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Friday, April 18, 2014

Yes, yesterday was a bit of a downer. Guess who came to visit me!?!

Yesterdays blog was just a brief summary of a lot of feelings from over the past few years. Thank you all for your comments and well wishes.

Am down another pound today, squeezed in another 30 minutes on the bike after I got home from work yesterday.

I guess my "mini" goal is still a bit big in a lot of people's eyes. 25 pounds. As a BIG woman I know the first 4-5 would come off easy as most of it is water weight. Im down 7 so now I know I am working for it.

Now I must go work for it some more, then off to work. Everyone have a wonderful weekend and Happy Easter. Maybe I can talk my hubs into taking me out Sunday.

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SWEETNEEY 4/18/2014 7:38AM

    emoticon on your weight loss

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DMEYER4 4/18/2014 6:25AM

  keep up the good work, congrats on your weight loss. Happy Easter emoticon

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my sob story

Thursday, April 17, 2014

Still trying to keep the main focus on the smaller goal, yet my mind still slips into looking to far into this and what if I just lose one more pound here, or lose 3 pounds a week instead of 2...or this, or that, ya know?

I just want to be happy and CONTENT with a loss and reach a goal. I have not set a time limit on it. I just want to reach it.

Emotional week for me this past week. Crying over stuff. I wish I were a stronger and more confident person. I wish I were someone that could be a leader instead of a follower.

Easter is almost here. It wont amount to much in this house. My son is in the Army and is out in Kansas (Ohio here). My daughter is splitting her time between her dad's and her boyfriends and I MIGHT get to see her and my granddaughter sometime Sunday night, big woop. I probably wont, or it will be nearly bedtime.

My parents are both gone, they made a big deal about family Easter dinner. Just sort of depressing.

My husband said something about going to his brothers, which I don't really want to do. I am tired of every family get together being about his family that Id just rather be alone and probably cry over not having any family. Childish? Now that's a whole other issue. lol.

On the upside. 45 minutes on my bike this morning. Have to get ready for work in a little bit. Water *check*.

ho hum.

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IRONBESS 4/18/2014 1:45AM

    I'm sorry you're feeling blue. It's okay to have times when you miss the old days (I miss some too), but don't let them take over. Think instead of creating new memories or different traditions rather than dwelling on those past. A lot of my family has passed on, and our son and other family live in other states. It took a little getting used to, but we've adapted to the changes by celebrating near holidays, sometimes as much as several weeks before or after. We do it up as big as if it were on the actual day. It's the spirit and being together that make it special, not the date on the calendar.

Kudos to you for riding your bike 45 minutes. That shows strength, perseverance and determination. You are awesome! Setting small goals for weight loss seems a good idea too. When the weight loss ticker is set for 5 or 10 lbs as a goal, a 1- or 2-pound weight loss moves the marker quite a bit further on the ticker. I think that helps psychologically. A mini-goal seems more attainable and not so daunting. As they say, baby steps!

Hope you feel better soon. If not, please follow up with a doctor for a good physical exam and possibly consider counseling. Our emotions are as deserving of care as our bodies are. Take care of you.

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TSERANDOS 4/17/2014 11:22AM

I don't get that you would rather be alone than with your inlaws. I have lost my sister and my parents, I jump at the chance to spend time with any of my husband's family.
I hope this Easter you can look at all that is wonderful in your life and focus on the positives, that will make you the stronger person you want to be.


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GARDENCHRIS 4/17/2014 9:42AM

    I to have a very small family... i understand.. just do what you need to do for yourself. go out to dinner enjoy the time with your hubs, take a walk, enjoy the glorious spring day. do something fun... you ARE a strong capable woman! emoticon

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MARION-S 4/17/2014 8:40AM

    It's a fact that life changes over the years.
Easter is a time of miracles , of rebirth. Only you can make your like better. Celebrate & be grateful for what you have and more blessings will come your way. emoticon

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On my way.

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Doing things a little differently this time. Reaching towards small goals at a time instead of the bigger picture. Hopefully I will have more success than I have had in the last couple of years.

First goal is 25 pounds. Losing water weight has got me well on my way with a 4 pound loss over night. Hey, I will take it!

Back to work today after 4 days off. ugg!

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MARION-S 4/16/2014 5:17PM

    Baby steps, one step at a time emoticon

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Shouldnt I be able to meet a goal?

Monday, April 14, 2014

My accomplishment today was deciding to weigh myself and begin AGAIN.

345 is not where I want to be. I set a much smaller goal this time. I am terrible at the whole goal setter thing. I have not met one yet. When I began I just lost what I lost, and the end result was so far into my future that I didn't dwell on it. I really need to set a goal and meet it, for ME. To prove that I can do it. I should be able to do that shouldn't I?

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ALIHIKES 4/14/2014 11:08AM

    I like what the local Hospital is doing: they are giving rewards based on meeting smaller goals. Lose 5% of your weight within one year; lower cholesterol by 5 points; exercise 10 minutes a day (minimum) regularly. That's what I'm trying to do; it's less overwhelming than trying to set the whole huge goal.

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.DUSTY. 4/14/2014 10:51AM

    I agree with Bob. There are many, many small / short term and/or daily goals we can set for ourselves that will build our self confidence.

To me losing weight is a "long term goal". Use SparkPeople's Search and type in goals. You'll find lots of information that will get you on the right track.

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RHOOK20047 4/14/2014 9:26AM

    You should make your goals attainable, and attainable in a reasonable timeframe. Yes I have a long term goal of losing another 100 lbs. but what I do is make small goals of losing 5 or 10% of my weight. I started at 387 and now am at 317. I started with losing 5% which was 19 lbs. When I did this, I repeated it and then realized that I not only lost 38 lbs, but I lost 10% of my body weight. Then I make non scale goals. Worked to get my water consumption up. Started with 4 glasses of water then 6 glasses. Would take one walk around the block, until I now walk about 1 mile daily. But make small attainable goals and your successes will mount up! You can do it!

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EVIE4NOW 4/14/2014 9:17AM

  I too have a problem with the goals. I am not a consistent person (I think by nature or birth or something lol) and have a tendency to procrastinate or go all out. Amazes me at my age how flighty I can still be.

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DIANITAH 4/14/2014 9:16AM

    I try to have a mix of goals.

For me my goals include,
Eating 5-6 veggies/fruit per day
8 glasses of water

Then I have a longer term goal of 10 pounds by the end of May.

Little, simple daily goals and then longer, harder goals.

It helps me to not get discouraged if the scale doesn't move the way I want. I know that I'm still doing positive things towards the bigger goal.

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feel the frustration

Tuesday, April 01, 2014

Tuesday and back to work today after 3 days off.

Looking at my spark page I restarted Jan 22 at 342. Today I am 340. Not a lot of progress is it?

I am really beginning to think I have a thyroid issue or something. When I first began this back in 2010 it was LOTS easier to do this. At 414 pounds in 2010 I began and continued to lose until I hit the 310-320 mark and then I stalled. FOR 2 YEARS. It's when I began inching back up that I took myself in check and now I am struggling to find the right formula again.

Maybe Im just out of my groove or my meal planning sucks, I don't know but it's frustrating.

My calories are all over the place. Some days I am low and then other days high. MOST days I never go over what it says I can have, yet if I go over 300 calories I gain 4 pounds.

I know it's just math. Calories in versus calories out, and not just on a daily intake...but it should all even out somewhere, shouldn't it?

Feel my anxiety! :) Trying to stay positive. Getting ready to get on the bike, getting ready to double my total weight loss :)

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MARION-S 4/7/2014 7:55AM

    Hello Sandy emoticon

I would diet and diet and get no where. I thought there was something wrong with me. Then I decided to see a registered dietician and found that I was insulin resistant. Once I started following my new plan I lost 20 pounds in 3 months (without exercise). A friend at work who weighed close to 300 pounds also saw a dietician (ordered by her MD) and followed the same plan. She has lost 55 pounds so far.
Many insurance companies cover visits to RDs. I recommend it to everyone.

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THROOPER62 4/3/2014 6:12PM

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MOODYKEYS 4/1/2014 12:25PM

    I understand the frustration. I joined the new eating habit on jan. 1 2014. the I joined spark people march 10th. I started out 232 pounds and 2 months in I lost 12 pounds. I said well not too bad, a little at a time is better than none. the I was having my blood pressure checked every week for 3 weeks just to find out I gained 4 pounds back. I haven't changed how I was eating from the beginning but for some reason I gained. luckily I did not give up this time with lots of encouragement from folks on sparks. don't give up if we are doing the right thing then sooner or later it will show. or at least I hope. lol. keep trying we can do this.

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COSMIC 4/1/2014 9:51AM

I feel your pain...I have been stuck at the same weight for a few months....I eat really well (most of the time) issue is that there is always something that comes up so that I don't do my workouts....I am going to try and get back into the working out is the first of the month...going to give myself 30 days of clean living and workout daily....only 30 minutes but it should get the scale moving in the direction that I want it to.
I eating only whole real food...only processed food is greek yogurt.
I know Sandy that you too can get yourself back on track and get the scale going in the direction that you want it to go.....lets start today....together :) emoticon

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