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Wednesday

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Another good day at work. After work DD and I stopped at Kroger to pick up my Rx, then on to gas station for fill-up. It is nice to have no decisions, bills or errands left today. That can change hourly, so I love it when I can just relax.

I have eaten very healthy today. I had cheerios protein and 1/2% milk at four a.m. At 9:45(my break) I had mozzarella stick, an apple and a carbmaster yogurt.
I just ate a small bowl of my homemade chicken noodle sou. the rest is frozen for a lazier day than today.

I plan on salad and a bowl of radishes and leftover smothered sirloin steak patties for dinner. Guzzling my water too.


  
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CATTUTT 10/22/2014 9:46PM

    Glad to hear you had a nice, relaxing day!

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ACRAIG921 10/22/2014 9:22PM

    Glad you had a good day! emoticon

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GABY1948 10/22/2014 7:21PM

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Enjoy your time...and pain free pain at that! Hope your weather was as warm as ours today!

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TINA8605 10/22/2014 6:29PM

  Good job!!

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JUDITH316 10/22/2014 5:03PM

    You are doing emoticon keep up the great work... emoticon

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IMUSTLOSEIT1 10/22/2014 4:21PM

    Sounds good to me.

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KRYSSCOTT 10/22/2014 3:00PM

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Sounds like you are doing excellent! Enjoy that much needed break, relax and take in a show, read a book, or whatever it is that makes you the happiest!



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Tuesday

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

I just called mom's facility and informed them of my decision. I am also glad that I DID call MIchelle. I know I will sleep better tonight but will wait until this weekend to see mom.

had a fairly good day at work; I spoke to my boss and explained that mom is advancing in her disease. I emailed the boss when I found out about the kidney failure in the summer months. She replied. Today I told her my decision, that the failure has advanced quickly and it will be touch and go, probably six-nine months. She said she totally understands and whenever I need to call work to go to mom, I just pick up the phone. We are supposed to call in a minimum of two hours before our work time, but she said I could call at any time..
Another load off my mind.
I sent a blanket email to friends and family that are online to inform them.
I need to call those who do not use a PC.

Right now I settle in with the three checkbooks and pay bills.. I have been procrastinating it for a week.. time to pay the piper..

  
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JUDITH316 10/22/2014 5:05PM

    You have a lot going on in your life, I'm so sorry about your Mom, my prayers are with her and with you my friend... emoticon

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GABY1948 10/22/2014 3:21AM

    You are getting business done! Good for you! So glad you finally have the relief that comes with a decision like that!

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TRUCKERSMRS 10/22/2014 3:18AM

    Your boss sounds a lovely person and it is good that you do not have to worry about work when you least need to.
Wishing you, your family and your mother peace in her final months with you all.
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FLEMIDG 10/22/2014 12:58AM

    Sorry to hear of all you're going through. Glad your boss is so understanding. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

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SINGINGLADY47 10/21/2014 10:38PM

    You are in my prayers. Hugs, Judy

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TINA8605 10/21/2014 9:59PM

  I'm happy you have such a supportive boss. Good luck with your mom.

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CATTUTT 10/21/2014 8:57PM

    I'm so glad you have an understanding boss, I"m sure that is a huge weight lifted off!

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ACRAIG921 10/21/2014 8:15PM

    I'm so glad your boss is so understanding. That is a huge burden off your shoulders. Now you can focus on your mom. emoticon

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KRYSSCOTT 10/21/2014 7:42PM

    Your boss sounds very understanding. I am glad that you have such a good relationship with those you work for that they will make concessions so that you can deal with your current family situation.

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Hang in there pal.

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MTN_KITTEN 10/21/2014 5:35PM

    You will handle what ever comes your way. I am thinking of you.

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IMUSTLOSEIT1 10/21/2014 3:40PM

    Glad you have an understanding boss, that help a lot.

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Monday

Monday, October 20, 2014

tried calling Michelle, my sister, but she is not home yet again. I left a message to call me back..It is ultimately my decision for mom, but even though sister is just waiting around for mom to die so she can collect any $$ that is left, I will ask her so there will be no later repercussions.

I just finished making some homemade chicken noodle soup with sliders. It is very different from the family soup that I have grown up with, but it is much better and healthier. No fat, but one thing that is odd is milk..It calls for heavy cream, but I use 1/2% milk. I do not put the sherry or flour and butter in it, I use just plain corn starch and water to thicken it slightly. Very different, but is a definite stick-to-your -ribs meal.

It is raining today, on and off, dark, dismal as usual.. My red maple tree has turned from red to purple to green and yellow!! I never saw that happen before. Usually all of the leaves are off by now, but not even a quarter of them are down. Very strange autumn.


I am headed off to pay some more bills and freeze some of that yummy soup for a rainier day than today.
I just talked to my sister and she agrees with me. Comfort measures only for mom. I feel a weight lifted off me..

  
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KRYSSCOTT 10/21/2014 7:34PM

    I am so happy that you got to speak to your sister. I was afraid that you were going to make yourself a bit crazy before you had the opportunity. Now you can take that deep breath, free your conscious and enjoy that beautiful maple tree.

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NELLIEH1 10/21/2014 5:55AM

    your red maple tree sounds lovely. do you have a picture? hope all works out with you mom

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CATTUTT 10/20/2014 9:32PM

    That soup sounds delicious!

And I'm glad to hear you talked to your sister and you are both in agreement. I hope that has given you additional peace.

Hope you're having a great night!

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GABY1948 10/20/2014 5:58PM

    So glad you are both in agreement...no matter what the circumstances it helps to be on the same page.

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MOM2ACAT 10/20/2014 4:24PM

    I'm glad you are feeling some of the weight lifted off your shoulders as far as your mom is concerned.

That soup sound very good!

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IMUSTLOSEIT1 10/20/2014 2:37PM

    To bad that your sister is not answering her phone, I know it weigh heavy on you, but don't feel guilty if you must make that decision with out her input. I love chicken soup. I am roasting a whole chicken right now in the oven to have left overs to make soup. I can eat soup all year around, it doesn't matter what type, will eat them all. Hubby, not so much into soup, he's a meat, and potato guy, he would rather eat of a plate not a bowl. emoticon just pretend this is soup, can't believe they don't have soup in the emotions.

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Sunday

Sunday, October 19, 2014

Did not get to talk to sister yesterday. I took a whole Tramadol Friday night and after doing stuff early on, I fell asleep in my chair for almost four hours. IT was dark all day, no sunlight, sister then was not home. Today I will call her.
I just turned the furnace on. I got up, tested my blood sugar,,123, fairly good. ... put a load of laundry in the washer, showered, took my meds,dressed, walked out to the mailbox for the paper, clipped and organized coupons, made a grocery list and got a bowl of my granola cereal.

Seven in the morning and I still have so much to do. The house was so cold when I woke up, my nose was frozen!! I just turned the furnace up to 60.It is 58 in here.. I just want to get the chill out.It is supposed to be 53 degrees and partly sunny today..maybe a hike at the marsh,park. We will see...

  
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KRYSSCOTT 10/21/2014 7:24PM

    Well, you accomplished a lot. I'm sorry you did not get to talk to your sister though it would ease your mind to know her thoughts are in line with your own.



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JUDITH316 10/20/2014 2:33AM

    WOW, you have been busy and have accomplished much, I too keep my place cool, when my friends are here they comment about my place being on the cooler side, they always come with heavy sweaters in the cooler months, it always makes me chuckle as I love to have a place that is cooler, I don't like too warm, especially for sleeping... emoticon

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MOM2ACAT 10/19/2014 5:24PM

    I keep my furnace set at 60 during the overnight hours; I sleep better in a cooler room, even in the winter. I got up around 8:30am and it was 28F at that time. Lost one of my hanging baskets outside to the frost.

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CATTUTT 10/19/2014 2:23PM

    Busy bee! And wow, your house is cold, even by my standards. We keep ours at 67 year round, but 60... well, I'd love it, and dh would move out. lol

HOpe you're having a great Sunday afternoon!

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IMUSTLOSEIT1 10/19/2014 10:50AM

    Just a little busy bee. So far this morning have fed all the animals, made my blog, and help hubby put away bean head in machine shed, now bad on here to finish up. Linda

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FREDSEVOLUTION 10/19/2014 10:25AM

    Hey Linda,

You are a busy bee :) Good to be active. Hope your day is a good one. care It was 68 degrees in our house yesterday morning and I was sayin' that it was chilly...Ha Take and be good to yourself.

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AUNTRENEE 10/19/2014 9:55AM

    Hopefully you have a great day.

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GABY1948 10/19/2014 7:36AM

    Whatever you do, I hope it is GOOD! Have a great week!

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SANDICANE 10/19/2014 7:34AM

    You turned your furnace up to 60? Good grief, at 60 it's time for me to put on my winter coat/had/scarf/gloves!!!

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Saturday

Saturday, October 18, 2014

As to yesterdays' blog, I prayed and thought long and hard about mom's situation and mine. She does not want her life disrupted, she refuses half the things they try to do for her to relieve pain form old age things. She said she is ready to die, does not want to be hooked up to machines and spend her life like that.
Without the dialysis, she will live like she has been until she starts to sleep more, then goes to sleep and does not wake up. Comfort measures, routine and dignity.

I was not comparing the suicide thing with mom, I used it as a tool to click in my brain that when I prayed for guidance, He would show me His intent.
their lives and deaths are like apples and noodles. Britney is married, refused to have children because they would be motherless when she dies. Aren't ALL people motherless when their mom dies? Her hubby supports her in voice; in his heart I do not know. They got married last year sometime.

I have talked for hours with certain people regarding this issue, will call my sister today for her input.

Mom refused all measures for my Dad when he was dying, after the hospital staff and I, showed her the consequences . She agreed that it was no way to EXIST. She is now in the same boat and I will do my human best to bide by her wishes. I was awake all night, thinking and praying about it.
It is 4 a.m. ,, later today I am going to take her a nice green oxygen spewing plant for her new private room...

  
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KRYSSCOTT 10/21/2014 7:19PM

    I think that no one is in a better position then you are to decide what your mother wants. It is such a hard decision to make between your heart and your head but I know you'll be a peace with your decision because it is in line with your faith.

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NELLIEH1 10/18/2014 5:19PM

    Our mother was able to decide with us siblings that she wanted to stop all treatment and just relax, not having to go here and there. It still was not easy to help her make that choice..so am praying you and your sibs are all settled on this together.

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MOM2ACAT 10/18/2014 4:26PM

    emoticon My prayers are with you.

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MTN_KITTEN 10/18/2014 2:25PM

    My thoughts are with you and your family.

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CATTUTT 10/18/2014 12:46PM

    What a tough decision to make. I hope your prayers help put your mind at ease.

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SURVIVOR61 10/18/2014 11:48AM

    I am glad that you are taking a little more time to pray about your mothers situation, Linda. Please do consider your sisters opinion as well. I only want the best for you. You see I also had to bury my younger brother at 27 years of age, he too suffer from a brain injury. I am good with God on my decisions and I want you to be as well. But for my other siblings 2 of whom have turned to drinking because they wanted no part of the decision making. They have regrets leaving everything up to me. There is nothing that I can do to help them, they have to come to terms with their own decisions and settle with God. I know I did and I am good.
God Bless you and your family. You will be in my prayers as will your mother.
Love Always sister and God be with you at this time, may he comfort and care for you and mom
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AUNTRENEE 10/18/2014 8:59AM

    I know the feeling with mom. It is hard to go through. Night were hard because I thought that the phone might ring and they would tell us she passed away. It does get better as time goes by. They are in a better place when they leave us.

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GABY1948 10/18/2014 8:20AM

    God Bless you, Lin...now and in the future with your decision and I KNOW He will!

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2BDYNAMIC 10/18/2014 5:47AM

    Bless you .......... awake all night praying and pondering. How very difficult a situation ............. and so thoughtful you are doing your best to abide by her will ........... Lovely idea ........... the green plant. emoticon

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