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Always Tell Your Loved One You Love Them

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Last night, my mother told me about the suicide of Robin Williams. Then, of course, it was all over social media. This news immediately sadden me and unfortunately, reminded me of my sister who committed suicide a number of years ago. There is not a day that goes by where I do not miss her like crazy. Additionally, the questions come back up: Why did she do what she did? What would she have become if she was still alive? These questions are torture for family members who lost a loved one to suicide. Now, don't get me wrong I do not take lightly bouts of depression nor do I have no sympathy for those who suffer from mental illness. But, I am sorry, suicide has to be the most selfish act that one can commit. The person who committed suicide was only thinking of themselves at the time of the act and they are not thinking about how their actions will impact an entire family.

This morning, I sent a prayer up for Robin Williams' family because I know what lies ahead for them: anger, disbelief, confusion and other emotions that will impact their lives forever. A friend of mine on Facebook indicated that suicide is not a selfish act, but if it's not, then I really don't know what is. And until, you and your entire family are impacted by this unfortunately action, then no one really will understand.

I, too, suffered bouts of depression, especially when I moved to a different city that was 5 hours away from my family. But, thank goodness for the love and peace of God. Also, I have meet some great people. Additionally, I continued to learn to always say "I LOVE YOU" to my family, because you never know. Then, when I go home to visit with family, I take full advantage to let them know that I LOVE THEM with all that is within me. Truly loving them unconditionally, despite strengths and weaknesses that we all have. I LOVE MY CRAZY, SILLY FAMILY with my whole heart.

Always tell your loved ones you loved them and live life to the fullest. If you're having issues or problems, do not be so prideful that you do not ask for help. Talk with a family member, a friend, a counselor, your pastor/clergy, etc. No matter the issue, please talk with someone and seek the help you need. Please do not leave your family with the unanswered questions. It's not fair to them. Love on them and let them love on you! You're worth to be loved. You're worth the time & effort to get the help/assistance you need.

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GLORY- 8/20/2014 11:36PM

    Sometimes people put other things before their family until its too late to let them know how much they love them.

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PATRICIA-CR 8/13/2014 1:08PM

    As a fighter of deep depression, and having family members who committed suicide, I can assure you what a suicide is: an act of desperation. Your mind is so blocked up, not working well, you can barely think beyond the mess you have in your brain. I wouldn't put a tag on suicidal people. I understand them, and feel deeply sorry for them, because that was, unfortunately, the only way out they found from their terrible misery. I'm an atheist, so that's not an answer for our problems (unfortunately?). Family and treatment kept me going and looking for the light, but that may not work in every deeply depressed person. I'm thankful it did for me, and still does. But for the percentage of people who can't find relief?? I pity and feel deep sorrow for them, but could never ever feel they are cowards nor crazy, nor any other contemptuous word about them.

I hope you understand.

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Feeling Accomplished

Monday, August 04, 2014

With yesterday's long run, I meet my 2014 500-mileage goal. I'm so proud of myself. Running has made me feel more confident because I'm accomplishing more than I ever thought I would accomplish. For example, no one in their right mind would have told me that I would have ran 8 Half Marathons in less than a year timeframe and enjoy doing it. I had a personal best of a sub 2:20 with a goal of a sub 2:15 or 2:17 for the Half, a goal of a sub 0.59 for the 10K & a goal of a sub 0.30 for the 5K.



Next month, I'm actually going to coach 3rd, 4th, & 5th graders to train for their fall 5K. I'm so excited about this opportunity. I hope to inspire them. Additionally, I'm helping ladies in my running group train for their first Half Marathon in November.



Spark Friends, find something you love to do & go for it. You'll never know what you'll accomplish while doing it as well as you never know who you're inspiring.

  
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68ANNE 8/7/2014 6:44PM

    I always thought you'd make a great coach

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THIN133 8/5/2014 8:30PM

    Great blog ! Thanks for sharing ! You are an inspiring .

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    That is just so emoticon !!! And thanks for the inspiration!!!

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FITWITHIN 8/4/2014 3:21PM

    Congratulations! Thank you for your blog today, because I needed to see it.

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Sometimes you have to take a look back

Friday, August 01, 2014

How many times have you heard the following statement: Leave the Past in the Past? Well, I've heard this statement numerous times. However, today, I just finished reading some old Sparkpeople blogs from 2006 to present. The one thing I've noticed is the consistency I had during my Sparkpeople journey. Now, I don't mean consistency in a good way. I noticed that I would start a specific challenge that I have set for myself and would consistently not complete the darn thing. Ugh! This type of consistency still haunts me today. For example, since 2006 on Sparkpeople, I have been claiming to be a Woman on a Mission. But, I have yet to complete various missions (I have completed some, but most have not been accomplished).

Now, don't get me wrong. I'm so proud of myself during this time around on my health & fitness journey. I've loss over 50 pounds & my % bodyfat is finally decreasing. I'm doing things that I never thought I would do. For instance, just this year alone, I've completed 6 Half Marathons. No one would have told me in my past that I would have done this, let alone in a year that is not even complete yet (for I have more Half Marathons scheduled for this year). So, yes, Great Job to me. But, I want to continue to accomplish my set goals for the remainder of the year without any regrets.

I also realized that sometimes it is okay to look back and see what has been chasing you or what's behind you. For example, one day this week, I happen to be driving home from work and heard a screech behind me. When I looked in my review mirror, I noticed the car behind me almost got hit by another driving who was trying to come over into that particular driver's lane. Also, what about when you hear an ambulance or a police car siren and you're not too sure which direction the noise is coming from, but then you realize that it's behind you and you need to get out of the way and pull over to let the ambulance or police car go by? It's the same with life.

Sometimes, we need to look back and assess what happened or what's currently happening. It's okay to look back. If I did not look at my old blogs to see where my errors are/were and make the appropriate adjustments, then I would still be making the same mistakes and not learning anything from the past.

Since reading these blogs, I made a conscious effort to start being consistent in a positive way with my health & fitness. I created my own 90-day challenge and called it my Transformational Project. This challenge consists of strength training, training for a potential marathon, & eating clean. Also, to hold me accountable, I recruited some accountability partners where we are holding each other accountable via video text, a Facebook message, etc. to make sure we're working out or eating well. I started this on Sunday and I am proud to say that I have been consistent with strength training, running, & eating clean. Additionally, I've added yoga & toning exercises to the mix as well. Yes, it has only been 6 days, but it's been a consistent 6 days and I'm making it my goal to make it a consistent 90 days.

Once more, it's okay to look back and see how you're truly doing. It's okay to be completely honest with yourself and say, "I need to make some changes." So, take a look back! It's Fine!

  
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THIN133 8/3/2014 10:27AM

    Congratulations on all the great things you've accomplished so far ! Great reflections & goals to work on. You can do it ! Keep moving forward ! You've got this !!

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REALTYLADYLISA 8/1/2014 5:13PM

    Go for it! Only 84 days to go...and you will be so PRACTICED at consistency by that time, it will just be automatic!

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Happy 4th of July

Friday, July 04, 2014

Well, today, I ran the Firecracker 6. This is a 6-mile race. I ran this race in memory of my grandmother who was born on the 4th of July. Love & Miss her greatly. But, I know she was smiling down on me today.





Last year, I ran a 4-mile race & struggled a bit. This year, with the 6-miler, I was hoping to get it done in under an hour. I came close.



It's amazing what a year of training and being more consistent can do. Actually, one of the ladies from my running group said how proud of me she was because of consistent endurance. That comment really humbled me. Also, a couple of friends of mine told me how much I've inspired them with my focus on fitness & health. Loving it! It just goes to show, you never know whose paying attention to your behavior.



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68ANNE 7/6/2014 8:14PM

    Just awesome! You rock

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THIN133 7/4/2014 6:01PM

    You rock !!! Nicely done ! You are an inspiration ! Looks like you had a blast !

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Accountability Part Two

Thursday, June 12, 2014

Yesterday, I blogged about joining a group of ladies for 100 days to reach set goals. Within that post, I indicated that my main goals during these 100 days were to build muscle, tone up & eat clean. Of course my accountability partner called me out within the group and asked if I did my leg workout. Well, I just finished my leg workout. Additionally, I ate pretty well despite the cookies & pop/soda at work today & pizza yesterday. Also, believe it or not, but posting that blog yesterday put some good pressure on me today because I wanted to be able to post today that I did my leg workout & ate well. So, thank you to my Spark friends who encouraged me with their post. You are my accountability partners as well. Again, I said thank you.



Tomorrow's workout will consist of a trail run after work. This particular trail I heard was very pretty to run in Indianapolis. So, I'm going to go check it out. Also, I will be doing yoga & abs tomorrow. I'll post a blog on this as well because I know once I tell my partner, she's definitely going to hold me to this goal & make sure I got it done. Loving this challenge.

  
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68ANNE 6/17/2014 7:57PM

    I hope you got to enjoy the wonderful trail

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THIN133 6/12/2014 9:10PM

    You are doing great ! Keep up the awesome dedication!

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