Friday, December 19, 2014
I did P90X Plyo yesterday.
And I didn't really break a sweat until about a third of the way through it. THAT is how it compares to Insanity!
On the plus side, it was the best Plyo workout I'd ever had. Cardiovascularly, I was a BEAST... so I felt like I could really push myself and do very little, if any, modifications.
I was able to do the jump-knee-tucks properly for the first time EVER. I was only able to do three or four of them before losing the good form... but three or four is way better than I'd ever done before, which was basically not doing them full out but doing my absolute best (and my best effort is always enough!).
I'm pleased with how it went. Really, really pleased. Go me!
Everything went according to plan yesterday, and so I'm feeling great. Going to continue that momentum into today! I'll admit that I'm feeling tempted to compare myself to others' progress, but I'm choosing to try to focus on my own journey and leave others to theirs. My journey isn't like anyone else's, and it's high time I stop trying to compare and compete. That's headjunk I don't need. :)
The gameplan for today is to stick with my planned out meals, get out during lunch for a walk (gotta mail boss's holiday cards... brrrr, and yuck), work out when I get home (Day 3 - Shoulders & Arms!), and have a nice, sit-down, home-cooked meal. I'm also going to prepare my Yule log!
Weekend should be fun - Day 4 tomorrow (Yoga), then a trip down to the beach to celebrate my BFF's sobriety anniversary. I can't believe it's been a whole year since all that drama went down. What a scary time that was... but he is in a MUCH better place now, mentally, physically, and emotionally. I think he still has a ways to go, but he has come such a long way from the chronically unhappy and unable-to-cope person that he used to be. I'm glad I can be a part of his support network.
Sunday is Day 5, Legs & Back (I always DREAD this workout) - and I am going to try to also get some stuff done around the house. Solstice is at roughly 6pm on Sunday... and so the Yule log shall be burnt, and wassail guzzled. :)
Speaking of holidays... I'm kind of completely unprepared for them... but I'm honestly way over it and am not going to stress about it. I don't think it should be a stressful time at all - a lot of folks let it consume them and pressure them, and I've arrived at a place in life where I've realized, through experience, that I just can't let that happen, for my own sanity's sake. A lot of people think that my approach to the holidays is born out of laziness and grumpiness, but it's actually not. It's self-preservation. I've spent way too many holidays feeling emotionally depleted and horrible about myself because I'm holding myself to obligations that don't do anything for me but cause me stress. People will judge, and haters will hate - but I know what's best for me.
Wednesday, December 17, 2014
I know I said I wasn't going to work out until I see the doc next Monday... but it felt WEIRD to not work out. I guess that's a good thing..? It's officially a HABIT. Yay!
Did good old P90X this morning, Day 1 - Chest & Back. Challenging... but so much easier on me than Insanity. So, SO much. I'm still exhausted and want to fall asleep at my desk RIGHT NOW (even despite 20 oz of coffee), but rather than feeling defeated and in pain, I felt good about my numbers.
This is not to say that I'm giving up on Insanity. Far from it. I want to give it another try at some point... maybe next fall/winter to keep my cardio up. This spring/summer, I want to see if I can try running again, and the plan is to start that in March (and cross-train with Beachbody workouts).
This all really depends on things like what the doctor says, but that's the current, loose plan - and I'm going to keep it loose and flexible so that I can accommodate any unforseen things. Because things happen. Time and experience have taught me to not only get bent out of shape about that, but to actually EXPECT it.
Thursday, December 11, 2014
Doctor's office was a bit of a bust... I got there and they told me that I needed to see someone else. (I went to the clinic because I have no regular doc, my old doc having "sold out" by forming an elite practice that would cost me an annual fee of $1300 extra to continue my relationship with him - on top of co-pays. No thanks.) However, I got an appointment with another doctor on 12/22. My MIL recommended him, actually - and he's a D.O. versus being an M.D., which is important to me.
It's funny. Now that I've sort of acknowledged that I feel crappy, I feel empowered. I think I've been really good at telling myself I'm fine and it's all in my head and believing my own BS. Now that I've finally admitted it to myself, I can say with confidence that yes, I feel awful! And I want help! And that's okay! And not feel guilty/weak for doing so. It makes me wonder what component of my psyche made me feel bad enough about saying "I don't feel well" to suck it up for so long.
At this rate, I'm sure I've probably bought my shrink's house in what I've paid for her help as I dig around in my own dirt.
Anyway, I'm pleased that I could get an appointment, and I'm looking forward to getting some answers.
Plus - while I was at the clinic, I got my flu jab, so it wasn't all for naught.
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