Tuesday, July 22, 2014
I've been walking this path a while. Things I know..... this is not easy for anyone. Change, even if we embrace it, requires us to let go of old habits which is not easy. Period. Change requires action.
I remember when I was little my grandma would have this schedule for her chores - Monday was laundry, Tuesday was ironing, ..... every other day was market day. Yep,we walked to the farmers market and the corner grocery store and bought fresh meat for dinner along with whatever other fixings she needed, fresh bread from the bakery and maybe even some sweet treats.
I remember asking her to stop ironing and play a game with me. She would always say, "after lunch, we play". Work came first. She said "get the work done and then you can do whatever you like with the rest of your day". I don't remember her saying "yes, let's play and we will work another day"! I never remember her saying "I'll do it later". I do remember her saying "Tomorrow is never promised".
We always had the afternoons to make a big batch of buttered popcorn and play games. Her house was always clean and organized. It didn't just happen (like I wish it did).
Wow! Things have changed. I don't know too many people who schedule their household chores, who go to the market or grocery store every other day. We are far to busy for that!
Me? This apple fell far from grandma's tree. I am a procrastinator. Later. I will do it later.... maybe.... unless something better comes up (which is ANYTHING)! You see, I work hard and I deserve to rest, I deserve to do what I want and it is not more things I really don't want to do. They can wait.
I wait until I have one last pair of clean socks before I run that laundry, I water the plants when I notice they are wilting, I dust the walls when I spy a cobweb forming! I go to the store when there is no meat in the refrigerator and the milk is gone so I can no longer eat a bowl of cereal for dinner.
Problem? When you do this - those little jobs become monumental tasks! There is a day's worth of laundry not just a couple loads, the plants require trimming away those wilting leaves, not just watering, grocery shopping takes at least an hour of time! There is so much to do, it makes me tired thinking about it and seems impossible. Those little chores become BIG JOBS!
I do the same with myself. Instead of keeping a healthy eating and exercise schedule - I wait. It's just 10 lbs. I know how to lose that. I will do it later. And I wait until I am not just over weight, but obese and those 10 lbs have become 90. When clothes start getting tight, I just squeeze in them and then break down and buy a larger size instead of taking care of the cause of the problem. By the time I make the decision to deal with things, I need a complete overhaul of my eating habits, and exercise is much more difficult because of my size and lack of mobility. I am actually having physical issues because of my weight and procrastination. Yet I procrastinate a bit more - until I have so much weight to lose it seems impossible, climbing a flight of stairs is difficult, sitting on the floor and playing with my grandkids is pretty much impossible. Living life the way I want to live is pretty much impossible and I look in the mirror with disgust. Me, my own best friend, is beginning to hate myself. Ever been there?
Why didn't I do this when I saw that first extra 10 lbs appear on the scale?
Because I (yes, me) am a procrastinator! In all areas of my life!
STOP!!!! NO MORE!!!!
What I am learning? I can - and AM changing.
People who are successful are doers. They take action. So, I am taking action.
I am not a morning person, but I am learning to become one. When I hop on the treadmill in the morning, I look at it not just as mindless walking on the treadmill - but as taking steps in the direction of the person I want to become. Not to mention then when all those things in life I want to do come up, I don't feel guilty doing them because I already have the bulk of my exercise out of the way!
Groceries? I am starting to be like grandma! I run to the farmers market on Saturday and Wednesday. I wash, clean and cut most of what I buy before I put it in the refrigerator - that way it is ready to eat in a hurry. I hit the meat market on Saturday and find myself stopping in during the week if I run out of things. I have been staying away from the supermarket where I am tempted by the chips and processed, easy foods. Sunday when I grill something for dinner, I make extra so I have easy lunches for work.
Laundry? I'm tossing in a load when I get on the treadmill. Stopping after 30 minutes, tossing it in the dryer and when I finish those last 30 minutes - I have a load done! No more Saturday's lost to the mountain of laundry!
Slowly I am learning not to procrastinate. The first thought in my mind is still "later...", but I am quickly shutting down that thought and replacing it with action.
I will never get to where I want to be later if I don't DO something today! On that note, I am going for a walk on my lunch hour before I eat that grilled chicken!
Monday, July 21, 2014
OK this will take a minute to come around to my title.
Saturday I was cleaning out my closet getting rid of some too big clothes. Yippee!!!
In the back hung a garment bag containing a dress I bought to wear to last year's office holiday party. It was a cute dress that was on sale at the end of the year. I snagged the dress - can't resist a bargain! And then I proceeded to gain weight. I took a few pounds off over the summer but gained them and more back by the time of the holiday party. When I thought about going to the party that year, I got the dress out. I put on spanx - and tried on the dress and I couldn't even begin to zip it, let alone wearing it. Waaaaaa!
So back in the closet it went. To tell you the truth I forgot all about it - until Saturday. I was prepared to donate it - never worn, tags and all. However a little voice said - "Try it on first". So I did. AND it fit! In fact it was a little loose in some areas!
That was my NSV on Saturday - because the scale had shown me gaining .2 of a pound for my weekly weigh in for our 5% challenge. I was feeling a bit down because I had worked out really hard, even when I didn't want to. I ate within my calorie limits - the only day I wasn't sure of was Tuesday for our office party - but I estimated my meal and thought I was ok. So the dress fitting made my day because the scale certainly didn't.
I was feeling slim and trim, more fit and considered myself looking good!
Today we had a video conference meeting during lunch hour. I sat at the end of the table, pretty close to the camera. It caught a side view of me. There I was in full color on the large screen tv - filling my face with a turkey sandwich. I looked HUGE!!!!! I wanted to not eat my sandwich - not to mention the thinny chips I thought I deserved! Oh my! Who WAS that woman? Certainly not me! I was a lot thinner and certainly much hotter looking than that yesterday! What happened? It had to be a trick camera!
Yep, that was me. Which goes to show I still have some work to do. It also shows that certain camera angles are not flattering. Guess I needed that because I was starting to feel a bit smug!
So I won't be putting off my walk tonight. I will stay within my calorie limit today even with my granddaughter's birthday cake! I already warned her I was not going to be eating the frosting because it is just too sweet for grandma and isn't healthy for her! She understood and asked if she could have it!
I learned some things. Hard work does pay off (the dress fit). Don't puff up too much or someone/something (the camera) will let the air out! When they do be grateful - because if they didn't I would have exploded being so full of myself! I'm surprised there was room for that turkey sandwich! It's ok to be proud of the work I did and enjoy the feeling of accomplishment, but not to blow it out of proportion in my mind!
There is no destination. The journey continues each day of my life, so I must continue to do make healthy choices each and every day.
Oh, and never, ever sit closest to the camera in a luncheon meeting - leave that spot for someone else!
I hope you all have a great day.
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
Sometimes my head complicates this thing so much.
It is really quite simple. Eat healthy foods in healthy quantities and exercise. To lose weight, calories out or burned must exceed calories in or eaten. I just complicate the crap out of a simple process.
In my heart I want to be healthier. I want to be stronger. Wanting and wishing will get me no where. While it all may begin with a dream and some hope - it all happens with a plan, taking action and sticking with it - even when my silly thoughts say "I don't wanna".
Reality check. I CAN do this - therefore I will!
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
Last Sunday I topped off the day celebrating a friend's birthday. We decided to go to a movie - his choice - which was the Planet of the Apes movie. I must say the smells of the popcorn were soooooo tempting. I thought "mmmmm, movie popcorn, with butter and wash it down with a mountain dew" but then I remembered I had declared Sunday my day of rest with exercise and to slack off on my food choices would make the day feel like a relapse into old habits. So, no popcorn or pop. Pat on the back! Did good!
After the movie we went to a small restaurant which has breakfast all day - breakfast as in banana bread or cinnamon bread French toast with syrup, and other fat laden stuff. They had some salads which I am not a fan of, fish and chips and some other fried food fare, and the old standby burgers. I ordered a burger with a slice of swiss cheese, some fresh mushrooms (not sautéed in butter), and some onion. The burger came with fries. I ate two of them, but I wasn't wowed by them so they stayed on the plate. I also took off the top bun of my burger so figured I didn't do too bad there.
However, Mr Scale showed a bigger number Monday morning. I stayed on track yesterday with my food. I was short on fitbit steps, but did get in a good workout in the morning. In the evening, I took my son shopping for some stuff he needed, came home and dozed off on the couch!
So today there are donuts from a local bakery in the kitchen to celebrate someone's birthday. My favorite - the basic chocolate covered one is still sitting there waiting for me to take it. I have not. I had my power bar and some fresh fruit. I am not going backwards for a silly donut - but they sure look good!
Tonight I have our summery attorney dinner party. I am sure the food will be a bit high in fat but there is usually a beef an fish or chicken portion. I am going to do my best. Downside, it will take most my evening so again I will not get in my steps. It is raining a bit right now so won't be walking on my lunch hour. Hopefully it won't run too late and I will get some treadmill time tonight.
I am staying strong - just for today! I will worry about tomorrow another day! I got this!
Sunday, July 13, 2014
Completed another week of the challenge. This week I have exercised lots! Continued to try to get over 14000 steps per day on my fitbit and tried really hard to increase that veggie intake. I must say I was a bit disappointed when my weightloss was less than 1 lb. However, I am trying to stay focused on long term goals.
Started my day with some of my favorite things, farm fresh eggs scrambled with some fresh mushrooms, a little onion and just a little diced ham, a piece of toast and some farm fresh strawberries, on my back porch with my Sunday newspaper, a local radio show in the background, the birds playing in the birdbath outside and visiting the feeder. No heading downstairs to the treadmill this morning - getting outdoors for my walk today. Not quite as intense a cardio workout but much more enjoyable. Enjoyment is a requirement on my journey!!!
Today is going to be my rest day - and I am planning on cooking ahead so I have some quick things to grab for healthy lunches and on those nights I don't have time to cook a full meal. Grilling up some chicken and cutting it up, also cleaning veggies and having them ready to toss on the grill or stove, cleaning and cutting up pineapple, strawberries and washing the cherries so they are ready to eat. Then off to a nearby town to celebrate a friends birthday. Not sure where he want to go eat, he is picking the restaurant since it is his birthday - but I know I am not going to undo all the hard work I have done this week.
I am hoping maybe Mr Scale will catch up this week!
Yesterday, went to help my friend clean her yard from the tornado. It was amazing to see how much work has been done in that area. Sometimes something bad unites people to work towards a common good. Everyone was out in their yards cleaning up, helping each other. Couldn't help but feel good.
May you all have an awesome day with some serenity and enjoyment! Take a minute and make a gratitude list - and be grateful!
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