Feeling Really Good

Thursday, January 21, 2010

I had a great day today. People are really noticing my weight loss and I'm just thrilled. I think you can see it in my face and clothes, and I feel so much better. A teacher of mine told me that I looked so healthy and happy....and I have decided that this is my year. I am going to be who I want to be. I am going to surround myself with positive people who love me as much as I love them, and who understand and support my goals. I am going to make my puppetry and graduate school dreams a reality and stop doing things out of stress and being too timid. I am embracing who I am and loving her. It's a promise from me, to me. :)

  

Single, but looking forward to self-discovery

Friday, January 01, 2010

Well, I lost my relationship, about a month ago, and at first it was really hard. But as I am living through each day, I can feel myself getting stronger, setting goals that are about me, not about taking care of someone else. I miss him, a lot, but at this point, I think that all I can do is focus on the positive things in my life and get to working what I have dreamed of all of my life. So my New Years resolutions are as follows:

1) Make my weightloss goal for May by staying under my calories, working out at least 5 times per week, and sleeping 8 hours a night as often as possible.

2) Apply to graduate school. I've been wanting to go back for years and now is my chance.

3) Save money so that I can reward myself by going to Italy this summer.

With these things in mind, it's harder for me to be sad, or to wonder why I wasn't good enough or resent the time I spent in my relationship. I'm not sorry I met him, and I don't regret any of my actions. And now it is time to move on to the era of KATIE!!

  

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KIRSTY1306 1/1/2010 9:07PM

Oh my god, reading your blog just reminds me of myself. I too got out of a relationship on Dec 1st - it was a complete shock to me as I was being cheated on, I had been with him for nearly 7 years and was engaged to be married. I was distraught, still am really, but like you I am getting stronger each day. I miss him terribly but like you I have decided to focus ON ME! Making myself ill or putting my life on hold for someone who obviously doesn't want me is not healthy , i'm glad that we are both coming out this the other side and that our well being will benefit ! Keep your chin up, it's hard I know Hugs, Kirb x

Being okay with me

Thursday, December 03, 2009

So, I am going through struggles with a relationship, deciding whether I want to stay with someone. And, it has been a satisfying feeling to realize that, even though I love this person, they can't bring me down with words. I am comfortable with who I am and proud of what I'm doing, and I feel good for the first time in a very, very long time. I'm excited to be where I am and anxious to move to the next level. I don't know how things will work out for my relationship, but I do know that I will be okay. I am so grateful to have started this program, and making progress in my life. I know that I shouldn't have to feel guilty about being who I am, and that we should enhance each other and make each other better. I love him, but I have to love me first.

  

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SINGERNM 12/3/2009 6:54PM

NEVER feel guilty about who you are. I hear you when you talk about relationships. I'm going through a difficult time with my marriage now and have found exercise to be my release! I am now a strong believer when they say, "exercise is a great de-stressor"! Trust me, having two demanding teenagers and a rocky relationship could easily trigger my emotional eating. Because I am also proud of what I am doing and I feel good for the first time I won't let these stressors get in the way of my personal goals. Focus and remain positive (like you are now!) and know that you are not alone!!

1THING 12/3/2009 5:24PM

Believe it! Live as if you really do, there is no greater person worth your love, respect, appreciation & attention than YOU! I will be cheering for ya.

The Day After Thanksgiving

Friday, November 27, 2009

So...I ate a lot yesterday. Like 2500 calories worth. I don't regret it, and I definitely think you have to have exceptions in life, but it is fascinating. Today, I feel dehydrated, tired, and almost salty! It makes me realize how nice it is to eat healthy food because it makes you feel so good. This is the year that I am doing this! I'm promising myself, here and now, that I WILL NOT FAIL this time. I can have one bad day, and then bounce back into action, and that's a good sign. I can skip a workout one day, and then go back to it. And I am joining curves tomorrow!! I feel motivated and grateful to be where I am at. I am grateful to have people who love and support me, and grateful that I can love myself and push myself, in a good way, without destroying my health, for the first time in a long, long time. I'm looking for my life to be what I dream it will be, and getting healthy is the first step!

  

Full Steam Ahead

Saturday, November 14, 2009

I have lost 7 lbs and am so, so excited!! My roommate is helping me so much, and I am on my way to actually, finally doing this. And there are so many things I can do besides eat. My boyfriend and I went to see the new Cohen Brothers movie last night, and it really made me think about life and the universe. I don't know what is ahead for us after this life ends, but I do know that I am going to make the most of this life, no matter what else happens. :)