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Slipped disc is back oh joy

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Oh joy of joys my slipped disc has decided to make a come back. All I did was put some laundry in the washing machine and bang my back went.

So I am back to popping pills and a hot water bottle

Plans are changed but still doable. I can cook seated like before, do the laundry by sitting down to get the washing in and out of the machine. DH cannot do it as he cannot bend that far even seated.

Pain is manageable just not much fun.

I can knit and read, do light exercise as that seemed to help last time.

I have been asked to make some dish cloths and knitted face cloths but I have run out of Cotton knitting yarn so that will have to wait until I can get some.

Life will be fun for a while

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L*I*T*A* 11/27/2014 12:24AM

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NASFKAB 11/26/2014 8:38PM

  hope you feel better soon

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Remembering Others

Saturday, November 22, 2014

Thanksgiving and Christmas can be lonely for some people, for various reasons they may not have contact with family or not have any family alive.
It is easy to be caught up in all the preperations for the Holidays and all the rushing around getting in the food and gifts. Making sure no one is forgotten and the extra chairs are found so all can sit at the table.

Yet there are those who do not feel part of the merriment as they have no one or no family to celebrate with.
So what can we do? We cannot take the pain away of being alone but maybe we could do one little thing.
Give something to a Home or the Salvation Army, a small gift with a card wishing someone a Merry Christmas or Happy Thanksgiving. You don't have to know their name just send a signed card with the gift.
It doesn't have to be an expensive gift and it can be hand made, a scarf for example is always a nice gift even nicer if you knitted it for them yourself.

With all the things about WWI and remembering all those in all the wars and conflicts that have made it possible for us to live in freedom it feels even more appropriate to rememeber those who may feel the Holidays are not for them.

So to all my Sparkpeople Friends who may be alone this year or not have contact with family

Thank you for all your love and support you have helped me carry on when I felt like giving up.

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TRUCKERSMRS 11/25/2014 5:15AM

    A really good suggestion.
Throughout the year you are thoughtful and caring for others that have less than we might have or be suffering from the loss of a child. This time of the year continues to bring out your generosity despite your own health issues and separation within your own family.

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L*I*T*A* 11/22/2014 11:13AM

    so true...........
great reminder too.......

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PORTIAWILLIS 11/22/2014 9:33AM

    So true. Another good way to spread the love is visit nursing homes and pick one or 2 people to adopt for the holidays.

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PATRICIA-CR 11/22/2014 9:16AM

    Beautiful emoticon

Happy Holidays!

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KESTRYLL 11/22/2014 9:00AM

    Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!

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NASFKAB 11/22/2014 8:49AM

  great idea Paula giving to someone who has less than you makes both you & them feel good

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RASPBERRY56 11/22/2014 8:47AM

    This has *always* been one of my biggest concerns about holidays - why are they constantly being pushed on those who are alone in society? Sheesh - that's just plain CRUEL!


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GOLFGMA 11/22/2014 8:43AM

    Christmas can be very special for those who know they helped someone else enjoy the day and doing good honors our Lord! emoticon

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Will Power

Monday, November 17, 2014

Willpower is that thing we use to help us when we are tempted to do something that may not be good for us. We all have it and all use it we can be enthusiastic when we start a new project and our willpower is at an all time high. The problem is keeping that willpower going, no one can hold onto that level of enthusiasm we have when we start something new. We can however focus on what we really want.

On one of the teams I am on we have a section on Self Reflection and we have been asked to think about what we want to do for next month.

The question I have asked myself is what do I REALLY want?
I want to be healthier, fitter and slimmer I have wanted this for a long time yet it still eludes me. Why? don't I want it enough? No that is not the reason, part of the reason is that is all I think about. My life revolves around exercise, food and health, I get bogged down with it and think eat and breath it.
So maybe I need to think about what I am missing in my life and what I REALLY want.
We have been asked to consider these questions:

1. If anything were possible, what would you most like to welcome in to your life?
Spirituality and Connecting with Nature.

What might this require of you?
Re-organising my time

2. Is there anything in your life that you are ready to let go of?
Senseless computer games that take up my time. I need to be able to relax but that can be reading, listening to music and being creative like colouring, knitting or making something.

What direction would you move in, and what would be possible, if you did?
I would be able to get back to what I had this would help me in all areas of my life as my focus would be broader.

3. When you're feeling stressed out, overwhelmed, or self-critical, where do you put your attention? What do you give your energy to?
My attention is centred around what has stressed me out and I tend to blame myself. This is destructive as I end up depressed and unable to do what I need to. I tend to comfort eat and that does not help in the long term. My energy is turned inwards and I end up in a Catch 22 situation.

4. When you feel hopeful, inspired, and connected, where do you put your attention?
My attention is centred around my home, family and friends.
What do you give your energy to?
My energy is given to others and to myself as I can see what I want and able to work towards it.

As you look forward in your life, what do you want to give your attention and energy to?

I want to give my energy and attention to my home, family and friends and to others as well.

By doing something I want and have neglected I will be able to see how to do other things. By re-connecting with my spiritual side again all the other things will eventually fall into place.
This may sound a little selfish but by doing this I will be able to care for myself as it will mean I am eating better and caring for my body mind and soul.
By doing that I will be able to care for my home, family, friends and give time to others as well.

This is not a quick fix it will take time and effort but if I REALLY want it I WILL do it.
Connecting with nature and shifting my focus, things like exercise and diet will naturally fall into place as they are part of my spiritual path.

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MORAVIANSTAR 11/18/2014 10:06AM

    Wow, Paula. I feel like I could have written this blog! You have articulated so many of the same things I feel, especially the part about fixating on food, exercise, healthy eating until it is an obsession and I feel helpless. I think I will try some of your questions on myself and see where I come out. The ending reminds me of the flight instructions about the oxygen mask - if you are traveling with a child, put your mask on first, as you can't help them if you can't breathe!

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NASFKAB 11/17/2014 11:04PM

  way to go Paula put it beautifully

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JAWATKINS 11/17/2014 8:38PM

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Hoping you can find your new balance soon And that everything else will fall into place!!

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STEVEN2GO2 11/17/2014 6:15PM

    emoticon This is a lifestyle now for every moment!

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    love it !! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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PORTIAWILLIS 11/17/2014 2:03PM

    Great words to live by. I wrote you a long post but guess it is lost in space. I keep doing that and don't know how. LOL The Main point that I get is that we all say the same thing just in a different way. I think it is important for us to be selfish so we can be better at what matters the most. Hope your day gets better.

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LILYGAL 11/17/2014 12:30PM

    You hit a home run!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon We all just need to sit back and think and stop stressing about what we are going to eat, where are we going to eat and when can I exercise!!!

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Creative + Me Time days

Sunday, November 16, 2014

I have decided to dedicate some time to creativity and having some me time.
First step was change my Spark page, it now reflects not only winter but a bit of fun and of course Knitting.

Next step is to make time to listen to music and read I love both and need to have some time relaxing and just letting go of all the stress.

Being creative is something I love doing so I can concentrate on my knitting and on getting some things made for Christmas.

Next year I taking up an old pastime and it seem childish but I don't care it will be relaxing and fun. Colin is getting me some Adult Colouring books.

Now all I need are colouring pencils.

So Exercise, Healthy eating and Relaxation are on the list, sounds like a plan to me.

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PORTIAWILLIS 11/17/2014 1:56PM

    Well said. Something I am coming to understand as I read these different Blog post, is that all of us say the same thing just in different ways. Each and every post makes me look a little closer at why I feel the way I do. Today I decided to take today just for ME. I am spending the day on Sparkpeople, doing my exercises, getting in touch with me and what I need instead of worrying about the bills, my job, the kids, or the fact that the heating has gone out and the repair man is hear as I type this. So yes we need to be selfish at time. Good Work

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FIT4MEIN2013 11/17/2014 11:12AM

    Your page is so pretty!

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SPEDED2 11/16/2014 7:51PM

    Cheers to all your projects, but I like the coloring the best. I color with my students at every opportunity. It appeals to my inner child and makes her happy!! emoticon

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PATRICIA-CR 11/16/2014 1:06PM

    Paula, it sounds perfect for your overall well being!! emoticon for such nice choices/decisions. Love the idea of coloring!

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NASFKAB 11/16/2014 11:22AM

  so happy for you doing what you love

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WILSONWR 11/16/2014 10:18AM

    Good for you!

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Hammer or Nail?

Friday, November 14, 2014

I have to pick myself back up and stop thinking of what might have been and accept what is.
I have done this before many times but it never gets any easier.

I will not allow things to stop me for long yes life has dealt a blow and my hopes have been dashed.
Am I going to let this define me? No

In my life I have been bullied and abused, pushed around, told what I can or cannot do, made to feel in the way and worthless.
I rose above this and found that I far more capable than I thought.

Yes my son has dealt me a hard blow emotionally and I fell down but I will not stay down.
Today I did some research and found this article.
Going through the Emotions

So I can decide right now to be the nail and be pummeled or be the hammer and make things happen.

That does not mean am I being hard hearted, far from it I am simply not going to dwell on things that I cannot change.

So I am counting my blessings and all the things I am thankful for of which these are just a few.
A Loving Husband who is always there for me.
Friends who really care and do not walk away when things get tough.
A warm comfortable home that is safe.
I am thankful for Sparkpeople as I can come here and find what I need.

The article said :
'When life and your mind are full of troubles, when things seem out of control, you’ve got to take control of what you can'

That is what I am going to do take control of what I can, That means taking control of things and

So I will concentrate on Home, Health and Lifestyle and make the changes I need one small step at a time.

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L*I*T*A* 11/15/2014 11:19AM

    so sorry you are having a difficult time right now........
just know many of us are here for you.......
blessings and hugs...........lita

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WHITNEYTEACHER 11/15/2014 9:04AM

    Paula - Great attitude! It's hard though, I know. Unfortunately it's something we share. I've always felt that time spent worrying about things that are beyond your control to change is wasted time, that doesn't really make it any easier though. I like your Hammer vs. Nail analogy, good luck to both of us keeping it in mind and using it to take control of what is controllable and enjoying the things that are good in your life.

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BECCABOO127 11/15/2014 12:07AM

    emoticon So sorry you are hurting.


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PORTIAWILLIS 11/14/2014 3:21PM

    Paula.I hear your pain and understand it so well. No one can hurt us the way our children can. I have many years of fighting the same emotions you are facing right now and like FITNHEALTHYKAL says no words will help you with what you are feeling right now, but know you are not alone.

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PATRICIA-CR 11/14/2014 2:49PM

    There's a quote that I love:

"I am not what I have done, I am what I have overcome."


Thank you for the excellent article and the wonderful quotes!

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FITNHEALTHYKAL 11/14/2014 1:45PM

    Paula this is an especially difficult time of year to be dealt a blow with regard to family. I am so very sorry. There are no words that can be spoken to help with this pain. While this is your heartache, please know you are surrounded by friends and loved ones who care. emoticon

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NASFKAB 11/14/2014 12:02PM

  way to go glad you are going on

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