advantage. Thanks for
giving me another reason to analyze what is
off-kilter in my life and get back into balance.
You are a very wise woman! HUGS!

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You would think...

Thursday, February 07, 2013

that after LAST week, this week would be "a breeze". But truth to tell, in many of us, the "BIG" things we gear up for, and are strong, and the let down comes later. So, with my son's return (joyous) and my sister in law's funeral (sad, but closure) over with, I was hoping for a quiet "let down" week.

It has been far from quiet. The big project kicked off (blog entry Tuesday). One of the "favors" I did for someone blew up in my face. It's like I was starting to take the armor off and somebody yelled "Incoming!" Back into high stress mode.

And my emotional response was "ANGRY". "Not fair!" "I'm supposed to get a break from stress for a bit, OK, God?" I've run on the treadmill, stuck to my training plan, and still, the least little thing brings it back. I've tried to remember to breathe. My pep talk helped, but it has not completely dissipated. An apology from the party who blew up on me over the favor helped quite a bit. Two people stepping in to fix the discrepancy, even more.

Used to be, in the "bad old days" of my heaviest... I'd get mad at the boss at work, go home and devour a full bag of chips, a pound tub of sour cream dip, and 2 liters of diet soda... all to put the anger to rest. Only it never did put the anger to rest. Just changed it into self-anger at my eating behavior and the results on the scale.

This week, so far, I have succeeded in avoiding THAT response. But I'm still working out how to deal with the anger, the fear of "losing it" in an inappropriate way, and the fear of failure to do what I expect of myself... which is, pull off miracles at work.

Sounds pretty unrealistic and silly when I put it down in writing. Nobody does miracles. We take risks, we get lucky, but we aren't doing miracles. We're prioritizing. It's not a miracle when it works. The fear is that it is just not achievable.

This morning, I am taking time to recognize I've done pretty well with talking myself out of the urges to soothe with food. I've said "no" to some things, and substituted healthier comfort food (the cabbage last night).

I still don't like feeling angry. I doesn't feel like the me I want to be. But I have accepted that there are times when angry gets things done. It gets people out of my face when I use my words and not the food: when I actually tell someone I'm angry and why... it's better.

So, my friends... LIFE is good. Stress is a part of it. Mouths are to be used (intelligently) for more than eating. Brains are to be engaged. We can do this. Just for today. emoticon

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DEBRITA01 2/8/2013 9:38AM

    Finding out how to deal with the anger, when we no longer direct it inward, is a challenge....but it's good to remember that there aren't enough chips & dip in the world to make it better. Also, remembering that we can use our voice and that we don't have to shoulder the responsibility for pulling off miracles will help alleviate some of the anger and resentment. Wishing you all the best as you navigate through a challenging period...I know you can do it. Keep remembering that line in the sand... emoticon

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    You hit a few things on the head for me today.

I see your before picture and pretty much that's where I'm at right now.

The "inside your brain" peak is exactly how I feel right now.

Except for the excessive sweating, knee pounding, back wrenching exercises you do, that's where I want to be in the future.

Another aha moment at the docs today with fasting glucose.

You'd think it's a no-brainer...but it's not.

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PATRICIAAK 2/7/2013 10:10PM

    glad you found blogging is healthier then junk food.

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KARIDIAN1 2/7/2013 9:09PM

    Seems the stress never ends at work. Something new always comes up just before we can finish the current buzz word project. Would love to have the time and resources to actually do more than a lick and a promise when someone at corporate dreams these things up. These little "training" and signoffs all take time and are in addition to our regular duties.

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_LINDA 2/7/2013 7:05PM

    Way to go coping with the stress!!! Nothing worse then an injustice -so glad it was apologized for and that others stepped in to help -not a totally ignorant workplace apparently.. So sorry you have to deal with landmines like this. Emotional eating is so very hard to stay away from, its much easier to cave then to go workout. But workouts provide those feel good endorphins whereas overeating just makes you feel bloated and uncomfortable. Keep on venting and blogging, release your anger here and on the treadmill. You can get through this. That intelligent mind and strong will of yours will keep the EE monster in its cage!
You go girl!!

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GABY1948 2/7/2013 4:00PM

    Barb, you seem to be doing really well, to me. Blogging suits you, it doesn't me and I wish it did. Some of these answers are awesome...loved Nell's and Marsha's (MSLZZY). Keep pushing hard...each day you are one farther from turning that anger inward on yourself and one day it will just be the "natural" thing you do! emoticon

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LESLIELENORE 2/7/2013 1:41PM

    Let down can be just as stressful!

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MSLZZY 2/7/2013 10:00AM

    One of the most natural and uncontrollable
responses can be anger, at others or at oneself.
It takes a lot of effort to take a deep breath and
walk away. The anger can sit there and simmer
until you find a way to disarm it. Continue to
handle the stress and anger in ways that work
for you. Today is another day. Make it a good one!

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 2/7/2013 9:35AM

    Cardio helps me when I'm angry. A lot of the icky badness inside seems to dissipate some.

Good job sticking with your program, and hang in there. Structure your environment so you won't have to rely on will power, because as you know, that can grow awfully thin!


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MEXGAL1 2/7/2013 9:21AM

    we sure do eat for so many of the wrong reasons. It is funny too how when we do that it really only makes us feel worst.
Hang in there and be strong.
Have a terrific day.

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LINDAKAY228 2/7/2013 8:53AM

    Anger can be a double-edged sword. I've done exacly what you used to do so many times. I hate feeling angry. At the same time if no one every got angry, nothing would change. Anger at injustices brings change. Angry enough to speak up for yourself is good, the trick is to do it in an appropriate manner. Too often we try to avoid it and stuff it with food. At least I have. I am trying to learn to work with anger. To recognize if it's something silly I'm angry over or is it something I need to act on to bring change to myself, or to relationships, or to the world in general. An if so, how am I going to address it. It's an ongoing learning process. You should be so proud of yourself for not turning to the old ways to deal with it. You're learning and growing all the time!

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NELLJONES 2/7/2013 8:41AM

    Ever notice how "anger management'" programs deal with directing anger at others but never about the danger or directing anger on yourself? I guess they figure that with both the complainant and the source being the same person it isn't a problem, but some of us know better. There are idiots amongst us, though, and we all have to deal with them. Get rid of one and another seems to pop up. Keep sharing, you are not alone. Blogging and talking are calorie free.

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KALIGIRL 2/7/2013 8:27AM

    Anger is a complex emotion and a necessary part of life, but as usual you are handling it head on with your personal aplomb. Interesting brochure @
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Here's to breathing DEEPLY.
Namaste my friend

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1CRAZYDOG 2/7/2013 8:25AM

    Oh my dear, angry CAN be a motivator as long as it's not turned inward . . . like self-destructive eating. It is a human emotion and it takes time to get over it. And it sounds like you're working on that. It's too bad that thigs happen which cause us to feel that emotion, but IMHO, it's good to express it vs. internalizing it and going into self-destruct mode.

How did your son like the house?? When do they move in (or have they??)


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HEALTHY4ME 2/7/2013 8:14AM

    HUGs and you can do this.. your work sounds so stressful so glad you are finding ways to not eat it all! Have a great day.

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BROOKLYN_BORN 2/7/2013 8:13AM

    First, congratulations on saying no to the bad food.
I can relate since I once came home from work and ate an entire apple pie.

Regarding anger: When my unreasonable, demanding boss left, I asked him why he always gave me the most impossible tasks. His response - because you always got them done. That taught me a lesson. You don't want to get fired and you have to choose your battles and your responses carefully, but sometimes you just have to say no, not only to the food, but to the cause of the stress.

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