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The mystery: Chapter 10 - Who is stealing Salvador's stuffing?

Monday, November 22, 2010

Chapter 10:

The doctor had asked Salvador Son why he wasn't going to school. Sitting in that doctor's office, Helen Heroine wanted to pick the mild-mannered man up by his white coat lapels and shake him. Her mind wanted to yell: "Can't you see how desperate I am? I wouldn't BE here if my son could function!" But of course, she didn't.

Helen's concerns about her own health flew right out the window in her concern for her child. Harried Husband was angry from a distance; he thought Helen just wasn't being a tough enough parent about the school issue. He got himself out to Hometown from Oldtown in short order to make things right.

He had no better success than had Helen. The next year was a matter of one test after another, trying to find the culprit. Harried was NOT going to accept the answer one doctor suggested: "depression". Helen had her doubts. They kept hunting.

To complicate matters, Helen's Dad went downhill. Helen's dad was a strong member of the faith, having converted in his youth. He did not believe in doctors. But he clearly was failing. Since Helen was the only one of the five siblings still with the faith, she was elected by her sisters and brother to "take care" of the situation with their dad.

Helen was torn between two worlds. She made decisions for her dad based on his beliefs. But she felt forced to make opposite decisions for her son, since the faith was failing him. This in turn made her wonder about the decisions she was making for her dad.

In October, her dad passed on. Harried felt he had to go back to the house in Oldtown. Harried and Helen made a tough decision. They didn't like having to do this, but they decided that Harried should take Salvador back and stay in Oldtown, in the hopes that Salvador would do better there.

Salvador was better for a few weeks but started to fail again as the time wore on. More doctors. More missing answers. At the end of ten months, they gave his condition a label. It was probably a label of last resort, Helen and Salvador agreed later, since the parents would not accept what was likely the real diagnosis!

The label gave Salvador the option for an Individualized Education Plan. But he really did not want to be "special ed". Helen signed him up for a remote education plan at the university high school in Hometown, explaining that he was going back and forth between two states. She and Harried then could say he was home schooling. The truth of the matter was, he never cracked a book.

Salvador, now 16, made a decision for himself. He decided he needed a parent to make some of these decisions for him! He chose Helen as that parent, and frankly told her so. He came back to Hometown to live with his mom after a year in Oldtown with his dad.

Helen had her marching orders... she had to step up to the plate and be a parent, a real parent, for Salvador.

... to be continued...

  
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KALIGIRL 11/22/2010 9:21PM

    A child deciding they need a parent - an interesting scenario...

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MSLZZY 11/22/2010 5:21PM

    Thank goodness he made the decision on his own and I'm betting it was the right decision for him. HUGS!

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PENNYAN45 11/22/2010 5:18PM

    It seems that Helen is presented with -- and takes on -- one big responsibility after another. She shoulders a lot-- mostly alone.



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REJ7777 11/22/2010 3:33PM

    I can identify with your concerns about your own health flying out the window in your concern for your child. I was able to forgive the pain caused in my own life much more quickly than I was able to forgive the pain caused to our son by an inadequate father. I knew that if I succeeded at 100%, it would still only equal to 50% of what our son needed, because I could never be the father. And I knew I wouldn't succeed at 100%!

But, like you, I had to step up to the plate and parent my son. I'm sure looking forward to the next installment to read how things worked out for you and Salvador!

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SWEETMAGNOLIA2 11/22/2010 11:45AM

    Helen certainly has a lot on her shoulders and I can really relate to her having to be THE parent.

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The mystery: Chapter 9 - Unhappily, Harried!

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Chapter 9:

"The world is a dangerous place. It will jump up and bite you." That was the major lesson Harried learned from his life.

Growing up, his mother delighted in reading out "awful" stories from the newspaper or sharing what she heard on the radio. Babies dropped out of tall buildings in "The City". That sort of thing.

His dad shared this world view, perhaps that was where Harried picked it up. His dad would not let his sons use the power mower, for example, even into their teens. It was too dangerous.

This belief was reinforced by the disappointments of his young life, that made a huge impact on his world view. The hurricane that flooded his family out of their home when he was ten contributed. The time he rehearsed with the church choir for a Christmas program, but then the people who had been giving him a ride to rehearsals didn't give him a ride to perform, and he was kicked out of the choir.

It was reinforced when he found himself surrounded by children who were a closed group, bonded over their religion, which was different from his, in the new neighborhood (where they moved after the flood). It was reinforced when the neighborhood started to change in color and that bonded group fled to the suburbs. By the time he was supposed to go to high school, his inner city school was a nightmare.

He stopped going to school, withdrawing from life. Eventually this resulted in a visit from the truant officer. Even his health failed him: he had terrible headaches, and pains in his legs that could not be explained. His parents took him to doctors, even to quacks when the regular doctors could not figure out what was wrong.

It was into this dismal life that hope arrived on the wings of a neighbor woman's faith. She believed that prayer alone could heal. Harried admired her, and began going to Sunday school, and studying the teachings of this faith. He found that this helped him to function in a way that nothing else had up until now. He went to night school to get his high school diploma, finding that he got on better with adults than he did with people his own age.

But life continued to reinforce the negatives. He had a low draft number, and he was on the train on his way to college when the "Greetings" letter arrived in the mail back home. As soon as he graduated it was off to Army training as a draftee.

In the Army, he learned that he wasn't able to keep up physically. His flat feet kept him at the rear of the pack, "with the fatties", as he later would describe it. In the jungles of Viet Nam, he sent his mother letters telling that he prayed each day to not have to shoot anyone. He was wounded, a rocket hitting the vehicle he was riding on. Had it veered the other way, it would have been his name on The Wall, rather than a buddy's.

After that horror, dumped by the Army after the war, he had trouble adjusting. His negative view of the world was now reinforced by the job market. Harried left a job after a year, anxious over his personal safety on the job.

It was at this point that Harried went to a church conference in Boston and met Helen. Helen's outlook on life was so different. Harried and Helen exchanged addresses at the end of the conference and began writing to one another... Helen's letters were full of everyday doings from the Midwest... everything from movies to school classes she was taking to carving pumpkins with her kid sisters. It seemed so wholesome and upbeat... always upbeat.

Over several years, Harried moved to the midwest, they exchanged visits in a long and unusual courtship. Eventually, with that faith being the thing they had most in common... they married. Harried moved to Helen's town, and they set up housekeeping. Only then did the real learning about one another begin.

... to be continued ...

  
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PENNYAN45 11/22/2010 5:09PM

    Poor Harried. Helen brought sunshine to his life.

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GOHUSKERS2 11/21/2010 5:00PM

    I hope Harried has a happy ending.

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WALKINGANNIE 11/21/2010 12:45PM

    People's lives - and family life - are / is so complex, especially where they intersect with other peoples' lives.

You have been very fair in presenting Harried's back-story so sympathetically.

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JHADZHIA 11/21/2010 10:36AM

    How you were brought up in your childhood really does affect how you live your life, unfortunate.

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KALIGIRL 11/21/2010 8:39AM

    Unhappily Harried - perfect name for the chapter.
One wonders if childhood experiences, reinforced by later life, can ever be overcome. Add to the mixture seeking a spouse to provide the acceptance one never received from a parent and the stage is set.
Artfully, I might note, in your writing.
Namaste my friend.

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BZYBOYSMOM 11/21/2010 8:39AM

    You really are talented!

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SWEETMAGNOLIA2 11/21/2010 8:23AM

    Helen and Harried no doubt thought their love would overcome all the defects formed in their earlier years. Only as "the real learning begins" and harsh reality sets in are their eyes opened...

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MSLZZY 11/21/2010 8:07AM

    Such a great story to be told-hugs!

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REJ7777 11/21/2010 8:01AM

    You are a gifted author. I can't wait for the next installment!

We never quite know what we're getting into when we get married. The union of two lives with different world views, backgrounds, sexes (usually), temperaments, etc. I was in high school when I fell in love with my husband. I met him the week after he ended his service in the US Air Force. I was still in high school. He was the love of my life, and we got married 3 years later. God blessed us with a son, who was only 18 months old, when my handsome, police officer husband left me for another woman. My world came crashing down. I almost committed suicide with his gun. I was crazy with grief and thought, "you killed me emotionally, might as well finish the job". Then he'd realize what he did, come home, and everything would be OK. Only one problem, I'd be dead. (I really was INSANE with grief!) Even my beautiful baby was not enough to make me want to live. (He'd have only one parent anyway, might as well be his dad.)

The ONLY thing that brought me through was my faith, I cried out to God for peace, and He answered my prayer. I cried my way through the next two years in the US, then moved back to Canada to be near my family. It took awhile for the depression to lift, but I slowly came back to life. And one great blessing from that ill-fated union is my wonderful son.

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The mystery: Chapter 8 - So this isn't Home Sweet Home - Adjust

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Chapter 8:

Salvador Son was a kid, like any other kid. He didn't know that his life wasn't just like every other kid's life until he went to preschool. There he discovered that the other kids did not have a dad that stayed at home and a mom that went off to work every day. All the others in his class had either two parents who worked or their mom stayed with them.

This started Salvador out with an attitude of suspicion toward his parents and what they told him. He approached what they told him in Sunday School the same way, with suspicion.

Over the years he let snippets of his skepticism slip out in conversations with his mom, our Helen Heroine. When he was four, and Helen bubbled about something she'd done professionally as she tucked him into bed, she suggested he might enjoy this career when he grew up. He nailed her with a gaze and asked, "Do MEN fix computers?"

Salvador quickly learned the skill of children: to play the parents off against one another for what they'd give him. He knew to go to dad if he wanted things, but to mom if he wanted permission to DO something. He knew that his dad's first answer to anything was "No". He knew his parents were loud and argumentative. He knew they hardly noticed he was there, they were so wrapped up in their own conflict.

Once he hid out in his room to see how long before they'd even notice he was gone. The results were not encouraging.

When Helen went off to work in Jobtown, he had it pretty good. His dad, Harried Husband, was so wrapped up in his own misery and whatever his own projects were that third grader Salvador could pretty much do as he liked. Oh, he knew things would change... but for that year? Having one parent and not the other wasn't such a bad deal.

He'd lived in the same village since he was three. He knew all the kids in school. He could run about pretty independently, within limits. He played soccer and basketball on teams, and these were his good chums.

Then there was that horrible year when he was dragged off to Jobtown and enrolled in a strange new school where he knew no one. There was an undetected gas leak in the apartment that made him sick a lot of the time, before they got it fixed. When his dad was gone, his mom would drop him at before school care before he was awake, almost, and not come get him until late. And his mom didn't have a lot of energy to take him places.

When his dad came back, things got a little better. He didn't have to be in day care as long. He got enrolled in flag football, and basketball in the winter. He made a few new friends. His teacher was pretty cool. But when his dad was there, his mom and dad argued a lot. One day his dad used the "d" word in an argument... the one his friends had told him about. Right after that, his mom bundled him into the car and they drove off.

Over burgers, he voiced his concern, "Mom, are you and dad going to get divorced?" His mom asked him if he knew what it took to get a divorce. He did not. She said that someone had to hire a lawyer and fill out lots of papers and go to court. She assured him she would NEVER do such a thing, and asked if he could envision his dad doing it? Salvador laughed. No way would his dad pull that off.

When they moved back to Oldtown, Salvador survived the strangeness of having missed a chunk of life there. Things were returned to a stable state, if not a perfect one. Then there was that awful Summer, when he prayed that the teachers would NOT ask for an essay of what he did that Summer! He told his mom he could write it in one word: "Grieved."

He had a fairly good Summer, if a strange one, when his mom took that leave of absence. Mom let him do things. She let him host sleepovers with a friend or two. Dad almost never did that sort of thing, thinking everything was too dangerous. Mom kept her promises, but didn't let him re-interpret them. Dad often would "forget" his promises, or pooh out on delivery of them... but dad wasn't there for most of that Summer.

But now, it had happened AGAIN! Here he was in a strange city, knowing no one, and about to go to high school. He'd had to leave a girlfriend behind, as well as his chums. And his dad's birthday present? It was a joke. Salvador picked out a fake rock to put on the front entrance to the house. It said, "So this isn't Home Sweet Home - Adjust".

On his own, it was a long walk to the mall, but the town was pretty easy to navigate. In the middle of August, though, he found himself not functional. He dialed the cell phone to get his mom at work. "I don't care what you're doing, I'm sick, I need to get home." Helen made excuses at work, and went to retrieve her son.

School started. Salvador knew no one, and no one appreciated his dry wit. When he joked the way he used to at the old school, no one knew him, so no one laughed. He ate lunch alone, in a school with two thousand students. He was a picky eater, and ended up eating junk out of the machines. But mostly, he felt unwell.

Helen could not keep him in school. Legally he was required to go to school, but he couldn't make it through more than a couple of hours. The church teachings said not to go to doctors, but prayer alone wasn't working, and Helen was desperate. When the practitioner of the faith she'd called for prayerful help "fired" Salvador as a patient, she took him to see a regular medical doctor, who mildly asked Salvador, "So, why aren't you going to school?" Salvador's answer, "I dunno."

... to be continued ...

  
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REJ7777 11/20/2010 10:16PM

    I wonder who Salvador son gets his "dry wit" from. emoticon
I marvel at your ability to write about your life like you do!

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PENNYAN45 11/20/2010 9:16PM

    It's an interesting story. I am looking forward to that happier time coming up.

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SWEETMAGNOLIA2 11/20/2010 5:03PM

    I wish I could write like you. The story is so real with each character's unique temperament and struggles. I feel for them all. emoticon

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WALKINGANNIE 11/20/2010 4:41PM

    This is so interesting for us and I wonder if it's therapeutic for you to work through and part-fictionalise the memories?

Thanks for telling the story so compellingly.

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KALIGIRL 11/20/2010 9:31AM

    I haven't had a chance to read these from the beginning, but sense a wonderful way to share a lesson.
Your writing is exceptional Barb.
I look forward to reading the rest.

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KATHRYNLP 11/20/2010 8:31AM

    emoticon so sad..

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ONEKIDSMOM 11/20/2010 8:31AM

    Yeah, I know... this chapter is sad, it's also written to make a point... from a different point of view. When we listen to Debbie Denial and Penny Pinkclouds, not everybody is hearing what they say.

Also, this is probably the most fictionalized part... giving the most negative interpretation. The next one will probably be a bit of a downer, too... as we peek at the innards of Harried's point of view, before we get back to the major thread of Helen figuring it out!

Y'all know there's a happy ending coming for Salvador as well as for Helen, right? Hope springs eternal!

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SUNNY332 11/20/2010 8:01AM

    Now, I have to agree. This post was kind of sad.

Sunny

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MSLZZY 11/20/2010 7:29AM

    How sad!

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The mystery: Chapter 7 - there's something about Helen

Friday, November 19, 2010

Chapter 7:

Helen Heroine had always wanted everyone to like her, and most especially she craved the approval of her parents and family. As a child, she would listen to her parents talk and based on what her child-ears heard, determine how to behave and what to tell and not tell people about her life.

Because her mother seemed critical of anyone who asked for much, Helen would avoid voicing her own needs. Because her father prized intelligence, Helen avoided relating anything that showed her in a foolish or stupid light. Helen's friend Debbie Denial helped her craft what she would tell people about her life, and what she would "spin". The politicians had nothing on the team of Helen and Debbie.

Penny Pinkclouds had been a friend since childhood. Penny taught Helen how to deceive herself, and write fairy tale outcomes for actions that Helen wanted to take or had taken. Penny was great at rationalization.

These ladies came along for the trip back to Hometown. Helen didn't make hotel reservations, as her sister Selena invited her to stay with her during the work week. Helen would house hunt on alternate weekends, trading off with flights back to Harried Husband and Salvador Son, and to prepare for the big move that Penny and Helen had planned.

Helen and Selena talked a lot during her stay. They talked about growing up and various feelings they had. Helen also spent time with her dad. He was alone now, her mom having been gone for two years. She started going back to the church of her youth.

In all her conversations, Helen took the advice of Debbie Denial. She made her life sound happy, because "no one wants to hear that bad stuff". At church, only the good was considered "real"... you don't rehearse "error" (bad) or give it a voice. Helen wanted to be accepted, and the way to be accepted was to put on a happy face and relate the world as Penny Pinkclouds saw it.

Consequently, everyone who knew Helen, knew only what Helen told them... they knew that Harried was fine, not that Helen was resentful of his lack of support. They knew that Salvador was smart. Not that Helen worried about her absence from his life, and Harried's apparent inability to provide guidance for a now-teenaged son. They knew that Helen had a fine new job. Not that she was constantly worried about making ends meet and what the future would bring. Not that she felt inadequate.

Helen didn't admit even to herself that Harried was the only person in her life that she could even voice a negative to. The fact that he wasn't a person who could or would act on the information and provide substantial help? Well, that left our old chum Freddie Foodbinge.

Helen once again decided to "fix" things herself. Harried would come around. He always did, she thought. With her eye on the relocation package provided by her employer, Helen found a house that Harried approved from the online ads and photos Helen and his sister sent. Harried's sister helped Helen paint and prepare it on weekends.

The following Summer, Helen went back to Oldtown and helped pack up the furniture (or most of it) and move into that house. Harried and Salvador came along. They moved in around the 4th of July. Salvador's fifteenth birthday was celebrated by Harried going out and buying something Salvador didn't even want... and forcing Helen to expend energy shopping for accessories and setting it up: an aquarium. Yes, that energy thief was back.

Having given Helen more things to care for, Harried headed out, back to Oldtown and the old house. He was once again supposed to be selling it. Since Salvador was old enough to take care of himself, Helen thought things might be easier than they were a few years back in Jobtown. She worried... what would Salvador do all day? He was too young to drive and he had no friends here in Hometown! She pointed out where things were, and he had directions to walk or take the bus as he explored the town. Still, she was left once again, a "single" mom, with an older son this time, and a demanding job.

This did not look good.

... to be continued ...

  
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REJ7777 11/20/2010 9:49PM

    Helen and I unfortunately have some of the same friends. emoticon

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MSLZZY 11/19/2010 10:28PM

    Very creative-can't wait for more!

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PENNYAN45 11/19/2010 5:35PM

    Thanks for the new chapter. You are a very good story teller.

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WALKINGANNIE 11/19/2010 2:28PM

    More compelling writing Barb. Thank you for telling the story.

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GOHUSKERS2 11/19/2010 12:38PM

    I think we all know these people....

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SUNNY332 11/19/2010 9:22AM

    I also have a good friend called Debbie Denial.

Keep up the great work.

Sunny

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SWEETMAGNOLIA2 11/19/2010 8:07AM

    I can really relate to Helene Heroine. She and I have common "friends", Debbie Denial, Freddie Foodbinge, and Penny Pinkcloud. Poor Helen! With friends like these who needs enemies? Thanks for helping me see myself through this wonderful allegory. emoticon

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BUGGYS 11/19/2010 7:48AM

    Love it!

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PATRISNA 11/19/2010 7:28AM

    emoticon It is hard to wait for the next chapter.

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The mystery: Chapter 6 - Is the grass greener?

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Chapter 6:

I cannot even begin to write Chapter 6... in this chapter, Helen Heroine tries her hand at being a stay at home mom and organizing her house. This is the job she was so critical of Harried Husband not doing the way Helen thought it ought to be done.

What Helen found out was that it wasn't as simple as her mother made it look. Harried wasn't coping well with the burdens he had been given, either. Eventually he had to have his sister and her son step in to finish the job of selling their mom's old house.

Helen's family leave was extended; she got really anxious about finances, too. Her attempts to find the villain from the first chapter, who was stealing her energy had stopped. She kept listening to Reuben Resentment, although Debbie Denial was also a strong voice in her ear. Polly Perfectionist was "out". Helen was doing all she could to just get through the days. She sullenly told herself she was on her own. Harried was no help. She had to be the one to "fix" things.

Six months after the leave began, Helen was working from home, part-time. Six months after that, she started traveling again. Yet another six months, and she began to hear rumors that her company was bidding on a job back in her parents' home town.

Debbie Denial was joined by Penny Pinkclouds and a fantasy formed in Helen's mind. If she could work her way onto this project, she would relocate her family back to Hometown; everything would resolve itself. In this fantasy, Harried would find a job: he always said he wanted a job, it was a major source of his unhappiness and lack of self-esteem, Debbie argued.

In this fantasy, Salvador would also have more opportunity: it was a bigger town, with good schools, after all, Helen went to school there. And also in the fantasy, Helen would have the family and church support she used to have as a child.

Helen begged the manager for the opportunity to work on this bid. She was given the chance, and excited to see her dad and sisters, she climbed on an airplane bound for Hometown!

... to be continued ...

  
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REJ7777 11/20/2010 9:37PM

    What happens next??? emoticon

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    emoticon this is very interesting.

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SWEETMAGNOLIA2 11/19/2010 5:41AM

    What happens next? If you want to find out you'll have to check out the next installment of "The Mystery". Will be looking for it!

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PENNYAN45 11/19/2010 2:38AM

    Looking forward to the next installment.....



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LJCANNON 11/19/2010 12:59AM

    A very exciting, and intriguing story. emoticon

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MSLZZY 11/18/2010 9:29PM

    The plot thickens..can't wait to read what comes next!

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