Monday, April 05, 2010
Emotional eaters have a balancing act when it comes to holidays. Easter was tough for me, not because of temptations of food (I didn't buy candy, I went out with a sister who is supportive of healthy habits for my holiday meal), but because of the uncomfortable emotions surrounding the set-up of holidays in general.
Being "of a certain age", there are memories of years past to compare. It's easier for a holiday to bring mixed feelings. In every emotional day and hour, there is a reflection of the opposite emotion. Amid joy, there is longing or sadness. In grief and sadness, comes healing. In commemorating the life and sacrifice of Jesus Christ, and His resurrection, come memories of those who left this plane this year. The men and women fallen from my son's unit (and others in service). The minister who wrote the touching words to "Rejoice this Easter Day!" which we sang also departed this year.
Easter was harder for me than Christmas was. My son was home such a short time ago on leave, it was harder letting him go again. But I got through yesterday, without eating to comfort. I find that if I am not numbing the feelings with food, I can appreciate their layers.
This was a victory of a sort. Still, I found myself walking through today weary, having a hard time finding my stride at work. This evening I saw SusieMilo's blog entry... and my heart just flows out her and her family in their loss and grief.
What I hope to achieve and learn from all of this: to sit with the sadness, acknowledge it, and let it wash over and be healed in a Love that is pure. I pray for the comfort of others, as well.
May we each find the comfort and healing that comes in a healthy relationship with our emotions, and a healthy relationship with food, treating our bodies and our minds with kindness and compassion.