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Tuesday, July 08, 2014

The past several years have been extremely difficult for me, and I find myself back at the beginning of the journey, so am hoping some of you are ready to walk through it with me. I can't even tell you how much weight I have gained because I threw out my scale 6 years ago when I was rocking the program.
Today I did a walk/ wasn't pretty, but it did happen (4k in total). I had a difficult time even jogging 200 metres...ok, here we go!!!

I know it will feel better with time, I also know it will likely feel better faster than before because of muscle memory, but it is a tough sell when you know where you were, to where you are. Part of moving forward is accepting where you are, and looking to where you want to be. I have a picture of my kidlets and I that was taken 2 days before my first marathon. We looked so happy!!! Don was at Depot (RCMP training academy), and wanted to do runs with me...he HATED running, so it didn't really work. My Dad ran the last 100 metres of the race....he couldn't keep up with me, which was AWESOME!!!. Don passed away last year from an aggressive cancer, and I haven't been able to move forward since then...kind of stuck. We were married for 16 years, together for 19...had 2 wonderful kidlets. My goal is to be in the same shape as I was in that wonderful kidlets also want that:):)

I hope that by getting the rwalk in today (aka - run/walk), and by talking about this, I can try to find a way to keep on moving forward.

Tomorrow I am planning on a 45 minute rwalk,

Many of you know me, I am the founder of the rookie running group, and have run a ton of races, but our biggest race is our life, and I want to walk this one with people that want to make a difference with the most important thing...YOU~~~

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BERRY4 9/9/2014 11:36PM

    Glad you're back!
You are right about life... that is the journey that matters in every way. -- Give your kids a hug and keep looking forward!

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ACTIVE_AT_60 8/9/2014 9:08PM

    Trish, good to see you back posting here. Also, remember the three T's - Things takes time. It is not easy to move on from a loss so significant as yours, so just take one day at the time. - you know who you have in your camp!!!

You say you are going to get faster - so what do you want the goal to be for next years JASR?

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BABARR67 7/8/2014 10:02AM

    It sounds like you've had some really legitimate reasons for getting in a slump/funk for awhile. I have reasons too, but none of them are really legitimate, they are just excuses. I have been tired. Moving does not make me less tired, but it really doesn't make me more tired either. So I just have to do it. I applaud your walk/running again. I know it is what I have to do. Without exercise the amount of calories I can eat without gaining is abysmally low... as shown by my weight gain. LOL. So I offer you encouragement and a HUG. Take care... emoticon

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RUNNINGWILD 7/8/2014 9:57AM

    Here! emoticon
Ralk on! See you in October, if not sooner.

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CASSIOEPIA 7/8/2014 8:43AM

    Oh Wood "sunshine pounded up you butt", OMG that gave me a chuckle this morning.

Trish, I will walk this journey with you too. We've been together here on this site almost since the very beginning, and that is never changing now.

Rwalk on!

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BE-THE-CHANGE 7/8/2014 7:58AM

    Good to see you posting, Trish.
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WOODHEAT 7/8/2014 7:13AM

    Trish, Welcome back to being the person you were meant to be!

As the "Life is good" guy, I know that life isn't always good. In fact, at times it's downright #%*@!! But I also believe that we're very resilient and even after being trampled on and kicked around, we're somehow able to pick ourselves, bloody and damaged and get ourselves back into that footrace! The muscles hurt and the memories hurt more, but eventually the run gets easier again and then much to our surprise, we're ready to compete once again!

Feel free to contact me at anytime you need sunshine pounded up your butt!

Life can be good!

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Moving forward sometimes stinks!

Sunday, September 08, 2013

Reality check for me...the injuries I have had, along with Don's death have totally derailed me - I am heavier than I have been in years, and not being able to do much for a while have contributed to where I am...

Step one is done - get a gym membership.
Step 2 is tougher - my doc isn't going to clear me for cardio anytime soonish, so I am going to do strength training until that happens.
Step 3 - nutrition hasn't been an issue in 7 years, so I am just going to keep on keepin on with that one.
Step 4 - find something to focus on - not sure what that will be...I can't run (or walk for that matter)...Anyone have an idea of something to set for a goal "race"?

Hug and love,

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MONICA_W 9/10/2013 11:56PM

    Well if the gym is where it's at, how about some strength-related goals? I know you're kind of a superhero already, but what about things like push-ups and pull-ups that are typically challenging moves: set a "## of real push-ups" or "complete an unassisted pull-up" goal! That will give you something to build toward and accomplish. (You may have to bring your own cheering squad, medal, and bagels.)

Somebody mentioned a pool - if your injuries permit, that would allow you to get cardio and even train for a race or goal distance. (Agreed, no cannon balls in the shallow end!) Someone else mentioned volunteering at races - while that might be kind of heartbreaking, I think it would also make you smile and keep you feeling involved in your running community. I miss mine. Don't lose touch.

There's always a weight loss goal... if you're heavier than you ought to be, even if nutrition isn't an issue, quantity's got to line up with activity. Pounds lost are measurable, achievable, and celebrate-able!

Good luck Trish! Hang in there, hugs, and it's good to see you! emoticon

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BOBBYD31 9/9/2013 8:07PM

    hang in there you will figure it out but if you start swimming how about not jumping into the shallow end, i'm just say'in

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KASHMIR 9/9/2013 3:01PM

    does the gym have a pool?

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BUSYGRANNY5 9/8/2013 10:07AM

    It sounds like you have a plan... I wish you continued success on your life journey! Keep on keeping on...

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BE-THE-CHANGE 9/8/2013 9:31AM

    Since you can't participate in the race right now, maybe there is one you can serve as a volunteer?

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THE_SHAKESHAFT 9/8/2013 4:22AM

    Maybe just set yourself small goals. Like walk to the store then get the bus back, then walk both ways to the store. That sort of thing.

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RUNNINGWILD 9/8/2013 3:34AM

    Posted my idea on FB :)

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Great summer....end isn't gonna be to much fun.

Monday, August 26, 2013

So we made it through the summer in a pretty great fashion...kidlets have thrived.

After Don passed, we just kind of made it to the end of the school year. Can't even believe that the kidlets got straight "A"s given all that was going on. The first week in July Missy went to the Canadian Scouting Jambouree in Calgary - she had a BLAST!!! While she was gone, Josh and I went to Silverwood in Coeur d' much fun!!!

Got back, and 2 days later we hit California for 14 days. We had a blast at Disney, the kids are old enough to do single rider for all rides, so it was WAY quicker than the last time. Met up with Leah and Maria (great friends on spark) to see the Hollywood sign and do some shopping - the mustaches ruled (the girls bought staches for all of us!!!) We had so much fun with them - my kidlets can't wait until we see them again.

My Dad and Susan showed up for part of the trip. They did Disney for one day, then SeaWorld, then Knott's Berry Farm...Josh got DRENCHED by Shamu, and I got FREAKED out by the roller coaster that makes you go 80 miles/hr in 3 seconds.

We had a great time there, and once we got back, there were 3 days until Missy had to hit Vernon for a goalie soccer camp. While she was there, Josh hit Penticton to go fishing with my sis. After that camp, we headed to Osoyoos for ringette camp - what a gong show that was!!! We had borrowed a motorhome for the week, but it was really dirty. The kidlets tried to clean the carpets etc...still smelled.

We stayed there for the first night, but couldn't plug in because it had solar power that died really early...was going to try the "real" plugin the next day. Next day, called the people that owned it, and they told us what to do to plug in...didn't work. It was over 125 F in the motorhome, the kidlets played over 7 hours of ringette...I had to make a move... Ended up finding a hotel for the rest of the week, driving the motorhome back home, and bringing my van down. Kids did so well at the camp, and I got to leave it with a 3rd degree sprain of my ankle, and a bunch of torn muscles and ligaments because Monkey dared me to do a cannonball into relatively shallow water (bad Mom!!!)

Once we got back, Josh had baseball camp, trained by some amazing Toronto Blue Jay's alumni!!! Now we are getting ready to go camping this weekend for family camp (a bunch of friends).

Tonight I realized that my wedding anniversary is this Saturday. We are having a dinner at family camp that night, and I am not quite sure how I will handle it. I am close to tears, and can't really believe that my hubby has passed away....that this is a permanent situation (unlike the 4 years he was away for the RCMP). I know, I know....we have been dealing with it for a while, but this is the first real milestone (apart from Missy's b'day) that we have hit. It is a really tough one, and I just don't know how to deal with all the emotions.

Hopefully it won't be as bad as I think it will...I love him so much!!!!!

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BOBBYD31 8/27/2013 1:32PM

    choose to celebrate the years you had together and all the great times that you had, try not to focus that he is gone physically because he will always be with you

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RACING4ME 8/27/2013 2:59AM

    OH man ladies....I am crying right hard!!!
Thanks so much for being here for us!!!

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MIAMIA7 8/26/2013 2:51PM

    Awesome summer (minus the motor home and ankle issue). As far as Saturday goes these milestones will keep coming and not that they will get any easier but you will learn the best way to deal with them each time. Big hugs from all of us.

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RUNNINGWILD 8/26/2013 2:47PM

    He loves you, too, so you know that you will not celebrate the day without him. I've never been one to believe much in higher powers but I've seen too many instances lately where a soul that has passed has made their presence known. Don will make himself visible to you somehow. You watch. emoticon

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    What a busy and fun summer! Saturday will be tough-no doubt. I have no wise words but know that you will be in my prayers. Ya always are~~ emoticon

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CASSIOEPIA 8/26/2013 8:43AM

    You will be surrounded by friends on Saturday night, with your kids nearby too. I hope you get lots of hugs.

You've had a hugely busy summer. I hope the start to school goes smoothly.

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Moving forward.

Friday, May 24, 2013

I have learned a lot about myself in the past few weeks....

1. My kidlets are my world...I would do anything to keep them safe, and give them a place to grieve and vent.

2. When my body says to sleep, it means it...shutting down allows me to cope, process, and get ready for what is coming next.

3. If I don't feel like talking to people it just doesn't matter...texting is fine, likely an easier way to communicate for a wee bit.

4. Don is going to be hanging out with us forever, he gives us signs all of the time, so take strength from that.

5. When there is joy experience it, don't condemn myself for going is for living, and we need to seize the moment.

6. Love myself and my family, as we have gone through a really terrible couple of years.

7. Be forever thankful that Don isn't in pain was the worst thing I have seen - wish I could have taken it away from glad he is with God and feeling nothing but love and joy:):)

Love you all!!

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SHEENADEE 5/24/2013 8:46PM

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MONICA_W 5/24/2013 8:31PM

    Hugs Trish. You're in my heart and my prayers!

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    LOVE you!!!! you are inspiring me and so many others

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MARGARITTM 5/24/2013 3:02PM


Think of you often

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LYNNANN43 5/24/2013 2:29PM

    SOOOOOOO glad you have your kidlets to be with you.

And yes, please don't isolate yourself. I worry.

I still think of you every day, My Canadian emoticon

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CASSIOEPIA 5/24/2013 9:33AM

    I am glad that you still see Don hanging out with you. I still get signs that my Gandma is nearby, and she has been gone over twelve years. I have Don's tree still, that I am still passing on every run or bike ride, and think of him and that smile.

He really left some good things behind. Cherish those kidlets. They are such a beautiful creation that you and Don share.

Love you!

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KASHMIR 5/24/2013 9:11AM

    Healthy all!!! You forgot, you are proud for recognizing all the healthy things you are doing for yourself.
Please please please, talk to people. Don't isolate yourself, please. I didn't get over that until I found SparkPeople!
Love you Lady, and know you and the kidlets are in my thoughts every day.

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ON2VICTORY 5/24/2013 8:48AM

    Trish- I cannot even begin to fathom how difficult this is, and it is also difficult to know what to say because what you are facing is what I have feared the most. Anything I say will be shallow but I want you to know that we on SP care and hope that you find peace and comfort in this grief. I hope that when I have to face this, I will be able to find the hope and grace to carry on.

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DEEJ4FITNESS 5/24/2013 7:40AM

    My heart & my hugs!! You remain my INSPIRATION! Love you!
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RUNNINGWILD 5/24/2013 7:33AM

    Many hugs from us to you.

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Small blessings

Tuesday, May 07, 2013

A lot of you guys know that I was planning on a surprise attack on Cincinnati for the Flying Pig last week. I had planned, Merle was my partner in crime, had the hotel and the flight. WAS SOOOO excited...Missy and Josh were choked I was doing it (because they couldn't go), but happy that I was getting away.

Don got really bad on Tuesday night...I won't give you was REALLY bad, and I called 911 to bring him to the hospital. If he had waited 6 hours, I would have been on my way to Cinci, and my daughter, Missy would have had to make the decision to call and bring him in...then nobody would have been home. My precious kidlets would have been all alone...ok, probably someone would have been there, but not anyone that would help.

The Lord and Don made sure that (even though he was pissed off), I was home, and we would make it through.

Seeing Bobby D's blog made me so happy and sad...

WE will need time to deal with stuff, but we will eventually get there.

Love you all:):)


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SHEENADEE 5/13/2013 4:12PM

    Of course, you were where you were meant to be. Given how things were going to go, it is good the turn happened before you were in flight for sure.

We thought about you a lot over the weekend and following week. I hope that some strength flowed to you from our gathering.

Happy to be your partner in crime any time.


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BOBBYD31 5/13/2013 10:55AM

    glad you were home for everyone and i am sorry the blog made you sad but i knew there was something special about that rainbow so early in the morning. i thought abut it for a long time when it hit me.....

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    Love you- God knows best and He alone knew what was going to happen and where you were supposed to be. AND-all the sparkpeeps were TOGETHER praying and crying for you...

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ON2VICTORY 5/7/2013 10:03PM

    you did what was truly important... there will always be other special moments with friends... your friends love you very much... :) hang in there...

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CASSIOEPIA 5/7/2013 8:33PM


You were right where you were meant to be hon.

(you now know that they will be expecting you every year from now on! Two sneak attacks is considered consistent behavior). Love ya!

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LYNNANN43 5/7/2013 9:25AM

    Those of us in the know were SOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited.

But when we got the news after dinner, you could have heard a pin drop. All of our hearts were breaking.

You cannot possibly imagine how much you were thought of, prayered for, talked about, etc this weekend.

Stay Strong, My Canadian. emoticon

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BUSYGRANNY5 5/7/2013 7:49AM

    Keep on keeeping on Trish!!!

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RICHOJOHNSON 5/7/2013 3:23AM

    we are with you Trish. You take whatever you need. We are here close if you need us or far if you need us to be. No matter how much time you need we will be thinking of you and ready to hug you, hold you or stay right away.

We are not going anywhere we will be here to hold you whenever you come by.

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