Friday, August 29, 2014
So, I've been using this week as a sort of "on ramp" to my return to health and wellness. I want Monday, specifically 9/1 to mark the beginning of a more hardcore pursuit. This week has been good in the soft sense -- I've gotten more veggies, more water and more exercise. But for the most part, I didn't make any "hard" goals for myself. I've been very flexible and mostly focused on consistency (which is awesome).
So, what are my "hard" goals? And why do I want to achieve them?
My long term goal is 30 pounds. Right now, I would like to focus on losing about half of that before the end of the year. 15 pounds in by December 15, 2014 -- very doable. How am I going to do that?
1) Omit sugar, trans fats, alcohol, red meat and processed foods from my daily diet. Essentially, a modified paleo/primal diet with some dairy (~ 1 serving a dat) and some complex carbs ( a few servings per week).
2) Stay within Spark calorie goal
3) Eat several large servings of vegetables and smaller servings of fruits every day (side note: this week I've gotten more produce but my fruit/veggie balance is out of whack -- something to work on for next week)
4) Bring own food to office and eat only what I bring. To this end, I have purchased a mini-fridge for my office (should arrive today. I was worried that a mini-fridge would actually encourage me to overeat if I just have an endless pool of snacks in my office. But it will be up to me to stock the fridge with GOOD healthy snacks, mostly vegetables and fruit.
1) Daily activity (walking)
2) 5 scheduled work outs per week
3) Once consistency is re-established, add back in strength training (October)
1) Establish the "why" of my goal -- remain focused on that
2) Read/watch motivation
3) Continue to read and learn about weight loss, fitness, health and wellness
Establishing the Why of my goal. I can think of a million whys right now:
I want to get rid of my foot pain
Get rid of my belly
Up my energy level
Tone my arms
Feel light on my feet
Be a better dancer
Improve my self image
Be healthy for when it's time to have a baby
Live a long life
Avoid chronic weight related illness
Not be heavier than my husband
I know all of this will come with losing the next 15-30 pounds. But of all of those, the desire to start a family is the key driver right now. I don't know if my weight is affecting my fertility -- I've never tried to get pregnant before. But I do know losing weight will make for a healthier pregnancy and a healthier baby. I also know that I will probably gain at least 25 pounds with pregnancy so I need to at least lose that amount to break even!
I will do a separate blog with my September goals.
Thursday, August 28, 2014
It is going to take a while before I see some progress and I need to be okay with that.
I've been conscious and effortful and active all week with no change on the scale. But I know this is normal. My body is ramping up. When I get into weight loss mode, my body starts shedding pounds left and right. But it takes time and effort to get there (anywhere from a week to a month). I need to whittle the carbs, up the produce, up the water, up the activity. My body takes a few weeks to recognize these changes. So, it is okay that my body has not noticed the changes yet. I've made them. And I know they are there. And that I need to keep plugging away.
I am giving myself this week as a transition, allowing my body to adjust and my mind to re-focus. The true grit starts 9/1. I'm kind of looking forward to it!
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
I'm just full of epiphanies on this (endless) journey to health. :channeling Oprah: And you get an epiphany! And you get an epiphany!
Tonight at my fantastic, perfect, amazing, missed-it-so-much dance class, I realized two things:
1) I don't have to be perfect on nutrition. I don't have to be perfect on fitness. I just need to, through some combination of the two, get it done. Of course, perfect nutrition gives the best bang for buck. But I was not nutritionally perfect as I was losing this weight. I had more good days than bad, but I wasn't perfect. Similarly, I worked out A LOT. But I didn't work out 7 days a week every week. Some weeks, I ate perfectly and worked out three times and lost weight. Some weeks my eating was rocky but I worked out twice a day five days a week and lost weight. The point is I got it done. And I didn't have to be perfect to do it. Which is good news because perfection is impossible!
2) This led to epiphany #2: Boy, I've really been doing NOTHING to move myself towards my goals this summer. I haven't been eating well. I haven't been working out a lot. It has to be one or the other, preferably both. And here I've been doing neither. And yet also cringing at the number on the scale, berating myself for not doing well and, in so doing, doubling down on failure.
It's like sometimes I just go into a fugue state where I forget everything I have ever learned along this (long)(arduous)(neverending) path to wellness. Dude, we gotta drop the "journey" metaphor -- it suggests a neat ending to weight loss THAT DOES NOT EXIST.
So these may sound a little weak to merit the title of "epiphany" but they boil down to the following:
I don't have to be perfect. I do have to do some stuff. To put it in a neat Michael Pollan like formula: "Imperfection is okay. Do some stuff. Lose weight."
Oh, also I should just straight up work out more because a) I LOVE IT, b) I'm a little slower and heavier on my feet than I was last year which PISSES ME OFF and 3) although I must work every day to conquer the nutrition beast, I really can make a lot of headway by simply maintaining a semi-insane workout schedule. Gotta work my way back up to two-a-days!
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
I have some out of control produce in my life this week, thanks to the farmer's market. White nectarines, heirloom tomatoes, plums, Japanese eggplant, summer squash and piel de sapo melons, oh my! You know your body has been deprived of good food when it reacts to an overload of fruits and vegetables with some . . . distress. I'll say no more on the topic.
So, far, I am on track to meet my goals for the day. I'm realizing this is much more like "starting over" than I cared to admit. I held on to what good habits I could over the course of the last year but in the last few months especially, they have eluded me. In the last month, they have cratered entirely. I mean, who am I? When I was in the airport coming back from North Carolina, I ate a fast food cheeseburger, just because. I mean, it was pretty good (I think Five Guys is like the In N Out of the South/South East), but really? A fast food burger? That is not my usual M.O. Ditto with the desire to buy those toffee pretzels yesterday. Usually, I save my treats for the realllllly good stuff -- not some random super market flotsam and jetsam.
In any event, I'm hitting the produce hard core right now and hoping to reset my body entirely. If it takes a few weeks before I see progress on the scale, it is probably because I've caused myself significant metabolic distress with all the garbage. But I'm worth the wait.
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