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Blog #1 New Beginnings to stop sweets

Wednesday, May 07, 2014

For the stop your sweet craving team, you need to write 3 blogs a week, Here is my first one.

How will I emoticon eating at night emoticon

Going to try some new things, tonight is the first try, I am in the experimental stages.

Changes during the day include adding more water. I have always had trouble drinking water.

My new rule, make sure to have drank at least 2 glasses of water by 2 pm. and hopefully 4 or more as the day goes by. emoticon emoticon

I have been on Spark People a long time. I find no reason to make any huge change, I think slow changes are emoticon

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IGNITEME101 9/3/2014 5:02PM

    I'm guilty of the same thing since this weekend. Thank you for posting this blog!

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GRATEFUL_DAWN 8/6/2014 9:26AM

    Small changes ARE best. Congrats on your commitment to drink more water.

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MEMARE 6/20/2014 9:48PM

    One thing that helps me with sweets is the knowledge that cancer feeds on sugar.
I want to STARVE cancer. So I cut back on sugar.

I just made the tartest peach pie in history! LOL

For water intake, I take a glass of water and put it by my bedside. First thing in the morning upon waking, I drink that glass of water.
That's one down before I'm even really awake! emoticon
Same goes for evening snacking... I have my water bottle always close at hand.
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SEDONACAT 6/12/2014 7:40AM

    I know you can do anything you decide to do. Will it be easy? Probably not but you've done harder things.

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RJFERRARO315 6/4/2014 12:11AM

    I think you have a great plan for step 1. emoticon

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LUVS2EXERCISE 6/1/2014 11:37AM

    I know you can defeat this "speed bump" and conquer the sweets, as hard as they are to put down. Water truly is a good thing, and if you get a craving for them late at night, try a handful of grapes, or drink a glass or two of water to curb that want. This is just one small "road block" on your path to healthy success. emoticon emoticon

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JUST_BREATHE08 5/27/2014 10:31PM

    emoticon Inga!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LINDA! 5/7/2014 10:32PM

    Sweets are my biggest problem. You can do it, Inga.

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BARBANAL 5/7/2014 5:48PM

    It is so difficult to stop eating sweets. It seems as tho I crave them more now than before I started Sparks. I have stopped eating chips and other foods that are similar, its been 2 years since a chip. Instead I have taken to sweets. Am I the only one this has been effected or is it my imagination ???????

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PINK-SOLDIER 5/7/2014 5:30PM

    emoticon I will try to make it a commitment, that is a good point. all along I decided I was not important enough to make this work. emoticon decisions don't work.

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MJRVIC2000 5/7/2014 5:27PM

    Remember that there is a BIG difference between making a DECISION and making a COMMITMENT! God Bless YOU! Vic.

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Making a Change for the Better and Leaving the Baggage Behind.

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Joined the Sweets Team again emoticon emoticon emoticon

I have quit it a few times before, never accomplishing anything. emoticon emoticon

No time like the present to really give it my all again.

One of the real problems that keeps me from losing weight is Peanut Butter M & M's, it has become a severe addiction and source of comfort, what an awful thing to do to me. emoticon I have really been out of control for years.

If I eat a Jumbo bag of M & M's, like a grazing cow, I could consume 1760 calories as I drift off to sleep. I checked what a 12.70 oz bag would add up too, it is a life threatening problem that I am starting to realize, like an alcoholic.

What could bring such eating on, marriage problems, BIG time, issues w/family, health, a lot. emoticon

I just chose today for no particular reason, I just feel strong enough to finally give the candy up.

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I seem to have slowly made some positive changes this week, here's to the New Beginnings I face and emoticon to that terrible baggage of sweets. emoticon emoticon I leave behind.


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LINDA! 4/18/2014 9:38PM

    I have such a problem with sweets. emoticon Keep up the great work, Inga.

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JUST_BREATHE08 4/15/2014 12:16AM

    emoticon Inga! I know you can. I have faith in you my friend! emoticon emoticon

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144AUTUMN 4/10/2014 8:23PM

  You can do it!!

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JAM2DREW 4/10/2014 7:35PM

    I'm here for you Inga. You can do it.

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Diet Pills, My Driver's License and Donuts (EE/Healing-entry3)

Saturday, March 02, 2013

I've been going on a sentimental journey re-tracing my early bad eating habits, my roots, actually my root of all evil. emoticon emoticon emoticon After writing my last blog, I find myself a chubby pre-teen, solution, buying diet pills, they would sell them to kids back in 1977, no problem. I did take them without my parents knowledge, and also ate less because of them. I also started to take a nap, probably because I was exhausted from not having the proper fuel in my body. I did get skinny in Jr. High, I remember meeting a cute boy who liked the way I looked. I liked being thin and being able to tuck my shirt in without a flabby stomach. My dad also kidded me and said he didn't want me to weigh over 100 pounds, so I stayed that way for a while. A few years later, I got my driver's license, and a little bit after I graduated from High School, I began dating and when I would drive home from my boyfriends house I would go and buy 3 donuts to eat all alone in the car on my way home.
Looking back I think the relationships were not right and I felt empty, the boys were using me most likely, and I did not like myself, so I ate to fill what was missing. My donut phase didn't last too long, but it was another brick in my wall of a lifelong battle against food, that now I tear down to reach my full potential, to cleanse my-self, to reach wholeness and a new beginning, after years of a lifetime of self-medication, abuse to myself with food. I am slowly recovering, but it is a long process. I appreciate my fellow Spark friends, helping me along the way!

You light my path, as only Spark Angels can do!
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More entries to come, it feels amazing to come clean!

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WATERBABY4 1/10/2014 10:59AM

    We all learn from our past; that's for sure.

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JAM2DREW 3/6/2013 11:31AM

    So glad that you are able to go back and identify what caused you to get to where you are today so you can take positive steps forward.

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BRAVEONE92 3/4/2013 10:04PM

    Inga, I am glad that you went back to visit your
past. I hope that you are able to leave all that
behind now, and continue to work on being
a healthy, happy woman. You are a wonderful
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HEALTH4LYFE 3/4/2013 7:14PM

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It's amazing what some life experience and knowledge can do for us. Oh if we only knew then what we know now. Thank you for sharing. Keep up the great work of taking care of yourself in a healthy way. You are worth it!

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LADYMARCIA1 3/4/2013 5:03PM

    Inga, Good for you for revisiting the past and are now able to put it behind. I could relate to all of what you said. I took everything, including laxatives to loose the weight. Then came the Phen Phen solution. I used that, lost a lot of weight, developed heart damage and then gained it back.
So here you are being such a positive inspiration on SparkPeople. Keep up the great work and most of all, be happy! You are a strong survivor.
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JUST_BREATHE08 3/4/2013 1:02PM

    I love you, Inga!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon You are one of the strongest women that I know!!

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RJFERRARO315 3/3/2013 12:15AM

    Amazing insight into your emotional eating journey. I'm so glad you're able to share with us what you have learned and are learning.

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NISSANGIRL 3/2/2013 12:48PM

    I am so glad u outgrew the pills Inga, U look wonderful ! Eating right and working out is the best way to lose weight and feel great! I was doing well and now with this weather I slipped back to munching and not working out as I should, Lets Make This month work for us!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LINDA! 3/2/2013 11:08AM

    Oh Inga, what a sad part of your life. I am happy that you are now in a good place in your life. You look wonderful and have beautfiul children. Thanks for a great blog and sharing such a tough period in your life.

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Emotional Eating Healing, entry 2: Clearing the Childhood Cobwebs

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

So I have realized my bad eating habits began as a child, I have to ask myself why. Well, first I had to have money to buy my candy, my parents gave it to me, not knowing I would not use that money wisely and buy sweets, they just thought they were being nice. But something was not right within me, I was eating those treats to make me feel better, because I did not feel good about myself. The instant gratification of a treat, covered deeper problems that a child may not know how to handle. Unfortunately I had suffered some very unkind situations, which may be defined as abusive by some. I have been trying to make peace about these things and God is by my side now as an adult. But as a child, I was really alone from these episodes, already being an only child didn't help, I was withdrawn inside myself, I was also bullied for my unusual name, Ingrid, the kids preferred calling me Ignorant, it hurt. I didn't know it was making me not like myself, and I needed food to fill the void to make me feel better, to mask the pain inside. Something inside me was bigger than this, it was God. God led me all by myself to groups were I could draw closer to Him, to learn, study, have fellowship and fun with other Christian kids. I found out about a bible camp in Lake Geneva, Wisconsin, I asked my parents if I could go, they were not sure, but I begged, then they let me go and I ended up going for 6 summers, I became a born-again Christian in 1976 at that camp and it put a seed into me of how I wanted to live my life. Sadly at one of my camp physicals, I was touched inappropriately by my dr. in a private area with my mom behind a curtain. I had trouble having eye contact with people after that, I didn't tell anyone until later in my adult years, I felt awful for a long time after that happened, kind of a dirty feeling. I also found another club in my hometown called Awana, I joined, rode the big church bus and had the best of times learning bible verses, singing, playing in the gym, I worked for the highest Awana award and did make it, I earned the Timothy award for learning many Bible memory verses. I thank God for giving me these activities in Jesus Name. I believe I was led to them in a divine manner to help me, a lonely, abused, only child with a funny name. He is still seeing me through. I see that these rough times should have taught me to rely more on the Lord, but my human side, my sinful side had a stronghold on me, I loved God, but still loved my sweets. I was struggling with an inner battle, I know around age 12, I looked at myself and I had got quite chubby, very round face, maybe even a double chin. I knew I had to do something. I started exercising in my basement, I also jogged from time to time. This was the start of the weight loss and weight gaining journey, more like a roller coaster that would keep taking me up and down into adulthood. As I release the negative experiences and toxic events of my childhood, let me gain inner peace and a fresh new perspective and how to live my live as God would have me honoring the body He gave me with healthy and nourishing food.

I can do this.

more entries to follow.

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BRAVEONE92 2/20/2013 10:24PM

    Now that you are facing these painful
memories, and sharing with friends
who will support you, I know that
you will love your self more. Stay
close to God, because without HIm,
we are lost. He lifts us up and gives
us strength to attain our hearts desire.
I am so sorry that you have been a
victim of verbal abuse which is so
painful and so hard to let it go. Mean
people can sometimes make us believe
we are unworthy, but that is a lie. God
made you in His likeness, and to him
and people who love you, you are a
beautiful woman inside/out. I hope
that you gain the strength to believe
that you are special and refuse in the
future, to never let anyone make you
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PINK-SOLDIER 2/20/2013 12:50PM

    emoticon all, I have to change. My whole life I have been eating junk to relive pain, each blog I write frees me. emoticon

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EVER-EVOLVING 2/20/2013 12:30PM

    Inga, you are such an inspiration. Hugs and love to you; you are such a beautiful person.

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THINKTHINTAMI 2/20/2013 11:49AM

    This is a good start Inga...dealing with our past..we all have one..this is key for you I'm happy for you:)

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RJFERRARO315 2/19/2013 11:57PM

    Inga, I don't have the words, but I know you're healing now and the insight you're gaining today will help tomorrow. You can do this, a step at a time. Hugs and blessings to you.

your friend always, Rebecca

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JAM2DREW 2/19/2013 8:55PM

    Inga, I hope that getting all of this out will help you to heal. When you feel like mistreating and abusing your body please pray or reach out to one of us. We are here for you anytime. The church and teaching Sunday School seems to make you feel better so I hope you will co tinge to do ore of those activities so you can improve your self esteem

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LINDA! 2/19/2013 4:35PM

    Oh Inga, it is difficult for us to think of these painful memories. I am glad that you are coming through and sharing with others. It is good to write down the issues that caused us pain. It is a release. You are also showing all of us that we can overcome the unfortunate experiences and use them to make a better life. God bless you, dear friend. emoticon

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FLUFFYWONKENOBE 2/19/2013 11:08AM

    It's a hard thing to talk about painful memories, but acknowledging them allows God to begin to heal them. God will give you victory over this, just continue to obey His leading!
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TIME2BLOOM4ME 2/19/2013 10:49AM

    Your are stronger than you are aware of, having expressed your challenges that no child should have to face. You can beat the giant. You are a beautiful person. Never stop believing in yourself. emoticon

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Starting a series of blogs for a complete healing of my Emotional Eating

Saturday, February 16, 2013

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I have come to a realization that I need to unload things about my whole life, I have been a member of Spark People for five years, learned alot, fought cancer emoticon and won. emoticon emoticon but my weight has increased. I started here at 148, my weight has gone up emoticon and down. emoticon Unfortunately it has not sticked, I now weigh 155 and have been stuck here forever, it creeped up and won't go down. I exercise alot, last 3 days started adding a fitness club weight routine emoticon in addition to my home workouts on my elliptical trainer emoticon and my stationary bike. emoticon The true problem is my emotional eating, I have not been able to emoticon I started digging deep, I remember as a kid we would go to stores in the neighborhood, I would buy a few packs of Reese's peanut butter cups emoticon and eat them all. I got it emoticon my eating disorder started in childhood, it has been ingrained in me for almost my whole life. I remember being on a diet almost all the time starting at age 12. It is time to get it all out, my stomach is large, heavy, uncomfortable, it hangs off me, it carries the weight of the garbage that I have put into my mouth trying to take away what is wearing me down, only to find it has knocked me to the ground. I must begin anew today. I promise myself to release all that has been dragging me down and get rid of the chocolate and cookie crumbs on my bedsheets.

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I*AM*BLESSED 2/21/2013 8:05AM

    Your blogs will help you and others tremendously! emoticon

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STANNER3 2/19/2013 1:02PM

    I swear you are writing my life story, lol. Exactly the same, Inga you are most certainly NOT alone! emoticon

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THINKTHINTAMI 2/19/2013 11:32AM

    Maybe write your feelings everytime you want to bury your feelings with food?

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DB1167 2/19/2013 11:08AM

    emoticon emoticon You can do this! We are all here for each other!!!!!


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BRAVEONE92 2/18/2013 11:35PM

    Inga, emotional eating is a common problem with
lots of people. Sometimes writing a Blog like this
great one, is just what you need to encourage you
to get that weight off. I know that emoticon !

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JAM2DREW 2/18/2013 8:39AM

    Inga, you are an amazing woman. You will overcome this. You need to come up with a plan to deal with the emotional eating. I know that you can do it and we are all here to support you!

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RJFERRARO315 2/17/2013 11:52PM

    Emotional eating is a hung up for me too. I know you can succeed though. You have done so much all ready!

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Hugs,
Rebecca

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PRETTYPITHY 2/17/2013 10:20PM

    I look forward to this series of blogs as I have similar issues. Thank you for tackling yours head on so I can be inspired by you!

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FLUFFYWONKENOBE 2/17/2013 8:10PM

    emoticon blog post!! Realizing the problem is the first step in solving the problem!!

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-BENI- 2/17/2013 6:19PM

    Congratulations on beating cancer and for being so brave in opening yourself up with honesty. So many can relate.
Keep working at it!! That's all we can do!
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LADYMARCIA1 2/17/2013 6:11PM

    Inga, Oh my how I can relate. I'm at the heaviest I've ever been and NEVER thought I would ever let myself get to this point, NEVER EVER! Yet here I am. I've always had a self esteen issue and can't remember a day in my life that I haven't started the day with 'today I'm going to diet'. I've gained almost 50 lbs since my breast cancer. I know that the Arimidex had a part to play in this but I also know it is much more than that. Someday I'll share that. But thanks to Sparks, I'm now loosing some of this. I have 'lost' my self at least 10 times during this life. I'm hoping to make this the last time.
Thanks for your insightful blog. Thank you for leading this group. Thank you for caring about us.
I know you will do this and I can't wait to see what else is coming emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LINDA! 2/17/2013 4:03PM

    I certainly understand, Inga. I started this journey with Spark in 2007. I have lost weight and gained weight over and over. I am now up in weight and on the verge of going into a larger size. No, I won't let that happen. It is discouraging knowing that I have such a difficult time saying no to sweets or comfort food. I do know that you have had some major setbacks in life. But we can win this war. emoticon


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HEALTH4LYFE 2/17/2013 3:41PM

    I have not been on SP as long as you, but I did go through a period of time where I lost and regained the same 5-10 lbs over and over and over again. It is a daily struggle. I have increased my ST and I am now tracking my food daily. It definitely helps keep me in check. I am much closer to my goal than I was in September. The other thing which helps me is short term goals. They are not too far in the distance and not too overwhelming. emoticon

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JUSTLYLE 2/17/2013 2:19PM

    Enjoyed your blog Inga. I too have been having a hard time keeping my weight down, I blame it on to stress but really know who is to blame! I guess I'll go sit in my chair and close my eyes and think about it? LOL
You have a great week Inga.

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ELDORADO2 2/16/2013 5:14PM

    Inga, I love, love your blog!!!!!!!. I , too, have been with Sparkpeople for 5 yrs and have lost and gained these last 10 pounds more times than I can remember. This winter has been very harsh and gas prices are too high to go places, so I stay home a lot and eat more than normal. I plan to start a healthy routine tomorrow (Sunday), hoping I can stick to it. God Bless you and we are all on this journey together.
Hugs, hugs, hugs.

Eldora

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NISSANGIRL 2/16/2013 2:22PM

    I can sooo relate to this blog!!! I have the same issues Inga, and my scale was not moving at all for the longest time, I finally started eating Breakfast (Healthy) and more fruit and low calorie dinner and It's working for me! also drinking more fluids help too. I want to reduce the bulge in my belly area as well, don't give up, emoticon Ps.... I LOVE Peanut butter cups too! Lets do this girl! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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