Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Lately I've been in a funk and the only way I can figure to describe it is autopilot. I work 6 days a week and do the SAME EXACT THING every day.
Monday-Saturday 8-11 shift
He goes to take the dog for a walk
I cut up the rind from his cantalope and push it and the peel from his half of a banana down the disposal.
I empty the coffee grounds down the disposal and rinse out the coffee pot
We go to the grocery store 4 out of 6 days
We visit his wife in the nursing home
We either go to Target or the mall to walk around for 15 minutes
I take him for him to pick up a 6 inch Subway sandwich, usually the same thing every day.
Monday and Wednesday 11:30-2 shift
Sit and he talks about his days for about 30-45 minutes
I wash the dishes and clean the kitchen
He may need me to grab a few groceries
I vacuum the living room
I sit there until I can leave at 2
Tuesday and Friday 11:30-2 shift
Help him out of bed, into his wheelchair, and wheel him into the bathroom
Get him undressed and transferred onto the shower chair
Use body wash and shampoo and rinse him off
Transfer him into his chair and dry him off and dress him
Wheel him into the living room and put the news on
Change his bed sheets
Do a load of laundry
Mop the kitchen
Sit until the clothes are dry and put them away
Transfer him back into bed
Wait until I can leave at 2
Give a lady a shower
Washing hair and body
Drying her and her hair.
Rolling her hair
Sitting there until I can leave at 2
Monday-Friday I get home around 2:30 right when my husband leaves for work and I take over the household. My son (two and a half) wakes up from his nap around 2:30-3 (he goes down around 10:30-11). I 'm busy with him and cleaning throughout the day and then he goes to bed around 8pm. By that time I am exhausted already but need to usually work on my homework for online college which doesn't get done half the time lately because of this depression I'm in. I clean up the living room one last time and sit down to enjoy an episode or two of the Duggars and usually find myself mindlessly eating. I can't figure out any time to exercise because I am too tired at the end of my day and right now I feel like I can't get enough sleep. I usually go to bed after my husband gets home around 11:30-midnight and wake up around 7:30 (which really cuts it close getting ready and out the door on time for work at 8.
I don't know what's going on with me. I just feel very blah. It's not my husband or kids, I at least know that. I just think I am overly bored with my life right now. I know I need to kick myself in the butt nutrition and fitness wise but I constantly give up. Today I ate Nachos, a taco, penne alfredo, and a bag of crazy bread. I'm really hoping I get out of this funk and soon because it's probably been going on for about a month now.
Thank you to anyone that read this. It was mainly to get it out of my system but if anyone out there has any kind of advice or magic pill let me know. Thanks.