Thursday, March 25, 2010
I haven't darkened a blog entry since Sunday. Been busy with other things higher on the priority list, or expressed my thoughts in comments on others.
Let's see, things I found out this week: someone is organizing a memorial 5K and half marathon at Fort Hood on the anniversary of the shootings there, next November 5th. Since my son was so directly impacted by that day, and since I had met a few of the victims, I have decided that I really want to participate in this run. My training will target the 5K, not the half marathon. Know thy limits, when reaching for the stars!
I have never traveled such a distance to participate in an athletic event. Furthest I went was from the Binghamton, NY area to Canton, PA for a 5K, back in 1991? 1992? And I know my times won't be what they were back then... but the important thing is to do it.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Another stolen blog from somewhere or another. You know the drill, copy, paste, put up your own answers on your own blog or just relax and enjoy someone elseís exposing of their ticks and foibles.
If you could go anywhere in the world, where would it be?
Australia. I have a hankering to see the moon and the stars "upside down". And I wouldn't have to learn another language to do it.
If you could have your dream job, it would be...what?
Already got it. I work full cycle computer applications development and maintenance. From requirements analysis through construction, deployment, and customer support. I'm using my talents and helping people... what more could a body want?
What would you like them to say about you after you're gone?
I'm debating among several, "She did it her way", "She was a character", "She had a full life", and the ever popular, "I'll miss her".
What are 3 things you'd like to do before you die?
You know, if I died today, I think I'd be content about most of the really important things. So, if I HAVE to pick three more things to do: Visit Australia. Take a hiking trip. Attend the Kentucky Derby.
What movie star would you love to look like?
Pfft (imagine me laughing so hard I sputter out my coffee). I don't want to look like any movie star. I just want to look like me and be happy with that!
What is your biggest strength?
Following logic (I'm a heck of a debugger).
What is your biggest weakness?
Over-committing, over-optimism in estimating how much time something will take.
What is your favorite color?
What obstacle would you like to overcome?
Insecurity, anxiety, fear and their brethren: Right now I can reason around or power through them... I know that in balance they can be useful... but gee, wouldn't it be nice once in a while not to feel like you are about to slip and fall?
Do you drive fast or slow...or right at the speed limit?
Mostly speed limit, to slow.
Are you a rule keeper or a rule breaker?
What do you say to yourself when you look in the mirror?
Hmmm, not bad.
When is the last time you cried?
Friday morning on the way back from dropping daughter in law at home.
When is the last time you laughed?
Sometime this morning... I think it was at the dog, but I am easily amused.
Are you weak or strong?
Are you serious or carefree?
Serious. I make a great "straight man" to a comic.
What is the one thing you can't live without?
Air. Ask a literal question... see, straight man to the top banana!
What movie do you never get tired of seeing?
What book have you read more than 3 times?
More than 3 times... I don't think any. But I did make it to three times with JRR Tolkien's Fellowship of the Ring. That's the first book of the trilogy, The Lord of the Rings, for those who aren't fans. I read it once in high school, and abandoned the project mid-book two. I read it again in college on a challenge from a professor, and again got stuck in the same place. Both times I completed book one. I finally succeeded in finishing the trilogy in 1998, when I read it with my then-13 year old son. So, that makes three.
If you could have any kind of car, what would it be?
Do you like yourself?
For the most part, Yes.
Do you sing when you're by yourself?
If you were to give a speech, what topic would you choose?
"It's OK to be human"
Do you think people like you?
For the most part, yes. But there will always be some who don't.
What sport do you wish you could participate in?
I have a closet dream of doing a triathlon. But I'm too slow for the really long ones.
Do you spend more time looking back or looking ahead?
I liked Deb's answer, so I'll keep it: Looking back. But itís close.
Finish this sentence: Someday, I'd like to ....?
Have a completely clean and organized house. This would last... about two hours.
What is your favorite thing to daydream about?
Grandchildren (I don't have any, may never have any, and have no control over the decision, so it's definitely a "daydream").
Do you spend more time being happy or sad?
Happy. It's my natural state.
Are you an introvert or an extrovert?
Introvert, but I can masquerade as an extrovert. I find that introverts can more easily "fake it" than can extroverts.
What is your pet peeve?
What makes you smile?
Peace and quiet.
If you could be any animal..what would you be?
A horse... strong, fit, fast.
What charity do you support the most?
I have two that are at the top: Special Olympics and the USO.
What is your favorite time of day?
What is your favorite number?
7. I picked it when I was 7 years old and thought that was the perfect age. I still think it's the perfect age.
What is your favorite day of the week?
Monday. What can I say?
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Yesterday I did a number of little "clean up" things around my Sparking. It was, after all, the first day of Spring, what better time to renew, refresh, and clean up!
For one thing, I removed myself from a couple of Spark teams. I find that trying to keep up with too many spreads me too thin. I kept the ones I am most active in (or want to be most active in at this phase of my journey).
For another, I changed my goal and weight measuring to match my home scale, instead of the one at the commercial weight loss center I've been using for the past nine months. During those nine months, it was important to me to keep harmony in my tracking with their tools. Now, as I shift into maintenance mode, I think it's more important to use my home measurements and rely on the Spark tracking alone. So if anybody is paying enough attention to notice a sudden one-day drop in the numbers, that's the difference between fully clothed (including shoes!), mid-day, and the way most of us truly weigh... first thing in the morning, unburdened! No, I really did NOT drop four pounds overnight.
Finally, I examined where I am, vis-a-vis the Spark program, and changed my Spark phase to stage 3. This starts out by examining the issue of motivation. I believe this is going to be my "permanent assignment", this examination of motivation. For it has been my downfall over a lifetime...
I will have success in losing, and then get to the "is that all there is" point, and eventually unravel and regain. Well, each time I do, I get a little farther down the path to lifetime health, and this time I'm putting some real effort into it again. We'll see if we can't make it to the real finish line this time, eh?
So, to quote from the Spark Article "What will Keep you Motivated?" www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/stage_di
"The right motivation is whatever it is at any point in time that keeps you going for another day." and "The right motivation will get you out of bed in the morning with pep in your step and an eagerness to meet the day."
In short, one's motivation changes over time! What will spur me on today may not be the same as what I need to motivate me tomorrow, or what worked yesterday.
Finally, it says "Youíll be more successful if you pay more attention to whatís important to you as a benchmark." So true... sometimes the downfall is forgetting that this is important to me and why!
So, to reiterate, and remind myself, for today: My health is important to me. I don't want anything to stand in the way of my being there for my son and his wife. My work is important to me. I don't want to jeopardize the success of my current projects by undermining my health. My happiness is important to me: emotions are fleeting, and I know I just plain feel happier when I move my body!
That's it for today, end of pep talk. Have a blessed Sunday, all.
Oh, by the way, I did get word from my son that he's safely back in the appropriate time zone. Let the games begin anew.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
To all those who commented on my blog the past couple of days with support and prayers... thanks!
I was sleep-deprived, but did not nap, as I had scheduled distractions for myself. Things that needed doing anyway. I tried to do yard patrol (it's been a long winter) before the first appointment guy came at 9 a.m. I got a first pass in, but you might guess from the background snap, my back yard is a huge minefield this early in the Spring. Since we had to tramp around the yard showing the gent what needs doing to fix my yard's drainage issues, it was a good thing I did. I hope I don't faint when I see the estimate, but I've been putting a couple of things off for a few years (budgetary constraints) and they can't be lived with any more.
Went to bed early last night, and slept until 4:30 this morning, at which point it became apparent the mind was not going to quiet down to allow me to go back to sleep, so I've been puttering about in my favorite time of day. See? Insufferable morning person.
Today: indoors chores, as outdoors it is white and slick. Again.
Friday, March 19, 2010
3:38 a.m. - Do I really have to get up? Yes, even a morning person has her limits. But it's departure day for my son, and my role for the early morning is driver of Mom's Taxi Service.
4:15 a.m. Pick up the kids, move on to the airport.
4:38 a.m. Drop them at check-in, go park the car. Walk in for final hugs. Nearly tear up over their good-byes. Remind son I'm proud of him and love him. Last hug. Give daughter in law some emotional space on the ride home, but remind her she's beautiful, brave and loved... because that's important to tell someone.
Now... home, getting ready for breakfast & feeling... feeling... feeling. If you are a mom, you kind of know and it doesn't have words, this feeling.
Thank God for habits that keep one doing healthy things through the feelings, as opposed to stuffing the feelings down.
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