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Eye of the Tiger

Saturday, July 19, 2014

Eye of the Tiger is the song that was playing as I finished up my run this morning. emoticon I used it to ponder my next steps. Before I go int those, I'd like to ask for your help and advise.

I have struggled for the past few days to eat healthy. I've been drowning in potato chips and chocolate chips...I may have to boycott any food with the words chips in it--for eternity. They seem to be a major trigger food. emoticon

What I have learned this week from my nonsense binge: I have a hard time knowing what to do with my emotions. Why do I think I even HAVE to do anything with them? Why cant I live in harmony with them vs battling them? I need a new battle strategy at best, cramming food down my throat is NOT making the emotions disappear. Its creating more emotions, the negative kind.... emoticon

Its a WAY better experience if I've been eating Paleo, something about sugar and grain...it gives me foggy brain (for real, I wish I was kidding lol). So this is step one, starting today I will be enjoying Paleo again. Its a happy medium for me from the strict anti-candida diet and so much better than eating the SAD (standard american diet) I used to revolve my day around. My mind is quieter in general when I'm fueling properly for my body. I do know this is different for everyone.

Running helps so I'll run every other day, do strength/full body work and core on the off days. Stretching and breathing. Quiet time to reflect on the day.

I still have yet to pick up my STRONGER study and get back into it. I will locate that this weekend and dedicate time for myself, alone each day, to get in touch with and take these feelings/emotions I don't know what to do with, to the Lord. He happens to know ALL. Why do I forget that sometimes....brain fog or pride?! Or people pleasing monster? He's been trying to work his way back in lately too.

Yikes!! Usually I delete the blogs I write like this one. This level of transparency makes me squirm. Please be kind with any advise you would have for me. I am looking for productive ways to live in harmony with my emotions....any advice? Prayer would be much appreciated as I walk through this valley. Thankfully I'm not alone!


  
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STRONGCOURAGE 7/21/2014 3:43PM

    You are right dear SP friend, you are not alone. Vulnerability, honest raw emotions put out there isn't an easy thing. But it is a helpful one. Look at the psalms. The writers were very raw with their emotions--covering the full spectrum! with God. Its ok. Someone once told me that God is big enough to handle our honesty--anger, sadness, hurt, etc. He can take it. Always. (He already knows afterall) but He delights in you, in me sharing our hearts struggles of ups & downs *with* Him. I am praying for you today. As for the binging...you heard my vlog. But I'll add a few more thoughts here. Temptations will happen. Mess ups will happen. But so does grace. Grace will happen--to you. Grace happens--every day. And in all of that, remember Love. You are loved something fiercely immense and beautiful. The way God loves YOU is the way He desires you love *you* (& others). Something that may just help is verbally expressing a few positive truths each day...something I was practicing and need to get back to. Saying these things really affects how I view & treat myself. Maybe it will be helpfulf or you too...For example, say one or two of these to yourself...right now if you like. :) -I have incredible worth. I matter. I am uniquely made. I am not alone in this day, in any struggle I'm facing or will face. I am loved and I choose to love me. I am not perfect. I am being perfected by the One who knows and loves me unconditionally.- emoticon emoticon

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GORIANA 7/20/2014 11:07PM

    I am with you in figuring out that my emotions triggered urges to eat certain types of food. Strangely experiencing the emotions helps. Since i think you pray, that might be one way to experience your emotions...but not to numb them. Instead make a point to explore your feelings and figure out what events got you there and what thoughts. Challenge your thoughts. Sometimes we make elaborate stories that are not the facts, but our interpretations, so pray for incite into your feelings, that will help. Of course you will need a way to knock yourself into this reflection when you reach for food to deal with emotions...maybe put a visual cue in the cupboard to remind you to ask, "am i hungry?"

You can do it.

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_BABE_ 7/19/2014 1:57PM

    Why delete your blogs when you are right on the money.

I know what you mean about dealing with emotions. When did we have to cram down sadness or elevate our joy with eating...just feel them. End of story right? I guess not that is why we are here.

Brain fog is a real thing. Carbs and sugars are like an opiate....dulling pain and smoothing over the rough spots....too bad they are the original culprits for creating rough spots in the first place.

Your blog was spot on with me this morning! emoticon

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Update time!

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Well, its been quite a struggle the past month! emoticon BUT I am on track now, 3 days and counting! emoticon It feels so much better to be in control than to eat with wild abandon and live with the guilt hangover!

I am eating whole, healthy food. Food undressed, in its original form (well I do COOK the food) but its not processed into something that resembles food but really has not benefit to the body. I'm enjoying it!

I had introduced dairy, gluten, sugar, coffee, grain back into my diet a month ago, its all gone again! I refuse to keep them hanging out when all they do make me sick. Not to mention add weight on. If something is not helping me meet my goals, its gotta go. Sugar and grain both seem to make me CRAVE food. It just seems easier to live my life without the constant fight to want to binge eat. I'm sticking to Paleo, whole food type diet for awhile. Why bother with anything else when I know what works for me, all the way around, mentally and physically.

My working out has been on again/off again. My weight has fluctuated by about 8 lbs. Not really happy about this fact, but its reality. I'm not giving up. Just learning as I go, I mean learning as I grow. emoticon

Growing in the Word has been slow. I am reading my bible daily but only a few verses. I am ready to dive back into a study! Until fall studies start, I'll jump back into the last study I started, but never finished.

New focus: For the rest of July, I'm focusing on the habits that have served me well:
Eat food that fills me up and keeps me from cravings and physical hurts: lots of greens, fruits/berries, organic meat whenever possible, fish, sweet potatoes, almond butter, pecans....all this yummyness and more!

Exercise: I will alternate running or walking with YOYOG workout DVD. Sworkit app is pretty great and the core workouts my chiro taught me. These all keep me injury free when I stretch daily.

Getting my house in order from the summer chaos and prepping for upcoming school year. We actually do school year around, taking off when we want to. It serves us quite well! However, the house gets cluttered, I get stuck on doing everything perfectly and then do nothing instead. Well, it seems that extreme but its really not that black and white. What I will do is a little each day. I am loving the Flylady website and Cozi calendar to keep me focused each day on a new task to finish. Its only day 3 and I am seeing progress. The kids are jumping in too!

Life is rolling emoticon along nicely! In a few short months we are going on our first week long family vacation emoticon ! I'm not kidding when I tell you my husband has not taken time off for a vacation in 12 years. Sad but true. THIS is our year! A week in Orlando FL!! emoticon Taking the kids and going to make some seriously great memories! emoticon Lots of firsts for them...first time on airplane, emoticon first time to ocean emoticon ! I'm very excited, as our the littles, as you can imagine!

I'm off now to get a run in along with some errands..... emoticon

  
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IRP1114 7/17/2014 4:16PM

    SO cool! Glad you are making time for that much needed vacation! Good luck with getting everything you want done in time ; )! Enjoy the processes and celebrate your successes! emoticon

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MYRTROSE 7/17/2014 12:11AM

    Isn't it amazing how quickly our bodies respond when we nourish them? It's like they are just pleading with us to treat them with respect! I've only been eating better for 2 days and I already need to reduce my insulin.
Happy to see things are good with you!

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THECOOLESTSARAH 7/16/2014 6:09PM

    I love all your positivity - focusing on what you want instead of what you want to stop. It's such a great technique for manifesting good things in your life!

Wow - a whole week in Florida! I've never been to FL before. Sounds like a blast! Pictures!

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FORZACHANDMATT 7/16/2014 5:55PM

    Enjoy your well deserved vacation

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BROOKLYN_BORN 7/16/2014 1:23PM

    You have exactly the right attitude and plan to get back on track.
Enjoy the vacation. Make memories.

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MRSP90X 7/16/2014 1:29AM

    Woohoo on the vaca, and we school year round too. Glad.younfound what works for you. I can't do Paleo or I would be passed out on the floor from the lower amount of carbs.. Great attitude about getting rid of something that doesn't meet your goals!!

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RYDERB 7/16/2014 1:15AM

    Congratulations on getting back to what makes you feel good. emoticon

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WOUBBIE 7/15/2014 8:43PM

    Keep on Flying! Glad you're back on track and feeling better!

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GORIANA 7/15/2014 7:35PM

    emoticon I love your enthusiasm.

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NEWTEXDEBBIE 7/15/2014 5:58PM

    WOW! Your really rolling along.... emoticon

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Non scale victories

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Several non scale victories this week! When I ran sprint's, my heart rate monitor chest strap was sliding down to my waist! So I was quite happy to tighten it up before my run last night.

Number two: last year I wore the same red Nike running shirt all year...I love the comfy material. Well! Now it is so loose. It hangs down past my hips & totally covers my rear! Crazy.

Number three: I do not hate trying on swimsuits! I may even wear the new one without my shorts over it this year!
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Number four: I leveled up in the You Are Your Own Gym DVD By Mark Lauren. I am finally doing intermediate workouts! Loving the changes I'm seeing. I almost look good in my lacy things... emoticon

I'm off to walk. Just finished my core workout. emoticon emoticon

Share some non scale victories with me!! Love to hear these, so encouraging! emoticon

  
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DOGLADY13 6/22/2014 8:33AM

    I have Mark Lauren's book. Did not know he had a dvd. Congrats on the progress. It's well earned.

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STODD251 6/12/2014 11:35AM

    Yay for Non-Scale Victories! It sounds like you have a lot to celebrate!

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IRP1114 6/12/2014 10:09AM

    Well done! Congratulations on all your victories : )!!! Very important stuff to consider in this journey. Let's keep at it! emoticon

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SPUNKYDUCKY 6/12/2014 12:21AM

    Liking trying on swimsuits = nirvana
Congrats
Like the other NSVs as well
Hope you have many more in the coming week


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DMSPEER93 6/11/2014 10:20PM

    The non-scale victories lead to permanent weight loss! Great job!!!! emoticon

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_BABE_ 6/11/2014 9:20PM

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STRONGCOURAGE 6/11/2014 8:21PM

    thats sooo awesome & exciting, brings a smile to read :) I'm happy for/with you! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CAROLSMOM1 6/11/2014 7:41PM

    emoticon emoticon You are inspirational.

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NEED2LOSEN2010 6/11/2014 7:12PM

    emoticon I LOVE the NSV!!

Keep up the good work!

God Bless!

Sunny

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June

Thursday, June 05, 2014

I am settled into a good groove at the moment. I am still eating a high nutrient, anti Candida diet, and loving it. I am wearing shorts size 8 & 10's right now! Last July I was busting the seams of my size 14's. I feel great, healthy and strong most days. I gave up coffee & black tea last month. I am convinced it is why I'm feeling so good. I am so much more chill. I had no Idea how it was affecting me, until I gave it up. I'm running a few days a week, walking a few, doing full body workouts a few days a week too. About twice a week I spend a few hours in the kitchen. This has helped me to be prepped for success! I'm loving me some homemade soups & salads! This the season for fresh and delish produce! I ended the month as 180.4! My goal was 179, close! I'd love to be at 175 by June 30th.
Cheers to a new month! Let's make each moment count.

  
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IRP1114 6/11/2014 5:40PM

    That is great! Well done! You are rocking it : )!
Happy to hear how well you are doing letting go of coffee!! Many people just can't do it. Be proud. You are on your way girl! emoticon

Yes! Let's make it count! emoticon

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DOGLADY13 6/8/2014 12:55AM

    Great job! Slow but steady and all that.

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SPUNKYDUCKY 6/8/2014 12:41AM

    It is fantastic to see that you are doing so well. You have a positive attitude and are grateful for all of the right things!

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CAROLSMOM1 6/5/2014 9:48AM

    You are an inspiration for the rest of us. emoticon

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DMSPEER93 6/5/2014 7:24AM

    Great job! My goal is 175 as well for June. I will pray that you will continue to be disciplined as you reach your goal! I know that you can do this! emoticon

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YENDUCHAKA 6/5/2014 6:54AM

    Good for you! You're doing a great job sticking to your plan. I'm so happy that it's paying off for you! Keep up the good work!

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MRSP90X 6/5/2014 2:22AM

    Awesome!!

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Last weeks mileage report

Monday, May 12, 2014

Short & Sweet!

Last week my mileage was 11 miles. Not quite 15 as I'd hoped but it was a rough week. No excuses just reality. Lets see how this week works itself out! It may be hard for me to do the 15-25 without a bike ride. SO! This week, I dream of a bike ride....Will have to work on making that happen....and soon!

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