Saturday, August 02, 2014
I am spending some time planning today & will update when I have it laid out. Things I want to keep in mind as I plan:
Do not do anything to set yourself up for failure-unreasonable expectations are no good.
Choose lifestyle choices that will replace those pesky old habits that have been rearing their head lately.
Trackable goals so I can measure my progress.
Have a short, mid range, and long term goal on paper.
I need a target!
This will be the framework for my goal setting today. I'm determined to make this a lifestyle...so no end date, just focus on life changing results for me and my little people...Life is good, I am blessed!
Here's my weekend: My nieces are here. I spent the day with them yesterday and brought them home for a sleepover. They are 10 yo twins. I just love em! Yesterday I spent a few hours with my 4 yo niece, she is just the sweetest! She crawled up on my tummy and said "Aunt Jenny's belly" and started snoring...she has stolen my for sure! I am so blessed to care for them so their mamma can rest and recover from her surgery.
We may spend some time baking cookies from scratch later, but for now I have dishes to do, laundry to fold, and planning/goal setting to accomplish! Then tonight I get to enjoy a 40th birthday celebration with a friend and go dancing at Boogie Nights (80's -90's music!). I am hoping its a night of laughing and fun. I need the down time. Its always hard to drag myself out of the house when I'm feeling blue! So even while I FEEL like staying home and hiding out, I am choosing to go and shine the light from Jesus that is inside me.
Choices....With God's grace, moment by moment life is happening and I choose to enjoy and appreciate all the God puts in front of me.
Have a fantastic weekend! (For me, Frog=Fully Rely On God)
Saturday, August 02, 2014
Well, the weekend is upon us! I am sooo sore today from the strength training I did the other night. I am used to doing functional workouts that involve my whole body. This workout was 5 lb weights and 55 reps, quick. It was tough keeping speed and form a priority. I was totally fatigued after 50 minutes. I don't know that I"ll do this kind of workout forever because it seems like a recipe for injury!
I don't regret the workout and I will likely do it again, it was fun to mix it up. I see the benefit in that! Boredom sets in when I do the same DVD over and over.
My week has been really off. I have been on call essentially. I'm so glad I am able to structure my week to help out and have rolled with it the best I can. Some of my plans have changed and my eating has been really off...all contributing to my feeling blue..My sister in law had surgery, my friend was in from TX visiting, my parents have been camping close by to also be available for my sweet brother & sister in law. The good news...Their kids are precious and I've enjoyed spending my day with them today.
The food choices I've made have taken a toll. My gut hurts. I feel dehydrated. My hands are cramped up and hurting. I had a very difficult time doing the strength training/holding those 5 lb weights the other day. My eating is NOT working for me.
Removing dairy, grain and sugar was working for me. Adding them back in...its hurting every part of me...emotional and physical.
Stress is contributing to my poor choices. I miss my hubs. He is working a lot. Its good but its bad. Our time is so short together. Its frustrating me. My go to behavior is to run, avoid, eat, hide and just be down and crabby.
Good thing I committed to NOT give up on myself! Many of the good habits I've cultivated are still here. I'm not making poor choices EVERY day. I'm not making poor choices ALL day. I'm working on the things that are causing me stress. I will get through this by looking at it straight on and facing it, hurt and all. Its part of life! Its OK to feel! I am going to enjoy the company I am blessed by, my kids, my nieces, my friend from TX, my friends I'm spending time with this weekend.
I'm off to pray folks. My heart is full of hope. Life is GOOD. I do love my life. Just feeling a little blue tonight....
Saturday, July 19, 2014
Eye of the Tiger is the song that was playing as I finished up my run this morning. I used it to ponder my next steps. Before I go int those, I'd like to ask for your help and advise.
I have struggled for the past few days to eat healthy. I've been drowning in potato chips and chocolate chips...I may have to boycott any food with the words chips in it--for eternity. They seem to be a major trigger food.
What I have learned this week from my nonsense binge: I have a hard time knowing what to do with my emotions. Why do I think I even HAVE to do anything with them? Why cant I live in harmony with them vs battling them? I need a new battle strategy at best, cramming food down my throat is NOT making the emotions disappear. Its creating more emotions, the negative kind....
Its a WAY better experience if I've been eating Paleo, something about sugar and grain...it gives me foggy brain (for real, I wish I was kidding lol). So this is step one, starting today I will be enjoying Paleo again. Its a happy medium for me from the strict anti-candida diet and so much better than eating the SAD (standard american diet) I used to revolve my day around. My mind is quieter in general when I'm fueling properly for my body. I do know this is different for everyone.
Running helps so I'll run every other day, do strength/full body work and core on the off days. Stretching and breathing. Quiet time to reflect on the day.
I still have yet to pick up my STRONGER study and get back into it. I will locate that this weekend and dedicate time for myself, alone each day, to get in touch with and take these feelings/emotions I don't know what to do with, to the Lord. He happens to know ALL. Why do I forget that sometimes....brain fog or pride?! Or people pleasing monster? He's been trying to work his way back in lately too.
Yikes!! Usually I delete the blogs I write like this one. This level of transparency makes me squirm. Please be kind with any advise you would have for me. I am looking for productive ways to live in harmony with my emotions....any advice? Prayer would be much appreciated as I walk through this valley. Thankfully I'm not alone!
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
Well, its been quite a struggle the past month! BUT I am on track now, 3 days and counting! It feels so much better to be in control than to eat with wild abandon and live with the guilt hangover!
I am eating whole, healthy food. Food undressed, in its original form (well I do COOK the food) but its not processed into something that resembles food but really has not benefit to the body. I'm enjoying it!
I had introduced dairy, gluten, sugar, coffee, grain back into my diet a month ago, its all gone again! I refuse to keep them hanging out when all they do make me sick. Not to mention add weight on. If something is not helping me meet my goals, its gotta go. Sugar and grain both seem to make me CRAVE food. It just seems easier to live my life without the constant fight to want to binge eat. I'm sticking to Paleo, whole food type diet for awhile. Why bother with anything else when I know what works for me, all the way around, mentally and physically.
My working out has been on again/off again. My weight has fluctuated by about 8 lbs. Not really happy about this fact, but its reality. I'm not giving up. Just learning as I go, I mean learning as I grow.
Growing in the Word has been slow. I am reading my bible daily but only a few verses. I am ready to dive back into a study! Until fall studies start, I'll jump back into the last study I started, but never finished.
New focus: For the rest of July, I'm focusing on the habits that have served me well:
Eat food that fills me up and keeps me from cravings and physical hurts: lots of greens, fruits/berries, organic meat whenever possible, fish, sweet potatoes, almond butter, pecans....all this yummyness and more!
Exercise: I will alternate running or walking with YOYOG workout DVD. Sworkit app is pretty great and the core workouts my chiro taught me. These all keep me injury free when I stretch daily.
Getting my house in order from the summer chaos and prepping for upcoming school year. We actually do school year around, taking off when we want to. It serves us quite well! However, the house gets cluttered, I get stuck on doing everything perfectly and then do nothing instead. Well, it seems that extreme but its really not that black and white. What I will do is a little each day. I am loving the Flylady website and Cozi calendar to keep me focused each day on a new task to finish. Its only day 3 and I am seeing progress. The kids are jumping in too!
Life is rolling along nicely! In a few short months we are going on our first week long family vacation ! I'm not kidding when I tell you my husband has not taken time off for a vacation in 12 years. Sad but true. THIS is our year! A week in Orlando FL!! Taking the kids and going to make some seriously great memories! Lots of firsts for them...first time on airplane, first time to ocean ! I'm very excited, as our the littles, as you can imagine!
I'm off now to get a run in along with some errands.....
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