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And the beat goes on

Monday, February 25, 2013

Spark and I are still going strong. It's been a solid couple months of tracking and 30 lbs down since October. In the grand scheme of things (the yo-yos since my high weight of 250 4 years ago) I am now down 50 lbs. Actually, 51. I am in one-derland. I am half way to my goal. I am down 50 pounds! It's almost too much to take it. I am having a hard time processing all that information. If these milestones came separately, I think I would be equally excited and proud of all them. Hitting a few big ones at once is overwhelming. Of course, I have my demotivational side that says, "Don't get too excited, you have a long way to go." I'm trying to shut her up right now. Not only have I stuck to my lifestyle change for well over 2 months, I've hit some major milestones. And I have overcome my biggest obstacle. Myself. The "all or nothing" attitude I had in the past is long gone. I have gone out for a burger and beer. I have had pizza. I just do it all OCCASIONALLY now. Most importantly, I still track it. That was always so hard for me. I couldn't bear to see what I was doing to myself, so I stuck my head in the sand and didn't track it. I figured I messed up, so what was the point and the streak was over. Now I understand that if I track everything and eat really great, I can still have a little splurge without completely de-railing. Even my splurges are usually healthier choices (veggie pizza instead of pepperoni) and portion controlled (2 slices instead of 4 or 5).
So I really feel like I have finally nailed the food intake. However, I have fallen off my exercise routine. I have a reason and refuse to get depressed or beat myself up for it. Four times a year, for about 3 weeks at a time, I work 12 hours a day, 7 days a week. I am currently 15 days in. I have officially cut myself some slack. In a few days, I will be done and back on the exercise track. If I beat myself up for it, I will get discouraged and say, "What's the point?" and talk myself out of going back because I already messed up. I can't fix yesterday and I can't be perfect all the time. I can focus on today. I can plan my meals (including an occasional less than optimal choice - I hate the words "cheat", "indulgence", etc. It makes me feel like I am doing something wrong and I don't think I am) and I can plan my exercise. Then I work the plan. I am averaging a little over 1.5 lbs a week for the last 2 months. I'll take it.

  
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KIMBERLY19732 2/25/2013 11:10AM

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Is This Thing On?

Monday, January 14, 2013

Ok, first blog. Well, first weight loss blog. I have been coming to Spark every single day for the past month or so. Spark and I have had a rocky relationship over the past 8 years. I tend to get pretty clingy for a couple weeks and then donít call or write for a few months (or years.) Even when I do visit often, I rarely come to my Spark page. I was just reading what I wrote as my intro. I have my pre-pregnancy weight as 210. I thought my pre-baby weight was 205. Ok, so to clarify, I didnít give birth, my wife did. But it was hard to resist when she wanted ice cream. If what I wrote is correct, I hit one of my goals a couple weeks early. I wanted to be pre-pregnancy weight, which I thought was 205, by our daughterís first birthday (Feb.1). I hit 210 today. Itís hard to say what major milestone I am at since I did a major yo-yo. I went from 250 to 210 (or 205, depending on which I believe) to 230 and now back to 210. I am down 40 over-all since 2009. But down 20 from when I really started trying again this past October. Ok, I may have taken November off. I know that consistency has been an issue with me, but this time feels different. Every time has felt different, but this is even more different. For starters, I am doing this with my beautiful wife. Sure we have tried before and fallen off together. One of us wanted to cave and the other one mentioned it and we ended up with a feast for 4 between the 2 of us. Then we would figure that we have given up and start the no-work-outs,-fast-food-all-the-time cycle again. Spark moves down on the history bar on my computer and Dominos moves up. A few weeks would go by, we would feel like crap, our jeans would start getting tight and we would begin the cycle again. But this time, we arenít being so nice to each other about it. We arenít letting each other cave. We are not only supporting each other, but motivating, too. When she doesnít feel like working out, I push her. Iíve never done that before. I have always figured that since I was happy with her no matter what she weighed, this was her journey and I was just a spectator. Thatís not true though. This is OUR life. We need to worry about OUR future for OUR daughter. I need to be healthy for her and she needs to be healthy for me. As much as this has to be a personal journey, it also has to be a joint venture. Taking an active roll in each otherís weight loss has made a huge difference so far.
The other major difference: My mother. My mom and I get along great. We always have. Every time I jumped on the band wagon, I tried to drag my parents kicking and screaming, never with much luck. A friend talked my mom into weight watchers last month. So she is in with us. My wife goes to WW with her and they are doing great. Iím saving my money. For right now, I am doing great with their help and, of course, Spark. If I stall, or feel like I need more support, I can start going with them.
So there it is. Those two people have apparently lit the fire for this to be a slow, steady lifestyle change. Diets are short-term and usually not sustainable. I lost a ton on South Beach. But I couldnít live like that for more than a couple of weeks. I am eating smaller portions, more veggies, leaner meat, whole grains, less processed foods, almost no fast food and working out. So far, so good.

This feels like a lot for my first blog. Maybe I should cut it here and save some for later. Like I do with giant portions of food.

  
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STAR_TAFIGHT 1/15/2013 1:30PM

    Thank you! Sue - I am hoping this blog will be inspiration for myself and others in the future. CL - It's always easier with moral support. Losing or gaining!

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CLMANCHESTER 1/14/2013 2:18PM

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My husband tends to gain weight, or lose weight, with me. Funny how that works!

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SUE5007 1/14/2013 1:14PM

    I am right there with ya. Maybe keeping a blog will help you the next time you're feeling stuck. Go back and read what you were doing on your good days. It might help motivate you.
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