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Thankful, yet somewhat lost. Help!

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

3 more for today:

Thankful for hot chocolate on a cold morning.
Thankful for a car that gets me through the snow.
Thankful for a warm house.

I seem to have lost my way. I have been trying real hard to get back to my path, only to give in to those temptations along the way. I am not quitting. I am still trying.

I grew up with a lot of criticism. I heard "you can't do that", or "you will never be able to do that" frequently. Instead of trying, I started encouraging others because I didn't believe in myself. I believed that those people saying "you can't" were right. When I tried and things got tough, I quit and encouraged others to continue on. After a while I didn't even need to hear someone say you can't, I said it to myself. I'm a great cheerleader! However, I struggle being a participant!

I have tried so hard to take the word can't out of my vocabulary! However when the going gets really tough..... I seem to give up. I want to believe I can, but for some reason I just shut down.

I know some of you can relate to this. How do you overcome yourself? How do you begin to believe in yourself?

I feel I am at a crossroads. I have not quit this journey, but I am not moving forward. I feel like I am walking in circles under that sign that holds a whole stack of arrows pointing out various ways to go - just wasting time and energy.

Geesh, this is not where I anticipated being at this point in my journey! However this is where I am.

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LEANNAW4 11/26/2014 9:38AM

    Self-confidence seems elusive to many of us at one time or another (or all the time in some cases!). It's easy to say, "You can do it!" but it's harder to BELIEVE it and act on it. I agree with others that action builds confidence and a good way to do that is to set goals you know you can meet, then build from there. Be kind to yourself and never belittle your own accomplishments, and walk away from others who do. The fact that you wrote about this and have defined the problem will be very helpful in coming to a solution that works for you. And remember, sometimes great discoveries are made off the path, so enjoy the journey!

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SARA-SMILE 11/26/2014 8:25AM

    Sparkfriend, I am also struggling to get back on the path. Since I haven't been able to control my eating, I made myself a promise to exercise everyday, even if it's only 10 min. on those days when I'm not feeling well or don't have time. Take it easy on yourself, you will find your way again, that's how I'm approaching it too. We'll get back on the right track again. emoticon emoticon

Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family! emoticon

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NHES220 11/25/2014 12:37PM

    I never had a lot of confidence growing up. I was the kid in corrective shoes and an overbite that got picked on a lot. I used to make fun of myself so other people were less likely to do it. I was not involved in sports, did not hang out with the cool kids. I worked hard, did well in school and was successful at work. I still get nervous about things, even running races, but I just have to get out there and try. I still get nervous about getting rid of my bigger clothes - will I be able to keep the weight off? But I am determined this time. I think that just keeping going, making healthy choices, seeing the results has helped. I feel better and I feel a sense of accomplishment every time I cross a finish line. I am healthier and stronger. Working out with a trainer has made me more confident working out with weights at the gym. Just keep shoving that voice of doubt back down. You can do this Barb!

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JTREMBATH 11/25/2014 12:37PM

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JEANADOLL77 11/25/2014 11:45AM

    Whenever someone tells me I can't... I try harder and I show them that I can. I found a shirt at Maurice's the other day that basically says, "I can, I will...(on the front) Watch me do it" (On the back). Seems like a fitting shirt for this post. It is my new workout shirt. Set goals that you know you can meet, and then gradually build up to the bigger goals. Keep telling yourself that you will do it! I repeat it to myself every day. Good luck! emoticon emoticon

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3 more things......

Monday, November 24, 2014

I missed the weekend, I am not going to post nine things for the 2 days I missed, but trust me there were at LEAST three things each day!

1. Grateful the snow has pretty much melted.
2. Grateful I didn't have any water leaks from the melting snow!
3. Grateful that when I stop and take a deep breath, common sense usually returns!

This weekend I went to the Santa Parade. I met my youngest granddaughters and son-in-law there. My oldest granddaughter and daughter were walking dogs from the Humane Society in the parade.

I haven't been to a Santa Parade in quite some time. My grandkids never seemed to want to go. It was a crappy, rainy morning --- which made for a bit of a sloppy mess --- but the magic was still there. It was so much fun to see the kids faces light up when Santa appeared.

Later that day I took the girls shopping for presents for the kids whose tags we selected from the Angel Tree. I let each girl pick out what they would want to get for Christmas --- and we bought those items for our "angels". We had lots of fun finding the gifts and now I have a good idea of what to get them too!

Sunday I got up and for the first time in a long time, put in 5 miles on the treadmill. I broke it up into three sessions - but I got 5 miles in!!!!! I also made a big pot of chicken veggie soup for lunches this week (yum), and bought lots of freggies.

I must say this Monday certainly started out better than last week. However, I did not get on my treadmill this morning. I will do that after work.

Still struggling with myself! I know what I need to do. I do it for a few days and then I stop and give in to the cravings. I lose sight of my goal and trade what I REALLY want for that quick feel good. Only to be disappointed in myself for falling for that AGAIN! I know if I can make it through those cravings I will FEEL better, instead of disappointed!

However, this is a tough week. I am holiday shopping with my granddaughters in Chicago on Wednesday. They want to go get deep dish pizza. I am going to do that. I know it is not on my meal plan and will contain two day's worth of calories. I can only hope that all the walking we will be doing will offset a few of those calories.

Then the next day is Thanksgiving. I am cooking this year. I think I can get through the day and be close to my calorie count. I am not a pumpkin pie eater - which is what we are having for desert - so that won't even tempt me. It will be the stuffing and gravy that could lead me astray.

I am going to do my best to stay focused and I am going to get on that treadmill while the turkey is roasting before everyone arrives! My goal is to make it through this weekend and not see more than a 1 lb weight gain.

I know it can be done. I know I CAN do it! Now the key will be TO do it!!!

Glad to be back into the groove and grateful!!!

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NHES220 11/24/2014 12:51PM

    Well aren't you the clever Grandma, have them pick out for the Angel Tree gifts something they would like for themselves! Have a great time in Chicago! I have not been downtown lately, I need to get down there, but the Christmas market is now open. You just cannot beat Chicago pizza! I've been tackling my Christmas shopping mostly online so far. We're not cooking, just bringing wine so we have it pretty easy and I have a 5k that morning. The Naperville Turkey Trot with my 12 year old great niece. Tomorrow we're doing the packet pick-up and dinner.

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Lucky me!

Friday, November 21, 2014

And today I am grateful for:

1. Dental insurance which will cover a part of the implant I am getting.
2. Granddaughters who never cease to bring a smile to my face.
3. Blue skies and sunshine (NO snow today!!!)

Life is good!

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SARA-SMILE 11/22/2014 7:28AM

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SQUIRLY13 11/21/2014 9:56PM

    Hurray for the good things!
Life is good!

(Not looking forward to the forecasted rain, though.)

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COMPCHIC52 11/21/2014 5:29PM


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3 more things

Thursday, November 20, 2014

Today I am grateful for

A car that gets me through this snow.
A son who shoveled my driveway.
Hot soup!

What are you grateful for today?

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COMPCHIC52 11/21/2014 6:26AM

    today that I have my husband and children with me. that there is no great need because its already taken care of. TY Lord

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SARA-SMILE 11/21/2014 5:40AM

    My boys.
Another day to do better.
A warm home on this 28 degrees morning.

I love your list! Stay warm! emoticon

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ERIN_POSCH 11/20/2014 4:27PM

    a DH that snuggles
a DH that gets me when my work day is over
a DH that take wonderful care of my granchildren when I'm not available.

I'm also thankful that they are all the same man =)

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NHES220 11/20/2014 11:45AM

    My healh
My family
A warm place to live!

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CAROL494 11/20/2014 11:18AM


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3 things

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

I am grateful for today...

1. That the snowfall here has been manageable for me! (Shoveling is a good form of exercise!)

2. That I have a warm house during these cold days and nights.

3. Hugs from those who are there during this time of sadness.

Life is good!

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SARA-SMILE 11/21/2014 5:41AM

    Yes, life is good! emoticon

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