Tuesday, March 04, 2014
Well I messed up with dinner. That McDonalds just got me, but I was honest about it in my food tracker so I could visually see how big of a mistake that was. But I'm gonna try to keep it small for the rest of the day if I get hungry. So far since I binged I've eaten one of those Cutie oranges and a string cheese.
I took a nice relaxing bath earlier so it made me feel kind of refreshed so I'm doing laundry. My little boy hasn't been feeling well, he has a congested cough but still pretty much himself, so I've been catering to his little heart's desires and spending more time with him, which I should do anyway.
Yesterday I scrubbed the kitchen floor on my hands and knees to get out the skuff marks from my son's old tricycle. The front tire split on it so we got him his big boy bike with training wheels that will ONLY be used outside. The skuff marks have been a struggle for us to get out but I finally found the solution. A rough sponge and toothpaste. I had to scrub the toothpaste on the areas and then went over it with the wet sponge and eventually the mop to get the toothpaste off the floor. It took long but it worked, and I burnt about 250 calories doing it too.
Well I'm gonna get off here to have a pillow fight with my little guy. I weighed in on Sunday and went down .2 pounds. Not a lot but still something, and glad it didn't go up any more. Talk to you later.
Thursday, February 27, 2014
Doing better since my last blog... obviously.. don't really know how it could've gotten worse haha. Well after a good breakdown I was already feeling better. The past couple days I let my eating slip but am trying to get it back in sync. Today I opted for a Chamomile tea with sugar free vanilla at Starbucks (0 calories) instead of my usual Double Chocolate Chip Frappuccino (300 calories). I also chose a 6 inch chicken breast sub at Subway instead of waiting and then bingeing on fast food later.
Every time I try to lose weight and get my eating under control I have trouble at the beginning, even after a small hiccup for a couple of days. Like today, after I bought my sandwich I was driving to my next client. I passed a Little Caesars and was TEMPTED to go through the drive thru for some Crazy Bread. In my mind I was trying to make the argument that 'Just one last time, as a goodbye to unhealthy eating' But that order of Crazy Bread would've then given me an excuse to indulge later too. I would think, 'Well, I already had crazy bread so today's kinda shot, so why not?'. I realized this and actually told myself, "no no no" out loud. So I ate my sandwich on my way to the client, which allowed me to take my time and enjoy it because I'd just take a bite or two at a stoplight.
I've decided to wait a little while before playing the Biggest Loser game for the Kinect until I'm feeling a little better. I did try out the Tennis game and LOVE it. So I'm gonna stick with that one and I may try out the UFC trainer one. Both the tennis and UFC games use an avatar to represent you, while the Biggest Loser actually shows an image of you. (Not your face, but like a blue shadow of yourself and you can see how big you are, it's very accurate)
I'm going to try to work on my water today and stay active instead of vegging out on the couch. Then when my son goes to bed I might do the tennis game again. Well that's my update. Thank for reading.
Monday, February 24, 2014
So I hooked up the Kinect and put in the Biggest Loser game.... well first off it gives you a starting weight of 160 and you have to raise the weight a 10th of a pound at a time..... so raising it up 70 pounds sucked. Then I did the fitness test... I has an outline of you on the screen... and it is insanely accurate. I lifted my shirt a little and the kinect could show the outline of my belly button. So there's a LARGE blob of a mass jiggling along with Bob Harper. And I could barely do it. After the pathetic attempt I stopped after 20 minutes.. and I just burnt 50 calories. No, that's not true, I did true the first workout but just.... just stopped. I couldn't even do it enough for it to register the activity.
suckity suck suck suck
oh well, at least i did what I did I guess. I was getting frustrated setting up the stupid thing and I could've not even bothered after that headache, but I did what i did.
Sunday, February 23, 2014
Well I gained more weight... which does really make efforts seem pointless. I always start off with motivation and doing well.... and then it just dies away. I'm up 4 pounds from two weeks ago but I guess I am still down 7 pounds from my highest.
Gaining weight is just so much easier and convenient than trying to lose weight. I mean, you get to eat what you want, when you want, get to sit on the couch, and do what you want. But at the same time, you slowly get more and more unhappy, hating yourself, and killing yourself.
I know I need to change. I really need to go gung ho on it because only having one foot in doesn't seem to be working. I can't have my frappuccino's anymore. That's an extra 300+ calories for my day. I need to make the smarter choices. I'm not finding the motivation to go out and exercise because subconsciously I think I look pathetic and fat. I get out of breath easily and would hate people to see me like that. The only thing I can think of is exercising at home, but when the kids are in bed, because 1, I don't want them to see me jiggle, and 2, I can't really get much of anything done with a 3 and 7 year old running around.
I just get so depressed by myself. I hate everything but am not really doing anything to change it. I'm going to try to make some sort of motivational poster or something, giving myself goals and rewards. I am REALLY determined to do the Zombiefest 5k in May. Registering for that will be my first reward for losing my next 10 pounds. When I lose 10 pounds after that I'm going to treat myself to getting a FitBit, or other type of tracker like that. I'll think of more rewards and stuff, but I just need something to get me going.
We'll see how it goes. Tomorrow 3 games are getting delivered for the Kinect for me. UFC trainer, Biggest loser, and Tennis. I really think those will be good. We'll see.
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
I found one... Finally... a Zombie run. May 10 I will run this 5k. The only times I can train are going to be Saturdays, Sundays, an occasional Thursday, and maybe one more day a week whenever my Mother-in-law can watch my little boy. I have also made the decision that I wouldn't really benefit from a gym membership. When I think about working out (at least right now) running outside appeals to me more than in a gym. If I really want to, I can use the gym for $10 a day to try it out without having to sign up for the membership. The only days I could foresee myself doing this would be if the weather is unbearable.
So now I'm really motivated to get it done. Not only that but the registration fee for the Zombie run is $75. I know, it's a little expensive but I REALLY want to do this. But my dad is giving me $100 for every 10 pounds I lose. I already lost 10 a few weeks ago. Now I'm determined to lose the other 10 quick so that I can use that money towards the 5k. It'll be the first 5k of the year for me. I did only one last year in September and then my weight went back the other way and I stopped trying. I'm giving myself about 3 months to prepare for this and hope my Spark doesn't die out during that time, but only time will tell.
No more pizza, no more fast food (unless it's a emergency, in which case only one sandwich is the limit). I'm going to be more strict on my working out, which before today has been nonexistent. I'm going to try to workout with videos whenever my son goes to bed, and soon the games I bought for the Kinect will be here and I'll be doing those when they get here. I can run after my morning client on Saturdays and any time on Sunday. If I have energy, I will try to run a little bit on Thursdays between getting home from work and my husband leaving. And I'm going to try to get a run in when my mother in law can watch Andrew, which is usually one day a week. That is the plan. I also need to go to the store tomorrow to get more meals to make so that I'm not tempted by the convenience of delivery pizza.
I'll be keeping up on my blogs more too. See ya later!
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