Thursday, March 27, 2014
When I first started on SP nearly 5 years ago, today was not even a glimmer in my mind. This site would head me in the right direction and before long I'd be back at my college weight (or lower!) I wouldn't feel winded and my flexibility would return. I'd read about this site on a sports message board and thought I'd check it out.
In the hundreds of days since then, I've earned nearly 40,000 spark points, made some awesome friends, gotten and given encouragement by the drop and the bucket. I've shared heartaches of my SP friends as through they were my own, I've commiserated when things weren't going well, and I've tried to spread joy and positive thoughts. In fact, sometimes the very things I read or commented on here on SP stayed with me through my day. I'd find myself thinking about what I'd read and said, and vow silently that those words would be my guide for self-confidence and thankfulness.
And what do I have to show for all this? A loss of minor proportions. Maybe 3 pounds total on a good scale day. I still haven't made the commitment to myself to move forward. I know that involving others is helpful, but I am scared to do that because once I say it, once I ask for help, I'm committed and honestly, I'm afraid (again with that feeling) that I just cannot do it. Enough of that already.
So, two thoughts:
1. I have a ready-made time goal of seeing our DD and SIL in 3 months, and would so love to surprise them -- especially her -- with more stamina for mountain/trail walking and less weight. Let me move forward starting today.
2. I cannot wait any longer to ask for help. I will stop being so wieny/whiney about facing up to my future. Let me clue in DH tonight.
And some change:
Spark points are nice, but if I mostly earn them reading instead of moving what good does it do? My FitBit is connected/synced with my SP account, so I don't have to check it and enter numbers, etc. From this point on, I don't earn points on the site by reading until I've walked or done other exercise for at least 15 min. (That is what's on my goal board anyway. Why should I get points for reading my goals instead of actually trying to accomplish them? Sheesh!)
So, wish me luck and help me stay the course. And Pixie-licious, good luck on your way to days 18 and 19 and 20 and ....)