Saturday, May 10, 2014
This is just stupid and inexplicable, but after ten days of landscaping six hours a day, drinking tons of water, eating salads and very little else, Ive gained seven pounds. I don't understand how this is possible, but it's same scale, same place, same everything except amount of fat I'm lugging around. It's not muscle and it's not water retention - I've played those mind games before.
So I'm bagging the whole SP thing for a little while. I'm extremely busy anyway, what with spring clean-ups during the week and elder care on weekends, but it's mostly that I don't see how I can support other people when I'm such an apparently dismal failure myself.
I'm not quitting entirely, but I've got to take stock of what's going on here.
Not feeling very competent at writing at the moment either, so you may choose the closing line:
1) Gen. Douglas MacArthur: "I shall return"
2) Arnold Schwarzenegger, The Terminator: "I'll be back"
Monday, April 21, 2014
My daughter, who is 23 years old, informed me this morning that she is building something called a cafe racer -apparently some sort of small, fast motorcycle. I was horrified, but that's beside the point. When I asked her (repeatedly) why she'd do something like that when surely there were other things yadayadayada, her reply was that it was on her Bucket List.
Ever since that annoyingly depressing movie came out, everyone I know has constructed a bucket list. So I thought I'd come up with my own.
The only thing I can think of is "get all the laundry washed, folded and put away." Maybe "organize the holiday decorations." Not thinking big enough? All right, how about "get all four sides of the house painted at the same time"?
I've had accomplishments in mind over the years. Once I decided to read the Bible from cover to cover, but bogged down somewhere in Leviticus. I did better with the dictionary, but kept getting off track by their, "See thus and so" instructions, so I never finished that either. There's no point in reading the encyclopedia (yes, children, I still have a set) because most of the information in it is no longer relevant and all the countries in Africa keep changing.
People have "Travel!" on their bucket lists. I've been from Newfoundland to Key West, although for some reason I've never been west of Cleveland. I've thought about wanting to drive across the country, but so much of it is flatness and corn and dirt and rocks...I mean, why would anyone want to drive across Iowa or Texas? So you can get to the other side of the country and meet people who are just like the ones you know at home, only tanner?
I used to want to take a cruise somewhere, but I developed an ear thing and now get seasick really easily (I used to be virtually immune to motion sickness) so now a cruise sounds like spending three days feeling dreadful so I can get to a place where rum is $50 a bottle.
I've done lots of outdoorsy stuff, driven a ton of miles, met plenty of semi- and for real famous people, eaten exotic food, learned a foreign language, written books, driven cars really fast, painted (very mediocre) paintings, completed 1000 piece jigsaw puzzles. Am I really that boring that I can't come up with any Must See or Must Do things? Heck, they don't even have to be legal - I'm flexible.
Sure, I suppose Nepal would be interesting, but the chances of successfully arranging (and paying for) a trip there are pretty far-fetched, and composing a Bucket List of things I'll likely never be able to do sounds pretty depressing and self-defeating.
How do you feel about Bucket Lists? Do you have one? And if you have any suggestions for me by all means, let's hear them (and remember, SP won't let you post naughty words.)
Monday, April 14, 2014
Apparently some folks are concerned that seeing a "blood moon"means the earth is going to end or something like that.While I have complete respect to anyone and everyone's religious beliefs, this time science can come to the rescue.
There is a full lunar eclipse tonight. This means that the moon, the Earth and the Sun are all lined up with the Earth in the middle - the moon is in the Earth's umbra, or shadow. The moon isn't completely invisible though - because of the angle at which the light from the sun passes through the Earth's atmosphere, the moon appears reddish. This is where the name "blood moon"comes from. There will be another total lunar eclipse sometime this autumn - I forget exactly when. There are between two and five lunar eclipses each year, although not all of them are full eclipses.
Sometimes the full moon in October is called the Blood Moon. This, like another traditional name, the Hunters Moon, is referring to the fact that October is when animals were slain to prepare for the long winter ahead.
Tuesday, April 01, 2014
- Well, the first one is to walk 10,000 steps per day, although I recognize that the way my life goes I'm more likely to have 20,000 step days mixed in with 2,000 step days. If I get 50K or 60K in a week, I'll be happy.
- The second is to track the food, no matter what. I can do that for a month.
- The third, and final, is to do the Exercise of the Day, or some variation thereof.
I thought about making a big workout schedule, but I really can't - we all know I'm not going to lift on the same day that I split wood (and wood is weather dependent) or do other heavy-duty farm or landscaping jobs. I'd like to swear that I'll do yoga four times a week, but I may or I may not achieve that, and I refuse to promise things I doubt I'll fulfill.
I thought about resolving to eat clean, but again, we all know that one day I'll be on my way home from a really long day and I'll limp into a Subway for a Veggie Delight, which we also know I'll probably wash down with beer.
And there are a bunch more monthly goals that I haven't even mentioned because they have nothing to do, really, with eating and exercising. Goals that have to do with artistic aspirations and personal improvement of a more subtle variety.
I'd love to be all righteous and make loads of promises, but somewhere along the line I've gotten a little more realistic. Maybe this is setting myself up to fail, giving myself excuses - we'll just have to see how it works out.
Monthly goals seem a lot like New Year's Resolutions - all full of bright promise and all out the window in a week or so. I decided to only set as goals the absolute minimum - really, just to do my best every day - and then, in 30 days, see where I stand. And if that doesn't work, I'll try something else.
So far today I've done the Exercise of the Day and gotten a little better than half the steps. Hey, it's a start.
Sunday, March 30, 2014
I'm another year older (59, God help us all), and probably no wiser, but still in there swinging.
I'd lost a few pounds with the Winter 5% Challenge, but choked towards the end for reasons not entirely clear to me. Honestly, I think I was (and am) just so sick of being cold. I know it sounds like an excuse, but I think it might actually be a reason - it was simply too cold to stand in my kitchen (where no refrigeration is necessary, thank you) and cook healthy meals, so I opted for grabbing whatever was at hand and making do with it. Often these things were fine in and of themselves, but were never meant to be a "complete diet" - like innocent pizzas made on na'an with healthy ingredients.
Okay, washing them down with dirty martinis is my fault. 'Nuff said.
I did discover something that put a bit of the fear of God into me - I did a sort of deep-knee bend (lower shelf at the library) and couldn't immediately stand back up. I don't remember this happening before, and it kind of shook me up. My weight isn't different, but apparently my fitness has been going somewhere in a handbasket since the last time I paid attention.
Still, I haven't given up on this quest for renewed health. All it really means to me is that I have to get serious if I want success. I've hit that same place in other fronts of late, too. I sold my beloved pick-up truck, because I needed the money, yes, but more because I want to move on from that spot in my life. I've given up my post office box (in favor of home delivery) for the same reason - too much of my energy is stuck in the past. If I want to be a successful writer - whatever that means - I've got to write more. If I'm going to farm, I ought to be greasing the tractor and mentally laying out plots of land.
I don't really know how to deal with inertia. Tragedy, drama, sure - all those things I've got down to a science, but this treading water thing is new. I'm not drowning, but I'm not going anywhere either. I have to get unstuck somehow. I suspect that the way to do that is the same way you do anything else difficult - you just do it. (And, we hope, without so many mixed metaphors. Forgive me - I've been up late watching basketball.)
Spring is a time of renewal, and I'm going to focus on listening to Spirit for whatever guidance I can get from that source, but at the same time, I'm going to move my feet - specifically, 10,000 steps per day. I got a new FitBit (a Flex this time, having lost 3 or 4 Ones) and I'm ready to use it. If that has me walking in place in my living room for half the night, then so be it.
So, the plows are still going up and down the road, and it's very windy up here on the hill. But Spring is also a state of mind, a turn of The Wheel more than the turn of a calendar page, and I/m ready to renew my efforts.
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