Monday, July 01, 2013
sung to the tune of "Leavin' on a Jet plane"...
The lunch bag is packed, I'm ready to go...
The car is waiting in the garage...
I hate to move the cat off of my laaaaap.
But the clock is ticking, in the morn,
Don't want to have to toot the horn,
And have to make it there to do the time.
So stay here and guard the house
Don't attack the computer mouse
Purr and nap and have a lovely ti-ii-iime.
Cause I'm leavin' for the work day
Don't know if it's all worth the pay
Ah, cat, you ought to know.
LOL... this is what happens when a tune gets stuck in one's head...
Anyway, it's Monday!
Eat what's in the bag!
Drink your water!
Remember to go to recess!
Breathe, Barb, Breathe.
And remember... you're the tool. Not the Maker.
Have a Sparkly Day, all!
Sunday, June 30, 2013
I put myself back to bed after the pill at 4 :20 this morning, sleeping 'til about 5:45. But a little extra sleep is only PART of "rest".
There is the need to mentally "stand down" from high alert. To release oneself from worries. That's where prayer and meditation come in. Focus on the breathing, connect with a power greater than oneself. Because after all, I'm not ALONE... if I am a tool of my maker, I am not the in control, in charge mind... it's not my job to "will" it done... just do the footwork.
So, today, I'm letting some of all of that go... in preference to just doing, living, breathing. Every decision today: is in the direction of that "rest"... standing down... storing up energy for the week ahead, and the weeks following that.
Saturday, June 29, 2013
Isn't that a Tim Gunn-ism, from Project Runway? "Make it work". Well, that's how I'm approaching this whole work/active life balance: "make it work." When you don't have control over much else, you STILL have control over your attitude. You can choose to be passive aggressive and do things that hurt YOU and do no good for anybody else... or you can choose to accept things on their terms, conserve your energy, and nourish yourself as best you can to get through it.
That said, I feel pretty worn out. I carefully planned MY overtime so that I didn't have over 9 hour days planned at work, leaving a 4 hour Saturday. OK, so I stayed a bit over, but that's fairly normal for me.
It was dark and quiet at work today. I got into my rhythm, and remembered to go to recess (and packed my healthy snacks). Early into my shift I heard another voice... one of our DBAs popped in to do a bit of work, too... he popped his head into my cubicle and said something teasing, just to acknowledge we were in the same boat, but left me alone to do my thing.
After my recess walk, I was really getting into my tunes, singing along with one of them, in fact. DBA had gone home, so it was again quiet, and I THOUGHT I was alone, then suddenly, there was another face at my cubicle door and I near jumped out of my skin! One of the newer guys was also there doing HIS OT bit... and he had come to see who was singing.
I must have blushed a million shades of red, because he then said, "no, no, it was good... my wife sings well, too". And I made headway, so I felt good at the end of the shift.
But I was tired. Grocery shopped after lunch. Nodded off on the couch. Opted on just an afternoon outdoor gentle walk, as a lovely front had come through, cooling it off. Clouds looked a little threatening and I opted against the pool for of all reasons because I didn't want my car out in it should it decide to drop hailstones. Tomorrow, I promise myself... the pool. And the laundry.
I remind myself how fortunate we are to have as short a work week as we do. It has not been THAT long since "the help" only got a half day a week off. I can certainly live through a few weeks like this.
Attitude, Sparklers. It is all in the attitude. This, too, is like being "in training".
Friday, June 28, 2013
This week it's all been about weather. The first day I backed out of... good call, I would have got rained on during the ride in. Yesterday I opted NOT to bike because of my sister's being in hospital, wanting to keep my options open... BUT, it was also a good call for weather on the morning commute... I got rained on between the car and the office.
So today, not in the forecast... figure I ride in today, and if I do it right, get a brick workout in with the ride home followed by a jog. Wish me the determination to get 'er done!
I did get by to visit my sis after work, to find her in good spirits and staying the extra night just to be monitored, but also because she's in the middle of painting at home. If she went home last night, she would have been pushing furniture around, knowing her! So, that, too was a good call on her part.
The Kelsey news, not as encouraging. They have gone back from sedation to paralysis meds, and an echocardiogram was "inconclusive". Prayers keeping up. I think I might need that jog.
The weekend ahead? I'll work a half day Saturday. Hope to get myself into a pool at least one day.
LIFE is good! What you bring to it is important: bring a good attitude, and the rest will work out. Spark on!
Thursday, June 27, 2013
My blogs are about me, and how I am dealing with life. They are NOT intended to be a critique of my workplace, any of the people I work with, my family members, or any of the other people in my life. They are truly "all about me", and dealing with the feelings that present themselves to me.
Some of the things I say *could* at times offend someone who is on the other side of my feelings, and *could* turn into a he-said, she-said flame war if it went that way (and the other person was aware I said them). When I wrote yesterday about a particular e-mail not being an apology, for example, could cause the writer of that e-mail to become defensive. And I'm not interested in a non-productive distraction.
I thought about this, and as a result, chose to take two of my blogs down, because they mentioned events at work and had a bit more "opining" than I am comfortable with, dancing a line. This is a fact: I've been mandated to work overtime. This is a perception: We are all under a lot of stress right now and I'm more sensitive to what I perceive as criticism when under stress.
What it's really all about is me... and what I do about my feelings. Because I am an emotionally-triggered overeater. So the rest, i.e. what I chose to do: take a walk, ride the bike to work, eat what's in the bag, write a blog, etc. are the relevant bits... not the internal "opining" that triggered the feelings to begin with.
That said: I'm having "a week". After the overnight duty on Friday-Saturday, my sleep schedule disrupted, I've been not at the top of my game.
Monday, I left my day planner at home. Fortunately, while at work, I operate off the computer version.
Tuesday, I managed to make it to work missing my wallet. Fortunately, I had everything I needed packed in the lunch bag. And my coffee card was in the desk drawer.
YESTERDAY... I managed to get to work on my bicycle... MISSING THE BAG! (Yes, the "eat what's in the" bag.) Fortunately, there are healthy options, including fruit and nuts and a salad option at the cafeteria in the basement of the work building... AND I didn't forget the same thing twice, i.e. my wallet was with me.
This morning, I awoke to find e-mail from my older sis... from the hospital. She's had a health flare up that has landed her there! And Kelsey has had an up and down week, still on life support, stable, now entering the third week.
So... that's life. For today:
* Remember to TAKE the bag. Eat what's in it.
* Drink your water... is good for you.
* No bike today... check in with sister after the mandatory OT and maybe swing by hospital to see her!
* It will NOT kill you to take a rest day from the other exercise, but don't forget to go to recess... walking breaks at work do help keep you sane-r. Or less in-sane.
LIFE is precious, and fragile. Savor it. Recognize moments of happiness. Be as kind as you can... to yourself as well as to others. And Spark on!
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