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Meditation and whimsey

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

The cat is much more mature than the first time I did a 21 day challenge with feline in the house. Now, as I sit quietly, he joins me on the lap, and may paw at me curiously for a bit before settling down to purr while I close my eyes and give attention to my breathing. Yesterday after work, when he got up and left the lap on cue was amusing, and my thoughts wandered / wondered to the thoughts of animals, and how in tune they are with their furry bodies (or scaly ones for that matter).

Pets in particular, seem to nap when napping is called for, and make demands for attention when they need to be fed or the litter box changed. As adults we are so often "in control" that we suppress our natural needs... this taking time to meditate and listen is just what it needs to be... enlightening, re-focusing. Glad it came along just now.

I had a touch of insomnia middle of the night, but I kept the eyes closed and rested, eventually dropping off again. And I have a strategy for work today, for the next steps. Divide and conquer: different bits for different circumstances.

And I shall continue to recover. Lunch is packed. Oats are simmering. Life is good, and I shall take care of ME today... because I'm worth it... mind, body, and spirit.

Spark on, and namaste... the whimsey? Do those go together?

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DALID414 3/13/2013 11:45PM

    My day may have gone differently if I would have read your blog this am.
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LESLIELENORE 3/13/2013 10:56PM

    Yes, they go together!

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DOGLADY13 3/13/2013 10:30PM

    I am so glad you are blogging again. This blog is also a blessing for me.

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KARIDIAN1 3/13/2013 9:27PM

    Taking care of you comes first.

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PATRICIAAK 3/13/2013 8:36PM

    Glad you are taking care of you.
If you don't, who will?

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WATERMELLEN 3/13/2013 8:00PM

    I love whimsey: and I'm thinking (along those lines) that cats share a mantra which sounds like prrrrrrrrrr!!

So glad you are recovering and dividing and conquering!!

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DLDMIL 3/13/2013 5:55PM

    emoticon Barb. namaste

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MIRAGE727 3/13/2013 12:33PM

    So profound, Barb! All that positive force...and glowing in Nebraska!

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KALIGIRL 3/13/2013 12:11PM

    Here's to taking care of #1 - glad to hear the meditation is shared...

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SLENDERELLA61 3/13/2013 10:44AM

    Pets add so much to our lives and teach us often. Your comment about being so in control it blocks our natural wisdom is right on. That meditation is a beautiful practice. So glad you've reconnected with it.

Curious about the divide and conquer strategy; sounds good. Don't need to know all the details, but would like to know if you did it -- and generally how you felt about the process and results.

We'll take care of ourselves today because we are worth it!! Life IS decidedly good. Spark On!!!

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LJCANNON 3/13/2013 10:42AM

    emoticon The Animals really DO have a Lot to teach us if we will just take the time to LISTEN.
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    Of course they do!

I agree that we can learn from our animals. When I think about having six cats (all various forms of rescue cats) , I think chaos and noise. But that's not reality. Reality is that we still get startled a bit when we re-realize we have SIX cats. One thing we've learned is that each cat has a distinct personality and needs - and they can grow and change over time.

Thank you for sharing yourself!

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DSSECRETS 3/13/2013 9:58AM

    You rock, Barb!

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DEBRITA01 3/13/2013 9:00AM

    I agree that we can learn a lot from our pets. It's nice that your cat enjoys meditation with you. When I do yoga, my Lexie runs around the mat, dropping toys at my head...hard to relax and focus emoticon

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GABY1948 3/13/2013 8:41AM

    I certainly agree with you about the animals! Have a great day, Barb!

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MIZCATHI 3/13/2013 8:36AM

    I love how in touch you are with your feelings. No, it's true. When you begin to feel down, frustrated or overwhelmed, I watch your blogs unfold. You let the feelings wash over you and slowly a realization turns over in your mind. Yes you struggle, but you come up shaking it all off and finding solutions, somewhat like a cat or a dog.

Good work!

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LEANJEAN6 3/13/2013 8:00AM

    WooWoo Barb!!--Divide and conquer at work?----Good for yu!--Make "'them"" do it all----It sounds like you are doing better-----I love yer story about the Metre Man and the naked woman----LOL----Funny!!!!------Lynd
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ROXYZMOM 3/13/2013 7:35AM

    I love watching Roxy - she has the whole relaxing thing down to a science. Her only stress is when shebus writing for her ball!!

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MSLZZY 3/13/2013 7:26AM

    Animals instinctively know how to manage their day. I think we could learn a lot from them.

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Recovery week pep talk

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Although I have made the appointment to go have that conversation with my doctor, it is a couple of weeks out. Yesterday, between shoveling snow, and forcing myself to walk on the treadmill to get my 10,000 steps in... my body reminded me I'm still not the athlete I was a few short months ago. Or even a couple of weeks ago.

Whatever is going on here... physical, psychological... I am in a process of recovery. And that means taking it easy, not comparing to what was but doing what I can TODAY.

So... this particular day that means: drink your water, eat what's in the bag, not what's in the vending machine or on the food table. That's why you packed it. It's yours.

Change your project mantra: you made a vital error when you scheduled those meetings over your normal walk break times - you put the project ahead of your personal health. You told yourself you would adapt... make sure you do! Cancel what you need to cancel. Remember to say "no" in appropriate circumstances... and pray for the wisdom to know when that is!

Barb, you have little control over so much about this project... but you DO have control over how you choose to respond to unreasonable demands. Your body has spoken... it needs you to pay attention. Right now, your health HAS to come first. And if that means moving a little slower or stopping the mental wheels at times, that's what it means.

To our health, ladies and gents... because LIFE is good. Healthy life even better. And we are worth it! emoticon

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DOGLADY13 3/13/2013 10:27PM

    Excellent reflection. I need to learn the same lessons about prioritizing.

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    Sometimes we forget we are not invincible. Life creeps in.

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_LINDA 3/13/2013 1:16AM

    Now please LISTEN to yourself! It may be that all the stress you are feeling about this project has knocked the stuffing clean out of you :(( Stress CAN make you sick and do nasty things to your body :( Here is hoping you can put the me back into your work periods and take your breaks when needed and put work in the work hours not your personal hours. I hope this daily meditation helps you release some of the stress.
Listening to your body (and mind) is critical!
Be selfish. You only have one life to live.

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MSLZZY 3/12/2013 11:36PM

    Take care and recover. HUGS!

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ALOHAEV1 3/12/2013 10:18PM

    What everyone else said...

Me thinks your bod is is just wanting some down time with you. Great to have you back!

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DLDMIL 3/12/2013 9:26PM

    Another great pep talk, Barb. Keep your health first and everything else will fall in line. emoticon

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WATERMELLEN 3/12/2013 9:14PM

    Your pep talks for you are great pep talks for me too, thanks! The toll on the body/mind from excess stress is so dramatically immediate, it's hard to understand how we can ignore it. But like you I've got a horrible tendency to permit work to assume excessive importance. Nooooooo! Health first!! Without it, I can't do anything else well anyhow . . . .

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ANDI571 3/12/2013 6:32PM

    Keep those pep talks coming Barb! You have the tools and you know how to use them. No turning back! Um, now do I hear what I just wrote. emoticon

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LINDAKAY228 3/12/2013 4:29PM

    Hang in there. Keep taking the steps you are taking. It will get better. Hopefully very very soon!

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ROXYZMOM 3/12/2013 3:53PM

    You are getting there. Great attitude and perspective! Good for you!

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GABY1948 3/12/2013 1:34PM

    You are progressing nicely now...KEEP at it...I agree with all you said here!

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EBEAMS 3/12/2013 11:14AM

    I find it absolutely amazing at how we, as intelligent beings, continually disregard how much of a connection there is between our physical body and our mental state. When stress moves into the brain, it transmits out to the physical body as surely as if there is an illness traveling through the blood. Stress is perfectly normal and yet when the amount and type of stress increases, I believe that we rarely pay attention to how MUCH it truly affects us. The brain activity is almost constant (which is wearying), the quality of our sleep and our sleep patterns is disrupted (which is exhausting), and on top of that, the tendency to cut a corner here and there comes into play with just a little bite of this for energy, just a little sit down time instead of walk for a rest starts to come into play.

If I understood correctly, this is a year long project. That in itself sounds a little overwhelming to me. I think you are doing splendid, my friend, at working out what your new "normal" is going to be during this flurry of stress in your life. You can't change the project ... but you are right on target when you say you can make good choices for yourself. So ... Here's a BIG hugs from me to you! Even if today isn't perfect ... or tomorrow either ... you'll already a winner and THAT'S a fact!

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MEXGAL1 3/12/2013 11:13AM

    For sure I agree with you that healthy life is better!
I love days when I am on top of my game and feel healthy. I cherish those days!
Here's to figuring out how to have more of those days!
Have a terrific day.

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SUNNY332 3/12/2013 11:05AM

    Bless your heart. I will be thinking of you. Keep us posted.


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DALID414 3/12/2013 10:13AM

    To our health. (My boss had the beginnings of a cold yesterday, I need to find a kind way to get him to go home!)

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SIMONEKP 3/12/2013 9:55AM

    great attitude

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SLENDERELLA61 3/12/2013 9:47AM

    Your pep talk seems to be right on target! You know precisely what your body and mind need this day, this week. Making sure you get your walk breaks seems to me to be a very high priority. Packing your healthy foods is a great way to take care of yourself. Realizing that you are dealing with unreasonable demands and coming up with healthy ways to handle it is a big, big order. You can do this!! You are doing it!

So glad to see you back blogging. Take care, friend.

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BROOKLYN_BORN 3/12/2013 9:05AM

    As you said - "my body reminded me I'm still not the athlete I was a few short months ago. Or even a couple of weeks ago"
Same here!
Thanks for sharing your great attitude. I hope you get a good report from the doc.

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DEBRITA01 3/12/2013 8:42AM

    When life gets crazy we forget to factor in our needs...good reminder for us all, Barb. Sometimes is all comes down to one small choice at a time but, we can do it...b/c we're worth it! emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 3/12/2013 8:26AM

    YES! You said it all when you wrote "Barb, you have little control over so much about this project... but you DO have control over how you choose to respond to unreasonable demands. "

That is a summation of life . . . a mix of situations we can or cannot control. But the constant variable in that equation is having control of our REACTIONS to these situations. You are sooooooo right to listen to your body. It won't steer you wrong!

HUGS and here's to a good Tuesday.

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LEANJEAN6 3/12/2013 8:25AM

    Oh BaRB! That project that you have at work is taking its toll on yu---Why?-----I feel bad ------because I know you are one strong woman----Look what you have accomplished in yer life?------I hope you go to see that Dr-----but remember--Drs (as in my husband)----aren't always knowlegeable about fitness----Hope all works out for yu---- Yu deserve it!-Lynda

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JLEMUS1 3/12/2013 8:22AM

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KANOE10 3/12/2013 8:10AM

    You sound focused and ready to stay on track. It is all too easy to put your health on hold when your life gets busy. I skipped a walk yesterday for the same reason.

You are doing a great job of listening to your body and doing what you need to do to be healthy. Have a great day.


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HAPPYMENOW58 3/12/2013 8:10AM

    Right on!!! YOU are worth it!!! Keep on keeping on!!!! you are on your way to good health. Have a great Tuesday.

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Snow Day - Meditation Day 1 - and miscellaneous

Monday, March 11, 2013

Remember storm Q? The storm that wasn't (here, much, that is)?

Well, yesterday, we got hit with the storm that wasn't predicted, just kinda showed up at the last minute. It started out with that little dusting when I got up on Spring Forward morning, but kept on coming down. It looked as though it was quitting about 3 p.m. so I went out and shoveled a path down the driveway to the street. Then it started snowing some more, and the wind kept blowing it around, so I gave up attempting to clear yesterday. It was still white out conditions when I toddled off to bed.

This morning, it didn't look that deep, but being the time of year it is, and being heavy and wet, it was nasty slick, and I weather wimped out of work. I finished clearing my half of the drive and the sidewalks about half an hour ago.

Then I checked my e-mail and found the first of the 21 day meditation challenge links in my inbox. Yes! Just what I needed: with a centering thought of "I commit to living perfect health". So I made myself comfy and started the audio guided meditation. I closed my eyes and focused on my breathing... and within seconds I had a lap full of furry purry... but he behaved and let me continue the meditation. Before I knew it, the soft bell calling an end to the meditation rang... ahhhh.

This is the third 21 day meditation challenge I have participated in, and all have been very much worth the few minutes a day devoted to them. In case anyone else is interested and hasn't signed up yet, here's the link (and it's a freebie): https://www.chopracentermeditation.c

I also made that appointment I mentioned in yesterday's blog... it's a couple of weeks away yet, so I have some living to do between now and then.

Hope you're all adjusting to the time change. Honestly? I would rather be crocus hunting than snow shoveling... but regardless, life is good. Spark on!

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KRISKECK 3/15/2013 9:36PM

    You really made a difference in my day today and I wanted to thank you. I mentioned you in my blog, and the meditation challenge too. Thanks for being there!


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DOGLADY13 3/12/2013 7:12AM

    I have't come close to seeing crocus yet. I need to get out there! The snow should melt in the rain today. emoticon

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_LINDA 3/12/2013 1:50AM

    We had some blowing snow today too, off and on, only good for hiding the icy parts on the sidewalks and streets, wish I could stay home sometimes too. But the bridge club is always open no matter what the weather, closes only on X-Mas day :P. They have had games in white out conditions when people were stranded all over the city (fortunately, my partner was smart enough to cancel and I got to stay home and watch the white curtain of snow swirling around my window).
That was great you stayed home and got some relaxation and meditation in.
Glad to hear you have made the Dr. appointment.
Hope the driving conditions are safer tomorrow for you, surely they will have gotten around to cleaning it up/and or sanding it by then.

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MSLZZY 3/11/2013 11:04PM

    Soon the crocuses will bloom and the snow will be gone. Spring is almost here. So glad the meditaion soothed your soul. HUGS!

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PATRICIAAK 3/11/2013 8:49PM

    I find meditation rejuvinating.

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WATERMELLEN 3/11/2013 8:11PM

    Saw my first snowdrop today, from the 60 I planted at the back door . . . it's raining hard here, yesterday may have been the last xc ski day.

Glad you've made that doctor's appt . . . and the mediation project sounds great too.

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EBEAMS 3/11/2013 8:05PM

    I always say in my next career, I'm gonna be a weather girl. I don't have to be right, I don't have to be perfect .... Glad you found some time to center and relax today as well as won your fight with the snow! Be safe, my friend!

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MOBYCARP 3/11/2013 7:53PM

    It's a good year to be in Rochester, NY. The nasty major March snowstorm missed us to the south, and most of the piled up snow finished melting yesterday and today. We're supposed to get snow showers later this week, but if the temps come through as predicted it won't accumulate.

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LJCANNON 3/11/2013 5:57PM

    emoticon It is so funny how our Animals react when we try to Focus or Meditate on ANYTHING!
emoticon Hopefully the Meditation and Dr will add up to a Much Better Spring & Summer.
emoticon Stupid Time Change!! I really can not see any Useful Purpose for the mess it causes! But, No One Asked Me before they Did It!!

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DALID414 3/11/2013 3:48PM

    emoticon namaste.

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DLDMIL 3/11/2013 2:36PM

    Ah, spring snow storms, hate them. I am glad that you are starting to feel better and glad that you made the appt. Spark on, have a good day.

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1CRAZYDOG 3/11/2013 2:20PM

    Meditation. Love it. Dr. appt. -- glad you did it!!! Snow . . . right now, hate it! Check back with me in the heat of August! LOL

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LESLIELENORE 3/11/2013 2:15PM

    My dog doesn't like it when I meditate. He starts barking. I went crocus hunting yesterday and found a lot of them.

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ANDI571 3/11/2013 2:12PM

    We had one of those surprise snow storms last week. Luckily with this time of year, it melted pretty quickly. Hope yours does the same.

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GABY1948 3/11/2013 1:44PM

    I also dislike the time change transition. It seems like my day is gone already but I do like the light in the evening better. Glad you are improving daily.

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CONCHA77 3/11/2013 12:58PM

    I just might have to check into that meditation link you provided. Thanks. Just got called into work so maybe in the morning.
Stay safe.

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I don't think I've been blog silent for a week in two or three years...

Sunday, March 10, 2013

but I just have been.

Some of my Spark buds were worried. I did comment on a few of your blogs and updated status... so some of y'all know I'd been under the weather. But it has been more than that. It's been fatigue, and discouragement, and fear, and many roiling emotions (grief among them), and just landing after having been so tightly wound for so long.

The problem with having decades of experience in the battle of the roller coaster pounds is that you remember the drops from the heights of success to abject failure... sometimes very rapid drops. It was the fear of that starting a couple of years back that got me started on my streak of near-daily blogging. If you have a fear of heights (as I do)... yep, this teetering on the brink (or slipping over, as I have several times since the first of the year) is scary.

Now let's mix in the illness side of things. The major fear that accompanies not too specific symptoms "at my age" is the most basic fear of all: mortality. Sprinkle in recent deaths of folks you care about or anniversaries of such deaths in your calendar with symptoms like "dizziness, fatigue" and the solid knowledge that you are within a few years of the age at which a parent passed... and you come up with a soup you just don't want to write about... even if you had the energy.

Yet, here I am, typing this. Sorry for the potential downer, folks. Yesterday would have been both my paternal grandmother's and my nephew's birthdays. Both are now gone from the plane. Reality is, one day I will be gone from it, too. So will you. We may not want to think about it, but our time in these bodies is "boxed".

The essential question is: what do we want the quality of that time to be like? I want to feel as good as I can for as long as I can. I know at this point in time (even if I don't always act like it) that it is the behavior: good solid nutrition, hydration, activity, stress management, and sleep... that support feeling good.

Now that I'm about back to feeling human, I have a few "to do" items for the week: schedule a chat with my doctor and get my thyroid levels checked again. Climb back on the nutrition wagon and apply some of that infamous "mental toughness" / "kindness" to helping me feel better. Add back in gentle amounts of activity, as I can handle them. Oh, and allow myself to cry over the loved ones who no longer share space on the planet.

Spark friends, thanks so much for being there, for being consistent, for accepting wherever each of us is on the journey... for knowing we're in this together is part of what keeps me going! emoticon

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ANDI571 3/11/2013 2:11PM

    Barb, your blogs always speaks to me and lets me know I am human with my feelings. I had melanoma skin cancer 26 years ago and have always been faithful in getting my checkups. Two years ago, my doctor retired three days before my checkup and they cancelled on me. I have yet to get a checkup. I know that fear you are talking about and have been feeling it myself, and the eating wrong has come right along with it. I searched my insurances in network dermatologists and made an appt with one this morning. The actually got me in tomorrow morning. Glad you made your appt too. We are worth the effort.

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GABY1948 3/11/2013 1:40PM

    So glad that yo are feeling nearly human again...praying this upward slant keeps on to the top of the mountain again.

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LINDAKAY228 3/11/2013 12:26PM

    Glad you're feeling better now. You have a good plan for the week ahead of you. I know so well that our time is uncertain as in my job I deal with it a lot. Like you, I want to live it to the fullest while I have it. I work with senior citizens mostly, but also with younger people who are disabled and I've seen the full spectrum of again. I've seen those who are old and frail and sick at 50, or even younger. I've seen people in their 80's and 90's going strong, running races or competing in other activities that are active, and living life fully. That's how I want to be. We don't totally control that, but we do have a lot we can do to help us reach that goal. You are one who is doing everything you can to be as healthy as possible as long as possible. Great job!!

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MEXGAL1 3/11/2013 10:35AM

    emotions have such an effect on our well being.
Peace be with you.
Have a good week.

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MSLZZY 3/11/2013 9:58AM

    Those klind of anniversaries are hard. Hope you are feeling better. HUGS!

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MIZCATHI 3/11/2013 8:51AM

    Oh I know what you mean. The waves of sadness can grip like the undercurrent of the ocean. If it weren't for the tough spots, perhaps the good times wouldn't be so relevant. When I watched my children grow, it fascinated me that the leaps in learning were followed by a few cranky days, sniffles and self pitying cries. Or before my babies could take a step, they experienced more accidents and tumbles as they stretched to take those first steps. The point is, you're thinking about it and what steps to take next. This is you taking care of yourself even now. Big Hugs.

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    Sounds like life and your not in it alone!

Grab some tissues, let it go and get on with it. You don't need to motivate up keep upbeat for me every day.

I will still live vicariously through you for running...

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_LINDA 3/10/2013 11:32PM

    So very sorry for your losses and the feelings they are bombarding you with. I hope your feeling down and out of sorts is due to the thyroid and they quickly get some meds working for you (although I know from my sister-in-law sometimes it takes a while to get the dosing correct) We never know when our number will be up and its really better not to dwell on it. Better to take each day you are on Earth and wring every last minute out of it. A little known fact is that my disease can be fatal (it can affect the heart) and at the rate its been attacking me and the new places its getting in could be a warning sign. But I just live for the day and not concern myself with the future. Each day is now a battle to get out of bed and get at it. It just means I have to get on my travel plans before I get too incapacitated to go anywhere. Mom is impatient and not getting any younger. There is longevity on the female side of our family (all lived into their 90's)but no one has had RA either, I am a pioneer in my family with it.
Just know I am here with you, sending soothing thoughts, comforting hugs and some of my legendary energy. Makes me sad to hear when my Spark friends are suffering..
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KANOE10 3/10/2013 10:36PM

    Yes, life is difficult and painful. I miss my loved ones also. I am with you about trying to
make life as healthy as possible.

Your words: I want to feel as good as I can...very true.

Hugs to you. Take care of yourself. You are a wonderful person.

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PATRICIAAK 3/10/2013 10:04PM

    A time to be born and a time to die. What matters is the dash in between.
Continue to make the best of the dash.

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 3/10/2013 8:06PM

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(There isn't a "keep on typing" emoticon. LOL)


Hang in there!

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SLENDERELLA61 3/10/2013 8:03PM

    Oh, Barb, I've missed your blogs even after I knew you were still around and recovering. Do appreciate the comments on my blogs -- as always, astute. Glad you are going to check on your thyroid. Hope you are feeling great by now!

Mortal?? Who me?? Yeah, I am. We are. No, I don't usually like to think about it, but I guess I am thinking about it more and more. I notice in my dad's writings (he's been gone since 2003) that in his last years he thought about it a lot, but not all sad or scared; a lot of acceptance and even willingness and some curiosity about when the time would come. Yes, I miss him and think of him every day. But not with sadness, at least not much. Life well lived. What an accomplishment: life well lived. That I could be more like him!!

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WATERMELLEN 3/10/2013 7:36PM

    Sorry for your illness and discouragement and worry. Thanks as always for your candour and willingness to be vulnerable. We're all so happy to have you back among us. Please get all the help you need to move forward. You'll catch up with joy and confidence again, just when you least expect it.

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CEHALLA 3/10/2013 7:16PM

    The thing that helps me most when I'm sad and missing my dad, is to remember the promise that we'll be together again. I know many people don't share that belief, but it gives me comfort to know the purpose of our life here, and that death isn't the end of love and family.

Hugs to you, Barb, and thanks for sharing something so personal with all of your Spark friends. emoticon

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DLDMIL 3/10/2013 7:15PM

    I have also been there with the memories of lost loved ones, and it is hard sometimes to remember to keep moving forward because of the pain that we hold in. We have the right to let them out once in a while. I hope you feel better soon and that your Dr. will be able to help you get the right diagnosis. Hugs and prayers sent your way.

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MARTHAWILL 3/10/2013 6:47PM

    This past week, a funeral for a young mom (daughter of a dear friend) and a reminder of the anniversary of the death of my brother's young son also put me through similar trains of thought. Hills and valleys are a part of life. They become easier to travel with supportive friends and family. Sounds like you are ready to take hold again and move forward. Wish you healing and peace.

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-SHOREIDO- 3/10/2013 6:47PM

    Whats everybody got thyroid stuff going on?? They changed mine a few months back. Its a new color (kinda blue) and since then I feel different.
I'm on 75mg whats the standard??
Hummm Thanks for sharing.

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-SHOREIDO- 3/10/2013 6:42PM

    I hear ya! No words of wisdom, just that and a hand to help you back up again. Your okay. You are! Just brush off your pants,chin up and start walking again holding todays gift(today).

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LEANJEAN6 3/10/2013 6:42PM

    Oh Barb!! I didn't know that you have thyroid disease--Me too----!!! I know when it goes out of whack, it takes me months to recognize it---Best to get it checked---And I feel bad about your ""down-ness""---- That must be difficult to shake----I too, tho, have funny feelings about ""mortality""----but--there is nothing we can change--and besides, I will be "'there"" before you--so--I'll welcome you with a big hug--LOL-----We can't change it Barb-----I don't talk about this to many people, but before I had the thyroid diagnosed, I had a very near death experience-----I didn't want to come back--I remember that much about it--but I was told I had to-----I was diagnosed within a few days of that---Crazy stuff which I don't understand----I do look up to yu so much---so-----you must look ""up"" too--LOL--Love yu girl--Keep on trucking here!-Lynda

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1CRAZYDOG 3/10/2013 6:24PM

    Sorry you've had a rough time of it. I can tell you, as one with thyroid issues (hypo), it is difficult! I can tell you, when my thyroid is out of whack, it can lead to feeling down, and then you add into the mix all the losses your remembering or experiencing . . . not a happy thing! Definitely get your thyroid checked out!

HUGS and glad you're back, my dear. You were missed!

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CELIAMINER 3/10/2013 6:14PM

    Glad you are back. I believe we need times of introspection, even if painful, to maintain balance and perspective. Even so, I find I dislike being alone with my own thoughts when squashed down pain bubbles to the surface. Thanks for writing today so I know I'm not alone.

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DALID414 3/10/2013 5:08PM

    I missed your blogs, but knew you'd be back at it once the smoke cleared. emoticon emoticon

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STRIVERONE 3/10/2013 4:38PM

    I understand those feeling about your mortality. My father died at 66 and at some level I link that to my own expiration date. When I was morbidly obese I thought about it a lot more than I do now but I can't completely free myself of that shadow.

I'm glad you're getting better and sorry for the losses you speak of.

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ANOTHERMOMOF2 3/10/2013 4:37PM

    Hoping tomorrow goes even better than today!

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DEBRITA01 3/10/2013 4:17PM

    Sometimes an illness forces us to slow down and experience all the thoughts and emotions we push aside with our busy lives. It's beneficial to be silent at times and just be. emoticon

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DOGLADY13 3/10/2013 3:45PM

    It's breathtakingly painful when you re-experience a loss that you thought you were long over. I re-experienced the loss of an infant nephew a few weeks ago. The sweet boy died almost 38 years ago, but that day last week, it was like it was the day he died and I was a young girl who just didn't understand. Go easy on yourself. Find comfort in the people who love you and are with you now. Find comfort in the memories of those who are gone. It is all a continuum. And you know that good, healthy habits go a long, long way to improving mood and outlook. I'm glad you blogged. I was beginning to wonder what was going on.

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BLUENOSE63 3/10/2013 3:20PM

  Please know that you are missed when don't blog but everyone needs down time! Happy to know you are feeling better!

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MIRAGE727 3/10/2013 3:20PM

    I'd be lying for I didn't share that I also have moments of contemplating mortality! Yes, it can send a little shiver through me. But, I'm just gonna work stronger on being the best that I can be, enjoy DSSECRETS & Gianna, and keep on finding challenges in life! I love the term, "going down in a blaze of glory!" But I interpret it as simply embracing life to the fullest! I waste minimal time on acknowledging the alternative!
And when it's time to cross the finish line one last time, I want an old fashion N'awlins funeral with a lot of celebration, music, and trashing calories for one day! I might just create a 5K with that theme!
And I know you have the fire in you to do the same, Barb! Until then, we rock on!

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SANDYL54 3/10/2013 2:58PM

  Warm thoughts to you as you deal with your losses. Be kind to yourself. You know what to do to help yourself and you will begin doing it, as your energy allows. We all struggle and lose our way at times. But now you have a strong foundation to draw on as you steer yourself back on your journey of healthful living. You will spark on, I am sure!!! Thanks for sharing the hard bits as well as your succeses!

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MNTWINSGAL 3/10/2013 2:46PM

    I'm hearing your words and feeling your pain, having come back from my dear BIL's funeral just yesterday. But the tides rise and fall....the world turns even when we wonder how it possibly can....time marches on. We can only make the most of every single day on this planet that we are awarded.

Sorry for your losses too, and hope you are feeling better soon! As a very wise woman I know is fond of saying....Life's Good. Spark On!

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KLMEIRING 3/10/2013 2:44PM

    I am glad that you are back and blogging once again. You were missed.

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    OK, we have been down memory lane and stand at the start of a new beginning.

Make Today a Great Day!

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Looks like Saturday is going to be a GOOD day...

Saturday, March 02, 2013

Today started out with sleeping in... all the way 'til after 7 a.m. Felt good.

Then my JCC consultation... my attitude has been a whole lot better this week, and while I'm still angst-y and venting, at least I'm more verbal about it than stuffing over it... and I'm looking Polly Perfectionist and Precious People Pleaser in the eye and challenging their opinions of me!

So, this morning? After my appointment and my healthy breakfast, I popped one of the DVD's son brought over last weekend into the player... Batman: The Dark Knight Rises. And resolved to treadmill the entire movie or until I hit 12 miles, whichever came first. Guess what? I hit 12 miles first. Action / fight movies are great running material for me... not a whole lot of meaningful dialog I need to slow down to hear... but a whole lot of "run" motivation. I did those 12 miles in 2:23:45, which is on track for my half marathon pace last November and last May. And I probably could have gone longer, but I called a stop at that point.

Now I'm showered and in my warm fuzzy sweats on a cold day, and there is bright sunshine out there. Still need to go do my grocery shopping. And my laundry... but life is good, and believe me, those endorphins? Really help chase those stressors away.

Not that this isn't preaching to the choir... LOL! Spark on, my friends. emoticon

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LEANJEAN6 3/7/2013 9:01PM

    OMG Barb!!--You are so good!~--12 miles is a lot! Happy that yu are happier. We were shovelling snow whicg fell from the steel roof---- a sure sign of Spring!----Lynda

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WATERMELLEN 3/3/2013 4:49PM

    Self medicating with endorphins instead of potato chips? I'm totally with ya on that . . .

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LINDAKAY228 3/3/2013 2:52PM

    Glad your day went so well!!! That is awesome!

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DOGLADY13 3/3/2013 2:37PM

    Sounds like an excellent Saturday. Life is very good.

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HEALTHY4ME 3/3/2013 10:37AM

    Yay sounds like a great day! I am going to do the bike today hoping for 10 mins I do more but always end up hurting myself too soon. So today only 10. and of course all the puppy walks lol

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MEXGAL1 3/3/2013 10:07AM

    Sounds like a great way to get your work out in. cool
Have a terrific Sunday!

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LEANJEAN6 3/3/2013 9:34AM

    Oh Barb!!!!--Stressers everywhere--but---you try to keep on top-----so good!!!!--And yes, exercise really does combat stress!---Hugs on a wonderful Sunday!-Lynda emoticon

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KALIGIRL 3/3/2013 7:24AM

    So glad to hear it! The sun really made a difference for me yesterday and hope it will today too!

Life IS good - here's to living it!

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_LINDA 3/3/2013 12:00AM

    So glad to hear things are settling down for you emotionally and you are handling your demons and putting them back into their cages where they belong. Nothing beats the feel good endorphins of exercise, far better than any drug!! For me, I could go for miles and miles on my elliptical listening to good pulse pounding music! Good for you knowing when to stop. Looks like you are right on track for that
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DANGBLONDE 3/2/2013 11:34PM

  Sounds like a good day! Keep up the good work!!! emoticon

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MOBYCARP 3/2/2013 9:04PM

    Stopping at the planned distance or time was one of the harder things for me to learn about training. Good for you, holding to that! It's important for training and avoiding injury. You knew that, and you acted on that knowledge. Good job!

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1CRAZYDOG 3/2/2013 8:20PM

    good for you for giving Polly and Precious the boot! Not easy. And I never thought about that! I think my next treadmill DVD is going to be Batman: The Dark Knight Rises. It definitely would keep me going because I don't have to stop so much to listen to the dialogue. Love it!

Yahoo for endorphins!

HUGS and hope you have a great evening.

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SLENDERELLA61 3/2/2013 8:03PM

    So glad you could sleep in. Every day is better when you get enough sleep and best of all is when you get enough sleep and get to wake up on your own. The movie and 12 mile run -- well, just great!! Bet your next HM time will be a PR -- and probably a whole lot faster. If you are training that fast, well, impressive!! Love the endorphins. This good living is setting you up to successfully cope with whatever the work week brings as well as strengthening your healthy living lifestyle. You are doing it for sure!!! Appreciate all your support on my blogs, too! -Marsha

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LESLIELENORE 3/2/2013 7:40PM

    Sounds like a great day!

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DALID414 3/2/2013 7:27PM

    I call it a good day.

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GABY1948 3/2/2013 6:41PM

    So glad you are having a GOOD day! Have a GREAT night too!

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MIZCATHI 3/2/2013 6:39PM

    Wow, 12 miles! You are awesome! That's quite an accomplishment, and at the very least, you are pleasing your inner athlete!

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ROXYZMOM 3/2/2013 5:56PM

    Very good! I never thought of watching an action/thriller while on the treadmill! Great idea!

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MSLZZY 3/2/2013 4:56PM

    I do so love when you preach LOL! Enjoy the weekend!

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MIRAGE727 3/2/2013 4:44PM

    Very nice, Barb! Healthy attitude!

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