Monday, April 14, 2014
I will admit it: I am over-extended, exhausted, and in dire need of a refill. Going and doing for Mom since September has caught up with me. I realize I need a break, some me time, a vacation. BUT...I can't see it happening.
Mom has 4 children, 8 grandchildren, 8 great-grandchildren and a great-great-grandchild. Or so I was told. Oldest sister is MIA: she's mad that I have come back from Alabama and truly believes that I have "taken over". I just thought I was spending time with and helping Mom. She has the attitude that because I am on disability, I am not working and doing anything and I can do everything for mom. She's retired. I am to the point where I don't even want to talk to her. She just tells me I'm wrong or very obviously just ignores me. I don't want to waste the energy anymore.
Other sister wants to help. She works full time. Brother lives two doors down from mom. He wants to help, but he works, his allergies are acting up, he needs some time for himself... Grandchildren are busy working and trying to take care of their kids.
I don't know what to do anymore. Family meetings have gotten me nowhere. Outside help is too expensive. I want to do for mom. But I know I have to do for me. And my children. And my significant other. How do I do this?