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Why oh why?

Sunday, March 13, 2011

I know what I should and shouldnt be eating. I know that with every bite of the donut that I am getting further from my goal and yet I continue to eat it. It tastes so good. I feel so guilty afterwards. Yet I still wonder why I do this. Deep down I keep thinking I will fail or the lifestyle will like so many times before. I thought I was motivated because I want to look better, feel better, be better. Whats holding me back?


A Day of Reckoning

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Like many others I enjoy food and also like many others I turn to food to find comfort, peace, and energy. I know that the chocolate cake I made will comfort my soul from a bad day, it will give me minutes of awe, and will give me a pick me up for breakfast.

Food is a friend and enemy to me. I knew when I joined SparkPeople that I would have to make changes in lifestyle, exercise, and diet but I didnt realize how many little cheats I have until today.

I found myself turning to a reeses peanut butter cup when my daughter was testing my patience. Then again when the puppy peed on the floor. Then again when I got bad family news. Then again when I was bored.

I have a pattern. I may eat a well balanced meal and then shoot it down with the snacking. It wasn't that I was hungry. I had long ago convinced myself that I would feel better if I ate.

That is all going to change. I have taken a picture of myself today as a reminder of what I am trying to make better. I will stop buying the junk food and finding reasons to eat it. I am ready.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

BECCAM3 2/27/2011 10:50AM

    Sometimes little steps get us to the bigger steps. You will do this. emoticon

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KMIRANDA2000 2/26/2011 10:54PM

    Only you can change your course for the better...you can do this!

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