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Thursday, May 01, 2014

To tell you (and myself) the truth, lately I've been doing really bad.

I don't want to admit this, talk about it, write about it or even think about it. But yes, I feel down, depressed,completely stuck in a place I don't want to be.

Nobody likes negative thinking so I don't share it with anyone.But lately I think that not sharing has caused even more negative thoughts.

I don't deal well with big changes, stress, worrying about my close ones, and last few years have been filled with all that. Trying to find a job, then when I find it, hoping it would last more than a few weeks. My mum's surgery, problems with babysitters for my daughter, and now the day care centre..

In September I got a job in the local school (substitute teacher) and it's been crazy. Stress is killing me. Health has been last on my list, because I don't have time to think about it. Instead of losing weight I've been gaining and losing the same 5 pounds all over and over again.

Stress becomes unbearable so I eat junk food, I often don't have time to cook, so I eat junk food, I come home at 8 pm and I just don't have energy to cook so I eat junk food. The only exercise I do is walking.

I have no idea how much longer I'll be working, maybe till July, maybe longer. That's also making me anxious. I'm not sure what to think about it. Maybe it would be a good thing to stop working there, but, then comes the job hunt, again...

I want to find the positive in everything and I'm trying hard to find time for my family, but in all that mess, my health suffers.
With all that, I just don't know how to stop eating so much and how to find will and time to exercise. I really lost my confidence and motivation.

  
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LADYBUG546 5/2/2014 1:54PM

    Sorry that you are struggling...I was having one of those weeks too this week. Got a good nights sleep and I feel back on track and focused with a plan of action for the weekend to help me get through....Try breaking down and a plan and reworking it. Good luck thinking of you

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PRINCESSJESSICA 5/1/2014 10:14PM

    Oh, Selina, I'm so sorry that you're having such a rough time right now. It happens to the best of us. The important part is that even if you feel like you're not making progress, you keep trying. Just do your best to change one small habit at a time and all of the little things will eventually start to add up. I know its hard to keep trying and you can easily get discouraged when you have so much going on in your life, but I know you can do this. You have to make yourself a priority or you won't be able to deal with anything else. It's difficult and something that I struggle with on a daily basis, but taking the time to take care of you is so important. Hang in there girly! I love ya and I know it will get better!

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DIANEDOESSMILES 5/1/2014 4:21PM

    HI Selina hon !!

I am SO PROUD Of you for FACING this HEAD ON !!

Its GREAT that ur ADMITTING what has been going on. This shows that it's bothering you , that will be UR MOTIVATION, as long as YOU ALLOW IT. If you continue to be NOT active in taking action,,, it'll only eat away at you,, which is when we EAT AWAY. it has ZERO benefits (today my day is GREAT, and yet,, hon, I found myself eating MINDLESSLY and at 9 !! NINE Pieces of CANDY !! HIGH cals !! OH NO !! I'll hAVE to exercise for 3 hrs to make UP for it !)

How about with ur schedule,, in the AM,, instead of stopping (or having at home ready) a muffin, etc, Mc D's egg Mc muff,,,, when you go shopping pick up something fast you can GRAB with us (or put into ur purse the night b4) a protein bar (watch the cals though, for some are EXTREMELY HIGH !),,,, or if you have 3 mins in the AM,, make a HEALTY smoothie,, and just pour water into the food processor, (blender, bullet which ever you chose to use) so when you come home,, all you pretty much need to do that is just RINSE iT OUT or it'll take you LESS than 1 1/2 min to clean. (I KNOW I DO THIS ALL THE TIME !).

For lunch instead of stopping in the school caff,, for a bag of chips,, cookies,,, a piece of pizza, etc,,, you instead bring a yogurt with you and a couple pieces of fruit which you can SHOVe down QUICKLY !! FASTlY !!

Also on the weekends,,, when you shop,, IF you have the time,, buy things of which you can put in the fridge the night before,, chopped,,, or do as I do get frozen which are already chopped ) ! Use the Crock pot,, and do a QUICK MEAL ,,,,, it can cook during the day time,, and thus AVOID stopping at a fast food place to get food "in a hurry" which when I was small my Mom who worked THREE jobs did. She also learned that we LOVED a HEALTY breakfast for SUPPER !! YUMMY !!! its fast and QUICK,,, eggs, turkey bacon, and whole wheat (or rye , pumpernickel) bread? With OJ and milki,, VERY GOOD for ya !!

On SPARKS they have a ZILLION Recipes of cooking for UNDER 15 mins,, and considering the amount of time it takes to go thru a fast food place,, urs will taste MUCH ABETTER !! YUMMY !!!! Ur fam will Be SHOCKED and yet ALSO LOVE you for it,, than you ALSO take some to WORK, to just ZAP in 2 mins, and eat in less than 5 mins,, if you are QUICK !! I've had to be in the past,,, it's DOABLE.

As for ur exercise,,, are you out on the play ground with the kids? (not sure which grades you teach)? If so walk around some !! Can also park ur car a few streets over,, and than that'll give you some a little (5 mins?) time to add onto the exer, but the REAL BENefIT (I diD ThiS when I worked for the city,, NIGHTMARE FROM #*@8 JOB !! WELFARE OFFICE and ALSO Excise TAXeS !! I had so MANY get VERY ANGRY at me,,, ) believe me,, I NEEDED that 5 min walk to CLEAR my MIND and get REAdy for it,,, same with when going home,,, I NEEDED that PRECIOUS little time to RELAX and CLEAR my mind b4 getting into city traffic,, which was HORRENDOUS,, IF I DID NOT hit the DRAW BRIDGe between our 2 cities,, UGHERS !! when I DID hit the draw bridge,,I'd do QUITE A WORK OUT cleaning,, my car,, with MANY HARD stretches to have it COUNT !)

After supper,, instead of the TV,,,what PRECIOUS time you have for it,, why not grab a fam member,,, and do some ONE ON ONE time,,, it's sooo much fun for ou both !!! if you yave a child in a spot and are able to attend,, instead of sitting and watching,, how about getting UP and walking around the area?

HOPE these help,, if NOT let us know,,, and one of us leaders, or ALL of us,, WILL come to ur aid !! there's SO MUCH MORE which can be done !"


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RAYLINSTEPHENS 5/1/2014 4:10PM

    praying for you today emoticon

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MARYANNSQUEST 5/1/2014 3:07PM

    Selina,

Donna, said everything so well! Your courage to write and share with us is a step to helping you. We all are here for you. I love her advice about taking a deep breath! I too need to do that! We are here for you Selina, holding your hand, praying, plus placing you in our heart. We will be here to catch you if you fall.
emoticon emoticon together!!
Maryann (aka Roodles)

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DBEAU57 5/1/2014 12:54PM

    emoticon
You are in a hard place and I thank you for having the courage to share it with us. I know so well the struggles you're facing while substitute teaching. I was a teacher for 25 years, and those were the most difficult in terms of taking care of me. You have to give so much to the kids you work with, and then you have family at home to take care of, and there are all these responsibilities, and where is there time for YOU?

Take a deep breath. Even if all you have time for is to do some stretching and deep breathing, you are doing wonders for your body. You are alleviating stress and bringing down your blood pressure. You are increasing the dopamine and serotonin that are so important to mood and sleep. You are lengthening the fibers of your muscles and relieving strain. You may even find yourself smiling when you finish!

Know that we are here for you, holding on tight to your hand, ready to catch you if you fall.

Hang in there! emoticon

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RUNNING-TURTLE 5/1/2014 11:32AM

    emoticon sorry things have been so rough for you. wishing it will all get better for you. remember we are all here rooting the best for you and your family.

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2014 hopes and plans

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

- survive this stressful job for 1 more year (substitute teacher)

- find more time for my family (especially my 2-year-old daughter)

- find time for exercising during the busy day

- walk to work as often as possible

- beat stress and depression

- survive till the summer break and have a marvelous summer vacation

- try to see the positive side of things, and not beat myself up if I fail

- cook and eat healthier food more often (apples, cabbage ...)

- be more involved in SP community

.. and many more ...

  
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MARYANNSQUEST 12/31/2013 5:09PM

    Love all your hopes and plans of 2014 emoticon
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Maryann

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1HAPPYSPIRIT 12/31/2013 3:04PM

    emoticon emoticon

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PERUSER918 12/31/2013 10:18AM

    These are all good plans. It is important to make plans instead of just winging it. Good for you.

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DRLMAZ 12/31/2013 10:18AM

  You can do it

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Losing weight in stressful times?

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

It's Week 3 of the Summer 5% Challenge.

Up until now I've been happy with my progress and met goals.

However, since Saturday and the wedding I went to, I started to slack and eat after 7 again. It's been 3 days and I'm working on putting a stop to this, but it's not easy.

Why now, you may ask.
Well, school starts on September 2nd here. As an unemployed teacher in Croatia, I have to look for any job openings at the beginning of the new school year. The unemployment rate in my region is very high, and there aren't enough job openings as there are unemployed teachers.

This same day last year I applied for the first job for that school year, which ended up to be just one out of numerous applications I sent in the past year. I was lucky enough to finally find a substitute job in February at my last work place, but I worked for only 2 weeks, and then 2 weeks nothing, then I worked again for 8 weeks, then nothing, and again for 2 weeks in May. All in all, at least there was something.

But, the time of looking for the job is very stressful and long, as many of you know I'm sure, and in stressful times, it gets so hard to stay focus on eating right. I have problem finding motivation to exercise, and I don't want to gain more weight.

My husband has been very supportive but he can't do the exercises or go through this instead of me.
Somehow, I must force myself into taking care of my body.

  
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MOM_TO_AKI 8/15/2013 4:52AM

    I find the best stress relive in workout and highly recommend you try to do as much walking ore other cardio workout as you can. It gets you mind of your worrie and relives endorphin for you body to feel better.

I hope you get positive reply from some schoolīs soon. It most be a plus for you that you got few substitute jobīs last winter, that is good to have on your resume.

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JUNIORGOLDEN 8/14/2013 8:41AM

    My husband has been unemployed for the whole year and I totally understand the stress it brings to our daily life emotionally and financially. I highly recommend you to read the blog from MANDELOVICH, "Ditching Diets in Difficult Times" as her husband is battling with cancer in his last days.

http://www.sparkpeople.com/
mypage_public_journal_individua
l.asp?blog_id=5427156

My prayers and thoughts are with you. Stay strong and know that "This too shall pass!" emoticon

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CHERIRIDDELL 8/14/2013 12:50AM

    Good luck Selina !

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OOLALA53 8/14/2013 12:43AM

    Actually, focusing on eating well is one of the best things you can do for yourself in stressful times. Try not to eat "diet" meals and do work your favorite foods in with lots of great unprocessed food as well. It's actually easier than living with not doing it.

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GOULDSGRANITE 8/13/2013 6:01PM

    Stay Strong! emoticon emoticon
This is the time your body needs good nutrition the most! emoticon emoticon
You can Do it!

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GOCALGAL 8/13/2013 12:53PM

    Writing this all down is a great step in the right direction! Not only is it stress releasing but it lessens those feelings of powerlessness and being overwhelmed with this challenging, stressful situation.

Consider writing out a list of things you can do instead of snack. Maybe a hot relaxing bath, a hobby, Spark People, call a friend, go for a walk . Anything that would work for you. Post it on the refrigerator where you can see it. Possibly include a small weight goal on it of 2 or 3 pounds down and an inspirational saying. Right now mine is: "Successful people do consistently what other do occasionally."

We are going through some big stressful changes in our business. I have sayings posted everywhere. One is for both DH and myself "Fear is not a stop sign. .Keep moving forward."

Good luck! emoticon emoticon emoticon Keep Sparking!
Maria

Comment edited on: 8/13/2013 12:54:41 PM

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PROPMAN1 8/13/2013 11:55AM

  You are truly in a stressful situation but perhaps this is the time to gear up and take care of yourself. While you're waiting to hear from some school or whomever- walk, walk, walk (it's a freebie and great for stress reduction). You never know what might be out there that you aren't seeing.
Hopefully something good will come your way soon!! emoticon

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Day 7 - End of Week 1

Friday, August 02, 2013

It's Day 7 of the Summer 5% challenge and the end of Week 1

Checkpoints:

1) exercise daily emoticon but could be better on some days

2) eat in moderation emoticon for all days and meals except Thursday lunch

3) eat breakfast - goal met only on Thursday

4) no late night eating emoticon for all 7 days!!! I'm very happy about this one!

5) drink plenty of water emoticon

6) post hour commitments - didn't have time

7) check in with my team and record progress emoticon

Week 2 challenge: fitness minutes and food tracking.

I have to admit, I'm nervous about this week. This will be challenging, I've tried counting kcal before but it didn't work. I cook my own food so I don't know the exact number of calories in every stew, sauce, salad.. I'll try my best to not fail my team and get the hang of this.

  
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GOULDSGRANITE 8/5/2013 12:34PM

    Tracking food can be challenging. I cook most of the food we eat from scratch. When I search for the food in the tracker, most times something very similar is there. You can even search the recipes and add to your tracker that way - if it is a good match. It took me a WHILE to get the hang of it, but it is the cornerstone to keeping healthy (for me). emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CHERIRIDDELL 8/4/2013 12:03AM

    Great plan!

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GOCALGAL 8/3/2013 9:22PM

    Great plan and goals! emoticon emoticon

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MILLIFRED 8/3/2013 3:24AM

    The recipe calculator on the nutrition tracker is very helpful and once you put in a recipe you can save it for each time you make and eat it. I don't think I would have been nearly as successful at losing weight if I hadn;t used this tool! It is too hard to try to guess accurately or to use someone elses version of the recipe.

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DIANEDOESSMILES 8/3/2013 12:18AM

    HI Selina,, you can put down the ingredients into ur tracker,, so that it does the cals, proteins and fats for you. :) I can't remembah how, but its on this weeks challenge,, so if you read down thru the posting for "Tracking" this week,, just click on the link. Its week #2 that it's listed on (Where we post our exer/LTGL)

I am SURAH you will find the tracker EXCITING !! For you can do ur best to hit ur total proteins you need each day,, as mentioned also the cabs and fats. It's VERY EXCITING to me to try to eat equally at times. I am NOT great at it, but it also totals up ur cals.

ENJOY !!

Diane

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Day 4 - The heat

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Today is Day 4 of the summer 5% challenge.

It's still very hot here. Yesterday was the worst, the heat was awful and I didn't feel very well. I managed to do some walking in the town and that's it. emoticon

Checkpoints (for Days 2 and 3)

1) exercise daily - emoticon

Sunday: 120 min - an excellent day
Monday: 20 min - could be better

2) eat in moderation emoticon

3) eat breakfast - didn't, I'm not doing well with this part, it's so easier to just drink coffee. I have to work on this.

4) no late night eating emoticon

5) drink plenty of water emoticon

6) post hour commitments - didn't do it, I have to find time for this one

7) check in with my team and record progress emoticon

I'm happy with these first days of the challenge. I walked a lot, I did some strength training, went on a bike ride, did indoor walking and heavy cleaning.
I avoided late night eating, which is huge for me! And I didn't eat double portions during meals for the past 3 days.

Most of my goals have been met, but I still have to:

1. make myself eat breakfast

2. post my hour commitments daily
(to not eat food until the next meal time) - this helps me avoid mindless snacking

+ try some new exercises

  
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GOCALGAL 8/1/2013 9:01AM

    Great checkpoints and great goals! All that positive reinforcement and planning rocks!l

Keep up the good work and you will reap fabulous results! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CHERIRIDDELL 7/30/2013 4:30PM

    Looks like you are making progress how awesome. I will say I only eat a 50 calorie Greek yogurt for breakfast and it has made all the difference I am now losing weight at a great rate !

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MARYANNSQUEST 7/30/2013 2:48PM

    Selina,

emoticon I Love your Checkpoints. It is a fantastic way to keep accountable for meeting your goals. emoticon emoticon

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Mary Ann

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