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Friday, October 17, 2014

Yikes! We are midway through the month and I thought I'd let you know how I was doing on those goals I set up.

I had really good intentions in setting up those goals and didn't think they were that crazy or difficult. Boy was I wrong Change IS difficult. It is ok for a brief moment - but maintaining it is the hard part.

I am asking for help and suggestions on obtaining/maintaining some of my goals!

1. Sleep - I was shooting for 8 hours sleep a night. I did well with that on the weekends. I did poorly on that during the week. I averaged 6-7 hours a night on weeknights. This is what I find is happening. I get home from work at 6pm. I change my clothes, make dinner, eat dinner, clean up the kitchen, read my mail, hop on the treadmill for an hour -it is now 8:30. Shower (cuz I am a sweaty mess after the treadmill), sit down to watch some tv. After an hour of tv, I am not ready to go to bed. I am wide awake. I tried turning off the tv and going to bed, but I just toss and turn for a couple hours. In fact, I find it takes me longer to fall asleep than when I stay up an hour longer! I have tried soothing music, reading in bed, meditation - my mind is still going and is NOT ready to stop yet! I thought after a couple weeks of doing this I would adjust, but it hasn't happened yet!
I have met this goal an average of 3 nights a week out of 7. Less than 50%. I am gong to continue to try to get my body to adjust.

2. Water. I have been doing great with the water. I get at least 8 glasses in a day. Yippee! A success!

3. Soda. I was shooting to limit my soda to one a day. For the most part I have met that goal. I had three days where I had more than one per day. So This one is well on its way to being met!

4. Breakfast. I was going to try to eat a breakfast at home in the morning before going to work instead of grabbing a protein bar at work. Again, I do well on this one on the weekends, but the work week has pretty much been protein bars and fruit. I have not been able or perhaps I should say willing - to get up earlier and make a breakfast before work. I continue to not be a morning person! This goal is far from being met!

5. Purging cupboards. I did purge my cupboards of all the things that cause me to want to binge eat. I pretty much have some canned goods, some whole grain pasta and a few other things in there. No chips, no oreos, no chocolate. This goal has been met!

6. Whole foods. I was trying to eat more whole foods and avoid processed foods. I am doing better in this. I have cooked more - however I am finding just because the healthy foods are there, doesn't mean I am eating them. I have had a couple nights each week where I either had meetings after work, or something scheduled that caused me to eat out instead of eating my healthy options at home. Positive - I have made better choices while eating out and have not fallen for the alfredo pasta yet!

7. Table. I was going to eat only at my kitchen table - however, I have found myself more than half of the time eating in front of the tv watching the news as I ate. This one is a work in progress. Eating at the table alone staring out the window really isn't something I enjoy!

8. Morning walk. It is much easier for me to meet my step goal if I walk a couple miles in the morning before work. However with the season change, the temps are cooler and it is now dark in the morning - as in DARK! I find myself reaching for the snooze button. I feel tired and I don't wanna! I would say the snooze button has won out 70% of the time! This one needs improvement.

9. Journal. Yep, it sounded good, but it isn't happening. I keep my food log and my exercise log- but any other journaling just isn't happening. My free time during the week is limited and I haven't wanted to spend it journaling.

10. 3 positive things. I was going to blog these - but I haven't. In fact this one totally fell by the wayside! However, I need to do this to keep myself motivated and in a positive space. Sooooo, I will be working on this one!

11. Scale. Uh, no. I have been on the scale more than I should. I get obsessed about lots of things = mostly that involve numbers. For some silly reason I feel I can control numbers. So after hopping on the scale tomorrow morning for my challenge I am going to try harder NOT to get on until the following Saturday morning. Positive side - I am not getting on the scale multiple times a day! So obsession hasn't totally taken over.

Wow, I thought these were somewhat easy goals and I am seeing that I have much work to do on reaching many of them. amazing how we can think we are doing everything we should be - until we take a closer look!

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POCKETFULOFSUN 10/20/2014 6:48PM

    I wonder if the intense exercise b4 bed might be affecting your sleep. Perhaps you can swap and go walking after dinner. Also if you have do ahead or crockpot meals you could perhaps hit the treadmill b4 dinner.
Goal to cut down on soda is great. The news this am reported that a can of soda a day shortens lifespan by 2 years. The more soda the shorter you live.

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LYNNIERN 10/18/2014 8:00AM

    Start over each day. I didn't do as well this week as I wanted to either. It's a new challenge and a new start! We can do this!!

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WALLAHALLA 10/17/2014 3:24PM

    I use melatonin to help relax me before bed.
I like to prepare my breakfast at night so that it is ready to eat in the morning with very little work from me.

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NHES220 10/17/2014 3:12PM

    Well, lots of stuff here!
1. I don't think I could ever get 8 hours. I shoot for 7 and sometimes get it. 7 is my goal and I think that is really what I need.
2. Great job on the water!
3. Soda - that was my downfall years ago and I could never do just 1, it was 6 or 7 a day. I had to quit.
4. Breakfast - can you bring something to work with you? Cereal in tupperware? Fresh fruit? That way you don't have to eat at home, but you do have to plan.
5. Great job on the cupboards!
6. I need to do more whole foods too.
7. We usually eat at TV trays, I'm not going to stress about this one.
8. Morning walk - I should be getting out there but it is dark and cold. I do have these Nathan lights for the dark so I can be seen. They are LED and clip on.
9. Journal - I am not a journal person
10. 3 positive things - great idea, I should put this on my list
11. Scale - I am and will stay a daily weigher. I don't obsess but it keeps me in check
Have a great weekend!

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NSCARNEY 10/17/2014 12:26PM

    I feel ya on the sleep part! Are you feeling tired during the day with the sleep you're getting? I figure that if I do a little pre-staging--have the coffeepot set up on a timer, the bread, peanut butter and a plate out, and my clothes laid out, I can hit the snooze bar and gain a few minutes on the morning end, since I can't seem to sleep before 10:30.

And please, please wear reflective gear and carry a light (even your phone's tinyflashlight app) for safety's sake if you're going to be out before dawn!! I'd miss your cool blog entries!

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Friday giggle

Friday, October 10, 2014

I work in a law firm. Giggles in our lobby aren't a common thing but today I couldn't help but giggle all the way from the bathroom back to my desk.

We have these electronic sinks that turn themselves on when you put your hands under the faucet. Well, someone was using the closest sink so I went to the next one - which beeped at me and never turned on. This means the batteries controlling the sensor are dead. I headed to the furthest sink - which rarely gets used. I put my hands under the faucet and the water sprayed out with such force it went all over the counter. I washed my hands and decided it was only right that I took some paper toweling and wipe up the water on the counter.

As I circled the sink with the paper towel wiping up the water I passed the electronic soap dispenser and it squirted a bunch of soap in the sink. Ugh.

So I reached into the sink to wipe up the soap and the water came on spraying the counter. Really?

OK, start over. I wiped up the counter trying to avoid the soap dispenser, only to pass through the sensor again and squirt out came the soap in the sink. Yep, I wiped it up and on came the water again.

I repeated this about 3 times laughing so hard. I felt like I was in a Three Stooges scene. I finally figured out a way to wipe up the mess without squirting soap. Geez.

Today, I am grateful I can laugh at myself!

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SARAHL817 10/12/2014 12:58PM

    Crazy story ... thanks for the laugh!

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LYNNIERN 10/11/2014 9:19AM

    LOL, I can totally see that happening and I was wondering if the paper towel dispenser went crazy also.

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POSITIVEHOPE 10/11/2014 12:53AM

    Tiny bubbles... So funny!

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WALLAHALLA 10/11/2014 12:22AM

    I love a good laugh, no matter what the source.

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    So funny. I can see it happening. emoticon

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NETGYRL 10/10/2014 2:18PM

    Nice! :)

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NHES220 10/10/2014 12:40PM

    Did you look for the hidden camera? That is too funny and glad you can laugh at it. TGIF!

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4ANEWME2DAY 10/10/2014 12:23PM

    emoticon I was imagining the whole situation in my mind. Thank goodness no one else was in the bathroom or came in to the bathroom when you were having your go around with the soap and water. Just think now the bathroom sink is spotless. emoticon emoticon

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Thursday, October 09, 2014

Please give me the strength to stay out of the work kitchen today. It Thursday - which means Panera Bread bagels and cookies in the kitchen. As if that isn't bad enough, one of the people here brought in a fresh baked pumpkin roll, fresh, warm donuts and cider from one of the local orchard markets.

There is this illusive thing called moderation which I have yet to figure out. I know if I go in there to have a piece of a donut, or a piece of that pumpkin roll, the remaining piece or pieces will follow, which will lead me to wanting a cookie because I already screwed up with the piece of whatever. I know that isn't the way I SHOULD think - but that is where my head goes and it is quite relentless. No matter how much I tell it to chill out, it persists until I just give in.

Because I know this about myself, I went out for a walk this lunch hour. On my way back, I stopped by the orchard and bought a small bag of apples - which are now in my office. Yummy, crisp fall apples. Not a donut or cookie - but yummy in their own way. Nothing quite like the first apples of fall!

In the mean time I am doing the avoidance thing - just keeping my butt out of that kitchen no matter what! Taking the long way around to go to the lobby. Although I did cave and walk in their to get a cold vitamin water zero. It's almost time to go home. I almost made it!

A small part of me is feeling deprived. Another part of me is thinking that I walked some extra steps today taking the long way around! Maybe someday I will learn the art of moderation, but that day is not today and a free for all in the kitchen would only bring me feelings of shame and guilt and take me further from my goal.

I may not have the moderation thing down, but the voice of reason is getting a little stronger!!!

Hopefully by tomorrow most of the treats are gone and day old treats aren't nearly as tempting. In the meantime, I will keep praying for strength to stay on my path and not fall to those temptations!

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WALLAHALLA 10/10/2014 12:07PM

    emoticon way to make wiser choices!

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NSCARNEY 10/10/2014 8:46AM

    Right on! emoticon

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    You got this!

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MARCIAC10 10/9/2014 6:38PM

    emoticon Just keep your eyes on your goals to help avoid those temptations!!

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COMPCHIC52 10/9/2014 5:47PM

    Good for you on the extra steps. you need to think of that stuff as poison and how much it is so bad for you and bad for those who are eating it. it is not healthy. you can do it I have faith in you. you need to have it in yourself. don't eat the poison. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NETGYRL 10/9/2014 5:44PM

    It is tough, but it sounds like you know where your head is at now and took care of yourself that best way you could. Hopefully, moderation will come in time. :) You did great! Don't feel deprived, feel proud. You could have had some treats, you just choose not to this time. Well done! :)

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Thursday, October 02, 2014

I like to think I am an honest person. When I do something wrong I own up to it. Sometimes I'd like to hide, but I have learned that it is easier to own up to it and move on!

I have posted blogs about my struggles with my eating habits. I am honest about the poor choices I made. Yesterday as part of my "plan" for the first week of October, I purged my kitchen of all the foods I shouldn't have there.

I vowed no foods would be off limits when I started this journey. I don't like the idea of "good" foods and "bad" foods - because I tend to like bad, just because I can! I have a tendency to want to experience "bad" things. It goes way back in my childhood. If we were told not to go somewhere, I just had to peek and see what that was all about! I learned lots of things the hard way. I was the child that had to touch the hot stove to believe it was really hot and would hurt me.

So, back to the kitchen purging, I had my bags out.... one for a friend with young kids, one for the food pantry and the trash can. I emptied the cupboards one shelf at a time and carefully thought about each item I was placing back in them - would it help keep me on my path to my goal? It was pretty easy with the cans of veggies and soups, but then I got to the pancake mix, the brownie mix, the pasta and mac & cheese, the chocolate, the chips ...

This little voice in my head said "don't give that away, you should keep it for when your son or the grandkids visit", "oh, that's their favorite", "you will just be back at the store buying it again next week"...

Where did THAT come from? That little voice that lies to me and gets me to believe it? Oh wait, that little voice is coming from me!

Yep, I lie to myself. I do it all the time. "Go ahead and hit the snooze, you can get ready in 30 minutes".... only to have me frantically trying to get out the door and to work on time. "Go ahead buy the Oreos. The kids love them. You can eat three each day and build it into your calorie count. You deserve it. After all, there are NO bad foods"... which leads me to strategically placing them in the back of the cupboard where no one will know they are there and me eating not three, but all three rows in one sitting. I KNOW I cannot eat three Oreo's right now- maybe someday, but not today! "It's ok to make poor food choices when eating out, after all you are paying for the food, you should eat what you love"... which only makes it harder to make those right choices next time! I always tell myself it will be ok, I will get it together tomorrow. After all, it's ok not to be perfect, right?

Silly part? I believe the lies I tell myself. In fact, at the time, sometimes they actually sound like a good idea. I can rationalize my way into some pretty crazy things! Sad part? The lies I tell myself take me further from what I really want! They lead me to believe those thoughts of
"I will NEVER get there" - which lead me to throw in the towel. They lead me to feel shame and guilt.

Yep, I'm getting to understand myself a little better! Soooooo, for the first week in October, I will be honest with myself. I know sometime I will make the decision to eat something I probably shouldn't - but I will be honest with myself about it.

Anyone else done this? Are you doing this? How did you get beyond it?

I am going to try to make more rational choices. I am going to ask myself one question. Will this take me closer or further from my goal? I am going to try my best to be honest with my answer!

Yep, this is MY journey. Lying to myself serves no real purpose.

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NSCARNEY 10/8/2014 11:28AM

    Sounds like you know yourself and your triggers pretty well! Sometimes ya just gotta remove temptation...

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2B4EVERFITAT50 10/7/2014 10:26PM

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NKTLBOYD 10/5/2014 10:32PM

    Well done. Right now there are chips and dip calling my name and I don't have room for them in my calories today. I got them thinking one serving once in awhile wouldn't be so bad, if I had room.... but they are begging to be eaten tonight.

Well done. Also, throwing away food just feels wrong, so I'm glad you gave it away.

oh, and I'm stealing netgyrl's quote for my motivation board.

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KATELJM 10/4/2014 9:44AM

    It turned out for me that the foods/drink that made me look stupid aren't even the best tasting foods to choose from. I have a long list of foods that I love that are contributing to my well-being, so I do not feel deprived. By not eating the empty calories, I can eat more nutritious food, and that makes me happy. These days I look forward to guacamole instead of ice cream, because I imagine how much my skin (inside and out) will respond to it.

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WALLAHALLA 10/3/2014 10:46PM

    There are definitely foods that I can not bring in the house. No good to pretend otherwise.

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SUZMANNIE 10/3/2014 6:05PM

    There ARE bad foods. Foods that don't respect boundaries. Such as, "I'll only have one." You did well to clean your cabinets. When I eat the bad foods, I notice that my tastes shift and the "bad" stuff is the only thing that tastes good.

I've done the same lying to myself: huge muffins are okay because they're breakfast food, when they're really cake. And energy bars are healthy, when most are fancy candy bars. It's a big step to realize this like you're doing! emoticon

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COMPCHIC52 10/2/2014 2:30PM

    its all a hard thing and you know what we are really a strong people to be doing what we are doing. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NETGYRL 10/2/2014 2:02PM

    "Don't give up what you want most, for you what you want now."

I read this quote EVERY DAY for exactly what this blog is about. I rationalized myself all the way back up to 250 lbs.

For me the decision is: do you want to sit around eating chips and watching TV or do you want to feel confident, energized and outgoing? Is it worth the work involved? I think it is and hopefully this time I have learned my lesson.

You have nailed the answer on the head - if you keep asking yourself "does this bring me closer to goal?" and answer honestly and then make the right decision based on that answer, you will guide yourself to success.

Great blog.

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ROBBIEY 10/2/2014 12:34PM

  I definitely do this as well. I think that I tend to self sabotage. As soon as I am doing well, I get in my own way and overeat or drink. I am conscious of it but I do it anyhow. I just keep moving past the bad days and keep moving forward. emoticon

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Stop floundering!

Wednesday, October 01, 2014

So I have felt that the past few months I have been floundering. I even got out the dictionary and looked up the word flounder. Of course the noun refers to the fish. Then there were the other meanings, none of which I really wanted to claim as relating to me: to struggle to move or obtain footing: thrash about wildly; to proceed to act clumsily or ineffectually. Yep, that has been me.

I made a decision. No more floundering in October. No more thrashing about wildly! What wasted energy! I have lost and gained the same 15 pounds for about 6 months. My healthy eating habits are not habits! They get tossed by the wayside when cravings strike. It is time to move on from that pattern.

I decided this time to make a plan. Not only to make a plan, but to implement it. I looked long and hard at the areas I struggle and it is mainly with food. I have managed to get the exercise worked into a daily routine, but I also have managed to negate my wonderful workouts with poor food choices.

Soooooo, plan? Me make a plan? I am not an in the box, follow the routine sort of girl. However, free thinking got me to where I am. It is time to try something new.

Here's the plan - I am breaking it down week by week. It seems easier this way.

So for this first week in October my plan is:

1. To get 8 hours of sleep. Which will mean turning off the tv and going to bed at an earlier time. If I am well rested, I will be less apt to want to hit that snooze button and sink my morning workout AND I will have time to eat a healthy breakfast.

2. Drink all my water BEFORE I have a soda. I am not sure I want to live a soda free lifestyle, but I certainly would like to limit my soda intake and get it to be much less than what it is. I drink diet soda. I am not a coffee or tea drinker. Soda is my only beverage other than water and an occasional juice. Week one, I am going to drink all my water (8 glasses) before I have a soda.

3. Limit soda to one per day (or less).

4. EAT breakfast. I am a good one to get up, get on the treadmill, get my workout in, shower and rush out the door to work - only to be tempted by the smells of toasting bagels and a growling stomach. I usually have protein bars in my desk - but a protein bar for breakfast every day is not my best option and it sure is no match for those toasting bagels! I am going to allow myself enough time to eat breakfast before I leave home - or to bring a breakfast to work with me.

5. Purge the cupboards. Yep, that's gonna be a tough one. I hate to get rid of food. I know what my trigger foods are and there are some in my house. They have to go. So tonight after work, I will be purging my cupboards. Oh and by purging my cupboards, I don't mean eating all those things that are in there - I mean giving it away to someone who will use it or throwing it away. Throwing it away? No, I am not going to feel guilty about that. OK, well maybe I will (I struggle with guilt) - but not as guilty as I will feel if I eat all that stuff!

6. Stick with whole foods as much as possible. I am changing my shopping habits. Instead of shopping the local grocery on the corner near my house, I am going to drive a little further and shop the market a couple miles away that carries mainly fresh produce, meats and healthier options. Yep, it will cost a little more than the corner grocery - but I will spend less money by not buying all the junk food I don't need. I have said this before - but have never actually stuck with it!

7. Eat at my kitchen table. What? I haven't done that in years! No more food in the living room or eating out of the pan over the kitchen sink or stove. That is where I get myself into trouble. So for the first week I will reacquaint myself with my kitchen table, my dishes and good silverware! Yep, my meals are going to be eaten like meals.

8. Stick with my workout routine of walking every morning before work, add to that strength training three times a week. I have enough new things to master in the food department, so going to somewhat keep the workout the same in the beginning. I seem to have this routine somewhat mastered.

9. Journal daily. Journal food, journal workouts, journal my emotions.

10. Blog three positive things I accomplished each day (I may post them in the morning from the day before). I can get hung up on what I didn't accomplish - I need to focus on what I am accomplishing! Even if it is something small, I need to acknowledge it. Sometimes it is those small things that really are bigger than we think!

11. No getting on the scale except for my 5% challenge weigh ins. No looking every day, no rewards or punishment for numbers on the scale. It is not about the number on the scale! (I am having a hard time with this one.)

This should get me on my way. Getting back to the basics where I was when I first started this journey that seem to have gotten lost along the way.

I will check back with you all at the end of next week to let you know how I am doing! I now have a roadmap for the first few steps in this journey.

One foot in front of the other, once choice at a time, here we go!

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KATELJM 10/4/2014 10:08AM

    Like many others, I just have a diet soda occasionally when I eat out. I gave up on artificial sweeteners in general and try to keep my sugar intake modest (as in under 6 Tbsp. of granulated sugar and only 2 fruits a day). In 2009, I couldn't survive work without Luna bars for breakfast; now I am trying to limit refined foods in general, so I look forward to a protein shake now. This summer I learned to add 3 cups of kale to the protein shake with a pear and 1 Tbsp. of natural peanut butter, so I get those veggie vitamins with a slightly sweet taste; who knows, I might grow up one day and cook kale for dinner... something to grow into.

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WALLAHALLA 10/3/2014 10:38PM

    Good for you! The only flounder you should have is a fish dinner. emoticon

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AQUAGIRL08 10/2/2014 6:06PM

    Great goals!

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SARA-SMILE 10/2/2014 6:22AM

    I agree! Your plan is great and doable and it inspires me to make a plan too. Giving up the diet soda completely have been very hard for me, I have slipped up several times. I am going to cut down too - like you, instead of restricting it completely. It's only in the summer-like days that I crave it. I wish you the best on you healthy plan! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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    Great plan with specifics that make it individual. It seems you know yourself quite well ! Please share as you progress !

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SARAHL817 10/1/2014 10:29PM

    Great plan!
It will probably be hard, especially at first, but stick to it no matter what and you'll do great!
Good job analyzing what you can do to help yourself and figuring out how to implement it!

I'm looking forward to seeing how your plan works for you!

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MARCIAC10 10/1/2014 9:52PM

    Good luck! I gave up diet coke, only have it when we go out to eat on occasion. Let me warn you, though, you may have to drink it earlier in the day, before drinking the 8 glasses of water, due to the caffeine! You may want to wean yourself off of it, or work towards drinking the 8 glasses of water before the cola to avoid caffeine headaches. I tried going "cold turkey" off of diet coke once and found out the hard way what a mistake that was. Caffeine withdrawal is tough! Gradual withdrawal is much better.

So if you find yourself getting headachy and feeling tired and cranky and achy, that may be what's going on.

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NETGYRL 10/1/2014 5:39PM

    Wow, this is an awesome and well thought out plan! Nice!!

#3 - I also drink diet soda and I only let myself have some when we go out to eat. That's how I handle it for my kids too. Works for us. I don't know if that is something you would consider but it's an idea. :)

#6 - Plan your meals. I know if I don't have the week planned out then our meals go all to hell. This is key for us. I don't really enjoy doing it but I have to to stay on track.

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