Monday, November 11, 2013
The past couple weeks are a blur, seems I had something I had to do, be at, take care of right after work, on the weekend, every single minute dictated by everyone else and it went on and on. That meant no time for what I wanted to do and needed to do like buy healthy groceries, cook, relax, SPARK! I ate on the run,whatever was easy and fast, I didn't even want it but it served it's purpose, darn that we have to eat sometimes anyway! But I noticed that since I wasn't keeping healthy eating my priority it was starting to get easy to ignore the fact I didn't get my water in, or take my vitamins, there was no time to track so little by little old habits were trying to reappear. Thankfully it's a new week, things are getting back to normal, I have joined a fun Spark challenge and I feeling inspired and motivated! I realized I had started to forget how losing weight had empowered me and I had recently done things I never dreamed due to losing 30 pounds (though I have a long ways to go still). I want to do many more things and won't let a couple busy weeks derail my plan or stop me from reaching my goal. No more no time for me, I'm going to put me first!
Friday, November 08, 2013
So one of my good friends and I get together for dinner for our birthdays every year. It was my turn to treat so my friend chose to try a new little restaurant in town (that I didn't even know existed). As I was driving there I realized I didn't know what the seating was like there and real fear came about. I mean even though this is a wonderful friend, the fear was of being embarrassed hit and suddenly I was stressed. She is a tiny person, like maybe 110 pounds and I've always felt a little self-conscious when doing things with her because of that. So I went early to scope out the restaurant and from the street could only see the dreaded Booths! My heart sank, I thought, I could tell her because of my knee issues I couldn't sit in a booth and maybe we should go somewhere else (it is somewhat true, it does make it harder to get out of) but duh, she wasn't born in a barn so would see right through that! Ugh, wearily I went in and was pleased to see they weren't fixed booths so I could move the table to accommodate easily. So my point is I AM SO TIRED of this type of fear and worry! It is not how I want to live the rest of my life. I can't wait for the day I can waltz into any restaurant without thinking this way and I know it's coming in time.... I was lucky this time, I have a year before she chooses another restaurant!
Saturday, November 02, 2013
So today is a stormy one here on the WA state coast, but now the sun is peeking out~ I decided it was a good day to go through my closets and prepare some donations. My heart always turns to those less fortunate this time of year and we like to donate clothes, shoes, blankets, coats..we always seem to have an abundance by years end and it feels good to pass them on to someone in need. This year I was pleased to have quite a few pants and tops especially that are now a little big on me. But as I was bagging them up a sad thought came to mind that those less fortunate are often overweight because they can't afford many of the healthier food choices like fresh fruits and vegetables, etc. I am so thankful that my DH and I have decent jobs and while we have to budget for sure, we are very blessed.
As I was going through my closet, I came across a really nice pair of jeans, one size up from what I wear now from when I was at my heaviest ever a year ago. I was surprised that I found myself struggling to let them go. I wanted to keep them...just in case. How silly is that, just in case what??... I gain more weight....I erase the progress I have made....I ruin my health? No, no, NO!! Once I realized my ridiculous way of thinking I promptly stuffed them in the bag. It was liberating, empowering! So I still have lots to work on but am making progress. I am worth it...I am worth it...I AM worth it...
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