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Who needs insurance anyway?

Monday, July 08, 2013

I just spent the past 4 hours making phone calls back and forth with a bunch of insurance companies and NEWSFLASH- I'm fat. So, no one will insure me based on my "pre-existing health conditions". I'm like... no. I am fat. That is the issue that you are having. That's the whole thing. We were all good and dandy til you asked for my height and weight.

There is a Pre-Existing Condition Insurance Company (pcip.gov) but they need me to have proof of denial letters and the whole thing will take 3-4 weeks.

Basically I called the Bariatric Hospital in tears trying to figure out what to do and they told me to apply for a carecredit card, but I don't qualify. Soooo then she told me I just have to wait til January when Obamacare kicks in, or I can pay 25,000 cash.

Today sucks.

And I have a personal trainer appointment at the gym at 5pm, so let's see if I can be not bitchy tonight.


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LOVINGAFRICA 7/9/2013 1:53AM

    I am so sorry that you are having a hard time with the red tape people.
This journey sometimes has bumps and bruises on the way. We all have horror stories to tell...so hang in there. Don't lose hope.
Bless you!

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TANYA210 7/8/2013 4:32PM

    That is ridiculous. I am struggling to find insurance for myself that I can afford before Jan so I don't get taxed on my taxes. It is a bunch of bologna.

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WALKTHROUGH 7/8/2013 3:43PM

    You will get your way soon. Be confident. emoticon

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QUIRKYDAY 7/8/2013 3:31PM

    I'm kind of feeling like if that is the case, they should set up a database to cross check if someone is insured by more than one company. Not just figure out my BMI and deny because of it. They didn't ask about surgery or anything. Just my height and weight.

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PICKIE98 7/8/2013 3:28PM

    I know it is a pain,but I also know WHY they do that: I found out by asking two companies. Basically, people were getting multiple company coverage to WAY over-cover their expenses and pocketing the cash!! It is nothigng personal, it is called greed!!

NOT YOU! Example: A guy would know that he had to have ...surgery. HE wold open a policy, make a payment JUST before the surgery and they paid for everything.. HE also would open a cash benefits policy and do the same thing except those companies and/or policies paid daily, weekly or monthly cash benefits.
If one guy did it, no big deal, BUT thousands figured it out and the companies were shelling out a LOT of $$$.. A couple people had ten or twelve policies .. only for a month, just enough to collect thousands!!

Best of luck with your surgery..

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LOVE-HEALTH 7/8/2013 3:20PM

    yikes! i'm so sorry. that's ridiculous that you cannot gain insurance because of your weight. if anything they should be happy to put you on their plan since you are working hard to take care of your health (bariatrics and personal trainer! wow, you go girl!). You are taking care of yourself, and i know it will pay off in the end :) I hope everything works out! emoticon

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Preparing to change

Sunday, July 07, 2013

Once you've been a certain way for a long time, change becomes really really scary. I wasn't always 375lbs, but here I am now and being any other way seems foreign. But, let's be real, I could do without having to clean the sebum from the fat rolls in my neck like I'm some type of infant.

I don't want to be a fitness nut though. I don't ever want to be someone who makes other people uncomfortable about how they are. I've dealt with that. I deal all the time with people thinking they have the right to comment on my body. To tell me that I should just be more active, or I would be so beautiful if I lost weight. Those are sh*tty things to tell people. That is a sh*tty way to think. And I just really want to remind myself of that.

I have friends who love love love being fat. They are part of a community of men and women who enjoy eating, and feeding, and being happy hedonists. They are nice, and strong, and socially active. And there are people every day who talk to them like they are subhuman.

I don't want to be grouped with those people.

I don't want to be one of the skinny people, or one of the people that used to think it was okay to be fat but then became ashamed and judgemental. I never want to be one of those stupid people that thinks it is okay for them to comment on someone elses weight or give unwanted health advice because they "used to be fat too".

What I want to do is be able to have a family. To get rid of the PCOS that is causing my infertility. To get rid of the GERD that makes me vomit every other day, and burp constantly. I want to be active- which at this point means walking up a single flight of stairs without feeling like an elephant is sitting on my lungs. Less back pain would be great. I'd love to ride a horse again. To buy a freaking ladder at home depot that can support my weight. To buy a scale that supports my weight. To not exceed to weight limit for carnival rides. I want the seatbelt in my mother-in-law's car to fit around me.

Ugh, just sometimes I look in the mirror, too, and it's like that scene from Hook. I push and pull and stare at my face, and sometimes I can see myself in there. Like, "Oh, there you are Sarah".

It'll be interesting to see how things progress and change as I go through this weird journey. I hope I can stay positive, and nonjudgemental, and true to myself. I hope that I meet people who will hold me accountable for the promises I make to myself and others.

I really don't know how many other people on this site share my mindset, but I am hoping I'm not alone here.

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WALKTHROUGH 7/8/2013 3:45PM


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PATTYR81 7/8/2013 10:22AM

    I'm glad you are here!


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PIMPINELLAN50 7/8/2013 4:15AM

    Wishing you all the best in your Spark Journey.
You have some lovely photos on your page!
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IM2READY 7/7/2013 5:46PM

    I understand you completely. You will stay true to yourself, and I know you can do it!

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CORTNEY-LEE 7/7/2013 4:38PM

    Thank you very much for writing this blog and sharing it with us.

Reading your words has made me take an "inventory" of my attitude and my behaviors and make sure that I am not falling into any of these categories. I agree with you that they are really sh**y ways to be, and I also want to make sure that I do not become one of these people.

Staying positive isn't always easy, especially when you don't get the results you think you should. That is what is so wonderful about Spark - there are always people around to be your cheerleader and help hold you accountable.

Best of luck on your journey my dear friend! emoticon

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REAGANESQUE 7/7/2013 2:29PM

    You are on your way already! I started with counting calories and walking and it made a difference pretty quickly. Good luck on your journey.

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DWROBERGE 7/7/2013 6:35AM

    Keep focused for success.

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MADMIRANDA 7/7/2013 5:12AM

    I feel so like you. I am 291lb. I wish you every success. You can do it.

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QUIERRA 7/7/2013 3:30AM

    You are not alone. Keep it up, and do whatever makes you comfortable. This is your journey and only you know your body. :)


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