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Being wrong never felt so right!

Monday, May 12, 2014

I posted last time that I had gained all this weight back and I was feeling horrible and all that work was for nothing! Well, as the week went on last week I still felt back physically weighed in again on Thursday because I could not get my rings on my fingers and my shoes were tight. I had gained even more weight. Well I talked it over with my hubby because i was looking at a 16 pound gain over a two week span. That was crazy. I knew I had not been doing all I could to get healthy but to do that much gain in such a short time made no sense. So it was off to the doctor for me. I had a battery of tests done on heart and kidneys and all came back good. I am on a Lasic (water pill) now to get the excess water gain off and then we will see if it comes back. If it does then it is off to the specialist. Right now doctor thinks it was the heat and working out in the heat that made me swell up. Weighed in Saturday and I am down 6 pounds already!


Even though I messed it all up, I am still not stopping.

Thursday, May 08, 2014

So I went and gained all the weight I had lost back. I am trying so hard to not go right back to failure mode. Where I give up and say that I should not even try because I cannot ever do this. I will not give in to the ugly voice in my head that says I am destined to stay this big.
Here is the plan for getting back on track (and how I am doing so far):

1. I have to, have to, have to track my food. I get so lost in the day and mindlessly munch. The tracker makes me stop and think. - I am starting this back up today. Mobile app will help.

2. I have to have a consistent daily exercise. Not a full routine to start back up but moving as much as possible until I am at a point to work out. (started this yesterday. Walked to pick up my son from school instead of driving.)

3. Remember the goal. I have to take the time for me to stop and remember why I want to lose weight. (started this Monday. Checking in with Sparkpeople every morning helps)

4. No late night snacking. Unless I have not eaten dinner until then, no eating after 8 pm. If I start snacking, there is no stopping, even if I start with healthy snacks, it devolves into a junk binge. I know this so plan accordingly. (Started this on Monday as well.)

5. Weigh in Weekly. Keeps me accountable. If the weight crawls up, I need to ask myself why?
(Started this with a weigh in yesterday.

OKay I will also need to blog regularly to give myself pep talks, putting it out there in writing really helps.

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Happy Birthday to me!

Monday, March 17, 2014

Today is my birthday, it has started with a bang. Animals sick, hubby sick, cleaning all that associated mess. Cooking my own birthday meal due to hubby being sick. Getting ready to go pick up my own birthday cake. Wow. This year has to have an upswing soon. I am exhausted.

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TTLEELEE 3/18/2014 7:58PM

    Belated emoticon !!
Hope everyone feels better soon.

I think you should extend your birthday and celebrate "for real" over the weekend. Do it with relaxation, rest and getting severely pampered emoticon

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FISHGUT3 3/17/2014 12:21PM

    still... have a great birthday

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PROPMAN1 3/17/2014 11:21AM

  HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! emoticon Sorry everyone is ill in your household (am sure no one is sorrier than they are). We share the same sign (pisces) b-day was the 9th. Will keep my fingers crossed that things will soon be better. Let's hope you don't catch any germs (gonna be a tough one).

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Wow 2014 can bite me already.

Friday, March 07, 2014

This has been a rough start to a new year. Jan 7th I fell off of the back porch and tore my right petellar tendon in my knee. Got well from that and two days after the all clear to regular activity, I got H1N1 flu. I am just now feeling like a human again, even though I am still on meds and an inhaler. It is March people. I have spent the better part of this year on the couch sick! Good news. I am not any heavier than when I first got injured. I consider this a major accomplishment. I was on a walker for 6 weeks and could not go up or down stairs. All I did was sit and do the PT and do the armchair exercises on Spark. I could not do anything for 2 weeks when I first go the flu because I was too weak to do much else but go to the bathroom and sleep. So here I am back in the game and ready to kick this year in the butt!

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TEXASGIDGET 3/7/2014 12:12PM

    It just means it can only get better from here! Sounds like you were off to a rough start, but Congrats on not gaining while you were injured and sick! Best of luck getting back into the game!

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The three most honest paragraphs of my life.

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

I have been challenged to write the three most honest paragraphs of my life for a fitness group I am in on Facebook. Here we go.
I am afraid to lose weight because I was raped. I have been gaining weight slowly ever since that happened. It has been too long ago, I am ashamed to admit how long it has been since it happened. Since I started blogging I came to the realization that I was not even calling it rape. I called it "that night" or "the attack". I was assaulted. I was violated by someone I trusted. It is time, it has been long enough. I need to stop hating me, because of someone else's actions. If I am thin and attractive again, I will not be a target. That is foolish thinking. My size and shape had no bearing on his actions. He was wrong. I was not.

I am terrified of dying like my mom. She was obese and died unable to get out of bed. I will not die like that. I do not have to feel guilty for not wanting to be like her. I will get up everyday even if it hurts. I will love me and take care of me. I deserve to be happy and healthy. I will do it for her because she was not strong enough to beat her demons. I will.

I am afraid my kids are ashamed of me. I am really huge and I fear that they will be teased by my size. I love them and I will do anything to protect them. They are going to start high school soon and it is the time when kids are the most cruel. I will not be fuel for ridicule. I will love myself enough to do this for them.

That was easier than I thought it would be. It just came flowing out. Maybe that means I am truly ready for change.

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_LINDA 2/18/2014 12:16PM

    So very sorry that happened to you :(( You are an incredibly strong woman to be able to overcome that trauma with no help or support.
Never forget you are beautiful, inside and out. You are a mother, have given the gift of life and love!
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