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Day 6- Perseverance

Thursday, June 27, 2013

So I almost blew my streak. It is really warm here- ridiculous. I was tired today and didn't want to do anything active. I procrastinated and procrastinated, made excuses, and ultimately reached 11 PM saying that one day off was not a big deal. I blew my calorie count today too (although actually nowhere near as badly as I thought) so I felt pretty cruddy. And guilty. And then I thought about how it is ALWAYS tomorrow. And I always let myself slide "a little" which turns into forever. So I didn't tonight. 11 PM and I got my 30 minutes in. I felt pretty silly, but I did it.
I found a video from the only exercise program I ever enjoyed: Inhale with Steve Ross. I loved it then and I still love it. I would wake up at 5:30 AM as a not terribly athletic or early bird teenager my senior year of high school. Boy, it was a disappointment when I signed up for a yoga class in college. I didn't know anything about yoga- turned out I had signed up for a light stretching and relaxation yoga course. I thought I was going to be kicking my body into shape and I ended up snoring on the floor (yes I really did). So embarrassing!

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MMILLER139 6/28/2013 9:51PM

    emoticon Well I did the exact same thing yesterday... minus the 11pm workout. Good to know that I am not the only one who feels like that sometimes. And now I am inspired, because if you can do it, so can I! emoticon emoticon

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JOYFOCUS 6/28/2013 8:29PM

  I am so glad that you did that for yourself! Of course, if you are injured or sick, taking a day off isn't going to mean ruination. Slacking, on the other hand, gets us nowhere. And you did not slack! You pushed on through, and did an awesome job!

Being a night shift person, I don't really think of 11pm as all that late, actually I'm just getting going good around that time, usually! It really is a 24 hour clock, and if that is the time that you can find for yourself, then don't feel guilty.

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SMCL2222 6/27/2013 11:17PM

  So glad to help!!

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GRAYLADY13 6/27/2013 8:44AM

    Your blog kicked me in the butt cuz last night about 11 pm I realized I hadn't exercised and I used the excuse it's late. You proved to me that is hogwash. Thanks. emoticon

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Day 4

Monday, June 24, 2013

I met my exercise goal today, but I went over my calorie allowance. I'm trying to not get too frustrated with food yet. So far, I just want to get active more than anything else. I still wish the rest was easier. Regardless, I'm still moving on. I figure if I'm moving and trying to limit food, I'm on the right track.

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JOYFOCUS 6/26/2013 12:00AM

  You are doing very well! Remember that you're just laying the foundation right now. Get good and solid in one area, then move on to the next phase. You want to be making progress in each area, but you can't knock every ball out of the park at the same time. So maybe you are better at food choices than exercise for a little bit, maybe it is the other way around the next week. Thing is, you're actually THINKING about the food choices more than you were before you started, and you're actually DOING the exercise more than you were before you started. All of that is progress! Just do a little better each week, and the new good ways will become more like second nature to you as time passes. You can do this, and everyone is cheering for you! emoticon

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Day 3- Keeping Up

Sunday, June 23, 2013

Exercised for my 30 minutes today. Will be under my calorie count. Gonna be a great day!


Day 2- Setting Goals

Saturday, June 22, 2013

So I am gearing up for a life change. I am 100% goal oriented, so I am putting my first goal out there: I will do something active everyday for 30 minutes. I need to get moving. I've never been comfortable with my body, so I guess it is time to get to know it. I was always that awkward kid in gym. The one that could never seem to figure out how to use my body the way everybody else could. Exercise needs to be something I can make an integral part of my life. So you are my witness. I'm going to do it. I hold myself accountable to you. Thank you for being available for that. Hearing that someone thinks I can do it is AMAZING- because I don't think anyone has ever believed that before.

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LESLEE33 6/22/2013 10:49PM

    You can do anything that you believe you can achieve. Goals are great steps to making your dreams a reality! I wish you all the best! emoticon

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LOLOMIZZEL 6/22/2013 10:22PM

  Being goal oriented is GREAT!!! You are an achiever! Don't be discouraged when you don't see the results in the time frame that you expect or desire them to happen. CHANGE WILL COME because YOU ARE DOING IT!!!! Remember that many of us are doing it along w/ you, daily, uphill, barefoot in the snow..... Each pound or 1/2# that we lose is closer to the ultimate goal, but that is also one that much we don't have to carry around. As we lose, WE WIN!!! You can do it? You WILL do it! Make today count! emoticon

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AUTUMNHOPE 6/22/2013 10:14PM

    OF COURSE emoticon !

If you say you will & follow through you will ! I've lost 12 lbs. not monumental yet, but even with this pants zip that wouldn't. My belly is less on my lap. I feel more comfortable & exercises I could NOT do 12lbs. ago I CAN now

Just DON'T quit. IF you can only do 15min. do that. Make it 16 the next day.Don't judge yourself on others progress. Compete against yourself. Be a better you everyday. Get your mind right by reading the articles this site posts. A step each day WILL lead you to success
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Day 1

Saturday, June 22, 2013

I'm tired of not being the person I want to be. I never thought I would be at this low of a point in my light. The only thing that I can truly say that makes it bearable is my daughter. She is amazing- a beacon of hope. I need to get back to the right path. But it is SO hard.
I've never had a good relationship with food- ever. My home life when I was young was better than so many, but lacked some fundamental things- namely affection and time from my mother. I have only ever said that to my husband and he mostly just acts like I'm being dramatic when I say I was hurt by it. Since she was never there (and seemed like she just wanted me to go away when she was), she always thrust food on me when I said I was bored or lonely or anything basically. When I turned into a teenager, it was the opposite almost overnight. Suddenly she was telling me I was fat (by this point I was overweight, but only slightly). She only ever bought processed crap and when I asked for anything fresh or healthy like school told me I should eat, she told me to buy it myself. Eventually I just gave up. On my body and myself. Somehow, my relationship with my mother repaired but my relationship with food never did.
Please don't misunderstand- my weight is my fault. I just gave up. Who does that? I feel like a failure. I let my youth disappear into food. I'm afraid and I feel so stupid. Mostly because I am. I just want a new start. Does that even exist?

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POSEY440 6/22/2013 5:08PM

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DWROBERGE 6/22/2013 2:51AM

    Keep focused for success.

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JOYFOCUS 6/22/2013 2:08AM

  Spark has some really great educational resources about emotional eating and coming to understand more about how and why we have come to where we are. Even more importantly, though, Spark has lots of resources for getting ourselves out of this poor condition and finding our way to better lives.

You have all my good hope in the world for your success! You are young and sound determined, and you have your little one to strengthen your resolve. Good luck, you can do this!

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SMCL2222 6/22/2013 1:39AM

  Thank you so much for the positive words. They mean so much.

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PINKEUROGIRL 6/22/2013 1:21AM

    You can do it!!

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JIBBIE49 6/22/2013 1:18AM

    Yes, you can start TODAY and do this for yourself.

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