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Trying to climb back on the WAGON!!

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

I have been away from keeping food entries, journal entries, walking, EVERYTHING has turned upside down since I have had the boys. I wouldn't change it for anything, I love having them here. I now have a purpose I never knew that I would have again.
I was watching a movie this morning, has language in it that I hate (why do filmmakers feel the "F" word is so important in movies), but it was a great love story. At the very end, the girl says to the guy "You love me? OK". It was tough to watch, and hurt my heart at the same time that it was a happy ending for them. And it occurred to me that I have been using food as a substitute for love. And unless I make a daily concerted effort to change that, it will not change. Not on its own. It is my decision, my choice, my challenge. I must make an effort, a commitment, try my hardest. It won't happen by itself. I have to make it work. And with God's help, I can do it. As I keep all of you, my Spark friends, in my prayers for success, please keep me in your prayers for success too. Hugs to all.

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PEZMOM1 10/31/2014 5:57PM

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    Cathy I just saw this....I don't get notifications re blogs except on the friend feed and this was during our drive here when I was off line. Hope you see my late response. I got the e-mail but late in getting that too. REALLY miss you!! I can sure understand everything being upside down but how great is that to have such a renewed energy for purpose now. The love of a child is like nothing else...they are so innocent and just love us so completely and without judgement. Romantic love can come and go but you will have these dear children's love forever. When they grow older they may express it differently but it will still be there. Would love to meet up with you when things simmer down here. Next year at some point that would be so great. I am hoping and praying I will motivate myself to keep getting outside more like I've been doing since we got here. I really want to meet my goals also. We can and will continue to make choices that support our goals instead of conflict with our goals. Take care and stay strong- be weak in the arms of Jesus you know He will hold you close. XXXOOO. HUGS. ~Sandi emoticon

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GR8TAWK 9/25/2014 5:48PM

    As you said, with God's help you can do it. emoticon emoticon

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NHES220 9/25/2014 2:02PM

    Those boys are lucky to have you in their life to look after them and to have this stability. You will do right by them, but don't forget to take care of yourself so that you can take care of them!

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1CRAZYDOG 9/24/2014 4:56PM

    Kids sure do upend a routine, bt it's worth it!

Wishing you much luck. YOu have lots on your plate!


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MSHEL7 9/24/2014 4:45PM

    One of those emoticon moments. I love those, they really are growth. You can do this, sounds like you have renewed strength too!

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Darn wasps!

Friday, August 22, 2014

Living in a log cabin in a national forest, I have had a plethora of assorted insects to pester me. Lately, it has been wasps. I had them last year, but this year it is even worse. Every time we open and close the gate, it disturbs wasps that are hiding somewhere. Yesterday, one stung me on my calf, and also stung my 6 year old grandson twice. I sprayed the heck out of the nest I could find, but I just saw one near that area again emoticon

At any rate, by 9ish last night, it was the size of a salad plate and itchy. When I got up this morning, I had hives (and still do here and there). So I guess I am allergic to wasp stings. Was supposed to go to a weekend women's retreat at my church starting tonight, but the benedryl is keeping me so groggy, I am afraid to drive and also afraid I might fall asleep. So I'm not going. Sigh. I hope you have a good weekend, my friends. Keep away from those wasp nests lol!

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    Oh so sorry to hear this! Too bad you have to miss the retreat. Old-fashioned calamine lotion might help with the itching- but if you're not driving there's no way to get it right now. Take care and HUGS.

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LINTPICKER 8/24/2014 5:29AM

    Yikes! You need to be very careful if you have that kind of reaction to the stings! I hope you are able to get them away from your walkway soon!

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1CRAZYDOG 8/22/2014 8:27PM

    OH my! So sorry that happened to you and your grandson.

Hope you feel better.

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MSHEL7 8/22/2014 3:50PM

    Those wasps are really mean, hope you feel better soon. Our DS2 is allergic and they told us that Claritin/Allegra or something that is 24 hour is better than the benedryl since you don't have to take it as often and you are a little clearer headed. Good luck with it. Sorry you will miss the retreat, that's too bad.

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Those were the days my friends

Thursday, August 21, 2014

Well, I cannot believe I have not logged my food intake for so long nor blogged since July 11th. I miss all of my Spark friends. I will try to stop in to your page sometime in the next few days (those I interact with on a regular basis) and see how you are doing. I am praying for all of you for strength to succeed and just that life is treating you all well in general.

The turmoil in my life these past couple of months has subsided and we are now getting down to a new routine. My son moved out to get his own apartment. My granddaughter has now moved down to Texas to be with one of my other daughters, so now it is just me, the dogs, and the two boys. My stress level has dropped TREMENDOUSLY now that it is just the three of us, but my grocery bill has skyrocketed. Who knew that two little boys, 6 and 8, could cost so much to feed. I need to be stricter about a budget. I enjoy having them so much, I truly feel like I have a purpose in life again. They are so sweet. Here is a photo of them I took their first day of school, which was August 6th.
I was hoping to move into a bigger house closer into town, but that isn't going to happen right now... because of the economy there are so many houses on the market that it would be difficult to sell this one unless I want to lose a lot of money. Which I don't. At any rate, I am now looking at converting part of my porch into a second bathroom off of my bedroom, then converting the second (downstairs) deck into a storage room. I also want to extend the deck under the house to make a second room that will be my photography studio. It will cost some money, but cheaper than trying to sell and move.
Because of the stress of having four additional people in my house, I put back on 7 pounds. Back up to 165 from 158. Now that school has started, I need to start walking the dogs again. I need to do something to get back on track!!
I notice, because we had a week of cooler weather already, that some of the trees, especially the dogwoods, think that it is fall already and have started changing colors. Looks like our fall will be early, which means our winter will be too. Ugh, hope it isn't a long, cold winter!
Blessings to all. Hope you have a wonderful upcoming weekend!

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NHES220 9/25/2014 2:05PM

    Wow, they are adorable!

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LINTPICKER 8/21/2014 9:08PM

    What a blessing those two boys are!! I am glad things are settling a little for you and glad you are back!

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MSHEL7 8/21/2014 5:59PM

    Such cute boys, I'm so glad that they have you. Sounds like some busy times.

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    Cathy it's so good to hear from you!! I think of you often~ you are missed. So glad things have simmered down a bit. The boys are adorable! They almost look like twins. You've done well on the weight front really- it could be much worse with all that's gone on for you. We are going through some changes too and I got right back up there in a blink of the eye- never had lost much so it's those same few lbs. I always feel that since I'm trying so hard at least I don't balloon up even further over my highest. I'm with you on getting into the exercise consistently- we can do it! Take care and keep us updated when you can. emoticon Thanks for your prayers. emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 8/21/2014 2:47PM

    Wow! Lots of changes continuing to happen in your life! But with the boys in school the daytime hrs. should be less hectic.

HUGS Glad your still breathing!

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DONNABRIGHT 8/21/2014 2:10PM

    Good to hear you are OK and they are handsome boys - beautiful smiles!

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DAY 192 of 2014: I'm still here!

Friday, July 11, 2014

I am missing my Spark friend interaction. I have been so busy with the kids, and now my son has moved in too, and just no time at all for getting on or even keeping track of my food. I am leaving for a week vacation at the beach in the morning with the kids in tow. My daughter Leslie is coming into town from Saudi Arabia with her friend and then we are heading down to Panama City Beach. Oh, and if you recall I was concerned I might have been scammed by someone... and come to find out, yes, I was scammed out of $580 by someone as a downpayment on a non-existent condo. Sigh. I have to just move forward. I did report it to the police and they are investigating it. Will be back from the beach on the 19th. Then the kids mother will come to visit on the 23rd for the oldest one's birthday for 4 days. She is taking only the 2 yr old with her to the motel she is staying in (the boys will be so sad), but it will give me a much needed break. Then August 3rd, she is returning to pick up the two year old and deliver her to my oldest daughter's house and she will be staying there until ??? My oldest daughter has a 4 year old and also a 2 yr old, soon to be 3, one week older than the girl I have, so it will be a better situation for the little girl and for me. I just can't handle the stress of a 2 year old 24/7 more than a week at my age. lol. Anyway, hope all of you are well. Continue to keep me in my prayers for continued patience and for things to work my way. Will try to get on and let you know how my beach trip is going, if not, will talk with you next week.

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    How have you been? Miss your daily updates.

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    Glad I checked in on you today! I have my friend feed turned off for another week until our house is listed. I come on when I can and catch up with what I can here. SO glad you're able to get away for a beach vacation and sounds like there will be some family help with the kids. That condo scam is just terrible- hope the police actually do something about it and not just shrug! Seems like so many scam artists just continue on their merry way. So good to see you here today. Hope you'll keep us posted as you're able. Miss you! HUGS.

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PEZMOM1 7/11/2014 6:12PM

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DONNABRIGHT 7/11/2014 3:23PM

    Panama beaches are awesome - I hope you all have a great time. It is good to hear from you. We'll be gone from the 15th through about the 25th - going to meet our daughter and grand daughter at Niagara Falls.

Maybe we can get together when school starts and you don't feel so stressful, I don't know how you are managing with a two year old at all. Way more than I could do at this point in my life.

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NHES220 7/11/2014 2:56PM

    So sorry you were scammed. There are some lousy people in the world. I hope you enjoy your week and then your break from the 2 year old!

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1CRAZYDOG 7/11/2014 2:41PM

    Well, I hope you enjoy your break. You need it! I would too!!!

That is despicable that you were scammed for that condo money. I hope the police can help you get the $$$ back. **SIGH**

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MSHEL7 7/11/2014 2:14PM

    Have a nice trip. We've been missing you too!!

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DAY 185 of 2014: Half way through the year

Friday, July 04, 2014

I just realized that half way through the year is 183 days, and I missed that fact. But I have not missed the fact that I have not accomplished one single step towards my weight loss or exercise goal this year. You cannot imagine how depressed that has made me. I lost half of the weight I wanted to, and then the holidays came and the winter and I have become a failure to the rest of my weight loss. Not giving up though. Even though I have gained 5 pounds since the kids have been here, I will NOT gain any more. I made good decisions for lunch and had rotisserie chicken and a spinach salad today, and will have mostly broccoli and a little bit of steak and potatoes for dinner, and will keep my calorie intake to 1200 calories. I did walk a little ways with the dogs today, which is better than nothing with the dogs. I wish I could get up early, like at 5:30 or 6 am and walk them, but because the 2 yr old is sleeping in the bed with me, I can't set an alarm without waking her up. And if she wakes up it will be impossible to walk with her and two Jack Russell terriers in the mountainous terrain. After lunch, when she takes her nap, it's too warm to walk. Things will change though and I will be able to walk once we move or once she leaves in August, whichever comes first. I just need to control my eating better in the mean time.

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MSHEL7 7/7/2014 8:51PM

    I totally agree with NHES, you're doing great!!

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DONNABRIGHT 7/5/2014 5:26PM

    Good plan!


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NHES220 7/5/2014 3:09PM

    You have had a huge life change recently and the fact that you have not spiralled out of control is a big accomplishment. You will get a handle on it - I know you will.

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LINTPICKER 7/5/2014 8:47AM

    I have been on spark for 4 years. In that time I have lost and kept off only 30 pounds. But, I stay on because it makes me think about eating healthier and exercising. Believe me, the weight wants to stay put. It is a very difficult battle, especially with stress in your life! And I believe you have some stress right now. Our prayers are with you.

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AVANELL 7/5/2014 8:41AM

    Keep making those healthy choices in your eating habits and you will see lifestyle changes, not just the results of dieting. Healthy living is more than a diet.

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THRIVE2DAY 7/5/2014 6:39AM

    NEVER call yourself a failure! You are especially made and blessed by God Almighty! You are a Princess of the King! NEVER forget that! Your resolve to do better is 90% of the battle. Believing in God's continued help to make it happen! emoticon

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    You've done well to keep most of the weight off! That's a great accomplishment. Sounds like things will be simmering down a bit and become more manageable. If you don't see me here for awhile I'm going to be mostly off the computer for two weeks but I'll catch up with you when I can during that two weeks, and afterwards for sure. Life brings many twists and turns doesn't it. Take care and I'll be thinking of you and yours. emoticon emoticon Take care.

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1CRAZYDOG 7/4/2014 4:51PM

    HUGS -- Hang in there. It's tough!

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