Wednesday, August 20, 2014
Today is day 3 of my spark login streak. Yippee! I'm on my way!
This morning I got up and got on the treadmill. After one mile I started feeling a little tired. I noticed that I was slapping the treadmill with my left foot which I normally find myself doing at the end of my walk. After the one mile mark I really wanted to quit. I stopped and stretched.
Onward to mile 2. Phew, sweat, slapping foot, I don't wanna.... Yes Barb, you wanna. You have goals, remember? OK, I will, but I don't want to.
Halfway through - I REALLY don't want to. I am whipped. My knee hurts. It feels stiff and the pain is starting to move down my leg a bit. Barb, you are not a quitter. Keep going. Finish the 2 miles. You are ALMOST there!!! Plod, plod, plod. Yippee, I made it!
OK, one more mile. WHAT? Wait, you said two, not three. But I know you have three in you. You can do this. Quit listening to those silly gremlins in your head who say you can't. You got this! Come on, take it a quarter mile at a time....
Repeat to self: I am able. I AM ABLE!
I am motivated. I AM MOTIVATED!
I am persistent. I AM PERSISTENT!
I am strong. I AM STRONG!
I am a warrior. I AM A WARRIOR!
I am relentless. I AM RELENTLESS!
I am brave. I AM BRAVE!
I am fierce. I AM FIERCE!
I will reach my goal. I WILL REACH MY GOAL!
Nothing will stand in my way. NOTHING!!!
I am a conqueror! I AM A CONQUEROR!
Well, I chanted those phrases over and over and over. Before you knew it that third mile was done! Before you know it I was believing those words! Phew! I am brave! I am strong! I am on my way to reaching that goal!
Move over cupcake, I have places to go!!! I am FIERCE!!!!!
Tuesday, August 19, 2014
Every year for my son's birthday we go to see the Detroit Tigers play baseball. This year the Tigers were playing in Toronto Canada. We got our passports, loaded up the suitcases in the car and hit the road. Sunday we got up bright and early and wandered around Rogers Centre. We found our gate and made our way into the field. The Blue Jay's welcomed us with birthday wishes!
We had awesome seats right behind the visitors (Tigers) dugout. We rarely get those seats in Detroit!
Over our shoulders it looked like the space aliens had landed! Phew, it was only the CN tower!
Every fan's dream - extra innings! Yep that scoreboard says 17! The game went on for 19 innings. We were at the field over 7 hours! Unfortunately our team lost.
It was baseball day in Canada. We decided to cross over to the other side for a bit, but we will always be Tiger fans in our hearts!
After the baseball game, we hooked up with my daughter's family in Niagara Falls. We did all kinds of touristy stuff. There was the SkyWheel, to which my son said, I don't want to, I'll wait here - but we coaxed him on. There was the Hornblower Cruise up to the falls to which my son said I don't want to, I'll wait here - but we coaxed him on.
There was the walk through the tunnels behind the falls - to which my son said I don't want to but we coaxed him on. There was the Aero Car over the rapids to which my son said I don't want to, I'll wait here - but we coaxed him on.
Once on each of those things, he had a great time - it was the getting him there that was difficult.
Hmmmmm, which parallels my getting back in my healthy eating, exercise routine! It was really difficult today. I didn't want to - but doing it anyhow and know what? I'm actually enjoying it. It was a great feeling to have more steps on my fitbit by 8am than I had all day yesterday! It was actually yummy to eat some fruit instead of the Danish in the kitchen.
Sometimes the biggest obstacle in my way is myself! Sometimes the fears in my head become my limitations.
Today I am opening my mind and getting out of my own way!
Monday, August 18, 2014
Was off for a family vacation last week. We ventured to Canada to Toronto and to the Niagara Falls area. I must say, "There's no place like home". We had a great trip, but it was so good to return home and sleep in my own bed and get back to my quiet little life!
So here's the gang (minus me taking the pic) waiting for the ferry on the Toronto Islands.
and here is one of me and my son Jack
Lot's of memories made!
Bad part - I did not have internet access most of my time away - so disconnected from Spark and my 5% summer challenge team. My spark login streak ended, but another begins today! Other bad part - I was pretty much on everyone else's schedule, which was sleeping in, eating meals off schedule, eating fast food much of the time because there were no other options left in the small town in which we were staying at the time of night we found ourselves eating dinner!
Even worse part. As of today, I found the scale reading 185.6 which is up 6 lbs from where I was on Friday when I left. Hopefully it won't continue it's upward climb over the next couple days and will return back to closer to where I started!
I must admit, I am looking forward to getting back to my schedule of walking and healthy eating! Unfortunately, it isn't going to happen today as far as the walking goes - I have so much laundry to catch up on and bills to pay, mail to read - that I will be spending my evening playing catch up. But tomorrow morning it will be up early and on the treadmill!
Feeling fortunate and blessed to have had a wonderful week away with my family! Grateful for a safe trip, love and laughter, giggling girls, the beauty of the world around us and the opportunities to explore!
So here we go! Day one of another streak!
Tuesday, August 05, 2014
Can you hear the drill sergeant calling it out? Me too. I am marching to the cadence. One foot in front of the other.
I am just not feeling it today. I don't wanna. Maybe I don't wanna because I have had a less than stellar week adhering to my eating/exercise plan. Maybe I don't wanna because I haven't in some areas. Maybe I really am tired and need to slow up a bit. Maybe I am just being a slacker and need to dig deeper. I honestly don't know. I just know that I am NOT feeling it. I also know I am able. I just don't wanna.
However, I am. I am marching. One foot in front of the other. Got 3.5 miles on the treadmill this morning, even though I wanted to stop after one tenth. I talked myself through every one hundred steps. "Just do one hundred more and if you still want to quit Barb, you can." "Quit? Uh, that is not acceptable. You are not a quitter. You have come too far to quit." It worked until I had to quit to get ready for work.
My walking buddies at work encouraged me to walk with them - so I did. I wanted to say no, I'd rather sit in the lunchroom and watch tv - but I did it. I didn't want to.
I ate a healthy lunch. I ate a healthy breakfast. I am on track. I have a healthy dinner planned.
I'd love to say that by just putting one foot in front of the other I found some momentum and motivation - I haven't.
I keep listening to the drill sergeant in my head and going through the motions. Somewhere, somehow while doing this I will find my spark again. I know if I quit - the spark will go out.
I know if I quit that 7 on the scale that became an 8 will become a 9 and then back to 200.
I know that those smaller clothes I am buying will become too small and get shoved back into the corner of my closet only to remind me of my failure.
I know that the good feeling I had a couple weeks ago will not return - what will return is shortness of breath when climbing stairs, the pinching of skin when I bend over to tie my shoes, even more achey knees.
I know when I look in the mirror and normally say "I love you, you rock" I won't believe it.
I know I will never complete my virtual walk to Arizona!
What? That is just not acceptable! I am in the great state of Kansas! 685 miles from home in Michigan where I started on May 1.
And I kinda like being able to tie my shoes and climb stairs. I am grateful my knees don't hurt like they used to (unless I put in a killer workout), I like my new clothes and remember how difficult it was trying to find things to fit! I don't want to see those other numbers on the scale! I want to get out of the obese category and become just plain ol' overweight - and even better - a healthy weight.
So, I keep going one foot in front of the other. Even though I am not feeling it right now - because I know this is the direction I want to go! I know my goal is just not clearly in my sight right now - but I believe it is out there, just around a bend in the road. I am not going to get sidetracked and take some shortcut to nowhere.
There is a poem that they say was found in a concentration camp after WWII - "I believe in the sun, even when it is not shining. I believe in love, even when there's no one there. I believe in God, even when he is silent. I believe through any trial there is always a way."
There is ALWAYS a way! Onward towards my goal. Come on self, get on board! You CAN do this Barb. You WILL do this Barb.
Monday, August 04, 2014
All who wander are not lost...... Isn't that how it goes?
I love to wander. I love to explore. It is one of my passions. Get me off the beaten path! However, when I set a goal and I start to wander, I am in trouble. History tells me I am on my way to getting lost and who knows when I will find my way again!
This girl has been wandering!!! I have somewhat managed to keep my exercise on track, but at times that hasn't been the best. My eating, well, I have been trying to sneak in treats because "I deserve them" or just because I feel lazy, or I just plain tell myself I want something and then obsess on it until I drive myself crazy. Last weekend it was fried fish, some fudge, an ice cream cone - this week it was a killer workout at the Y of which I was so proud - topped off by pizza. Sunday it was takeout Chinese food at 8pm following a day of little exercise.
STOP Barb! You can still see the path from where you are, turn around! Focus on your goal! Do something to move in that direction, before it gets out of sight! I know sometimes life gets in the way and our goals get out of sight through no fault of our own. I know how hard it is to stay focused in those situations - but this is a self made situation!
This morning, I rolled over and hit the snooze. I played with the thought of doing it again and again for a half hour - but instead I dragged my groggy self downstairs to the basement. I turned on some lively tunes and hopped on the treadmill. I walked 4 miles BEFORE getting ready for work.
It's lunch time - I didn't bring a lunch. I could drive through somewhere - but instead I am going for my walk. After that I am going to go to the store deli and get a piece of rotisserie chicken and some fresh fruit.
Focus Barb. Where are you going? How are you going to get there? How are you going to get around those bumps in the road up ahead? What if that doesn't work? What are your alternate plans to get there? What are you WILLING to do???
OK, new day, new week, fresh new piece of paper - you have the box of crayons! Time to get creative!!!
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