Tuesday, August 12, 2014
Last night, my mother told me about the suicide of Robin Williams. Then, of course, it was all over social media. This news immediately sadden me and unfortunately, reminded me of my sister who committed suicide a number of years ago. There is not a day that goes by where I do not miss her like crazy. Additionally, the questions come back up: Why did she do what she did? What would she have become if she was still alive? These questions are torture for family members who lost a loved one to suicide. Now, don't get me wrong I do not take lightly bouts of depression nor do I have no sympathy for those who suffer from mental illness. But, I am sorry, suicide has to be the most selfish act that one can commit. The person who committed suicide was only thinking of themselves at the time of the act and they are not thinking about how their actions will impact an entire family.
This morning, I sent a prayer up for Robin Williams' family because I know what lies ahead for them: anger, disbelief, confusion and other emotions that will impact their lives forever. A friend of mine on Facebook indicated that suicide is not a selfish act, but if it's not, then I really don't know what is. And until, you and your entire family are impacted by this unfortunately action, then no one really will understand.
I, too, suffered bouts of depression, especially when I moved to a different city that was 5 hours away from my family. But, thank goodness for the love and peace of God. Also, I have meet some great people. Additionally, I continued to learn to always say "I LOVE YOU" to my family, because you never know. Then, when I go home to visit with family, I take full advantage to let them know that I LOVE THEM with all that is within me. Truly loving them unconditionally, despite strengths and weaknesses that we all have. I LOVE MY CRAZY, SILLY FAMILY with my whole heart.
Always tell your loved ones you loved them and live life to the fullest. If you're having issues or problems, do not be so prideful that you do not ask for help. Talk with a family member, a friend, a counselor, your pastor/clergy, etc. No matter the issue, please talk with someone and seek the help you need. Please do not leave your family with the unanswered questions. It's not fair to them. Love on them and let them love on you! You're worth to be loved. You're worth the time & effort to get the help/assistance you need.
Monday, August 04, 2014
With yesterday's long run, I meet my 2014 500-mileage goal. I'm so proud of myself. Running has made me feel more confident because I'm accomplishing more than I ever thought I would accomplish. For example, no one in their right mind would have told me that I would have ran 8 Half Marathons in less than a year timeframe and enjoy doing it. I had a personal best of a sub 2:20 with a goal of a sub 2:15 or 2:17 for the Half, a goal of a sub 0.59 for the 10K & a goal of a sub 0.30 for the 5K.
Next month, I'm actually going to coach 3rd, 4th, & 5th graders to train for their fall 5K. I'm so excited about this opportunity. I hope to inspire them. Additionally, I'm helping ladies in my running group train for their first Half Marathon in November.
Spark Friends, find something you love to do & go for it. You'll never know what you'll accomplish while doing it as well as you never know who you're inspiring.
Friday, August 01, 2014
How many times have you heard the following statement: Leave the Past in the Past? Well, I've heard this statement numerous times. However, today, I just finished reading some old Sparkpeople blogs from 2006 to present. The one thing I've noticed is the consistency I had during my Sparkpeople journey. Now, I don't mean consistency in a good way. I noticed that I would start a specific challenge that I have set for myself and would consistently not complete the darn thing. Ugh! This type of consistency still haunts me today. For example, since 2006 on Sparkpeople, I have been claiming to be a Woman on a Mission. But, I have yet to complete various missions (I have completed some, but most have not been accomplished).
Now, don't get me wrong. I'm so proud of myself during this time around on my health & fitness journey. I've loss over 50 pounds & my % bodyfat is finally decreasing. I'm doing things that I never thought I would do. For instance, just this year alone, I've completed 6 Half Marathons. No one would have told me in my past that I would have done this, let alone in a year that is not even complete yet (for I have more Half Marathons scheduled for this year). So, yes, Great Job to me. But, I want to continue to accomplish my set goals for the remainder of the year without any regrets.
I also realized that sometimes it is okay to look back and see what has been chasing you or what's behind you. For example, one day this week, I happen to be driving home from work and heard a screech behind me. When I looked in my review mirror, I noticed the car behind me almost got hit by another driving who was trying to come over into that particular driver's lane. Also, what about when you hear an ambulance or a police car siren and you're not too sure which direction the noise is coming from, but then you realize that it's behind you and you need to get out of the way and pull over to let the ambulance or police car go by? It's the same with life.
Sometimes, we need to look back and assess what happened or what's currently happening. It's okay to look back. If I did not look at my old blogs to see where my errors are/were and make the appropriate adjustments, then I would still be making the same mistakes and not learning anything from the past.
Since reading these blogs, I made a conscious effort to start being consistent in a positive way with my health & fitness. I created my own 90-day challenge and called it my Transformational Project. This challenge consists of strength training, training for a potential marathon, & eating clean. Also, to hold me accountable, I recruited some accountability partners where we are holding each other accountable via video text, a Facebook message, etc. to make sure we're working out or eating well. I started this on Sunday and I am proud to say that I have been consistent with strength training, running, & eating clean. Additionally, I've added yoga & toning exercises to the mix as well. Yes, it has only been 6 days, but it's been a consistent 6 days and I'm making it my goal to make it a consistent 90 days.
Once more, it's okay to look back and see how you're truly doing. It's okay to be completely honest with yourself and say, "I need to make some changes." So, take a look back! It's Fine!
Friday, July 04, 2014
Well, today, I ran the Firecracker 6. This is a 6-mile race. I ran this race in memory of my grandmother who was born on the 4th of July. Love & Miss her greatly. But, I know she was smiling down on me today.
Last year, I ran a 4-mile race & struggled a bit. This year, with the 6-miler, I was hoping to get it done in under an hour. I came close.
It's amazing what a year of training and being more consistent can do. Actually, one of the ladies from my running group said how proud of me she was because of consistent endurance. That comment really humbled me. Also, a couple of friends of mine told me how much I've inspired them with my focus on fitness & health. Loving it! It just goes to show, you never know whose paying attention to your behavior.
Be an inspiration, because you never know whose watching.
Thursday, June 12, 2014
Yesterday, I blogged about joining a group of ladies for 100 days to reach set goals. Within that post, I indicated that my main goals during these 100 days were to build muscle, tone up & eat clean. Of course my accountability partner called me out within the group and asked if I did my leg workout. Well, I just finished my leg workout. Additionally, I ate pretty well despite the cookies & pop/soda at work today & pizza yesterday. Also, believe it or not, but posting that blog yesterday put some good pressure on me today because I wanted to be able to post today that I did my leg workout & ate well. So, thank you to my Spark friends who encouraged me with their post. You are my accountability partners as well. Again, I said thank you.
Tomorrow's workout will consist of a trail run after work. This particular trail I heard was very pretty to run in Indianapolis. So, I'm going to go check it out. Also, I will be doing yoga & abs tomorrow. I'll post a blog on this as well because I know once I tell my partner, she's definitely going to hold me to this goal & make sure I got it done. Loving this challenge.
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