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Touch and Go

Friday, March 14, 2014

Oh what a week it has been. I did so well last week and then the bottom pretty much fell right out from under me just when I had convinced myself that I was over it. It has been a week of eating bad and not exercising and not even really caring. I was having my own pretty nasty pity party. Till last night anyway. When I pretty much decided that I canít let what happened rule my life. Sadly it was touch and go for awhile there.

So now I am paying for it somewhat. I am really not feeling good at all today. Upset stomach and just feeling like crap. So, I am still not going to exercise today just going to get my eating back in line and start back tomorrow I hope.

Last night it was like a fog lifted. I started feeling somewhat normal again and woke up more clear in the head than I have been in almost 2 weeks. Not sure what changed, but I guess I finally decided enough was enough of feeling sorry for myself. So, back at it and hopefully feeling better this weekend.

  
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MOMMYOF2RN 3/15/2014 10:10AM

    Sometimes we hit rock botttom with our "healthy" endevours when our lives get out of whack and that's ok...trust me been there done that too many times to count, but whats important is that you realized that you were slipping, and have decided to get back on track. Good Luck and remember baby steps are just as helpful as giant steps! emoticon

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PIGGYWAY 3/14/2014 3:06PM

  GOOD FOR YOU REALING YOU NEED TO STOP [LOL]

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NYARAMULA 3/14/2014 12:25PM

    We all mess up sometimes. It's what you do when you realize you have messed up that makes you a winner - pick yourself up, dust yourself off and move on. The good thing is that this time you are armed with the knowledge of your triggers and you will see those triggers coming a mile away. emoticon

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REALLY_ROBIN 3/14/2014 11:51AM

  I'm glad you worked your way through it, dating is so very hard, actually relationships are hard. I think in the long run it pays to be our own best friends, even when we find the "one". Because no one can every completely understand us, but ourselves and the Lord. It's a work in progress, but the closer we get to it, I think the healthier we will be. Hope you are feeling better soon, and have a great weekend!

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Ready for the weekend

Friday, March 07, 2014

Finally Friday. It isnít so much a TGIF day as it is, just glad for the week to be over. It has been a roller coaster of a week that will end on a high note. I am getting in an 80 minute or so walk tonight after work. I took the bus in and walking home. Something I plan to do more often this summer, in addition to bussing and biking home. Then I will get cleaned up, wait for my son to get home with my car, then we will be off to Dave and Busterís with a friend so our kids can play and we can gripe about the relationships we both just ended badly. Lol

Then tomorrow is the gun show with my son. Maybe my youngest. She wants to learn how to shoot a bow and arrow. Thank you Hunger Games. Actually in talking with some people there is evidently a lot of scholarship money out there for girls who can shoot. So, I am starting to look into it for her. Not that the scholarships were the sole reason, I just know not a whole lot about shooting a bow and arrow and so canít teach much. I know in a lot of those sports technique is everything, and donít want to teach bad habits that she would then have to unlearn.

Then I think Sunday is sort of a relaxing day. Going to get some fish and bring them in to work for my aquarium here.

I was on the facebook page of an online and local bike shop. They had a picture of some cyclists and it said, ďwhen in doubt, pedal it outĒ I loved that so much. Nothing beats the feeling of being out on my bike and just letting the mind go. It is about the only time I can truly say my mind is at rest, or can just tune out the world. Other than the cars anyway.

Have a great weekend everyone!

  
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PIGGYWAY 3/8/2014 3:41PM

  DON`T STOP DOING WHAT YOU ARE DOING

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KA_JUN 3/7/2014 9:00PM

    ďwhen in doubt, pedal it outĒ- indeed!

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REALLY_ROBIN 3/7/2014 11:51AM

  I have it on good authority that girls tend to be very good shots! That's awesome she wants to do that. Great job on working everything through this week and for staying on plan! Hugs...Robin

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Close call last night.

Thursday, March 06, 2014

Well last night was a close call. Got off work and went to grab a bite to eat before the gym and read. Read my book and enjoyed a black bean burrito, then lost all interest in the gym. I just wanted to go home and curl up in bed, or go out and have a few drinks. But I went home.

And finally convinced myself that the gym was the better option. And so, I went to the gym and crushed 60 minutes on the bike. One part of the recumbent bike I love is the ability to pick a heart rate and let the bike adjust the tension to keep your heart rate there. This also allows you to see how you progress with the graphics with the light bars. I remember when I first started and even not long ago, to keep it at my target heart rate it would bounce up to 3 bars across the screen but wouldnít stay there long before it dropped to 2 bars. Last night it made it up to 5 bars before I finally reached the target and the finally level off at 3 bars. Just curious, I switched over to manual mode at 45 minutes and figured out I had been consistently pedaling on level 14. Actually then I bumped it to 15 for the last 15 minutes and the heart rate didnít go up much. So I figure that I was probably bouncing between 14 and 15 most of the ride. The darn bike only goes to level 25. I realize that is pretty far off, and I have pedaled at level 25 for short bursts, but dang, it felt good to see how I was doing.

So, it felt good to push through last night and complete it. I could have skipped since I have been working out for like 9 days straight at this point. But it wasnít a complete rest day. It should have been easier than it was in the end, but I needed the work, more mentally than physically. I needed to work off some of the frustration.

So it is shaping up to actually be a spring weekend for us. Going to hit 50 tomorrow they say, so I am going to really get some work in and walk home from work. It is nice since it is only 5.4 miles. Last fall I did it in 80 minutes. Letís see where I am now. I am so ready for spring and warmer temps. I think the world is ready for spring and warmer temps. My desire got even worse last night as I watch the Redís spring training game. I canít wait for opening day and the coming summer.

Lost another pound today. The weight is starting to come off easily again. Which is always nice. I think I am firmly back in the zone concerning the healthy eating and exercising. It is nice to be planted back there.

Finally planning to go to a gun show this weekend. I donít plan to buy anything but it will be interesting to see what is out there. A good knife for camping may be in order though since I broke one on each of my last 2 camping trips. Sort of odd since I hadnít broken on in quite awhile.
Well, have a great day everyone. Mine is full of sun and hopefully some thawing.

  
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KA_JUN 3/7/2014 8:19PM

    Good job pushing through! It's so weird to hear that little voice that says, "Nah, you don't feel like it." when afterwards, you always feel better and wonder why you hear that voice in the first place. Well done!

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MAW_OH 3/7/2014 10:00AM

    Thank you and have a great weekend!

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PIGGYWAY 3/6/2014 5:09PM

  I`M GLAD YOU CHANGED YOUR MINE

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TANJAT88 3/6/2014 10:45AM

    I love it!!! It can be SO hard to push through when your mind is singing "you know you wanna skip it"... It is great to hear it was so rewarding in the end. This motivated me to make sure I 'get 'er done' today :)

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MOMMYOF2RN 3/6/2014 10:34AM

    Great job, I had the same problem last night after work. i went home and just layed in bed for over a hour, tried to convince myself I had a million reasons why Ishould just stay there. BUT I got up ran my 2 miles and done my T25, and I even tried running for a straight mile and made it 0.96 with a speed of 10.10 min/mile.....very happy about that, keep up the great work!

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SEATTLE58 3/6/2014 10:31AM

    emoticonThat's so good to have such a good feeling when exercising. That will help you soar! emoticon on the weight loss!! emoticon

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AUNTRENEE 3/6/2014 9:38AM

    Sounds like a great workout. Congrads on the weight lost.

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Almost a runner

Wednesday, March 05, 2014

Girls have cooties and are yucky. Ok, got that out of my system. Not really, but it helps.

Now that I am a day or 2 removed things are getting better. I actually slept a full night last night with nothing running through my mind. Well it did for a little bit before I went to sleep. But I have made plans for pretty much every day this week until next Monday so I will be keeping myself occupied and on the go. Mainly the plans are to hit the gym, but that is a good use of the time. Friday I am meeting an old friend for dinner with our kids. Let them play games at Dave and Busterís and have a few beers and we will catch up.

So, on to better topics. I am almost a runner. I know what you will say, if you can run any distance you are a runner. I, myself have always put the qualification that to be a runner, you need to be able to run a mile without stopping. So, I have been working on becoming a runner in my mind. Last night I ran for 10 minutes on the treadmill. Not just once, but twice at a 5.4 mph pace. Which translates to an 11:06 minute mile. No speed records there I know. So, while I have not quite made the one mile mark at one go, I am pretty dang close. But I did 3.1 miles in 40 minutes. So that has me feeling pretty dang good about how I am doing. Not quite there, but almost. Mainly I am not there since I am trying to do this gradually and take my time about it. It will come. And not far off.

Thanks for all the support over the last few days. It is much appreciated and has me feeling much better about things.

  
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SAABSTORY 3/6/2014 12:14PM

    Thanks. I know I am a runner. It may not be a fast pace, but the fact is I can almost run a mile. Actually, I know I could run that mile plus some. I didn't stop so other than that I am trying to work up to longer stretches and I wanted 2 ten minute stretches in there instead of going until I had to stop. Trying to do this the way that will keep me at it for a long time.

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MJREIMERS 3/5/2014 9:04PM

    I will disagree with you! If you are running that fast for any distance and/or are running for 40 minutes, then you are a runner. It took me a while to accept that I am a runner, but I am. From one runner to another, you do, you are and keep running!

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MOMMYOF2RN 3/5/2014 5:44PM

    I am an almost runner too! Keep up the hard work. I Don't think I'll ever break any speed records but I still love the exhilarating feeling of completing a race or of beating my own personal best!

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SAABSTORY 3/5/2014 12:19PM

    Love that Robin. I hope the PF clears up for you. I have always had foot problems, but am taking it slow enough so far that it isn't bothering me.

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REALLY_ROBIN 3/5/2014 11:44AM

  I covet your almost a runner status. This PF has me sidelined on that for a while...but I will get back to it when it's time. You are working through this remarkably well, and truly it is her loss. In time you realize not all of us have cooties....just the one's you shouldn't be with! :) Hugs...Robin

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PIGGYWAY 3/5/2014 11:26AM

  GOOD FOR YOU

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KRICKET57 3/5/2014 10:33AM

    Way to go! You are doing great. Keep up the good work. For me, I think I will always be "almost a runner." I will complete the runs on my time, without hurting myself but I will still do them. I will never break speed records or anything, but will always be proud that I can complete a 10K or 1/2 marathon.

Whatever your goals, keep going. Nothing beats the feeling of accomplishment when you cross that finish line, be it in a race or on your treadmill. When you reach that goal, you are "King of the World"

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Silver linings.

Tuesday, March 04, 2014

Ah well, no more clarity today after having the long talk with the now latest ex-girlfriend last night. I have to say, it was creative. It is amazing how people rationalize their behavior. I want to break up, you are too great a guy and I donít want to hurt you later. So here, let me hurt you now instead. I was tempted to go outside and get some salt from the streets she could use on the wound, but I refrained.

I am not going to let this affect my diet or exercise. It did affect it last night. I freaking killed my legs on a hill workout on the recumbent at the gym. And tonight I will work the treadmill. Usually I like the time on the bike since I can let my mind drift. Now, my mind drifting is not a good thing. Thank goodness for friends who can build you back up. I am obviously not doing something right. Not in a bad, I suck and am a horrible person sort of way. But more in a I need to make better choices sort of way. The saddest part is, there was drama with this person, but it wasnít drama with her and i. It was outside drama. I felt happy and comfortable with her. Safe. I hadnít felt that with someone recently.

I know someone is out there for me. Or at least I hope so. I had a good cry, and another may be in my near future. But I am going to move on and be stronger for it. On a positive note, I had ordered flowers to be delivered on her last day before transferring to another job at work and they called on the order and I was able to cancel it. So, I didnít lose out there like I thought I might.

On a positive note, I am fitting in some shirts I had outgrown in the fall. The weight is coming back off and who knows, I might be working it extra hard for a few days to burn off the frustration. Always a silver lining right?

  
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MOMMYOF2RN 3/4/2014 5:56PM

    Aww i hate to hear that, I think you are handling things in a positive way though! Instead of eating or quitting on the exercise you are taking the frustrations out in the gym..which may result on extra weight loss so thats a positive right? I would try to console you by saying theres someone out there for everyone but I hate it when people say that to me. But instead embrace being single..it's really not that bad! Keep up the hard work! emoticon

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SAABSTORY 3/4/2014 3:47PM

    Thanks for the comments. Robin, very good point.

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REALLY_ROBIN 3/4/2014 11:43AM

  I think you are handling things great...taking out your frustrations at the gym is awesome! Remember you are looking for someone with a heart of gold...and she wasn't it! Ba Bye and NEXT! Hugs....Robin

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GARDENCHRIS 3/4/2014 10:25AM

    Sound like a nice guy..... these girls are just to shallow to appreciate it.... be thankful you found out before you really commited..... there IS someone for you!

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PIGGYWAY 3/4/2014 9:42AM

  I understand how you feel

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