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Day 5.19 Flowerless and advancing weight training

Monday, May 20, 2013

Lol. My tulips have already left. But my chokecherry (I think?) shrubs are full of little white flowers right now, and all the decorative 'cherry' trees are all pink and in full bloom all around town right now, so it's pretty cool...
Japanese Gardens in my hometown :)

Bit the bullet and learned squat technique from my trainer Saturday. Very very precise, my trainer is--took pretty much the full hour practicing and getting everything just right. Looking forward to practicing and getting better at it! :) I think my trainer gets really excited about actually teaching something, as opposed to just going through another workout with me. Good session. :)

Nasty cold right now, and I seem to be retaining some fluid. Meh. Best to ignore the scale for the next while until I get back to non-fluidity lol.

I keep meaning to write something more in depth--but then my DH comes in and cranks up the tv and the cats start running amok so I lose my train of thought. Maybe later....

One thing my trainer brought up that has made me stop and think a bit...he stated that weight training, or weight lifting, can be a bit of a....mindfrack, if you will. I had commented on one particular exercise that I hadn't progressed on at all--he pointed out the various reasons this happens, then spoke about 'what are your goals' in a very roundabout way. As in, What ARE your goals? Are they to simply increase the poundage I'm pressing? What's the purpose of that, if so? If my goals are different--ie, to build a certain shape, do you necessarily NEED to increase your weights on every exercise? No, you don't. You can adapt in different ways--increase reps, sets, increase or decrease speed, drop sets, etc. etc. Even if your goal is to simply get stronger--again, increasing tonnage isn't the only way to achieve that. It gave me pause and made me realize I need to figure out my goals a little more clearly. I do have specific weight goals in some areas (bench press my own bodyweight, do a full unassisted pull-up) but some of my goals are more...aesthetic (get a better butt, see my abs). And those don't necessarily have ANYthing to do with lifting or pushing heavy things.
So....yeah. Perspective shift. I could spend a few hours talking about this kind of stuff to knowledgeable people--gotta go make me some more trainer/gym friends. :)

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Day 5.12 Progression

Sunday, May 12, 2013

Extra work day today--procrastinating a bit before I head out lol. The snowy weather finally broke and we've had HOT days for the last week or so--I LOVE it. The only thing I don't love is getting adjusted to wearing clothes that expose more of me to the world. I know in a couple of weeks I won't think twice about it--but right now it's a little awkward. I wore a TANK top to my training session yesterday--egads! Lol. Though given what others wear at the gym, I was still dressed conservatively--no spaghetti straps or t-back or skin tight around the tummy. That's probably as far as I'll ever get comfy, which is fine. There to workout, not be pretty. Plus they have fans now, so it doesn't get that hot.

My weight finally crept down a bit today. I haven't been logging as diligently lately, but have noticed my appetite has gone up a bit in the evenings. I haven't tried to fight it--figure my muscles need the fuel--but it seems to have stalled the changes to the weight scale. HowEVER, I'm pretty sure the changes to my body are still happening--my stomach seems to have magically gotten less sticky-outy. I think. I'm not very objective in my visuals though. But hey, if it makes me feel better, I'll take it. :)

My DH brought home a little surprise last week--itty bitty kitty witty. And I mean ITTY BITTY. He rescued it from a warehouse, so now I need to find it a home--which I have--but need to keep it here another 2 weeks until it gets healthy. Sigh---I just get too attached to be an effective rescue mama, so DH is under orders not to bring anymore home unless he intends to keep them. I know I"m going to cry when I have to give this little guy away. :( But at least he'll be safe. Sigh.



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MIZCATHI 5/13/2013 9:29AM

    What a little cutey. It may be worth it to enjoy the babies that you can help and feel good about finding them loving and stable homes. That way you get to enjoy the little furballs while the most precious.

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MARYJOANNA 5/12/2013 2:29PM

  How adorable! Keep him!

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Day 5.1 May

Thursday, May 02, 2013

MAY PLANS

WORKOUT--same as before. 4x/wk, strength training, improving my lunges and squats, working on getting closer to a pull-up or chin-up. Hopefully start doing some 5k training runs if it finally STOPS SNOWING lol.

NUTRITION--same as before. Keeping in calorie range, getting better at knowing what I'm eating without having to track every single day--picking a couple more veggies to experiment with and prep in various ways to see if I can add them to my menus. The asparagus was a huge success, so hey, why not something else? Maybe sweet potatoes or beetsHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA just kidding about the beets, or beans? Beans would be good.

Maybe lose 3 or 4 more lbs? So close to the 140's--might make my looooong ago goal of 144 by my birthday yet. :)



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Day 4.28 Strange days

Sunday, April 28, 2013

On a whim I checked my diet tracker as far back as it would go (2008). It was interesting to see the dips and rises--most of the dips corresponded with some kind of event that I was attending--like a wedding or vacation--the rises are...well, the rest of the time lol. I expected the weight gains in the fall leading up to January, and the subsequent January drop (you know, for that new year's resolve I would get), but what surprised me were the slow but steady gains over the course of the summers. I mean--wouldn't you think I'd LOSE weight over the summer? Apparently not. It would seem that, everytime I stopped dieting and exercising, my weight would creep up, slowly and steadily, until the next round of weight loss. Except for 2009-2010, apparently I stayed about the same all year round. Of course, the next round of weight loss always started at a higher weight than the previous round.

Hmmmm.

So, if I give in to my natural state and live with no controls or restrictions or guidelines...I get fatter. And fatter and fatter and fatter.....I wonder, how overweight would I be right now, if I hadn't tried to drop my weight back down periodically? Or would it have levelled out at a certain point, as evidenced by the 09-10 year.

Hmmmm some more.

No end synopsis to all that. Just thinking out loud, I suppose. I'm kind of hoping this new lifestyle of mine sticks--it has been the slowest steady downhill trend yet, plus the longest that I've maintained working out since--well, 2008. :D

The jury is still out on the trainer thing being a good idea. The motivation is HUGE, definitely...but there are other things about it that make me...pause. A female trainer might have been more ideal, let's just say.

And my husband...yeah about as thick as a 2 by 4 sometimes. I get tired of banging my head against a wall and am almost at the point of not trying anymore. Ugh. Can you tell I'm frustrated today? Lol.

I've also been drinking a lot more on the weekends than usual. (See: husband and 2 by 4) Think I'll try and reduce that for the next couple of weeks and see if it improves my mindset.

*OMG if I have to listen to that effing video game and the shooting noises one more time I'm going to shoot someone myself!!! Arrrrgh*

--venting--sorry.

Maybe I'll go for a run.


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MIZCATHI 4/28/2013 2:02PM

    As usual, I can relate to all of this. While I am still down 100+ lbs, these trends are annoying the heck out of me!

It took me years to stop trying to influence my husband. Now that I lovingly ignore him he is trying to change to get my attention! Who knew?

I focus on myself now. What a concept.

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Day 4.26 Stupid spring

Friday, April 26, 2013

Yes, I said that...stupid spring weather. Lol. I got inspired and dragged out all my spring/summer clthes and tried them on to see what goodies I could unearth and wear again...um yeah. Maybe not. I just........I guess I just didn't realize...how far I'd fallen, how much I'd let myself go. I say this because I feel I've made some pretty good progress the last few months...no, I KNOW I've made some pretty good progress...and it's still not enough...which means I was pretty far gone when I started this time around.

I have to try and remember that I kind of lost an entire year to being stressed and busy and sad and whatnot...so what seems to be such a shocker at how far I spiralled down since last summer is probably, in reality, the summer before that. So I shouldn't be too hard on myself. It doesn't make me feel any less fat and bloated and gross, but....I should still try to remember.

Thankfully days like this are far less frequent than they used to be. I'm generally (I think) pretty pleased with how my life is going thus far and the progress I've made. Hopefully I'll get back to that mindset before my weekly training session tomorrow.

Why couldn't I have had this awakening/epiphany thing in October of last year? Lol.

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MIZCATHI 4/26/2013 9:37AM

    Been there, done that... you're doing great, and you seem to get that!

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CIRANDELLA 4/26/2013 9:01AM

    It's all good! Timing is everything, isn't it? And it sounds like the right amount of readiness is now there for your perusal. I remember that the time had to be right for my own weight loss, and it took a lo-o-ong time before I was up for the job. It really is agonizingly difficult during stressful times, I found... All the best!

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MACILINN 4/26/2013 8:08AM

    Oh do I understand! I am afraid of my closet for exactly the same reason. the scale too. teehee. Keep up the good work and your clothes will fit you in record time. At least you did it now, instead of at the end of spring!!! There is still time for wearing those clothes in a cute way by summer!

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LE7_1234 4/26/2013 3:26AM

    You really do seem to be swinging back to positive a lot quicker.... Sorry you had to find a new way to test the spring, though! :-/

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