Wednesday, December 04, 2013
I've been trying to lose weight since July of 2012. I did really well for a while, but not long after I made my decision, my mother was hospitalized after four strokes and an ultimate diagnosis of ESRF (End Stage Renal Failure), and I spent two weeks essentially living in the hospital with her, eating surprisingly unhealthy food from the hospital cafeteria and sitting on the couch in her room, reading and waiting all day. I was emotional and unmotivated and worried and unwilling to do what it took to stay healthy, even when my reason for getting healthy was right in front of my face.
My dad and I decided to tackle the pursuit of healthy living together in January of this year when we both signed up for Nutrisystem. It was wonderful! With a set of guidelines and pre-packaged foods to get us on track, we both flourished under the program. After losing nearly 35 pounds, I decided to wean myself off the foods, thinking I was ready to tackle my weight loss journey on my own. I wasn't prepared, though, and ultimately ended up gaining back 15 pounds.
It's been an on-and-off struggle since then, dealing with emotional eating and bored eating and eating just because I could just start my diet again "tomorrow". Ironically, I decided the day before Thanksgiving that I was done playing around. It never was about "dieting"--it was about changing my life. It was about getting healthy and staying that way.
I'm travelling to London with a friend next June--a lifelong dream of mine--and it's become my inspiration. I aim to be at my goal weight before this trip. I'll be doing quite a bit of walking, I'm sure, and seeing a city I've long admired at the peak of my health (and, inevitably, in super cute new clothes) will make the experience even better.