Monday, April 14, 2014
Well today was my day off, or at least from work-lol! Larry got me up early & he wanted to go to all the grocery stores. I have never seen a man who loves to shop the way he does! But it made him happy, so that was good. Then I took him for his Ultrasound for the blockage in his Corated Artery & right leg. We got home at 3:30 so now I have time to relax-lol! I managed to fracture my rib again so for the rest of the day I am just staying on the couch. Although I am in pain, it is nice to have time to catch up on my Sparking! The Spring Challenge started & I have lost a pound, well as of today actually 2 but I will wait till Saturday to post it. By walking on my breaks at work I am managing to get at least 4-5 miles in a day so that is good. Except for cleaning house & walking today I am taking a rest day! Also I am leading a Spark Class for April 13-19 members. I have already passed out 100 goodies! So far the class is just over 3200! It is so nice to have so many new members in our community!
Work is going well & I am enjoying it. This week has been rather calm except I had to rush my son Randy to the ER last Thursday night as he had pain in his left arm & his blood pressure was sky high. He has come down with something viral (which yes of course I too have contracted-lol!) & he was diagnosed with hypertension. Between working & going to school & everything going on here, it is no wonder. He is finally starting to feel better today so that is a good thing!
And I do apologize for the early Easter wishes yesterday-lol! I guess with selling all the Easter stuff at work, I somehow got it in my head that yesterday was Easter. Whoops! Oh well better early than late-lol!
I love & miss you all, but know that you are all in my heart. Whenever I start feeling stressed or down about the situation here, I just think of you, knowing you are there for me if I need you & it really works miracles for me. Thank you all for your friendship, & for all your caring & support. I am so blessed to have friends such as you!
Friday, March 28, 2014
I have had every intention of keeping you posted but this week has been an absolute roller coaster. We went to Vanderbilt on Wednesday. Unfortunately the DR was unable to read the discs from the latest EKG's, etc but she gave us a lot of supportive advice & pretty much reiterated every thing I have been trying to tell Larry. Basically, that he needs to be more pro active in his health care, rather than put it all on me. She made me me feel reassured that I have a good sense of what to do & that working is OK. That is what the Life Vest is for-his guardian angel-lol! She actually is more concerned with his mental state than any thing else, so she has put him on an anti-depressant. No he has not physically hurt me, but he has been very emotionally abusive. I know he does not mean it & I try to let it roll off my back but sometimes I feel like I just cannot handle it. Between the stress of him & taking on a new job I am more than overwhelmed. At sometime in the wee hours this morning his monitor went off & at first I could not rouse Larry & it put me in a panic but he woke up & pressed the buttons. So needless to say I did not get much sleep again. Although we are getting Larry stable for now, my own health is taking a hit. I too have heart problems & although I have not had much of a problem over the years (well if you remember they did have me on a heart monitor last year), the last few days have taken their toll. Today I got off work at 2 & felt fine until I sat down in the car. Suddenly I just felt like all the life had been drained out of me. I went to the grocery store & came home, tried to lay down but I can not get my body to relax enough. My Essential Tremor kicked in & my legs would not stop jumping so I had to get up. Today I even tried to play my beloved Guitar Hero. I had 30 minutes of total bliss. Got my rock on-lol! But my heart just kept feeling like it was about to just out of my chest so I took my blood pressure & got scared. Where I normally run low, this time it was not. It was 164/84. Larry said I should go to the ER but I know from previous experience all they will do is agree & suggest I follow up with my DR on Monday, which is of course what I plan on doing. The monitor even picked up my irregular heartbeat. I am hoping it is just lack of sleep that is the main cause so I am off to bed as soon as I am done with this. But I just wanted to keep you all informed. Work is going well. They apparently have more confidence in me than I do myself as tomorrow I am opening all by myself. It is hard to believe that I managed a big chain music store but I now have such low confidence I am scared & nervous. Oh another plus on Larry's side-I got him on the treadmill for 5 minutes yesterday!
Thanks for letting me vent. When I was asked if I have a support system in place, I said yes. It is not through my family as none of them are even bothering to return my calls or emails, but from all of you my dear Spark Friends! I honestly pray to God every day that he has brought you into my life. I love & cherish each & every one of you!
Sunday, March 23, 2014
Yesterday I took Larry for his blood work & another EKG. We see the Cardiologist in the morning for the results & I will keep you posted. His coughing has increased again & he was up a lot last night, sleeping in an upright position, so needless to say, I was on alert all night. Sometimes I feel he is not taking this seriously enough but I am staying on him as much as possible. I like my job at Walgreen's & my manager says if I want to work full time, that is not a problem. They are all great to work with & my manager has been more than accommodating with my schedule. I can not tell you how long it has been since I have worked a minimum wage job, but at least it is something & I enjoy it. I got brownie points the other day for alerting them to a shop lifter. After managing a music store for 5 years, I definitely know when something is amiss. I like being able to be around other people which I have not been able to do for a very long time. I got the SSI office squared away finally. A little upset as I have been robbed of disability for the last 9 years but at this point I am not even going to worry about that. I am just so thankful that I have you all for support as my own family has bailed on me. I cannot thank you enough for all your kind words, encouragement & prayers. I am so overwhelmed having so much to do that when I think of you, it gives me the strength to keep pushing forward.
Love & Hugs to you all!
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