Wednesday, September 24, 2014
I have been away from keeping food entries, journal entries, walking, EVERYTHING has turned upside down since I have had the boys. I wouldn't change it for anything, I love having them here. I now have a purpose I never knew that I would have again.
I was watching a movie this morning, has language in it that I hate (why do filmmakers feel the "F" word is so important in movies), but it was a great love story. At the very end, the girl says to the guy "You love me? OK". It was tough to watch, and hurt my heart at the same time that it was a happy ending for them. And it occurred to me that I have been using food as a substitute for love. And unless I make a daily concerted effort to change that, it will not change. Not on its own. It is my decision, my choice, my challenge. I must make an effort, a commitment, try my hardest. It won't happen by itself. I have to make it work. And with God's help, I can do it. As I keep all of you, my Spark friends, in my prayers for success, please keep me in your prayers for success too. Hugs to all.
Friday, August 22, 2014
Living in a log cabin in a national forest, I have had a plethora of assorted insects to pester me. Lately, it has been wasps. I had them last year, but this year it is even worse. Every time we open and close the gate, it disturbs wasps that are hiding somewhere. Yesterday, one stung me on my calf, and also stung my 6 year old grandson twice. I sprayed the heck out of the nest I could find, but I just saw one near that area again
At any rate, by 9ish last night, it was the size of a salad plate and itchy. When I got up this morning, I had hives (and still do here and there). So I guess I am allergic to wasp stings. Was supposed to go to a weekend women's retreat at my church starting tonight, but the benedryl is keeping me so groggy, I am afraid to drive and also afraid I might fall asleep. So I'm not going. Sigh. I hope you have a good weekend, my friends. Keep away from those wasp nests lol!
Thursday, August 21, 2014
Well, I cannot believe I have not logged my food intake for so long nor blogged since July 11th. I miss all of my Spark friends. I will try to stop in to your page sometime in the next few days (those I interact with on a regular basis) and see how you are doing. I am praying for all of you for strength to succeed and just that life is treating you all well in general.
The turmoil in my life these past couple of months has subsided and we are now getting down to a new routine. My son moved out to get his own apartment. My granddaughter has now moved down to Texas to be with one of my other daughters, so now it is just me, the dogs, and the two boys. My stress level has dropped TREMENDOUSLY now that it is just the three of us, but my grocery bill has skyrocketed. Who knew that two little boys, 6 and 8, could cost so much to feed. I need to be stricter about a budget. I enjoy having them so much, I truly feel like I have a purpose in life again. They are so sweet. Here is a photo of them I took their first day of school, which was August 6th.
I was hoping to move into a bigger house closer into town, but that isn't going to happen right now... because of the economy there are so many houses on the market that it would be difficult to sell this one unless I want to lose a lot of money. Which I don't. At any rate, I am now looking at converting part of my porch into a second bathroom off of my bedroom, then converting the second (downstairs) deck into a storage room. I also want to extend the deck under the house to make a second room that will be my photography studio. It will cost some money, but cheaper than trying to sell and move.
Because of the stress of having four additional people in my house, I put back on 7 pounds. Back up to 165 from 158. Now that school has started, I need to start walking the dogs again. I need to do something to get back on track!!
I notice, because we had a week of cooler weather already, that some of the trees, especially the dogwoods, think that it is fall already and have started changing colors. Looks like our fall will be early, which means our winter will be too. Ugh, hope it isn't a long, cold winter!
Blessings to all. Hope you have a wonderful upcoming weekend!
Friday, July 11, 2014
I am missing my Spark friend interaction. I have been so busy with the kids, and now my son has moved in too, and just no time at all for getting on or even keeping track of my food. I am leaving for a week vacation at the beach in the morning with the kids in tow. My daughter Leslie is coming into town from Saudi Arabia with her friend and then we are heading down to Panama City Beach. Oh, and if you recall I was concerned I might have been scammed by someone... and come to find out, yes, I was scammed out of $580 by someone as a downpayment on a non-existent condo. Sigh. I have to just move forward. I did report it to the police and they are investigating it. Will be back from the beach on the 19th. Then the kids mother will come to visit on the 23rd for the oldest one's birthday for 4 days. She is taking only the 2 yr old with her to the motel she is staying in (the boys will be so sad), but it will give me a much needed break. Then August 3rd, she is returning to pick up the two year old and deliver her to my oldest daughter's house and she will be staying there until ??? My oldest daughter has a 4 year old and also a 2 yr old, soon to be 3, one week older than the girl I have, so it will be a better situation for the little girl and for me. I just can't handle the stress of a 2 year old 24/7 more than a week at my age. lol. Anyway, hope all of you are well. Continue to keep me in my prayers for continued patience and for things to work my way. Will try to get on and let you know how my beach trip is going, if not, will talk with you next week.
Friday, July 04, 2014
I just realized that half way through the year is 183 days, and I missed that fact. But I have not missed the fact that I have not accomplished one single step towards my weight loss or exercise goal this year. You cannot imagine how depressed that has made me. I lost half of the weight I wanted to, and then the holidays came and the winter and I have become a failure to the rest of my weight loss. Not giving up though. Even though I have gained 5 pounds since the kids have been here, I will NOT gain any more. I made good decisions for lunch and had rotisserie chicken and a spinach salad today, and will have mostly broccoli and a little bit of steak and potatoes for dinner, and will keep my calorie intake to 1200 calories. I did walk a little ways with the dogs today, which is better than nothing with the dogs. I wish I could get up early, like at 5:30 or 6 am and walk them, but because the 2 yr old is sleeping in the bed with me, I can't set an alarm without waking her up. And if she wakes up it will be impossible to walk with her and two Jack Russell terriers in the mountainous terrain. After lunch, when she takes her nap, it's too warm to walk. Things will change though and I will be able to walk once we move or once she leaves in August, whichever comes first. I just need to control my eating better in the mean time.
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